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okay, i don’t hate kids. i think they’re sort of funny. i like that you can talk to them like an adult and they’ll make sounds like they understand. i taught one kid “phosphorescence” and he looked at me and said, “they could just call it glowing if it means something that glows.” the kid undid the entire science community in one sentence.

but i hate kids.

or really, i hate how they’ve always been expected from me.

when i was five i was given “babies.” i hated the hardness of dolls, disposed of them for dramatic stories between stuffed animals. i knew how to wrap, feed, and care for a baby before i could spell my last name. when i was nine i was already “watching the kids”. i was only four years older than my cousins were. i wanted to go out and play. instead i was expected to have responsibility. by the time i was thirteen all of my friends had told me about how many children they were going to have in their twenties. 

my hips were “child-bearing” hips. my brother was a scientist, or a fireman, or a steamroller. i was going to make a good housewife, or mom, or nanny, or mom, or mom, or mom.

and when my body hurt, i was told it wasn’t really my body, not really, it belonged to my future children. i couldn’t cut or snip or tie anything; i was trapped by the potential energy that hung above me. a boulder, threatening. i couldn’t get tattoos, because what would i tell my children? i couldn’t kiss a girl, because what would i tell the children? i couldn’t be risky or wild or anything but a lady, because what about the children?

and when i said “i don’t want children” - not biologically, at least, not when cancer and depression and a whole other host of terrible things lives inside me - do you know what they said? “it’ll change, wait and see” “it’s not bad” “you’ll get used to it” “when you meet the right man” “you don’t want to be lonely”.

i don’t hate kids. i’m great with them. 

but then i’m told again that my life will be forfeit to them - something in me snaps angry. “wait until you have kids” “you should travel before you have children” “you’ll be more happy.” 

i hate kids! i’ve snarled. i don’t mean it at all. but god. please, leave me alone. i don’t want to be a biological mom. 

it’s like we’re born with a uterus and told “this is your whole life. your singular purpose. your job.” 

i want to be my own purpose. not here for the sake of passing genes on.

it’s kind of incredible how much pixar has backpedaled over the last couple of years, from the standpoint of character design 

these were the kind of characters designs they had when they did their first movie with humans as their main cast 

despite being cg all of the characters are visually distinct from each other and they look like 2d figures translated into a 3d environment

now it’s just???

all their human characters kind of lack that visual distinction and they’re all just? cute? 

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at first i just wanted to practise expressions but then it got out of hand :D

anonymous asked:

Michael, how did you think of your YouTuber name? :0c

He suggested the name to me and I guess it sorta stuck-? 

I wasn’t very popular then, obviously, so I didn’t use the account as much, but I made the YouTube channel during the summer after my junior year in high school. So, that was about four years ago. 

Wow… four years. I can’t believe it. It feels so long ago, haha. But it still hurts like it was yesterday.

what we’ve seen of kirishima’s backstory so far really puts his entire character into better perspective and makes his dynamic with bakugou even more complex and interesting.

like, when we first meet kirishima officially, he already has a fair bit of confidence. he stands up front during the first hero exercises, and doesn’t shy away from commenting on what’s happening. during the usj arc, he and bakugou are the first people to run towards danger when they try to attack kurogiri.

the middle school kirishima would’ve frozen, but a few months later he’s literally the first of a group of heroes to rush in. whether or not that was a smart move, i have to wonder if kirishima consciously made that choice to prove something to himself, or if whatever changed his mind about applying to yuuei had already changed his initial responses so much.

and the fact that he ends up alone with bakugou– a character who is his opposite in many ways– is significant, too. at usj, kirishima says he wants to rejoin the others, but bakugou pretty quickly convinces him to go after the villains. so i have to think that kirishima initially thinks of the safe route, but then sees brash and overconfident bakugou’s response and thinks “he’s acting how i think a hero should act in this situation.” i mean, by that point it’s an obvious storytelling choice to have midoriya and bakugou present for the big fight. todoroki was more of an unknown variable at that point, but we very quickly learn his importance. but kirishima is the forth person there, and we’re not immediately made aware of his significance, at least not to the same scale as the others.

and it’s also after that arc that kirishima’s attitude towards bakugou shifts. in the first few indirect interactions they have, kirishima is awed or unsure about bakugou– calling him out as erratic during his fight with midoriya, for instance. but after this, kirishima volunteers to be on bakugou’s team during the sports festival, and from then on they’re friendly (or as friendly as bakugou is towards anyone).

so now we’ve pulled back a few months and seen where kirishima was starting from. he had no confidence in his own abilities, and lacked the kind of brash and thoughtless courage that usually characterizes hero-types. but he acquires that courage, and i think that’s a pretty amazing transformation.

contrast that with bakugou, who has no shortage of courage and pride, but who can’t admit his vulnerabilities to the point that they eat away at him and make him dangerously unstable. he and kirishima literally have opposite starting points. one of them has no faith in himself at all, and the other only has faith in himself and nothing else.

bakugou needs someone he’s on equal footing with to help him learn how to have trust in others and allow himself to accept help from them. kirishima gives him that, because bakugou never feels that kirishima is condescending to him. and that’s likely because kirishima’s admiration of bakugou’s courage and convictions is so genuine– he’s been hearing about bakugou’s strength since middle school. but he also has gotten close enough to see bakugou as an actual person, and can therefore understand his feelings.

kirishima needs someone who can build him up and help him believe in himself. at first glance, bakugou might seem like the worst candidate for this, but he’s actually the best. kirishima knows that bakugou is never going to compliment him just to spare his feelings– so when bakugou says that kirishima is strong, or accepts kirishima’s help, he knows exactly how much bakugou’s good opinion is worth. he can believe it, because he knows bakugou is never going to do anything just to be nice.

so kirishima starts out believing in others but not himself, and bakugou starts out believing in himself but not others. they’ve slowly started to meet in the middle, and i think they’ll both be essential to each other’s growth going forward.