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Chanyeol’s self composed song ‘’Heaven’’ lyrics (Analysis)

So, this is my first post & the first analysis in tumblr (since I had a lot in twitter lol).

Anyways, this is based on my own opinion, accept it or not; it’s your decison.



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Let me start from the beggining.

PART 1

Chanyeol once asked a queston ‘’If you could describe Baekhyun with one word, what would it be?’’

He answered ‘’SKY’’.

Since 2014, when Chanyeol started using Instagram, he often started posting pictures of sky as well and he still posts them, till now. Let’s see.

Now, I’d like to show you something from Baekhyun’s account. 

This pic. As we all can see, the caption is a cloud, which a certain person (and not only him) uses when posting a pic of SKY. But this is just a selfie and obviously it’s not related to the sky. Baekhyun doesn’t wear any blue thing or etc that might be related to a cloud, yet the caption says it all.

Now here.

Chanyeol puts different captions while posting sky pics. Such as ‘’Beautiful’’. But also, he puts clouds. 

In conclusion, we can guess, since Chanyeol thinks the sky resembles Baekhyun, he was actually the one who posted Baekhyun’s selfie with such caption. Usually Baekhyun rarely posts anything. When he does, he always puts some long captions, thankses fans and so on. But here we see a single cloud which, I do repeat, doesn’t really relate to the post.

Of course, it might be a coincidence but as they say ‘’Coincidence isn’t a coincidence at all’’. Haha, anyways, you may have your own opinion about this posts.


NOW, let’s go the the main topic, since we all, I think, realized the word ‘’Sky’’ for Chanyeol is related to Baekhyun.

PART2

‘’Heaven’’ is a song composed by Chanyeol (!! only the lyrics !!)

Now, let’s start analyzing what’s behind the lyrics~

‘’Hello angel, you’re like a painting

You’re all I see when I look to the skies…’’

These two sentences are quite simple, I think. The author (Chanyeol) as we see, talks about his beloved one and tells us that he sees his beloved one when he looks to the skies. The beloved one is related to the sky. 

‘’City street lights, even if the lights go out

And the moon disappears, It’s bright because

I have a star that fell from the skies

And it’s you…’’

As we see, he keeps repeating the word ‘’light’’ several times. He compares his beloved one with lights as that one, he claims, is brighter than all the street lights.

Lights, lights lights… Would it be safe to remind Baekhyun’s power is exactly the LIGHT. Not only that, but also the fact that he’s the light, the brightest member of the group, and as EXO claims he keeps them as one.


‘’Even the brightest jewel in heaven

For sure couldn’t be brighter than you

Don’t drift away from me

Baby won’t you stay

I’ll love only you forever..’’

Quite interesting that Chanyeol keeps talking about lights and brightness. Indeed, the beloved one is brighter than any jewel :)

‘’I keep laughing for some reason every night

Even when I close my eyes, I can’t sleep

I spend the entire night with thoughts of you

Your sparlking smile lets me breathe..’’

I really should mention, that besides any romantic relationship, Chanyeol and Baekhyun are besties. People say ‘’The best relationship is when you both can be lovers and best friends at the same time.’’

Chanyeol’s stans and Chanyeol himself admitted it. During the concerts, awarding events and so on, we see they’re all over each other, smiling and laughing at jokes only both of them understand. So I guess, we can bravely relate the first sentence to this, because no matter anything Chanyeol laughs most when he’s with Baekhyun and at anything that Baekhyun does.

The following sentences are very intimate as well. Some people might misunderstand it and say ‘’It can’t be about Baekhyun, because they’re groupmates and they’re always together.’’

Nope, they’re not. All of them have different schedules and they spend quite a little time together. The facts say it; for example in their last interview for VIVI Magazine 2016 Chanyeol said ‘’We chat together till we both forget about time’’ .   (almost as sweet as the lyrics to be honest haha).

Your sparkling smile lets me breathe..’’

Well, quite common for Chanyeol because since 2012 he mentioned his ideal type is someone who smiles a lot. 

I don’t even know someone who smiles more than Baekhyun. It’s my opinion, maybe yours differs? Haha, anyways, the sparkling smile


The part about wings is SO interesting. Today (10.12.16) Baekhyun said he was an angel in his past life, his wings disappeared when he came to the human’s world, but there’s still left. He also demonstrated. Lets see.

https://twitter.com/yeolspuppy/status/807522183106953217

So there we see, only Chanyeol knows what’s Baekhyun actually doing. He even asked Baekhyun to kneel and turn around so that people would see his ‘’wings’’ better from behind.  Baekhyun isn’t really fond of complimenting himself. So I guess, someone actually gave him the idea of him being an angel and having wings behind back.

Did Chanyeol discover those wings himself? As he says in the song, he’s sure, his beloved one ‘’hides wings behind back’’. Hm, who knows.

Chanyeol keeps talking about skies and skies and skies… 

‘’The sky gave you everything
And this world gave me you
I want to keep you by my side
So you can’t fly back into the sky
Hold you down, keep you with me
Hug you…’’

As we keep reading the lyrics, we can be sure that It’s impossible to write such heartwarming lyrics If you’re not in love.

Chanyeol about the lyrics said himself ‘’I’ve written the song as If I was really in love’’

The next sentences that I’m gonna talk about are very veryyyy important, at least to me. In my opinion, they’re the key of the song.

‘’She says, easily, so easily

To not jokingly call her so pretty..’’

Many people keep saying Chanyeol used the pronoun ‘’she’’ as he describes his beloved one, so It can’t be related to Baekhyun.

Let me tell you, it proves absolutely NOTHING. Chanyeol is an artist, he’s an idol who has responsibility over his members, over his fans. He has an image and no matter what he must keep that image. It would be totally thoughtless if he did put ‘’he’’. There would be rumors, articles that media sites post every day, and of course hundreds of people that would be ready to judge him and question his sexuality. Chanyeol is one of the idols that gets criticized even when he does nothing. It would put his career on risk if he did really put not she, but he.  We all know Chanyeol apologizes for everything, he cherishes his fans too much to be that free in his actions. 

As a proof to my words, I’ll tell you an example of Western artist, a singer Darren Hayes. He, in 2006, got married to his boyfriend. 

In past, before admitting to be in a relationsip with a guy, Darren sang songs that included pronouns ‘’she’’ too. Such as ‘’Insatiable’’. (You may check the lyrics yourself to get sure).

I have more examples but lets not waste time.

To think, he was afraid that public would judge him, so he kept his relationship in secret. Even while living in such democratic and free country as the USA.. Considering South Korea, where homosexuality is judged way too hard, its totally normal Chanyeol is trying to ‘’stay safe in shade’’ too.

So, as we see, those pronounces prove nothing.


Anyways, the lyrics

The word that caught my attention was ‘’jokingly’’.

To be honest, if we analyze, it’s impossible to call a girl pretty jokingly. I mean, a guy compliments a girl by calling her pretty and there’s no way for it to be a joke. You call her pretty to make her happy, to make her smile and I don’t think any girl would stop it. Jokingly call a girl pretty would be even offensive because (‘’You’re pretty. Lol no, never mind I’m just kidding’’) ??? Nonsense. 

But the author (our Chanyeolie) says

‘’She says to not jokingly call her so pretty..’’

Does not make any sense right? Now let’s change the pronounces.

‘’He says to not jokingly call him so pretty..’’

See? :) Now, it makes sense. 

Korean guys, especially idols, have a bit feminine features of face. So usually their fans or friends call them not handsome, but pretty.

I think there’s no need to remind that most of Baekhyun stans (and one of them is me) call him pretty most of the time because he has cute, feminine side. He can be manly, but the cute side, of course, overwhelms.

All EXO members call him cute and pretty, you can rarely see them call Baekhyun ‘’handsome’’. Chanyeol calls him pretty most of all. Me, a fan since 2012, never noticed him to call Baekhyun ‘’handsome’’. 

The key is, Baekhyun always stops them when they call him pretty. Even when his fans call him pretty, he asks to not to.

Between guys, it’s such a joke. They tease each other by calling pretty or beautiful. And as we see in this song, Chanyeol teases his beloved one and calls pretty while that one asks to not to. You can relate, I think.

An important thing that should be mentioned I think is also the fact that during the interview for their EX’ACT Album, Baekhyun was asked a question.

‘’Which lyrics do you like best out of all the songs’ lyrics in this album?’’

And as we see out of ALL THE SONGS Baekhyun chose exactly Heaven and exactly those lyrics :)

His explainations looks so weird to me as well lol.

Another thing.  Here is ‘’Heaven’’ line distribution (credits to cyhun9461)

As we see, the one who actually sang most is no one else, but Baekhyun.

44.4% of the song lines are Baekhyun’s. Jongdae, Kyungsoo are in vocal line too but their lines are only 27.6% & 29.5%. 

Even Chanyeol, who actually composed the song, has 36.8%.

Thank you, if you have read this. I did put a lot of efforts in this article and I hope you all will like it. As I said before, the article is based on my own opinion, which might be different from yours. So yeah, thanks again :)

sekhmet06  asked:

I was wondering... What would each of them think about bidet? Who would use it? (is the queston structured well? Lol sorry)

Oh my god how do you come up with these wtf?! 

Mikasa: would think it’s useful
Reiner: Jokes about finally something being Levi’s height
Bertholdt: Would like to not do a statement on this
Annie: It’s weird, no
Eren: Thinks it’s cool
Jean: What the fuck is this?!
Marco: Cool :), uses it
Sasha: Isn’t this a bit unnecessary?
Connie: But why?
Historia: Finally they can all clean their gross asses
Armin: Appreciates it
Ymir: ?!

Levi: Loves it
Hanji: Whaaat?
Erwin: Good!
Nanaba: It’s nice :)
Mike: Uncomfy, no
Moblit: :/

psychokawaiii-deactivated201703  asked:

Hey! I'm doing a pt.2 of my yandere playlist and I wanted to know if you can help me with some songs! Thanks and bye! I love your blog btw 💋🌼💞💗🌈

I’m so happy that somebody asked this queston, because I’ve already collected some songs, I just keep waiting for the perfect time, and now it’s finally here. Most of them are from my blog’s playlist, but there are a few new ones too <3

Simon Curtis - Super Psycho Love

Porcelain Black - Pretty Little Psycho

Ghost Town - Creepy Girls

Panic at the Disco - Miss Jackson

Nightcore - Smoke and Mirrors

Set It Off - Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing (Nightcore version)

Iggy Azalea - Black Widow (Rogue Remix)

Kesha - Cannibal

Lana Del Rey - Serial Killer

The Pierces - Got a Secret

Halestorm - Mz Hyde

Cady Groves - This Little Girl (Nightcore Version)

Bebe Rexha - I’m Gonna Show You Crazy

Rex - Heart of Witch

Breathe Carolina - Get Off Easy

Nightcore - You Can’t Hide From Us

Afi - Miss Murder

Melanie Martinez - Mad Hatter

Hatsune Miku - Saw and Pendulum (Vocaloid)

Skillet - Monster

Cult To Follow - Murder Melody (Nightcore version)

Set It Off - Nightmare

G-Dragon - Nightmare/Obsession

G-Dragon - She’s Gone

Hope this short list will help you. ^^

anonymous asked:

Hey! So obviously everyone loved the episode last night - there was just so much destiel feels in there it's enough to fill up an entire football stadium. BUT I keep thinking that the writers might be trying to set Cas and Kelly up, because you know, it's supernatural, and I just feel like the possibility of destiel going canon is too good to be true. I mean, Kelly is great, but it would be the worst romance ever - weird and force and kinda cringey. Maybe I'm paranoid, idk. What do you think?

(via @anon) Idk if i like where this story is going… i dont want to see cas kelly baby stories and him raising the child :/ i want cas with the brothers :(

Hi - I’m squishing these two asks together, hope you guys see it. :)


The Nephilim: what’s next?

Look, the thing is - maybe the Nephilim will die in the finale, or maybe he’ll be the Big Thing in S13 - we still don’t know. What we do know, on the other hand, is that it would be very hard to work him into the story in a way that’ll keep Cas away from Sam and Dean. Like, you know - from a narrative point of view, what do you do with this thing?

  • Option 1 It’s born and it grows at a normal human rate. If this happens, the Nephilim will have no place whatsoever in the show, because babies are both hard to work with and boring boring boring, and as much as we, the demented viewers, want to see Dean and Cas making nonsense noises and cooing at this second Antichrist, it’s not going to happen. If this is where they’re going, we’ll have a Jesse situation: the Nephilim will be carted off to live with some other hunter (not Cas, because Cas is one of the main characters and is needed elsewhere), and we’ll never hear from him again. 
  • Option 2 It’s born and grows Amara-style, turning from adorable creepy baby who moves stuff with his mind to overly attractive teenager who winks at Dean and makes him uncomfortable. I hope they’ll avoid this narrative, because we’ve seen the exact same thing last year, but if they do something like that -
  • Option 2a If the Nephilim is a bad guy, he’ll probably become S13′s Big Baddie, and Cas will have no reason to stick with him, so we’ll have the usual ‘only you can break me free from this mind control spell but nobody knows why’ trope and TFW will spend the rest of the season staring gloomily into space and wondering how to kill a semi-god, again.
  • Option 2b If the Nephilim is a good guy, he’s gone. There is simply no way they can keep around an allpowerful and benign deity without having massive problems. This is why they keep hurting Cas, remember?, because if Cas had his wings and his courage and his cold logic and his angelic self-confidence, Sam and Dean could spend their days playing beer pong in the Bunker. Cas would simply teleport himself wherever a monster has been spotted, look around with his x-ray vision, and then lift a finger and make a whole abandoned neighbourhood explode. And that’s it. So, well - like they did with Jesse, and even with Amara and Chuck - if this new kid is a Good Person, he’ll probably wander off on his own.
  • Option 2c If the Nephilim is a Gabriel-like morally grey trickster, it’s likely the Winchesters will still vote to hunt him down and kill him. They did it to Gabriel, after all, and if he hadn’t died (*wails forever*) in the war against Lucifer, I’m sure Sam, at the very least, would have gone after him. Tricksters work fine, or more than fine, as characters, but you don’t want one living in the same reality as you. Look at the messes Loki manages to whip up every couple of weeks - nope, if something is too powerful and you can’t understand how they think and feel, unfortunately the best option is to take them out. Better to be safe than sorry.

It’s still possible, at this point, that something happens and the Nephilim dies, likely with Kelly. This would make sense for a number of reasons, including that everyone except Cas, Lucifer and Kelly really wants this thing gone. The Host is gunning for him, Crowley would surely prefer he died, the BMoL (if they knew about him) would probably launch a nuclear grenade wherever Kelly is and to hell with ‘collateral damage’, and even Sam and Dean - they want to be normal and kind, but they might have no other choice, and if it comes to that, they know they must at least try to kill this child, because, yeah, NOT A CHILD, PEOPLE, and look at what happened with Amara. So maybe it’s not the Nephilim’s life that’s the big plot of next season, but his death and how it happens. We know we’re headed for some massive family conflict, and, in this sense, what’s going on with Cas is part of that. It’s those old what’s right and wrong, who’s your family, who do you trust questions Supernatural likes to throw at us, but, as we’ve seen in the past, whatever happens the endgame is what Dean just told us to our faces - him, Sam, and Cas working together, Team Free Will, because they’re better together and they’re family and that’s not gonna change, demonic baby or no demonic baby. So don’t worry too much - Cas won’t stay away for long.

Cas and Kelly: a romance in the works?

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allglorytothehypnotoad94  asked:

Hi! My birthday was a week ago but my questons seem to keep getting lost amidst others. Anyhow, do you have any random trivia about the philosophical aspects of the color pie? Thank you for all the great work with the game and the community :)

One of my favorite parts of the Council of Colors is when we discuss where new design space falls in the color pie. I never got to geek out arguing color pie philosophies before. It’s awesome.

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History (Alec x Reader) Imagine

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Alec and Lydia looked at each other waiting for the Silent Brother to continue so they could move on to the next part of the ceremony. Just as they were about to start a bang can into the room along with the white doors flying open. There stood two shadowhunters.


“What is this matter?” Maryse said angry as she walked down to the two. “We are in the middle of a wedding” You could tell from her face that she was furious but you were here on misson


“The Clave sent us about attack that has happened, You, Robert Lightwood and Lydia Brenwell are needed immediately.” Your cousin Julian told her.


“Can’t it wait! Attacks always happen.” Maryse stated


“But not by Valentine” You said. Maryse looked back at her husband then to a Lydia then back at you two. Her husband started to walk down the aisle towards you guys while Lydia turned to face everyone.


“I’m sorry but we will need to finish this later everyone, as part of The Clave I need to be there. Please you are all welcome to leave “ She told everyone but then you pipe in.


“That won’t happen”


“Why not” Maryse asked.


“The Clave message was to get you three and then keep the others here on watch.” You told her. “So sorry but everyone will stay”


“Who watching them?” Robert asked.


“Y/N will, we need to get going now!” Julian said. The three of them passed you and follow Julian out of the door. You closed the door behind them standing in front of the door guarding it.


 Clary POV


“Who’s the girl?” I asked Izzy. Isabelle seen to be worried about something and just wave my question off as she kept staring at the girl.


“Izzy” I said once again as I shook her shoulder hoping then she would answer. She turned to look at me.


“Sorry I was just thinking about how Alec must be feeling” she said


“Well I don’t say he fine his wedding just got crashed but-“ I went to speak but Izzy cut me off.


“That’s not it. To answer your queston that girl there is Y/N she is Alec’s ex-girlfriend.” I stared at her in shocked. “They didn’t end off well so her coming here isn’t great” Izzy said turning around to walked up to her brother but before she got the chance Alec was already on his way down aisle yelling at the girl.


(Your POV)


“You just had to come ruined my wedding didn’t you Y/N” Alec yelled as he made his way toward you.


“Please, I better things to be at then try and ruined your life” You said. “I’m here for The Clave not you, Get over yourself”


“Get over myself? You just crashed your ex’s wedding”


“Alec would you stop, you have no idea why your parents and wife just ran off. But I do so shut up and leave me alone.” You yelled


“She not my wife yet thanks to someone” He said to you while he rolled his eyes. Well it was nice to see things don’t change Alec still rolled his eyes at everything.


“Please, you don’t even love her it’s arranged marriage” you said crossing your arms not losing your stand. Alec step back in shocked. You weren’t suppose to know that he thought no one was.


“How do you know that?” He asked


“Please I work for The Clave I know everything.” You told him. “Now stand back before I tell everyone your little serect”


“You wouldn’t” Alec said getting closer.


“GUYS DID YOU KNO-“ That’s all you could yell before Alec slapped his hand over your mouth. You did the first thing that came to mind and bited his hand.


“Bitch’” he said as he pulled his hand away from your mouth.


“Nice to see your feeling haven’t changed for me” You said with a smile.You could see Jace and Isabelle walking toward you guys with two other people following behind.


“Nice of you to join the party” You said as they got close.


“Why did they have to leave?” Jace asked you with a confuse look.


‘Thanks for the hello, like Lydia said something for The Clave”


“That something would be the attack you mention.” The redheaded girl said. You figuerd it was that girl Clary that had been causeing trouble here.


“That’s correct young one”


“Who did the attack” Alec asked.


“Like I would tell you”


“Y/N” It was Isabelle that said your name. You looked at her. The girl you used to call your best friend was standng in front of you and you have no idea who she was anymore. The one thing you knew was that you couldn’t lied to her, she always saw right through you.


“Please tell us, for me”


“It was Valentine, but you can’t say anything” You told them all. “I’m here to watch everyone”


“Why?” Jace asked.


“So we won’t get attack obviously” Clary said.


“That’s not it is it Y/N?” Jace questioned


“No it’s not, but that’s the one thing I can’t tell you.” You told them. “So could you all please go calm your friends so I can do my job” They all left to go calm others but Alec stayed behind.


“There’s a trailor here isnt there?” Alec questioned. You thought for a moment should you tell him? After all he is Alec but before you had a chance to speak Alec spoke again. “I’m over 18 remember, I can know these things’


“There’s one, The Clave isn’t sure yet who but they know it’s someone in this room.” You told him as both of your guys eyes scanned the room looking for anything out of the ordinary.


“How did you end up working for them” Alec asked.


“If you mean The Clave I’m not really working for them, we are only doing this mission. They needed people that they could trust and we just happened to be it.” You said. “I’m sorry about ruining your wedding, if I had known I would of said no”


“Yeah I know you would of Y/N. It just made me mad to see you here at my wedding, I always thought if I was going to be married if would have been to you” Alec said not daring to look at you.


“I always did too” You told him. If had been so long since you last saw him all you wanted to do was fall into his arms but you knew you couldn’t do that anymore. It ending badly with Alec a lot of anger and hate but in this moment it seem to all fade away.


“I wish I could hate you.” Alec whisper.


“I wish I could hate you too” you said. What happened next was unexpected you both turned and hugged each other. How did two people that love each other become such strangers to one another. In that moment all you could think was a thank you to The Clave because maybe things would be alright even with this war ongoing.

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She flinched when he reached out to push her hair back from her forehead, feeling shame creep up her neck the second her body reacted this instinctively, caving in like a house of cards. She hadn’t meant to pull away, not consciously, not so violently that he noticed. Pain flashed in his eyes. It was something that kept happening and was completely out of her hands, like every part of her body knew to withdraw at his touch, even though her brain, her rationality, told her not to. And she shouldn’t have, because her brain also told her that he was where she felt safe, that he was home.
“What is it?” He was careful, afraid that she wouldn’t want to talk about it, that she would grab her coat and walk out the door without explanation like she so often did when she got upset. Her mind was pure chaos, her head was throbbing painfully. The urge to leave, to run from the situation, made her legs itch and her heart pound faster.
“I-” The words wouldn’t come. She’d never voiced them, never said what fear had been buried inside her for so long. The right to know was his, as was the attempt to finally understand her. So she spoke.
“I feel so incredibly selfish.” It wasn’t what he’d expected at all, she could see that. His brown eyes were wide, his gaze questoning. “I need time. I always need a lot of fucking time to let someone in.”
“I know that.”
“I’ve been hurt in the past.”
“I know-”
“But I know it doesn’t give me an excuse to act like I do. To run from you when things get hard or when you get too close and to be so goddamn unapproachable. Everyone’s been hurt before, everyone’s heart’s been broken at least once and I feel so egoistic to wrap myself in my sadness and use it as an excuse when it’s not.” He waited for her to nod when he reached out again and when she allowed his touch, his fingers entwined with hers. She exhaled with a deep sigh.
“I just don’t think it’s fair of me to always say I’ve been hurt when others have it worse. I don’t think you should be the one that has to endure my moods.”
“But I love you. You’re scared and that’s okay. We have all the time in the world if you want to take things slow. Besides, what does it matter that other people have it worse, as you said? You have the right to remember and to cry and to complain. You have the right to take your time to heal. There is no shame in admitting that you don’t feel ready to open up again.” She glanced up at him with teary eyes and squeezed his hand.
“The pain we feel doesn’t get better or worse if we compare it to other people’s pain, remember that.”
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n.j.

Also caught Michael Rooker’s (Yondu from Guardians of the Galaxy) panel and the man is absolutely insane in the best way possible. Tons of energy, snarky and completely irreverent, after a while he just ran into the crowd and just started answering random questions from attendees who hadn’t even lined up to ask questons. He tried to play this one girl’s ukulele. It was nuts. I would watch him any day of the week.

(It probably didn’t help that the moderator vanished after introducing Rooker and left him to his own devices)

“Hogwarts”au

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Request: Hogwarts au with Calum (also apparently @0kbutmichaelclifford did a hogwarts!5sos night so idk if it’s too late but here’s my thing)


You sigh as you hand in your potion to Slughorn, painfully aware that it isn’t the clear cerulean it’s supposed to be, but rather a murky blue. It doesn’t make it better that he’s the Head of your House, either. Maybe not the right class to be failing.

You hurry out of the class to the Great Hall, where Ashton and Luke await. The two Gryffindors are your best friends, and if that isn’t proof that the Second Wizarding War has changed things, then you don’t know what is. Because yes, there’s still some high-end disgusting Slytherin families who talk of the purity of blood and whatnot, but they’ve been keeping it on the downlow.

For the most part, Slytherins are no longer seen as criminals, which you are a living, breathing proof of. Your Hufflepuff parents didn’t blink an eye when you were sorted into the house of snakes, and Ashton and Luke took a liking to you the second you started arguing about Quidditch with them in third year, completely disregarding the old feud between the two houses.

Now you’re in the beginning of December of your seventh year at Hogwarts, and you really don’t know what you would become with the two blondes. Speaking of which, they wave at you frantically from their spot at the Gryffindor table and you smile in apology to your housemates before heading in that direction.

“Sup losers?“

“Luke’s failing Charms,” Ashton informs you, making Luke huff.

“Whatever. Who needs Charms when you’ve got charm?”

This sends Ashton and you both into a full minute of silence, which you end up breaking with a horrified:

“I don’t think we can be friends anymore.”

“Right,” Luke scoffs. “As if you could possibly survive without my late-night cuddles.”

“Oh, you mean when you smother me in my sleep because you’re sexually deprived?”

“Who says I’m sexually deprived?” Luke asks in an indignant tone, making Ashton snicker.

“No-one needs to say it, between all the jerking off and all the creepy staring at Michael Clifford, you’re pretty obvious.”

“I don’t stare at him.”

“Oh yes, you do,” Ashton and you say in total sync, which causes you to gasp in delight and high-five, while Luke narrows his eyes at you.

“Well, you’re one to talk, Y/N, with your complete heart-eyes for Calum Hood. Maybe there’s a reason you dont push me away when I cuddle you, huh?”

“Shut up,” you say, suddenly feeling your cheeks warm.

You can’t help but send a look to the Ravenclaw table, and there he is in all his glory: Calum Hood, the beautiful caramel-skinned, dark-haired, tattooed Quidditch commentator who has everyone at school wrapped around his finger with his easy grin and devil-may-care attitude. He also happens to be best friends with Michael Clifford, the bad boy of the school and captain of the Ravenclaw Quidditch team on whom Luke is crushing so badly.

But, as the blonde said, you have nothing to say on the matter, because you’ve had a huge thing for Calum for years. Of course everyone has had, at some point of their life, a crush on Calum. It’s just a thing that happens, between how adorable and confident and talented he is at pretty much everything he does, it’s really hard not to fall for him for at least two weeks of your life.

Sadly, you fell in this shithole of feelings for the brunette exactly three years ago and haven’t managed to dig yourself out of it yet. It all started at the Christmas Ball (which had become a regular event) in third year, when he whisked out his muggle guitar and serenaded his date in front of everyone. Now the thing itself was a dare from Michael, as he felt obliged to say repeatedly afterwards. But point is, despite how cheesy it was, you were absolutely awed by his deep, slightly raspy voice, by the way his fingers gently picked at the chords and how his hair curled around his head like a dark halo.

It’s not like you’ve been creeping on him from a distance and have never talked to him. You’re on the Slytherin Quidditch team, so not only have you interacted with Michael a lot (to Luke’s greatest displeasure, even though most of the interaction consisted of playful glares and debates about who was gonna win the Cup), but you’ve also spoken to Calum some, as he comments on every match.

He’s really good at it as well, for someone who isn’t on the team. Apparently he used to play a lot as a kid, but he isn’t competitive enough to actually be part of any team, instead blessing everyone with his mix of technical comments, ridiculous jokes and overall puppy-like excitement.

Yes, okay, you’re pretty gone for him. And it’s awkward. And painful. But hey, at least he doesn’t have a girlfriend anymore and you don’t have to be witness of more heartbreaking pda.

“Y/N? Helloo…”

Luke’s voice cuts through your thoughts and you look up in confusion.

“What?”

“Have you though about who you’re going to the Yule ball with yet?”

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