I feel like "Telescope" by Cage the Elephant would be a good song if it was being sung about Ward.
“A pair of eyes look back at me, he walks and talks and looks like me. Sits around inside his house, from room to room he moves about. Fills his life with pointless things and wonders how it all turns out.”
Omg it’s definitely a sad Ward song and I love it. Y’all got great taste in music.
remember the night you walked away from me? i looked at you with so much anger but so much love at the same time. i hated you, but i was in love with you. i would have done anything for you to stay but instead i just looked at you until you left.
since that night i’ve lost control of myself and everything around me. taking baths were peaceful; calm. but now i want to force myself under and stay there because really, that’s the only time it’s quiet. medicine was something you took when you were sick, or when you had physical pain. now it’s the only thing keeping me together every night when it’s dark & i’m alone. look what you’ve done to me.. i was such a happy girl. i appreciated the sun and the way it shined. i appreciated the way the sky could be blue on one side, but dark & gray on the other. i appreciated that an ugly sky that dropped rain could create a path of so many colors. i had a love for the stars and the way they made the moon look so big. i loved everything and i felt a deep happiness growing out of me, mistakingly feeling as if it could reflect off of you. i miss you; i miss you everyday. i couldn’t bear your absence, but now i can stand pain, and i welcome it in all forms.
Joe had a boring family, a pointless job, a forgettable life and an unremarkable death. 200 years after his death, Joe is remembered as one of humanity’s most remarkable and significant historical figures.
I think the hardest part about falling in love is that you no longer have control over your own emotions. one word, one look could change your entire day, whether it be good or bad. someone has the ability to get inside your head, learn everything about you but it’s never guaranteed that they’re going to stick around. but i think the worst part is that you don’t even have control over falling in love. it just happens, even if you don’t want it to. it’ll either break your heart or make you feel alive, but the most awful truth of it all is that we all die at some point, with or without them.
me on the inside:
i constantly think about dying and how much id rather be dead than stay alive for another year filled with pain and instability. life is pointless and my existence is meaningless so i might as well just do it?!