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“People keep asking me, ‘How are you feeling? What are you feeling?’ I have no answers. Honestly, what can you say about a 19-year-old who dies? Everyone wants to talk about how he died, too, but who cares? One moment in his whole life. I care more about how he lived. And anyone who has a problem with that should remember that he was my brother. This isn’t real. I’m not going home for this. He’s going to be there. I’m going to spend my entire life missing him.”

And then there’s Rachel. Rachel shows up near the episode’s end to see Finn’s memorial and to perform “To Make You Feel My Love.” It was the first song she and Finn sang together in the car. How Lea Michele managed this, I’ll never know. The whole time she was singing, I was thinking of the phoenix song from Harry Potter, about Fawkes singing his beautiful, terrible lament and Harry marveling that the music was inside him, healing his soul somehow, speaking directly to his grief. I was thinking about Dumbledore saying, “Ah, music! A magic beyond all we do here!” And I was thinking Lea Michele knew all that, and this was her gift to the people who loved Finn and Rachel, and who loved Cory Monteith. It’s one of the bravest, most selfless things I’ve ever seen.
—  TV Recap- The Backlot