The beast towered
over me, perched on its clawed toes, its twisted and ugly flesh
covered in layers of sharp, smooth black carapace. It looked oily.
Monstrous. It had horns on its head and beady, glowing eyes that bore
into mine and seemed so familiar. As familiar as a mirror.
The truth hurts but
so do most other things.
I dreamed about you
but you were nothing like
When I woke up, I tried to call you
to tell you
the world wasn’t as bad as we thought
but if I ever knew your number,
it escaped me in that moment.
I hope you forgive me my
I get it from my country.
(Or else the ones who did this
to my country.
I can’t remember which.)
I heard from someone that
the sky makes room for some things
but not for others,
and I can’t help but think
that my limbs don’t bend the right way.
And anyway, I hope you’re happy after all.
And I hope the sad poems don’t make any sense to you, kid,
I hope you never have to understand.
And I’m sending my love.
You’ll recognize it by the way
it takes up all the elbow room
in your new house.
(Sorry about that.
It’s something I’m working on.)
I hope you sleep well, old friend.
I hope you wake up and
that’s ever been taken from you
is returned to you in full.
“Do you remember what I said to you when you told me you were a lesbian?” “’Thank god you finally said it’?” “After that.” “…’You better find a girl who deserves you’.” “Yes! That! And this might be so shocking to you, but a murderous vampire isn’t what I had in mind!!”
Carmilla + Favorite Familial Relationship: Laura Hollis+Dad (requested by @bi-dominusrex)
Lup and Barry talk to each other about nearly everything. What would be the point in secrets after being together for so long, in such close proximity to their family? There isn’t much that’s ever secret on the ship (with one glaring exception that they won’t know about for a while yet), what with how long the whole crew has been together and how well they know each other by now.
So Barry told Lup about his conversation with Taako. He’d never heard Taako talk like that and he wasn’t sure what else to do. But Lup should know about it, right? She should at least know.
Lup isn’t… surprised that her brother would cope with all of this by pulling away from people. She knows him too well, she knows it’s hard for him to open up to begin with. She’s worried, though, because there’s a difference between keeping people away and seeing them as already dead. He’s not a cold person, but there are times when he’s colder than he used to be.
She can’t lose Taako. She can’t lose any of them, but especially not her brother. She can’t stand by and watch Taako become someone unfamiliar and distant.
The last time they talk, after the advice, he tries to make her laugh. For a moment there are no relics destroying the world, no Hunger chasing them - it’s just Lup having a bad day and Taako trying to make it better. This is her brother; when people meet Taako, this is who she wants them to know.
And she has a plan to make things better for all of them before things get any worse. She’ll explain why she had to go on her own when she gets back; she’ll be back soon.