it’s interesting being someone who followed homestuck as a serial reader for a LONG time
back when vriska and terezi’s arc was first taking shape and hussie introduced Troll Romance™ the whole fandom was SO invested in black vriska/terezi. like, we all assumed that vriska and terezi’s interactions + the introduction of quirky alien romance meant that they were Hate Gay for each other and that was it
and funnily enough, hussie actually – in the comic itself – pushed back against vriska/terezi as a spades ship. i remember reading the update where dave was like (i am paraphrasing here) “ohhh u hate hate vriska” and terezi was like “no it’s not like that!!” and i remember being incredibly frustrated by it. i wasn’t even really into vriska/terezi back then, but it was like….. god hussie just let them be gay come on man
HOWEVER…. years later, after watching terezi and vriska’s story come SOOO far…….. i understand why hussie didn’t like black vriska/terezi and why he dropped hints In Comic that it wasn’t a thing.
vriska and terezi’s issues were more human than that. it wasn’t Weirdo Alien Romance – we found out years later it ran deeper than that. their struggle was bound to heartbreak and trauma and loneliness and social issues – a complex web of suffering & pain they endured together and forced each other to endure as punishment. two broken girls trying their utmost to understand goodness and love when it was so foreign to them… trying to piece together where they belong in each others’ lives when the idyllic softness of their childhood gave way to their miserable pre-teen years and horrendous teenage years.
and back then i was SO frustrated but now? i totally understand
being Hate Gay for each other strips away the complex and incredibly human emotions vriska and terezi were actually feeling towards each other, and i actually admire hussie for telling their story even though the fandom begged for something simpler. i don’t know how much he’d planned it all out, or if he just made it up as he went along, but it turned out beautiful and significant.
terezi and vriska didn’t hate each other – their frustration, anger, tears, and anguish were never borne out of Passionate Hate… they were borne out of love. the root of terezi’s grief over killing vriska was not just guilt or morality or losing her Hot Hate Crush and not having someone to Argue With Romantically – it was because she missed her. because she cared about her.
vriska came back and we saw their history and there was so much laughter, so many smiles… the last real conversation they had was private, them tucked away behind the fridge while vriska offered up love and support to terezi that she would never give to anyone else, and terezi poured her grief out to vriska while vriska listened and helped her. their bond was always built on love. terezi killed vriska while angry at her, in a fit of pique, and it was not the guilt that ate her alive – it was the hole in her heart vriska left because she missed her so dearly.