the quote is totally in my mind as a result of that post

I get a lot of questions about my travel journals, so I thought I’d make a post about my tips, tricks, and essentials for on-the-go journaling! Keep Reading if you’re interested~

(Disclaimer: a give in, but I thought it’d be worth saying- this is all up to personal preference! This is all of the stuff that is necessary for me, personally, when I’m journaling on the go, but it’s all customizable to whatever intentions you have in mind and what supplies you have. Please don’t think you need to spend money in order to record some great memories!)

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ellesanimalhaven's Guide to Dirt Paths!

Hello lovelies! :D I just want to say that by making this I, in no way, feel as though I am all-knowing about dirt paths. I have been asked so many questions about my town of Kokoro, that I feel it necessary to make a big post describing all things about dirt paths (that I feel comfortable talking about). Please enjoy and feel free to correct me on any information you read below (everything will be tagged as dirt path so if any new information comes up it will show up there).

On to the guide! c: (And I’m sorry if it’s a little dry sounding, I wanted to be as clear as possible haha)

*To mention: I use the term ‘dirt path town’ to describe towns with dirt paths*

TL;DR: (use ctrl+F to find these titles)

  • What are dirt paths
  • Why should I do them
  • How to plan, start, create
  • How to maintain
  • Common questions

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7 THOUGHTS ABOUT RUPAUL’S DRAG RACE - SEASON 9 FINALE

So, I take back everything I said. Season 9 of the acclaimed RuPaul’s Drag Race may have started with a whimper, but it certainly ended with a bang. To make things clear, I did not hate this season. I just felt it was rather lackluster compared to dynamic seasons like Season 2 (Bitch, I’m from Chicago!) and Season 4 (Go back to Party City where you belong!). However, after we got rid of a series of “filler queens” things picked up for me and I became a fan of this season. When Ru named Peppermint, Sasha Velour, Shea Coulee and Trinity Taylor as Top 4, I was thrilled. Honestly, I felt she could have done this Season 8 (Bob, Kim, Naomi and Chi Chi were amazing queens) but now was the time for RuPaul to flip the script. Last night, the Finale aired and while Drag Race Recap Podcast’s Joe Betance warned me it was going to be the ultimate RuPaul’s Drag Race finale, my mind, my body and my soul was not ready. Not ready at all.

Another season has ended and another queen has been crowned as the Next Drag Superstar. Per my own tradition I will share my seven thoughts in regards to this epic finale. For those of you who have not watched the finale there will be a copious amount of spoilers! You have been warned…

  1. My heart goes out to Shea Coulee and her family. Cancer is an ugly, ugly thing and I pray I see the day where we get rid of all cancer for good. To lose a parent and a sibling within days of each each other is devastating. In many ways, this season has been all about loss, i.e. Sasha Velour losing her mother and the death of Trinity Taylor’s grandmother.  However, Shea managed to turn that tragedy into triumph. I was thrilled to see Shea’s mother in the audience. How far have we come. I remember the late Sahara Davenport from Season 2 talking about how her minister mother had come around to accept her as a drag queen and gay man and seven seasons later we have an actual minister in attendance at the finale! Shea, while you did not snatch the crown, I am so thoroughly proud of you. You turned it out time and time again and if you had to lose, I’m glad it was to Sasha Velour whom I was also rooting for. I look forward to seeing what you do next!
  2. LET’S TALK FASHION! Every single queen to grace the finale stage looked sickening! My favorite look of the night was Sasha Velour’s first lip sync look. It was Myrtle Snow from American Horror Story meets Poison Ivy meets Veronica Lake and she looked gorgeous!  I thought Bob the Drag Queen’s African-inspired look was beautiful and something I have never really seen on the show. Oh, and we cannot forget Ru. I know there was a bit of controversy surrounding RuPaul’s wigs and makeup this season but Raven and Delta Work stepped it up and she looked amazing in her finale look.
  3. I’m so glad they separated the reunion from the finale. The reunion was all about petty drama between the queens and I think having that take place in the same show as the finale, would tainted the magic of the finale.
  4. Speaking of the finale, having the four remaining queens lip sync for the crown was sheer genius and it helped to keep the show fresh. When Shea mentioned during her interview with Ru that she would love to lip sync against Sasha, I figured the two of them would be pitted against each other. Now I will be the first to admit, while I had expected Peppermint to beat Trinity Taylor, I had not counted on Sasha Velour besting Shea Coulee. Neither Shea nor Trinity were bad at their respective lip syncs. Let that be said. The passion, the hunger…it was all there. However, what they both brought to the table paled in comparison to what Peppermint (wig and outfit reveal!) and Sasha (rose petals abound!) brought to lip sync. In the end it was Peppermint versus Sasha and while Peppermint gave it all she got, Sasha owned that lip sync, hands down. All in all, the lip sync for the crown was a pleasant addition to the finale and I look forward to whatever other tricks Ru has up her sleeves for future seasons.
  5. Peppermint, Shea and Trinity did not win but I would love to see all three of them returning for All Stars 3. Prior to last week’s reunion, I did want to see Valentina return but I think she has garnered enough fame. I feel like there are more deserving queens who should be cast in the third installment. Other queens I would like to see return: Jessica Wild, Trinity K. Bonet, Joslyn Fox, Darienne Lake, Pearl, Trixie Mattel, Chi Chi Devayne, Kim Chi, Naomi and Thorgy Thor.
  6. While Peppermint did not take home the crown last night, she still went home a winner. Seeing Peppermint on the finale stage was yet another reminder of how far we have come in such a short time. When Monica Beverly Hillz came out as trans during Season 5 I remember there being online debates about if whether or not a trans person could be a drag queen. A lot of transphobia emerged as a result. Even the show and RuPaul herself have been accused of being transphobic in the past. Last night, Peppermint reminded us that trans people have been drag queens since the beginning of time. The march towards equality has been a collaborated effort by not just gay men and women but also trans men and women, bisexual men and women, queer individuals, and drag queens. It is important we remember this as we continue to march forward. With that said, Peppermint, I am so grateful for you and your presence on this show. I wish you nothing but success and happiness as you navigate your post-Drag Race fame.
  7. Sasha Velour is our queen. Hate if you must but you can’t deny the bitch turned it out. I won’t sit here and quote facts and figure or deliver a PowerPoint presentation because at the end of the day it all came down to lip syncs.SASHA VELOUR LIP SYNCED HER ASS OFF AND DESERVED TO SNATCH THE CROWN. Now I totally get it! We all have our faves when it comes to reality show competitions and sometimes our faves do not win. However, that does not mean we should attack the other competitors. With each season, the fandom around RuPaul’s Drag Race increases - which is a truly amazing thing - but as the numbers increase so does the ugliness. For a community that is supposed to promote equality and inclusion, I am amazed at how ugly we can be to each other. As RuPaul says at the end of every episode, if we - The LGBT community - can’t love ourselves how the hell can we love someone else (or expect them to love us)? With that said, Sasha is our winner and I am happy. She will do amazing things with the platform and let’s be honest, a lot of the queens we stan for have not made the most of their drag race victories. So I support you Sasha and look forward to seeing what you do next! CONDRAGULATIONS!

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totally-not-using-a-fake-name  asked:

Amazing Race AU: Jet and Michael are the team that (unless they are in a massive rush) will stop and take selfies with fans and acknowledge fan blogs. They see a fan on the street who's staring longingly? "Hey! Want a photo?" They see a funny post online? They bring it up on camera. Read an amazing fanfiction? Quote it. Michael thinks it's halarious that they have a following and M I L K S I T.

kfhkdsfjdfkjhf okay so @ fake-name, that scenario is unlikely in their original season because by the time they have a fanbase, all shooting and travelling and editing is done. so when the fanbase blows up, michael and jeremy are already chilling in their shared apartment happily watching people lose their collective shit over all the things that went down. by this point, they are already dating and they watch the episodes together while cuddling on the couch  to see how the story looked from the outside, what went on with the other teams when they weren’t paying attention, and to laugh hysterically at literally every scene they’re in.

(”I can’t believe this,” Michael wheezes, wiping a tear from his eye with the hand not holding Jeremy’s. On screen, Michael and Jeremy are hugging, and Jeremy finds it pretty weird to watch himself on television. It’s disorienting, seeing his experiences from another perspective. From a completely different perspective that manages to showcase just how goddamn oblivious they both were.“This is just the first episode and you literally solemnly said ‘you’re the most important thing in my life’. To me! To my face! Because I figured out a riddle!”

“I said it because it was true, shut up,” Jeremy groans good naturedly as Michael’s chest just keeps shaking from laughter under his head. He props himself up on his elbows to look at Michael. “It’s not like you have any room to talk, Mr. You Bring Light Into My Life, Jeremy Heere, Thank You,” Jeremy says it over-the-top sweet, nuzzling back into Michael’s chest. Michael flicks him on the nose. “Hey!”

“I said that when we were in Barcelona, okay. So first off, I was prompted by the ambiance. It’s Barcelona. Second, that was way farther into the competition. This is the first episode,” Michael says, threading his hand into Jeremy’s hair. “Sooooo, I win.”

“Win what?” Jeremy laughs. The TV is playing a bit where Chloe and Brooke are running across the streets. Brooke keeps whispering ‘cardio, cardio, cardio’ to herself.

“I have no idea.” Michael hums. Then he says, “Scratch that. We both won, really, yeah?”

Jeremy knows he’s not talking about the cash prize, but he nods, understanding all the same, Michael’s heartbeat a steady sound by his ear. “Yeah. Yeah we did.”)

SO OF COURSE they know about the fans and the fanbase and the shipping. michael thinks it’s the best thing ever while jeremy is a little bit more embarrassed about it (because jesus, they really were fucking oblivious). of course, for studio contract reasons, michael and jeremy cannot divulge any spoilers and are encouraged not to interact with the fans too much for various reasons: 1) fans are smart and might just deduce who wins and who gets eliminated, which is a big no-no for an elimination based show like the amazing race and 2) “Okay, Michael. Jeremy. You can’t tell anybody you’re dating now. This isn’t because we don’t approve of your relationship, but because if fans know you’re an item, they might stop watching the pine fest. Understood?”

it’s pretty understood. plus, they signed the contract. but michael actually reads the thing and learns that they’re not allowed to not interact with fans. they just cant say anything about the season + their relationship. everything else is fair game.

michael binge likes tweets about them. like. almost every one. it’s a joke in the fanbase that if you mention michael or jeremy even tangentially michael will find it and like it. it’s so easy to summon to him, but he says NOTHING. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. when the fans realize the goddamn pine fest of the century, theyre basically banging down michael’s social media sites with pots and pans “GIVE US ANSWERS!!” to which he just replies with :)c each and every time. all his tweets have nothing to do with the show and are mostly about his music or a picture of a dog he saw that day. he tweets nothing new about jeremy because that would make the internet speculate and Explode, but if u go back on his twitter or insta it’s just all them (plus more dogs). what im tryna say is that michael’s a huge troll and while he riles up the fans, they also dont get much stuff to guess on so they continue watching the show. (somewhere out there, a bunch of amazing race execs just breathe a sigh of relief “oh, thank god”)

ANYWAY I VEERED WAY OFF COURSE, but if that scenario were to happen, it would be because the second scenario of anon happened. they totally agree to it but i think that by that point, they’re not doing it for the money and aren’t very competitive. the showrunners don’t mind because just their presence is enough to up the hype for the season even if michael and jeremy just turn it into a glorified honeymoon with challenges and being really really nice to fans. michael is SO UP FOR IT but jeremy is still shy. everybody is charmed either way and they all weep when Team Hus Bands is eliminated once again, (but also maybe a little bit relieved because god their screentime was just. unadulterated love. it’s overwhelming to watch. love is real. love is so real. too real. hey boys can you maybe tone it down just a little bit because this is national television and—-and theyre kissing, okay. okay fine.)

(really, it’s the showrunners’ fault for wanting them back a second time. they should know by now that michael and jeremy together always results in something.)

Epic Movie (Re)Watch #155 - Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan

Spoilers Below

Have I seen it before: Yes

Did I like it then: Yes.

Do I remember it: Yes.

Did I see it in theaters: Yes.

Was it a movie I saw since August 22nd, 2009: Yes. #429.

Format: Blu-ray

1) Before anything else, I will say this: you never need to see Star Trek: The Motion Picture unless you are a MAJOR fan of the series. Wrath of Khan is a much better first film for the series and just a much better film in general, and the original motion picture has no bearing on the plot of ANY of the sequels that I’m aware of. Spare yourself the boredom.

2) I don’t often talk about how great the opening credits of a film are, but the movement through the stars and James Horner’s grand score creates a rousing score which helps you get in the mood for the space adventure to come.

3) The Kobayashi-Maru.

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The opening of the film is great largely because it plays with expectations vs reality. You EXPECT Kirk in the captain’s chair, and while it plays out like a standard scene from “Star Trek” but it ends with everyone dead. And even though it turns out to be a simulation, the image of watching almost all the series regulars die before you prepares you for the darkness to come. It is an incredibly great and memorable opening to a film which can be described as the same.

4) Kirstie Alley as Saavik.

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Despite being Vulcan (and, depending on what you consider canon, half-Romulan) Saavik has more in common with Kirk than she does with Spock. She may have the appearance of being a logical and decisive creature, but she is stubborn and proud. And I love her for that. I think Saavik as at her best in this film when played by Alley (she would be replaced in Star Trek III and IV). Alley gives Saavik a unique flavor, making her more than just your typical Vulcan and holding her own with the original cast.

5) The scene where Bones and Kirk “celebrate” his birthday is great.

This is the introduction of Kirk’s key conflict and possibly the best analysis of it the film features.

Kirk: “Galloping around the cosmos is a game for the young, doctor.”

Bones [later]: “This is not about age and you know it.”

Kirk’s conflict here is not about aging, it is about aging INTO something. About being stuck behind a desk and bureaucracy. Of becoming obsolete. Age on it’s own does not result in that, but the choices we make as we age. It is in this film that Kirk will have to determine his future when faced with a threat from the past.

6) Carol Marcus and her son David.

Both Carol and David as individual characters are interesting, but by balancing out each other (with Carol being well reasoned and patient and David being more like Kirk with his stubbornness/rashness) they create an interesting dynamic that entertains in a way beyond their relationship with Kirk.

7) Ricardo Montalbán as Khan Noonien Singh.

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Montalbán takes a memorable role from the original series and in this film turns it into not only one of the greatest villains cinema has ever featured but also a career defining performance. Khan is able to be both chillingly collected and show off fear-inducing anger. His intellect, physical strength, and progressing madness/drive is showed off brilliantly by Montalbán. There is a ruthlessness to this character established as soon as we meet him (specifically with his use of brain slugs) that let’s us know, “Oh shit, don’t mess with this guy.” He is totally frightening, with many of his decisions and scenes making your stomach turn. Only open my third (fourth?) viewing of this film did I realize just how long his intro scene is, but it doesn’t feel long. It is perfect, and Montalbán captures your attention for the entire time.

8) Hey that’s…that’s Tony from the Witch Mountain movies!

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I would not have noticed that if I didn’t watch the Witch Mountain movies in March for the (Re)Watch.

9) So usually at this point in the (Re)Watch I talk about the writing and performances of the main cast of a film. I find it nearly impossible to do that for Wrath of Khan however as the cast from the original series are such mainstays of cinema and pop culture I’ve no idea what to say. What on earth could I possible say Kirk, Bones, Spock, Uhura, Scotty, Sulu, and Chekov that hasn’t been said before? In my analysis of the 2009 film I probably will, but right now I think I’ll just say they’re great and leave it at that.

10) I love how Kirk is freaking out when Spock lets Saavik pull the Enterprise out of dock.

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11) I love Saavik and Kirk in the elevator. It speaks not only to how rash she is (which I love on it’s own) but will later show how similar they really are. She doesn’t really believe in a no-win scenario and as we’ll learn later neither does Kirk.

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12) I love when Spock hands the ship over to Kirk. There is no bruised ego (as he himself says), there are no hard feelings, it’s not an issue of power or anything. He knows Kirk is the best guy to take the wheel. He trusts Kirk and Kirk trusts Spock back and they can just cut through the bullshit and do what’s best for everyone. I’m a sucker for good friendships like that.

13) Damn, Spock.

Kirk: “I would not presume to debate you.”

Spock: “That would be wise.”

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14) There is one scene early-to-mid picture which is recalled HEAVILY later on and I always think it is best when the ending of the movie ties into something at the beginning of the film. You want it to feel like one picture, you don’t want to be sitting at the end going, “Oh right, that part early on was the same movie.” Spock’s speaking of how…

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And how he has been and always shall be Kirk’s friend tie together at the end in very heartbreaking ways.

15) I was always impressed with the Genesis visual, keeping in mind this was 1982 and CGI was hardly in its prime.

16) The very first encounter with the ship Khan has taken over - Reliant - before they know it is Khan is incredibly tense and Hitchcockian. Because we as the audience KNOW it’s Khan. Pacing is derived not from faster pacing but from slower pacing. The uneasiness simmers in our bones as Kirk unknowingly wanders into a trap, even though everyone seems to suspect something is up. And it features one of the best quotes in the film:

Khan: “Do you know the Klingon proverb that tells us revenge is a dish best served cold? It is very cold in space.”

17) And then Khan and Kirk finally encounter one another.

Montalbán and Shatner never share any scenes as Montalbán was making “Fantasy Island” at the time, but that does not undermine just how equally matched these adversaries are. Their very first encounter in particular feels like a chess game. It is not so much a battle of strengths as it is a battle of wits, yet still very interesting. And we as the audience really have no idea who is going to come out on top. Each is able to surprise and throw the other off balance, only to come back and deal another blow. It makes for great conflict. We know Kirk’s disadvantage: Khan is genetically engineered to be better than him. But in this scene we see a weakness of Khan’s which will become greater later on: his ego. He cannot see his own weaknesses and shortcomings. He is hundreds of years old comparatively speaking, so obviously some ways of thinking are foreign to him. But he can’t get past the fact he’s a genetically engineered super being to work on this. I love bad guys with flaws.

18) Oh no! Tony dies!

Preston [Ike Eisenmann’s character, after Kirk arrives]: “Is the word given, admiral?”

Kirk: “The word is given. Warp speed.”

[Preston dies]

Scotty [obviously torn up]: “He stayed at his post when the trainees ran!”

The fact that this death of a character we spent all of thirty seconds with packs such an intense punch speaks greatly to the craft with which this film was made.

19) The scene with Kirk, Bones, and Saavik on the scientist space station feels very Alien and I love it. For just a few minutes we are in a horror film, in an enclosed space where obviously SOMETHING is wrong and some sort of danger lurks. It is pulled off wonderfully well.

20) Part of the tension comes from the fact that we TRUST Chekov. He’s original series cast and he seems to have shaken the alien slug Khan was using on him. Why WOULDN’T we trust Chekov? Making the fact that he and his captain are still controlled later on all the more powerful.

21) This. Freaking. Scene.

This is when both are pushed to their furthest. Khan believes he has killed Kirk only to immediately learn he hasn’t, and Kirk is beyond pissed with Khan for all the death and destruction he has caused. This is where Khan accepts that he has defeated Kirk if only because it has become so difficult to kill him and it is where Kirk hates Khan the most (uttering the film’s famous line, “Khaaaaaan!”). But even through his hate Kirk is trying to play Khan. He is trying to get Khan in the same room with him so he can fight him face to face. But Khan is too smart for that and works against Kirk, leading to that yell. This is one of the best scenes in the film and it is because the conflict plays out so wonderfully.

22) The fact that David is Kirk’s son not only gives Kirk some personal stakes, but it ties into the idea of the choices Kirk must make in life. He is now dealing with two choices which are coming back to haunt him: how he handled Khan and not being a part of his son’s life. And that will directly influence the choices he makes in the future. Because life is too short.

23) This is so indicative of Kirk’s character.

Saavik: “Admiral, may I ask you a question?”

Kirk: “What’s on your mind, Lieutenant?”

Saavik: “The Kobayashi Maru, sir.”

Kirk: “Are you asking me if we’re playing out that scenario now?”

Saavik: “On the test, sir… will you tell me what you did? I would really like to know.”

Bones: “Lieutenant, you are looking at the only Starfleet cadet who ever beat the no-win scenario.”

Saavik: “How?”

Kirk: “I reprogrammed the simulation so it was possible to rescue the ship.”

Saavik: “What?”

David: “He cheated.”

Kirk: “I changed the conditions of the test; got a commendation for original thinking. I don’t like to lose.”

Saavik: “Then you never faced that situation… faced death.”

Kirk: “I don’t believe in the no-win scenario.”

24) The climactic chase through the nebula ties into Khan’s biggest weakness: his ego preventing him from admitting his flaws.

Spock: “He’s intelligent but not experienced. His pattern suggest two-dimensional thinking.”

I think this is the past scene to showcase space as a three-dimensional space. Ever watch a space film where characters encounter an asteroid field and think, “Why can’t they just go above or below it?” That’s what this film does. Like the initial Kirk/Khan mental face-off, the time in the nebula greats great tension from slowing down pacing while never being boring. There are surprises, there are twists, and they are on truly equal footing. And Khan, well he’s at his breaking point. How mad must this person be if even his crew - who were established to live and die by his word at the beginning of the film - are questioning his judgment? And what exactly will it lead him to?

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That final visual of Khan’s face is also a great presentation of how he is on the inside. He is torn up and burned to a crisp with vengeance, and now he will die that way.

25) Spock’s ultimate fate.

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First of all, he KNOWS what he’s about to do. You can see it on his face before he goes to the reactor room to save the ship: he is fully aware that this will lead to his death and it does nothing to change his decision. And even though Khan has died, he has succeeded in his goal to, “keep on hurting,” Kirk from beyond the grave by killing his best friend.

Kirk [trying to get to Spock]: “He’ll die!”

Scotty: “He’s dead already.”

There is this intense feeling of sorrow and helplessness as we watch one of the greatest - if not the greatest - characters to come out of the original series die, tying into the conversation he and Kirk had earlier.

Spock: “The needs of the many…”

Kirk: “Outweigh the needs of the few.”

Spock: “Or the one.”

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26) David and Kirk unfortunately don’t get too many moment together, just the two of them. But he did help Kirk through this tough time in his life.

David: “Lieutenant Saavik was right. You never have faced death.”

Kirk: “Not like this.”

David: “You knew enough to tell Saavik that how we face death is at least as important as how we face life.”

Kirk: “Just words.”

David: “But good words. That’s where ideas begin. Maybe you should listen to them. I was wrong about you. And I’m sorry.”

Kirk: “Is that what you came here to say?”

David: “Mainly. And also that I’m proud - very proud - to be your son.”

27) But of course, this is a sci-fi movie…

Death is not as permanent as we like to think.


The Wrath of Khan is quite possibly the best film in the entire Star Trek canon. It balances high-stakes action and adventure with the intelligence, philosophy, and thought expected from the series. Ricardo Montalbán is freaking fantastic as Khan, with the rest of the cast delivering standout performances as well. The direction and writing blend together beautifully and it is just an incredibly fun and well done film. If you haven’t seen any Star Trek and you want to, Wrath of Khan is a very good film to start on.

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Unfortunate Fortunes Chapter 3, a lunar chronicles fanfic | FanFiction
Cinder's just moved to a new city to, fortunately, start a new life. Unfortunately, this means a new apartment building, unfamiliar surroundings, and unknown people. Fortunately, she's just so happened to move into the same building as the Most Beautiful Man In The World. Unfortunately, every time she meets him, she's an absolute mess. It seemed fate had a skewed sense of humor.

CHAPTER 3 OF UNFORTUNATE FORTUNES IS UP!

Yet again, thanks to @septembersart for the amazing cover art and @kaisder for editing (and on a tight schedule too). [ @poetstation @motzarts - here’s the update! If you’d like to be tagged on future chapters, feel free to message me!]

I read all the reviews, and I absolutely loved them. They’re pretty much the only thing that motivated me to write while hopping from 5 different computers to do so. KEEP THEM GOING, I’LL RESPOND ASAP!!

As usual, this fic is based on this post about the Most Beautiful Man In The World. There’s a couple easter eggs in his chap, one being a Mulan quote (totally not because I rewatched it for the umpteenth time) and the other a variation on a direct line from the inspiring post. This is my biggest chapter yet, and though it’s a bit of a filler, I hope you enjoy!

Despite a good 12 hours of sleep, more rest than she usually got in three days combined, Cinder had not forgotten the rather regrettable events of yesterday. Then, her mind seemed to fast forward from one awkward situation to the next, and she suddenly remembered the party happening in the evening that day. She groaned, positive her problematic social skills and lack of creativity in small talk would result in nothing but a lifelong ban on further parties on this floor.

She slipped out of bed and shuffled to the kitchen, where a post-it from Iko told her she’d already gone to work and there were still some Cheerios in the pantry. Grabbing it and making herself a bowl of cereal, Cinder decided to skip her run today. It was far too hot by now, and she was determined to finish unpacking.

It seemed, as it did in many other aspects of her life, fate was against her.

She’d finished her cereal, unpacked two boxes, and finished constructing an IKEA desk after having to search for a rather crucial screw for half an hour when her phone rang. She ignored it, letting it go to voicemail, determined to stay focused on her productive streak and not get distracted. It rang two more times, getting to the point where the buzzing made Cinder grit her teeth. Finally, on the fourth ring, she accepted defeat and picked it up.

“Hello?”

“Cinder? It’s Peony!”

“Peony! I’m so sorry, the last couple days have been a bit hectic, I completely forgot to call, it’s my fau-”

“Stop it, Cinder. It’s fine. Don’t worry about it. Besides, the fact that you’ve been busy means you’re getting things done!” Peony always had the ability to stop Cinder whenever she was rambling or stressed and put a positive spin on it. She was one of the few things Cinder missed from home. Her old home.

“Alright, alright. What are you doing right now?”

“Sitting at home, painting my nails, talking to you. You?”

“Unpacking. It’s been a thrilling experience.”

“Sounds like it. How do you like it there, by the way?”

“It’s great. A little weird, but great. I do miss you guys, though.”

“You mean you just miss me.”

Cinder laughed. “You got me.”

A silence fell over their conversation, and Cinder could hear beeps and shuffling on Peony’s end. Frowning, she listened closely, hearing the sound of faint wheels, frantic yelling, and a word that sounded like doctor. Doctor? Peony wasn’t at home. She wasn’t even close.

Her heart, lifted by their short conversation, plummeted.

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{Today is International Women’s Day 2016. Today I thought a lot about what it means to me a woman and I wanted to share some of my thoughts. I still have a lot to learn and at 17 I am still growing into a woman but as I feel that the past few years have been incredibly defining for me and my expectations of “life as a woman” I wanted to write something, also to possibly look back on in a few years. *Disclaimer: English is my second language, excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes.}


I wish I could tell you that today when I thought about what it means to be a woman the first thing that came to mind was how beautiful, magical and strong women are. Unfortunately I have to disappoint you, because the first thoughts coming into my head were all negative, one of them being Insecurities, specifically the insecurity I have about my breasts.

**(I realize that I am incredibly privileged and have nothing to complain about, however since I am so privileged I have the time and energy to think about my insecurities as much as I do and I’m sure most of the people reading this do as well. Most of us don’t have to worry about running from a civil war or how to feed our child so it wont die in the next 24 hours. We are privileged enough to talk and think about things such as insecurities and I feel incredibly lucky that this is one of the main “issues” in my life right now.)

I have always been more mature than most people around me and started going through puberty very early, I got my period when I was 12 and was the tallest girl in my class from year 5 on, however I have always had incredibly small breasts. When I was 13 I started wearing push up bras and my crush told me I was flat chested. When I was 14 I started dating and that’s when I started feeling a little more confident. Guys started calling me “pretty” and “beautiful” at 14 and “hot” at 15 and 16 and no one ever complained about the size of my breasts. I remember asking a guy what he thought of them and he said “It’s fine, they’ll grow”. That was a relieve to me. “They’re gonna grow. It’s just because I’m still young.” I thought to myself. At 15 I also started to grow a following on Instagram and thus received more compliments under my photos, resulting in an ego boost. This was also the time that I threw most of my push up bras away, went vegan, started eating well, got really fit and I can honestly say that for over half a year I was happy with the way I looked.

After turning 16 I went through a break up, friends of mine went through similar situations, school got tougher and I had less time and motivation to prepare healthy meals and exercise.

Before this time I had always felt like a girl, a kid almost. I never considered myself a woman. But at 16 I started to feel like now was the time that I had to turn into a woman, the worst part being that I had (and still have at times) a very false perception of what that actually means. Because at 16 I thought turning into a woman means developing curves like hips, big breasts and a big butt. I believe in my case this is due to 2 things.

1. Media: Because when I was 16 those “Real men like meat, only dogs go for bones.” and “Real women have curves.” quotes started to pop up all over Facebook. Movies and TV Shows are another great example because let’s face it the hot girl that the male characters drool over always has big “cans”. And of course those photos of Victoria’s Secret models all of which are a size 6/8 yet look like they have C and D cups in the shows and catalogues even though most of them actually have very small breasts when you look at natural photos of them (naturally due to their very slim bodies), but hey -  push up bras, tape and makeup can change that and being super skinny and having big breasts at the same time is totally realistic for everyone. (please notice:sarcasm) 2. People around me: Because I can’t count the times I have heard guys say “She has great tits.” or “Man I love big cans”. At 16 (and long before that) for me it was just a fact of life that men love big breasts and when they see them they can’t help but stare at them. And it was also a fact of life that they didn’t just love them, big breasts are important to them because why else would they talk about them so much?

So here’s our situation:Maxi at 16 has an A cup. The first issue: Big breasts are what makes you a woman. The second issue: All guys love big breasts. Maxi thinks (completely irrationally): She is not a real woman. Guys don’t love her breasts. This also matters because it matters what guys think of you. Maxi forgets that breasts don’t actually matter and don’t define you as a person (Maxi still forgets this today sometimes). This resulted in a severe insecurity of mine that I still struggle with today. At the moment my boobs are growing a little bit, but I know that I will never be a C or D cup. I have felt like less of a woman because of this for a while now and at 17 I think about it every day. I feel ashamed to talk about this because I want to be a role model for young girls and show them that you need to love yourself and be confident in order to be truly happy but the truth is that I have not reached that point yet. While I find myself attractive most of the time and I know that so do a lot of other people I still feel incredibly insecure and jealous when I see a girl with beautiful, big breasts, part of me feels like I will never be enough, that I will never be the complete package, that I will never be a “real woman”. I flinch at the words “tits”, “cans” and “jugs”, they make me feel insecure, uncomfortable, objectified and degraded, no matter in what context they are used. But the nicknames women get for their body parts are a whole different story and definitely something I want to address in the future.

I feel incredibly emotional writing about this and I would lie if I told you that this hasn’t made me cry many times. I am in an incredibly happy relationship with someone who has become my best friend and I feel valued, beautiful, intelligent and happy with myself whenever we are together. However I struggle watching movies together with actresses who have big breasts, I struggle walking past a girl with big breasts together not because he has ever told me that mine are small or not enough but simply because “Guys love big tits and they can’t help but look at them” crosses my mind every time and I get all chocked up for a second and this incredible sadness and feeling of insecurity hits me. If you have ever felt like you are not enough you know what I’m talking about. It’s unbelievable.

I am trying to work on this insecurity every day and I know that one day I will be able to overcome it. I try to constantly remind myself of the fact that I am so much more than the size of my breasts. I am my thoughts, my dreams, my talents, my work ethic, my strength and my empathy. I am more than a piece of flesh. I have a soul, a brain - I matter ! I have learned that it’s a very hard and possibly never ending process to get over an insecurity but I believe it will be worth it in the end.

I wanted to share this because I know we all have our insecurities and sometimes we feel like we are alone but we forget that so many other people are going through exactly the same thing. I also wanted to share this because today I asked myself what it means to be a woman and I realized that I actually don’t know the answer to that.I want to know what you think it means to be a “woman”. Because after having this false perception of it for so long I am incredibly confused. Feel free to reblog this adding a sentence of what you think being a woman is all about, I would love to know all of your thoughts!

Thank you for reading this incredibly personal and emotional post, I look forward to writing more in the future (hopefully planned more carefully).

Much love and good luck with your insecurities,x Maxi

Sydger Analysis

Syd Barrett and Roger Waters Relationship Analysis

I’m sure that any real Pink Floyd fan is aware that Syd Barrett and Roger Waters had at one point a rather close and endearing friendship. A lot of people, including me, question whether there was ever anything more. I have come to the conclusion that throughout the time they spent interacting as “friends” while living in Cambridge as teenagers and young adults, they developed a more romantic- and possible sexual relationship. The point of this post is to try to intrigue any reader, not exclusively make them believe every word I say, but rather play with the idea that it’s a definite possibility that what I say could be true. 

Quotes by Roger Waters About Syd Barrett

“Syd and I went through our *most* formative years together, riding on my motorbike, getting drunk, doing a little dope, flirting with girls, all that basic stuff. I still consider Syd a great primary inspiration; there were wonderful human tenderness to all his unique musical flights.”

“That was Syd. Syd was a genius!”

“Syd was extraordinarily charming and attractive and alive and talented!”

“…it describes the great desire I had then and still have now, and the passion I have to celebrate him and his talent and his humanity and to express the love I have for him.”

“He was a star, a very attractive man.”

Syd Barrett Quotes about Roger Waters 

“I was living in Highgate with him, we shared a place there, and got a van and spent a lot of our grant on pubs and that sort of thing.”

(Syd exclaims excitedly to Roger) “I’m a homosexual!”

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Sydger Analysis Synopsis 

“Syd was the only person I know who Roger has ever really liked and looked up to.”

– Peter Jenner

I think I can conclusively say that there is sufficient evidence supporting claims that they could have or did, hypothetically, have a romantic/ sexual relationship. Facts to support this theory could be:

Syd was an open “homosexual” at one point in his life. Members of the band claimed it was due to mental illness or drug use, but I refute that statement. I do not believe that sexuality could be the result of mental ailments or drug use, and to make such claims is illogical. Syd was obviously open about his sexuality, for no other reason than because he does or did at the time have those attractions. One of Syd’s friends from adolescence recalls thinking Syd was homosexual when first introducing himself. Syd was also caught once chanting, “No rules!” with a man, then accompanying him, fully nude, into a bathtub. 

Muse-

Definition: person, or force personified, who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist; n. 

If you look at it as literally as you can, Roger’s relationship towards Syd can be properly described as muse-like. In many pieces Roger has written there are some, if not many, references to Syd. One large example of this is the fact that Pink in The Wall (movie) was as Roger put’s “partially Syd, and partially him." 

Roger in nearly every song makes at least some sort of direct or indirect reference to him. I think that the line in Echoes, "I am you and what I see is me.” is a reference to his relationship with Syd. He also claimed that line was about general humanity, but also inferred that it was inspired by Syd. He is obviously a primary inspiration for the song Shine On You Crazy Diamond, and many other songs on the 1975 ‘Wish You Were Here’. 

 “Walk with Me Sydney” is a Waters song written in 1965 that took its title from Hank Ballard and the Midnighters’ “Work With Me Henry” and was a novelty number. Waters had written it for Barrett, and they can technically qualify as his first official set of lyrics.  

People must also keep in mind the period of time we are speaking of (50s-60s), and know that this was not a thriving time of social justice and equality. They lived in a world of political squalor, and internalized and externalized homophobia and discrimination. Tradition was not only bordering on sacred, it was what was considered “normal”. Given all those circumstances, and all the ones that could have existed that I have not mentioned, we can come to the simple conclusion that they could have closeted their sexuality for the time being. Personally, I can infer that Syd and Roger had romantic and sexual feeling for each other, and also people of the opposite sex. Bisexuality is not rare, but love like theirs was. 

Roger Waters interview about Syd

To summarize all this: They totally could have fucked at one point. 

You know, as much as the fandom and the games seem to go on and on about the Dalish elves being wrong about their gods, wrong about the Evanuris, worshipping false deities, evil monsters, completely depraved evil demons of darkness, and whatever else have you. All I can say now is:

HA!

The Evanuris won.

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Sorry, Solas. You won the battle, but you lost the war. That would be the war for the hearts and minds of the elven people, by the way. When it came right down to it, the surviving portion of the People chose to remember and honor the Evanuris. They were the ones stories were handed down about, they were the ones remembered as protectors. The ones who were beloved, cherished, and loved by the common people. Enough so that their religion survived, their names were passed down through history, and their legend took on new meaning.

History is written by the victors and all that jazz.

Does it matter what really happened? To some people probably, but I think the will of the modern Dalish elves gets forgotten and discarded. They get treated like foolish children who don’t understand anything, and that’s almost a direct quote from several sources. And yes, they have come a long way from where they were. But, I think that sells the whole situation short. In the end, their Elvhen ancestors knew what they were doing. The Dalish themselves kept choosing to return to their legends, preserving them as best they could despite the constant push to destroy their culture and their identity. They hang onto these scraps of cultural identity, trying to repair them as best they can. Maybe the Evanuris were monsters, but they mattered to the Elvhen people. You don’t get remembered in history, really, if you didn’t do something to earn it. Especially not history that we can suppose is this old and lost to time. It’s not just that they were gods to their people, they had to be beloved by them. Whatever Solas says about the “plebs” and immature children believing in fairy tales, the fact of the matter is the Evanuris mattered. They might have been feared, but they were also loved. Societies like this are in large part consensual on some level. I think it does the People a disservice to take the “ignorant” and “foolish” lines from Solas purely at face value.

More than that, if we go even by our #1 Fan Felassan, Fen’Harel… wasn’t really that great anyway.

So, they “vilified” the Dread Wolf, but their stories are actually a fairly accurate if simplified version of what happened. It’s just the other side. It honestly leads me to believe that (whatever else Weekes wants to say about Solas’ appeal) he really wasn’t that popular with a large swath of the Elvhen people. His view of events didn’t survive, he’s remembered only as a tormenter of modern Dalish and destroyer of their world. He’s a boogeyman at worst and chaotic neutral at best. Seen as selfish and cruel, laughing at the misery he causes.

If any group in the setting seems to worship him, it’s the Chantry. Oh the irony. Still, he would be the “Maker” of the modern world. Whether or not Mythal is Andraste, though, I suppose it doesn’t matter.

In my heart, I sort of know the Evanuris are going to get the short side of the genocidal maniac stick. The narrative is gearing up to support his actions as Good Man Does Terrible Things to Combat Greater Evil or Evil Fights Greater Evil. We’ve already got Solas insisting Andruil practiced what I will just guess is human/elven sacrifice. Falon’din filled oceans with blood in the pursuit of his own narcissim. Mythal was a goddess of vengeance (but did nothing wrong to anyone ever except maybe start a war with the Titans and made the best of a bad situation then got murdered). However, I will say that Solas’ motivation for starting a war with the others was because the murdered Mythal and that’s by his own words. If anything, when we see him again in Trespasser, that’s mostly what makes them monsters to him.

They became gods by being victorious in war, became honored, and then people began worshiping them as they accumulated more power. It’s telling to me also that he views the Qun as slavery, just as much if not more so as the slavery in Tevinter. Slavery to an ideal is the same as slavery that results in actual physical bondage. Which begs the question of which kind did the Elves practice? In spirit and ideal? In physical? Both? It’s unclear.

I dunno. I’d like to think that there’s a lot more to this story than just the surface layer, but I also don’t have much confidence in Bioware actually telling it.

I do think it’s funny when you get right down to it though. I don’t believe the Dalish are stupid, immature children. I don’t believe they are worshiping “false gods” or that their entire religion is fake. It doesn’t really matter what the “true” story is. It’s legit as any other religion in Thedas because all it really takes to have a religion is faith. It doesn’t matter what the Evanuris really were, they’ve become a way that the Dalish use to explain their culture, a symbol of what they’ve lost, what they’ve recovered, and what they’ve made for themselves in a world that wants to destroy them. They take pride in it, and rightly so. Meanings and symbols change over time.

And I found the handling of elven lore in Inquisition frustrating to say the least. I don’t want the Dalish to be totally wrong. I don’t think they deserve that and I don’t think any narrative should be celebrated for shitting on their marginalized groups, especially ones that are coded to fulfill the Jewish/Roma position in our current medieval/renaissance/post-modern slurry that is modern Thedas.

I dislike it immensely is what I’m saying. I know where it’s most likely going from where it’s already gone and I don’t like it.

Nate Maloley- Tattoo

Request:  Hey :) could you do a one shot in which your nate’s girlfriend & you got your first tattoo (a quote on your back) & while you put some lotion on it Nate comes into the bathroom and is turned on, even if he was sceptical first? Would be super great :)

A/N: Sorry for the wait on this one! I hope it’s everything you wanted, It may be a little rushed, but that’s only because I wanted to have something posted. My apologies. 

Please leave request here.

“I’m sorry Y/N,” Nate apologized, “but I’m not sure that getting this tattoo is the best decision.” What an ironic thing to come from someone who has several tattoo them self. However, I understood what he saying but I did not agree. “Fine, if you are totally against it then I won’t ask you anymore to tag along.” 

I had been wanting this tattoo for literally years, but I had to wait until I was eighteen. Once I had finally tuned eighteen it was a matter of finding a convenient time. Fortunately that time had finally arrived. I was a little nervous of what the experience was going to be like, so I had asked Nate to come with me. But he couldn’t find it in him to join me. He was that much against the idea of getting this tattoo. Despite what you may think, I wasn’t angry with him at all. I understood why he was so skeptical, but I wasn’t going to allow him to talk me out of it. 

“I’ll be home later tonight.” I kissed Nate goodbye. My appointment was at 2:30 and I needed to pick up my best friend. Since Nate wasn’t coming with me, Y/B/F/N agreed to tag along. 

“Are you nervous?” Y/B/F/N asked. I nodded my head, “a little. But I’m more nervous about what Nate will think. I know he isn’t a fan, but I hope he doesn’t find it absolutely hideous.” My friend laughed, “I’m sure he will change his mind once he actually sees it.” 

After a few hours of at the tattoo parlor, I was finally finished. The pain stayed at a minimum and I was very pleased with the final result. “Oh my goodness, Y/N, it looks great!” My best friend raved. “Thank you.”

“Thanks for coming with me.” I thanked Y/B/F/N before dropping her off at her house. “Of course. I’m glad I was able to come.” I told her goodbye before driving away. Only minutes later I had arrived at home.

“Nate?” I hollered through out the home. However, I didn’t ever hear a response. Hmm he must have went out for a little bit. I thought to myself, assuming that he had decided to hang out with the guys. I sighed. Since my shoulder was so sensitive from the fresh tattoo, I decided to change into a loose fitting t-shirt.I assumed that would be my best option. 

After lounging around, I decided that it was about time to apply some lotion to the new tattoo. I went into the bathroom and opened up the medicine cabinet. I glanced around until I spotted a bottle of unscented lotion. I squirted a good amount in the palm of my hand, and began attempting to reach over my shoulder. 

I was too consumed in trying to apply the lotion that I didn’t even hear the front door open. “Hey babe.” I turned around to be greeted by my lovely boyfriend, Nate Maloley. “Awh, hey.” I said before placing a quick kiss on lips. 

“Do you need some help?” Nate chuckled as I struggled to reach over my shoulder. “Please”, I replied. Nate took the the bottle of lotion and squirted some in his hand. He gently applied the lotion all over the irritated area. “I have to admit it actually looks hot on you.” Nate said. “Thanks.”

Once Nate was done applying the lotion, I started to reach for my t-shirt that laid on the floor. But Nate stopped me before I could pick it up. “Just leave it there, lil mama.” I giggled at how cheeky he was being. “If you insist.” I grinned. 

Nate put his hands around my waist and pulled me closer to him, before placing his lips on my. I immediately began kissing back. The kiss quickly escalated into something more heated. 

“Follow me.” Nate whispered before leading me into the bed room. 

10 Things to consider before taking the National Dental Board Exams

July 1st 2015 at roughly 5 p.m. an additional 294 people were announced as new dentists. One of them was me, and boy was the journey to getting my name on that list a tough one. I’ve had many people ask me advice on how they should tackle the board exams, and what they needed to do to pass as well. To be quite honest, I was just as clueless as anyone, so please don’t take my word as gospel, because I am only speaking from experience and from being overly observant; but, if you will let me, and if I can contribute a little to the success of the future generation, then by all means please read this article if you wish.

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RiD 2015 Xeno Headcanons

I’m doing this to get this out of my system because it’s been brewing since I wrote that drabble last night, where the unwritten epilogue in my head involved finding out just how well loud “noises” echo in a steel mill.  I apologize in advance.

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frederickworryfree  asked:

It's difficult to see someone purposely, indirectly insult you. It's always your fault your insecurity, not his. That's his way to stay sour and bitter and feel good about it I guess. We don't even need to be in that relationship to notice that out.

Tell me about it. It really does hurt. It’s particularly hard to see someone do that who was supposed to be your best friend for 9 years. I wish he would just leave me alone at this point. The once super kind guy I knew many years ago has now transformed into ‘Mr Microdose’ one of the biggest bullies I know. Those paying attention know the reason for this. You can see his method in action over the years totally slandering and trying to intimidate anyone who disagrees with him (or rejects him), now he is using this tactic on me as well. He takes any and every opportunity to belittle, insult, humiliate and degrade me, what a great role model!! Also using this ‘poor me Im a completely innocent puppydog’ approach in his videos which so many are easily sucked in by. 😐As you can see I never mention him or make videos about him because I’ve actually MOVED ON and am happy! Now I feel somewhat forced to make this post. 

He has been getting a lot of heat lately for his sugar mountain sprite recommendations and as a result contacts me requesting that I support him (direct quote on my phone) “Make 3 positive videos about me and I will take my vids down.” I was floored. Hang on….Like WHAT? This is the guy who has spent the last 6 mths trying to destroy my life with hundreds of bullshit Tumblr posts, several slanderous videos that were covered by worldwide media, constant lies to mutual friends and HE wants ME to make supportive videos for him?!? Like whaaaat?! 😩I even spoke on the phone with him about it and he didn’t seem to get it… I’m just not sure what reality Harley lives in anymore. It’s just not sane behaviour. 

Back in June when I convinced him we should break up (Ness can confirm this as we moved out together & she lived with us for months prior) I really wanted and TRIED to maintain a friendship with him. I still have all text messages saved from that time confirming this but Harley couldn’t handle me getting close to Robin even though he was boasting about sleeping with several young girls at the same time (not underage). He became very jealous and bitter, even then i STILL tried to be there for him as a friend. Then back in Aus he conveniently got his stuff from my house and then started abusing me online straight afterwards. 🙈

Recently since hanging out with his new girlfriend Tori he has gotten a lot better because his focus has shifted off slandering me. Tori seems like a real sweet girl too and he seems happier in himself which is nice. I hope she stays true to herself & her own needs no matter what pressure she recieves from him. Anyway unfortunately a leopard doesn’t change their spots and his old behaviour came back with him trying to claim he “made me” (srs ffs more like the other way around!) and that he created raw till 4 and that I forced Robin to get a vasectomy… ALL RUBBISH of course and thankfully switched on people reading his posts can see/feel that. I do give him credit for the small cycling section in the book which he pressured me to include. He has taught me a lot about cycling and I’m always grateful for that.

Its hurts me to see him be so nasty when he speaks of Robin. It’s just really low. Harley doesn’t like to be spoken about like that so why does he do it to others? It’s important to add that Harley has never EVER been close friends with Robin but continues to say he was (hey it makes his story sound better right?) ;) Makes us *sound* like really bad people. Manipulate the truth no matter how much so it works to serve your agenda, this is Harley’s method. Robin actually laughed out loud when he heard the ‘good friends’ claim. Harley did NOT introduce me to Robin geezuz.  As like 200 + attendees Robin just came to *our festival to meet cool like-minded people. I’m so glad he did or I would not have met him and can I tell you I love him so much, he is a top quality person who is kind to everyone he meets (ask anyone at the festival) so seeing nasty lies about him hurts a lot but he is tough and smart people see through it. 

Even though some thought i was crazy doing it up until recently I allowed Harley to stay on my website 30bananasaday.com (yes the name & site was created by me), the website I have paid thousands for over the years to design and maintain, not one cent contributed from Harley. He wasn’t even the first member after me. Sure he has contributed on the forum and that’s been really awesome (& i will leave those posts up) *However* he cannot surely think he is allowed to slander me all over the internet while I continue to sell his books on my site?? CRAZY and I’m not going to do it anymore. Even after his slanderous videos i STILL allowed him to stay on but no way im over it I’m not going to be used anymore. 

I have no problem in saying that he can be a great motivator and does have a lot of good advice to give. He even has a tattoo that says “PMAR” Positive Mental Attitude *REGARDLESS*…. Why isn’t he living that? Why doesn’t he walk his talk? I just wish so much that he would drop this hateful blaming victim mentality & focus fully on being that motivating person that he can be! 

Harley’s latest threats below

A "some thoughts on Kirigaya Hitsugi" post

Okay so here it is. First things first, DISCLAIMER:

  • I will be using references from canon sources (won’t link some cause too lazy to find) like the episode Q&A, quotes from the official guidebook, manga and anime.
  • All things typed here is the result of repeatedly asking/ reasoning why Hitsugi did what she did. It is my conclusion and my thoughts of Hitsugi’s character. If it resonates with your thoughts, bless you. If it doesn’t, bless you too because you spent the time to read this post.
  • If I repeated points, I’m sorry. I can occasionally get lost within my thoughts.
  • This will be a long post. Here goes…

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anonymous asked:

Sorry I saw your rant on that Japanese feminism post or what not but you mentioned your friend from Japan telling you the difference between their anime fandom and our's and, if you wouldn't mind, could you explain a bit? I've always been Really curious about how it is there. Sorry if this has been asked already!

What are you sorry for? I love sharing experiences and information! Though, I am not sure I can relay what my friend said 100%… But I’ll try to.

First of all, Japanese Anime/Manga/Games Fandom is not as inclusive as western Fans tend to think it is. While there’s overall less flame wars and internet rudeness and 2Chan is definitely tamer than 4Chan (I heard Futaba can be quite dangerous, though), this is mostly because the “clique” mentality is even more developed than in the west. In the West, if you’re an Anime Fan, you’ll be interacting with pretty much all types of Anime Fans. In Japan, Fans of a certain genre keep to fans of a certain genre and women keep to women and men keep to men. Also, Japanese Fandom says Japanese, they generally do not branch out and search contact to foreign fans.

Fans use the term “Otaku” among each other, but as it is sort of offensive to be an outsider using the term, the academic discourse has come to prefer the term “Subculture”. This is different from other “slur” terms in the way that “Otaku” have used the term Otaku to refer each other ever since before negative connotations have come to be. The negative connotations came to be due to the media spreading the image of Otaku as murderous, perverted man-children removed from reality. So when an outsider uses the term “Otaku” it is generally assumed that they are using it in this negative context and are thus offensive. If I used the term, however, my friend wouldn’t be offended, because she has seen the inside of my dorm room and knows it is covered in posters and figurines and Manga stacked up on the ledges. So the “Otaku” that Miyazaki uses isn’t the same “Otaku” that the general fan uses. Miyazaki says “Otaku” but is actually referring to the “Moe-Kei-Elitists” which have been dominating the market for several years now (and really, he has any reason to hate, because they have been fetishizing his characters as well.) “Otaku” as in simply “Geek” IS a meaning that does exist, however, you need to be WITHIN the Geek-spectrum to safely use the term without calling forth the wrong connotation.

Japanese Fandom has the advantage of being greater in numbers, as, despite being a “hidden Subculture” in Japan, they are still enough to be able to communicate, meet and have fairly large events together which outscale our Anime Conventions by far. I was on Comiket - which, by the way, is financed through commercial space given through the Anime Industry and is free of charge to visit - and the numbers of people and stands there were insane. It was really just a self-published comicbook market, but there was EVERYONE there, fans of any Fandom you can imagine and shippers of all armadas and they were talking, buying, cosplaying and just having a good time, even without all the event stuff that we are used to, like panels or shows or so on. Though, of course, the groups kept to themselves. Men stuck to men, women to women, cosplayers to cosplayers (and cosplay-admirers). I got a few odd looks when I checked out a Touhou booth to get an Artbook for my boyfriend. 

In the West, there is the image of Akihabara being the “Otaku Mekka”, while this is true, it’s actually more of a “Male Otaku Mekka”; female Fans are far more likely to be found shopping in Ikebukuro. While Akihabara is about 75% drilled towards the Moe-Kei Audience; thus, male Otaku, Ikebukuro is drilled 75% towards the Fujoshi Audience and thus female Otaku. Though, you will find both genders shopping in both districts, the distribution differs. I am neither a Moe-Kei Fan, nor a Fujoshi, so I kinda have to change around between where I go shopping to find everything I want.

After all, not all Otaku are into Fanservice; my friend is one of the female Otaku who quit Free! after the first three episodes because she, quote “Had no idea what the plot was even trying to tell her.” She’s kinda like me; Fanservice alone doesn’t satisfy her, she needs proper plot and characters too. So yeah, believe it or not, but despite the strong exclusiveness, Japanese Fans are just as diverse as anywhere else. There’s Fans who think Cosplayers are insane, Moe-Kei Fans who think Fujoshi are evil, Fujoshi who think Moe-Kei Fans are evil, people who are into “obscure” western movies and draw Doujinshi on that, while others just watch and tilt their heads - Yes, “Avengers” Doujinshi EXIST, I saw them on Comiket - etc. etc. etc. 

It’s fascinating how much is similar and yet different, really. I came to Japan with the intent to study Fan-Culture and am really quite satisfied with my results so far. I learned so much and gained a so much broader understanding. It is always interesting to discuss how Western Fandom sees certain things with my friend and ask her how it is in Japanese Fandom. The times I get “Onaji!” (The same) for an reply really are just as often as I get “Zenzen chigau!” (Totally different). Of course, issues of translation and dubbing are totally foreign to the Japanese Audience except when it comes to Disney movies, because most Live Action Movies only receive subtitles there. 

My friend once asked me if “English Seiyuu” - she used the term “Seiyuu” for voice actors in general, regardless of country - are just as famous and celebrated as their Japanese counterparts. I explained to her that, while we have famous voice actors like Yuri Lowenthal or Vic Mignogna, they are not as great celebrities as the Japanese Seiyuu by far; Mostly because the celebration of voice actors is a trend that has its roots in the Anime Fandom and the Western Fandom is just too small to make that big of a difference there. It is quite interesting whenever I engage in discussions like this with her. We learn a lot about the other’s culture from each other - not only Fanculture, but in general. 

Peter Hale: A Psychological Profile

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I got it in my head that I wanted to undertake this for Peter and got encouragement to go after it. The title’s what this meta is all about.

My ‘area’ is cognitive and behavioral neuroscience/neuroanthropology which means I’m not licensed to diagnose anybody but I still get thoroughly into personality disorders and what underpins them. This stuff is my passion.

Or: I hope it’s interesting reading but don’t use it to diagnose yourself or others!

A breakdown of what’s coming:

  • Peter has exhibited antisocial personality disorder from a young age.
  • After his trauma, his ASPD became comorbid with – that is, co-occurs with – borderline personality disorder.

I think this is worthwhile to look into because Jeff Davis isn’t a psychology major but his twin brother, Scott, is. Jeff has his own passion for psychology from which he created the series Criminal Minds and his understanding of criminal psychology appears to carry over beautifully into Teen Wolf

(For more on Criminal Minds and Teen Wolf check out this meta by theonesarcasticchick.)

That said, let’s jump right into it.

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space-chan  asked:

Help me out. I don't understand how people could be offended by Luftrauser's graphic style. Yes, the nazis were bad but these are cartoonish caricatures in an arcadey video game where you can fly a knife plane. There is no plot. I'm usually with people on these things but I'm totally lost. Let me rephrase, I can understand why people could be offended, but I don't understand why there is an uproar. No artist should cave because some people aren't happy. Not trying to fight, just confused.

Let’s start unpacking this.

“I don’t understand how people could be offended by Luftrauser’s graphic style.”

The first step is realizing you might not understand someone else’s position but can respect them for having it. That’s basic empathy. You don’t have to agree with them, but given your life experiences are different from this other person, it’s possible to, at least, realize they have a reason for it.

Now, let’s look at what Elizabeth Simins (a terrific artist whose work you might be familiar with on Kotaku) and Rob Dubbin (a writer on The Colbert Report) originally said. From what I understand, Simins started publicly talking about this issue, and Dubbin later came to her defense.

I have a question about Luftrausers: is there some political point to playing as nazis or is it supposed to be funny?

— Elizabeth Simins (@ElizSimins)

April 4, 2014

Aaaand I feel like it’s a bit weird that there’s this v popular indie game where you play as funny nazis and nobody is talking about that?

— Elizabeth Simins (@ElizSimins)

April 4, 2014

It’s easy to give the benefit of the doubt to Beloved Indies but I’m telling you I’ve heard lots of fans say “you play as nazis, right?”

— Elizabeth Simins (@ElizSimins)

April 4, 2014

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So I guess if you are playing Luftrausers, just at least keep in mind what it would feel like for a Jew to play it? Because ugh

— Elizabeth Simins (@ElizSimins)

April 4, 2014

Simins does not ask for developer Vlambeer to change the way Luftrausers looks, but simply raises the question about whether its aesthetic could be reasonably seen as leveraging nazi imagery in a way that’s been glossed over because the game is so damn fun to play. (Which it is.) This is what we call criticism, and it’s especially important to be critical of that which we love. That’s often the hardest.

A few hours later, Dubbin weighed in on Twitter, as well.

so luftrausers: as a jew, what offends me is the aesthetic. as a game designer, what offends me is the absence of critical distance from it.

— Rob Dubbin (@robdubbin)

April 4, 2014

most jews of my generation grew up hearing “never again” from their relatives and hebrew schools. easy to dismiss as pablum, but here we are

— Rob Dubbin (@robdubbin)

April 4, 2014

i don’t believe vlambeer are nazi sympathizers or anything vile like that. seems more to me like *fascination*. which is its own problem.

— Rob Dubbin (@robdubbin)

April 4, 2014

more broadly, it’s all of our problem that it’s only coming up now + normalized to where “nazi stuff” is at worst a “con” in a review

— Rob Dubbin (@robdubbin)

April 4, 2014

and you know i was a part of that, in the sense that i only talked about this privately until @elizsimins was braver than i was and spoke up

— Rob Dubbin (@robdubbin)

April 4, 2014

so: let’s not pile on vlambeer, let’s definitely not pile on @elizsimins. the cure for this is education/awareness/sensitivity. never again.

— Rob Dubbin (@robdubbin)

April 4, 2014

A-ha. Dubbin underscores the subtext of the aesthetic content in Luftrausers: maybe we’ve become desensitized to nazi imagery as a culture, likely in a way less true in Jewish circles for…obvious reasons. This big picture cultural question isn’t easy to digest but worth asking.

Vlambeer doesn’t have to respond to this. Dubbin and Simins expressed their opinions, and that could have easily been the end of this. But Rami Ismail has proven himself to be an intensely empathetic figure who is OK listening to the opinions of others, even if it’s critical of his own work. It’s not easy to acknowledge criticism, and even harder to grant it any merit.

Yet, Ismail does exactly this in a blog post. There’s far too much to quote, but here’s the part that underscores what I’m talking about:

“We do have to accept that our game could make some people uncomfortable. We’re extremely sad about that, and we sincerely apologise for that discomfort.

The fact is that no interpretation of a game is ‘wrong’. When you create something, you leave certain implications of what you’re making. We can leave our idea of what it is in there, and for us, the game is about superweapons. We think everybody who plays LUFTRAUSERS can feel that.

But even more so in an interactive medium, we do have to accept that no way of reading those implications is ‘false’ – that if someone reads between the lines where we weren’t writing, those voids can be filled by the player, or someone else. If we accept there’s no wrong interpretation of a work, we also have to accept that some of those interpretations could not be along the lines of what we’re trying to create.”

From there, Ismail goes on to explain why he disagrees with Dubbin and Simins, even while acknowledging their opinion is a valid interpretation. That line is so critically important to having a reasonable, nuanced dialogue about difficult subjects, and it’s the part we often miss out on.

It often feels people confuse “criticism” with “censorship” in a way that is never intended when those speaking up are explaining their views. 

It is unlikely Luftrausers will undergo any major aesthetic change as a result of what Simins and Dubbin said, but the conclusion of this exchange brings a better understanding of what Vlambeer intended by creating Luftrausers. No one has to agree with either side, but our understanding of Luftrausers’ place in game culture was deepened.

That’s not controversy. That’s criticism, and I wish we had way more of it.