the only time i will ever read one of these

anonymous asked:

I'm literally stalk-reading all of your old prompts and working my way through them and holy shite you're amazing! Your writing is awesome and you only make me ship skimmons more and more! I'm literally savouring every one I read because it's hard to find good skimmons fics, but when I'm done, I can't wait to fill your asks with prompts and admiration. Keep being amazing!! I'm honestly such a huge fan love, thanks for keeping the skimmons ship alive!

Anon! This is literally one of the sweetest messages I’ve ever gotten. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my stuff and to send me this message. You’ve pretty much made my whole week!

Originally posted by awbuckyno

I’m glad that my fics make you ship Skimmons! I mean honestly those nerds ship themselves so the writing is the easy part. Thank you for sharing in my feels with me and thanks for making my week and making the Skimmons fandom the best fandom ever!

reasons why haggar is a lesbian

made by me, a certified lesbian

• she’s the most powerful villain/person in the show
     • like seriously no one has anything on her
     • and lesbians/gay people are always more powerful than straight people

• no one fucking…listens to her
     • which is relatable so i mean…

• the only time she smiles around a man is when she’s torturing him
     • do i even need to explain this

• she’s magical and magic is gay
     • proof: have you ever read a fantasy book because holy shit even if the obviously        gay characters end up being straight (looking at you sarah j. maas) they’re still            pretty fuckign gay

• what straight girl dresses like this:

conclusion: haggar is a lesbian

We ain't ever getting older

When Keyleth visits Vasselheim, she doesn’t expect to run into an impossibly old friend. But Vesh is a vain and demanding goddess, and will not let her follower die, not when he is the only one, the only thing granting her power. (or, Kash and Keyleth get a drink, just like old times)

Based on this post by @luxheroica about Vesh granting Kash an (unwanted) immortality.

tw for vague suicidal ideation and the horror of outliving everything and everyone you ever knew

[read on ao3]

It comes to pass, through an unexpected series of events, that Keyleth arrives in Vasselheim on a cloudy weekday in early Fall.

It looks much like it did when she first visited the ancient bastion of civilization some two, three hundred years ago. The peoples of the city are still grim and weathered; the walls are still manned by guards in a mix of armors, each sworn to their god. She recognizes the dark uniform of those who serve the Raven Queen with a bittersweet twinge of fondness, and the followers of Kord with a swell of amusement. She weathers their stares as she passes, head held high, headdress adorned with fall foliage. She is golden autumn today, at odds with the grey solemnity of the city. Even the temples of stone and metal glint with a different vibrance than the thrum of life she carries with her. The air here here presses down, heavy with age in a way she finds unbecoming of the element. But, this is not her land nor her city. She has picked the hills upon which to stake her flag. This is not one of them.

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k*ramels: a summary

ah yes you know, all those reasons she just plucks out of thin air, like manipulation, disrespect, misogyny

pro tip: next time just type “i’m homophobic.” you’ll save yourself a lot of time

the only thing i’m going to say about this one is that it’s the funniest thing i have ever read

Professor - three.
  • Baekhyun x Reader
  • Angst x AU
  • Word count: 1414
  • Warnings: SMUT

Description: A Professor who is willing to cross boundaries and a student that is not, feelings and minds change, will yours?

A/N: OKAY THERE IS SMUT. You wanted it, you got it. It is the worst smut I have ever written/read/reread/rerereread. I don’t like to go into deep details with smut because it just doesn’t feel right. It seems rushed and I’m sorry.

one. // two. // three. // four. // five. (soon)

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Would you mind doing an imagine or a one shot with either Rossi, Hotch or Reid where the reader and them are getting married and she wants to keep her last name and she ends up keeping her last name even though everyone else is against it except the guy you choose? Also I absolutely love your writing it makes me so happy to find someone that writes absolutely everything. I also get so excited when I finally have enough time to sit an read your work.

I can do this!  I hope that you enjoy it, because here is your one-shot, comin’ ‘atcha!

“You aren’t taking his last name?”

“She isn’t taking your last name?”

“Have you talked to her about it?  I bet if you did, she would.”

“What about hyphenation?”

“It’s just tradition, it doesn’t mean anything.”

The two of you had heard it all.  Ever since you entrusted parts of your wedding to Spencer with the team, you knew it was only a matter of time before they found out that you weren’t taking Spencer’s last name.

And they were trying everything in their power to change it.

“I’m sorry that that they keep bringing it up,” Spencer would murmur lowly in your ear.

But never did he outright say that he was alright with it.

“Spencer?” you ask one evening as you mindlessly twirl your pasta.

“Yes?” he asks as he takes a sip of his drink and smiles at you.

“Does it bother you that I’m not taking your last name?”

You watched his reaction closely.  You had picked up a few tips on how to read people better since you had been with Spencer, and it served you well sometimes.

But this time you had a really hard time reading him, and you were concerned.

“Has someone said something to you again?” he asks.

You didn’t want to tell him that Garcia had asked if you had asked him.  You didn’t want to tell him that she felt it wasn’t right that you hadn’t.

But it had gotten your cogs turning, even though you had stormed out of her office lair angry.

“No,” you state.

“You’re lying,” Spencer calls you out.

“It doesn’t matter,” you shrug.

“It does,” Spencer emphasizes.

“Answer the question,” you ask pointedly.

The two of you looked at each other for a while.  The restaurant faded away, and details of the wedding became obscure as panic began to flood your mind.

But Spencer’s voice pierced through the stress and the worry, and reached down to the scared little girl who was afraid of making someone she loved angry.

“It doesn’t bother me,” Spencer says.

You read his expression, looking for indications that he was lying.

But he knew what you were doing, and it caused him to smile.

“Really,” he lulls lowly as he takes your hand across the table, “it doesn’t bother me at all.”

His fingers began to play with your engagement ring.  The two of you looked down and smiled at it, thinking back to that beautiful morning where you had rolled over and he had been holding it between his fingers, his hair mussed from sleep and his eyes clouded over with anxiousness.

It had been so simple, and so heartfelt, and you had pulled him into your arms and covered his entire body with kisses that morning as the word “yes” tumbled from not your lips, but Spencer’s, time and time again.

“Taking a man’s last name is a very old tradition that took the place of a written deed,” Spencer began. “Taking a man’s last name after the dowry for the woman was exchanged was a way for him to imprint upon her that she was his property, quite literally.”

You looked up into his eyes to find him staring at you.

“You are not my property, Y/N,” Spencer says earnestly.  “You are my partner.  My equal.  Our last names…they don’t have to match for me to know you love me.”

Your eyes were beginning to mist over as Spencer lets go of your hand and brings it up to cup your cheek.

“You marrying me says all of that,” he says lightly.

And as you nuzzle your cheek into his warm, smooth skin, the waitress comes back around with fresh drinks as the smell of your food begins to waft up through your nostrils.

“Wanna finish dinner and get dessert at home?” you ask sultrily.

You giggled as Spencer licked his lips and darted his eyes up to the waitress.

“To go containers, please?” he asks quickly.

And you threw your head back in laughter as the waitress scampered off quickly.

some of my hcs for the perc'ahlia kids:

their firstborn is a daughter and she grows up to be an insanely good marksman, just like her parents. next are the twins; a boy and a girl which makes everybody in vox machina laugh, especially vex and vax themselves.

after they have the twins, vex suddenly remember percy had like six siblings and puts her foot down and says “percival i love you and i love our kids BUT IM DRAWING THE LINE HERE”

(percy is perfectly happy with that.)

their oldest trains in archery like her mother, but also learns to use a sword just as dangerously. their only boy isn’t actually that interested in combat (although, like his big sister and his parents, he’s a remarkable shot). he spends most of his time reading and researching.

their youngest girl is the one who doesn’t get vex’s darkvision and gets percy’s farsightedness instead. she’s the saltiest quarter elf you’ve ever met.

she also can’t shoot for shit, which frustrates her ENDLESSLY because how can she be her parents’ kid and not be able to shoot? she dabbles in blades with her auntie cass and uncle vax but never really takes a liking to it. then she watches her auntie keyleth cast magic when she’s in town one time and she just INSTANTLY knows that she wants to be like that. (she inherited her mother’s fondness of nature, after all, so vex and percy aren’t sure why they’re surprised when she tells them that she’s studying with keyleth.)

I really don’t like reading about romance. It just bores me! The girls always fall in love with the boys so fast! Personally, I can only have one crush at a time, and none of my crushes are ever that intense. I think writers just exaggerate what love feels like

of all the horrific things that happened in animorphs, there’s one i can never forget

so at one point they discover a few androids, created by a peace-loving alien race who programmed them to be unable to engage in violence of any form, despite their immense power

as a result, when their creators were brutally wiped out, they could do nothing but watch

and at some point, i forget if it’s immediately following their discovery or some time later, one of them finds out how to alter his programming and goes to bail the animorphs out of deep shit

and whatever it was he did, it was so horrific that they skated right over it

this is a series whose first book explicitly describes a good alien being viciously eaten alive

whatever that unbound android did, it was disturbing enough to haunt these battle-hardened kids who regularly fight and kill normally peaceful aliens they know are being controlled against their will

b r u h

I have a severely depressed friend. Her mom is dying of cancer. Her dad left when her mom got diagnosed. Her aunt tries to pay bills but often they don’t get payed. My friend, she doesn’t have much. She does alright in school, and she spends most nights at my house. The only time I ever see her smile is when she is reading. She doesn’t even realize she is doing it, but sometimes I see her laying on her stomach, hands under her chin, re-reading one of my books. And she is smiling. And it is the most beautiful thing ever, because the rest of the time she doesn’t see a world that is bright enough to smile about, but delved into a world with magic, or with heroes, a world made of just ink, paper, and imagination. There she is happy.

Brother Trouble - Enoch O'Connor Imagine One Shot (requested)

a/n: hellooo :))) here’s a requested imagine 

Heyy!!! Could you do a One Shot where the reader is Jacob’s twin and she and Enoch start dating in secret but they get caught by Jacob and Emma while they were having some “time alone” ??? Please!! Thanks <3 (also, actually you’re the only reason why i’m in tumblr, your OS are the best thing ever!! )

“what’s that you’re reading?” y/n asked, looking sideways at enoch.

“uh… it’s that book you brought with when you came here.”

“oh? the kill order or shakespeare?”

“shakespeare.” enoch replied with a nod.

“what? how can you even read it? i barely understand what’s in the book.”

“well… i’m almost a hundred years old, so i know shakespearian english very well, compared to you.” enoch said with a grin. “i don’t understand a thing from that other book.”

y/n giggled. “sorry, i forgot that you don’t know all the modern things.”

“i just don’t see the point of them.” enoch shook his head and began to read again, only to be interrupted a few seconds later.

“what do you see the point of?” came y/n’s voice, quieted. she had moved closer to her boyfriend, their faces quite close to each other. enoch turned to her quickly, almost scaring her. he watched her eyes for a moment and then a soft smile appeared on his lips.

“you.” he replied just as softly. y/n smiled widely and leaned closer to enoch before kissing his lips. enoch kissed her back and almost took her in his lap, but he stopped himself. “wait a moment,” he spoke quietly, almost whispered, “your brother could see us, you know.”

y/n rolled her eyes. “why do you remind me about him once in a while? can we just-“ y/n spoke and noticed enoch had positioned her body a bit further away from him. she furrowed her eyebrows. “why did you do that?” she asked.

enoch studied his book and then y/n heard someone clearing their throat. she turned her head to the right and saw none other than her twin and his girlfriend. y/n sighed and rolled her eyes again. she pushed herself up to her feet. “what?” she said to the two standing before while her hands were on her hips.

“uh…” jacob trailed off, “can we talk? in private, maybe?” he requested. y/n shrugged her shoulders.

“sure.” she said and followed her twin brother around the bushes. once they were alone, y/n raised an eyebrow at him.

“so, you and uh, enoch.” jacob said. his sister nodded. “has that-have you two…”

“c’mon, stop that and say what you want to.”

jacob huffed. “how long have you and him been… an item?”

“for… a month or two.” y/n said after doing some counting in her head.

“that long? and-well-why didn’t you tell me?” jacob was a bit shocked.

“why? oh, why-because you’re not best friends with enoch and you think he’s not right for me. you said that once to me.” y/n said. “but you don’t know what he’s like!”

“i was just looking out for you! how could you and him live in the same house if you broke up or something?”

“why do you think we’d break up?”

“because that’s what always happens.” jacob justified. “remember what happens in movies? someone always breaks another’s heart.”

y/n rolled her eyes and laughed. “they’re movies! and you really don’t know enoch like i do.”

jacob was silent. y/n patted his shoulder.

“just try and get to know him, jake.” y/n said. “and there will be no problems.” she said and started to turn around and walk back around the bushes.

as if she knew that jacob opened his mouth to say something, she spoke again. “and don’t try to play the protective big brother now. i’m 14 minutes older than you.” y/n swayed her pointer finger in the air.

Astrology is neutral.

If you guys have been following my blog, I think I’ve said this statement countless times in countless ways. And really, I am not kidding. Everything about astrology is neutral. I think a lot of people can misunderstand astrology for what it is because of their own perceptions, and because concepts that are made to simply help one understand astrology can actually limit their views in the long run. I’ll explain.

Since astrology is neutral, the “doomed” dilemma should logically cease to exist. Have you ever read Saturn in your chart and thought, “Wow, I’m so screwed?” Have you ever found your crush’s placements, only to be crushed that he’s a Sagittarius, and you’re a Cancer? I think the main misconception here is that with anything that is seemingly negative in astrology (malefics and challenging aspects,) the only outcome that can result from those things are negative, which is not true at all. The signs are neutral and the aspects are neutral. Period.

How is it that you can see an Aries and Cancer couple last forever, but see a Virgo and Capricorn couple fail? How is it possible to see a couple with hopeless synastry make it through, but a couple with a trine-filled synastry chart fail? All of that would be possible, if astrology was neutral. The signs are neutral because there is a a positive and a negative expression. The aspects are neutral because there are good and bad expressions. 

To be specific, having a square aspect can definitely be challenging, which is the negative expression everybody cries about, but overcoming that challenge is definitely rewarding and fulfilling, which is the positive expression some people forget to see. Not so bad anymore, right? With harmonious aspects, a lot of people can see how easy it is to channel your positive characteristics, but people tend to forget that with easy access and harmony to a certain part of your chart can bring laziness and ignorance. With harmony comes a lack of a need to improve. If you can already do a certain thing so well, why look at it? And since the harmonious energy comes so naturally (especially with a trine,) it can bring ignorance. Since the harmonious energy comes to you so naturally, you can think that other people are able to handle energies nicely like you, which is definitely not the case. Not so good anymore, right? With that being said, aspects are neutral.

And if astrology’s neutral, it really gets rid of a question people tend to have with astrology: Does astrology limit free will? If astrology is neutral, it will most definitely not. If astrology was viewed in a biased way, then yes. Whether free will exists or not is another topic, but for those who do believe in free will, the fact that astrology is neutral should give you hope. Imagine having the freedom and ability to transform that ugly Sun square Mars aspect of yours into something great. Imagine having the freedom and ability to also transform that beautiful Sun trine Pluto into something truly terrifying. With the neutrality of astrology, you can really do whatever you want, and that can either be very comforting or terrifying.

Astrology is really not supposed to limit your abilities. It’s really just tragic that some people will let their own perceptions of astrology limit them from what they can do. Astrology is not meant to limit the way you think, it’s supposed to make you understand yourself, others, and the world around you. The moment you let some “astrological knowledge” limit the way you think, you are not practicing astrology.

The only thing that is not neutral is ourselves. We are not neutral because we are people that ultimately decide what we do with the natal charts given to us. The natal charts we have affect how we see certain things, which ultimately brings bias. Couples, not aspects, ruin relationships. People, not malefic planets, ruin their own lives. With that being said, we are completely responsible for our successes and failures, not the stars.

Review of 13x16 “Who is He? And What is He to You?”

So, this is the first time I have written down my analysis of an episode.  There was just so much to think about in this episode because of how well it was written, directed, and performed that I needed to write it down, even I am the only one who ever reads it.  

Thoughts on the opening scenes:First, I love that Jackson had the narration and that he talked about being unable to say what you really want to.  This has been a recurring issue not only with Japril but across the show.  So many times I yell at my screen, “Just talk to each other!” So at least the lack of communication was somewhat acknowledged.  

It seems that Catherine knows Robert Avery is in Montana which surprised me a bit.  I would like to know how long she has known, but I doubt we will ever get an answer to that.  Either way, she knew and sent April because as controlling and manipulative as she is, she is also wise.  I saw a lot of people wondering why April came in a cab and if Japril are still living together.  To me, this was just another way to show how divided they are going into this episode.  

I also was surprised to see the ongoing theme of April replacing Meredith was still present in this episode.  I like that April is getting more recognition and credit because she deserves it, but I expected them to drop this story once Grey came back from suspension.  I will be interested to see if it continues.  

Jackson’s snarkiness with April caused a lot of eye rolls as well, and as much as I would prefer he not be this way with her, this allowed us to see that April chose to put up with it.  She easily could have said, “You’re being a jerk.  I’m out.”  several episodes ago, but she knows him well enough to get that something more is going on.  She lets him be angry because he needs to be and she deals because that is what we do for the people we love.  We love them even at their worst.  

The real story: In my opinion, one of the most impressive things about the writing of this episode was how well Elisabeth Finch paralleled Japril’s story with the surgery and Jackson meeting his dad.  This story has two children in it, one boy and one girl.  Let’s start with the boy.  When we meet Dr. Cordon he seems cowardly for forcing Jackson and April to tell that father his son has no chance and they want his organs.  I think this scene is supposed to parallel losing Samuel for Japril.  They were, in a way, forced to lose Samuel.  They could not save him, and although they didn’t want to, terminating the pregnancy was the best thing to do.  So, although they don’t want to tell this father they cannot save his son, they must.  And then they must convince him donating his organs is the best thing he can do.  Jackson bringing up Samuel in this scene was the first time we have really heard them mention him besides JTM.  This loss is still very real and present for both of them.

Then we meet the girl.  To me, this girl, Caroline, represents Harriet in a way.  Caroline needs her parents help.  She cannot speak so they must be her voice and try to make things better for her.  Of course, Harriet is too young to speak and completely depends on Jackson and April.  She needs them to make things better for her as well, but in both situations, they don’t quite know how.  Again, this is why Jackson mentions to her mothers that he is a dad.  He understands needing to advocate for his daughter and wanting the best for her.  He doesn’t always know what that is, but he will always try to figure it out.

 The “I don’t make promises that I don’t keep” line is of course a reference to April telling Jackson, “You are not a person who makes promises he doesn’t keep” in JTM.  And for the most part this is true. Jackson keeps his word to everyone, except April.  Regardless of whose fault the divorce was or whether it was right or not, it happened because Jackson pushed for it.  And even though the show has done a poor job of showing him acknowledge that he realizes this, I believe he does.  From big things like April and Harriet almost dying in 12x24 to little things like his loss of appetite when April went on her date, he still feels that pull to April and he must at least consider that he made the wrong choice.  

Caroline’s first plan of treatment is a throat transplant.  This will get rid of her biggest problem, the tumor, and still allow her to speak.  But it falls through.  In the scene where April talks to the mothers alone, she says, “The best way to help your daughter is to do the laryngectomy…At this point, I really think it is her best chance.” So here is the thing about fixing major issues in our life.  No one can do it for us.  Caroline losing her donor throat represents the idea that no one can fix the issues Jackson and April are dealing with besides Jackson and April.  Caroline will survive with the laryngectomy, but she will be no better off really.  The tumor would be gone but she would lose her voice.  Trading one awful thing for another.  Just as Japril would survive if they didn’t deal with their issues.  If they just left things as they are, they would both survive, but it would leave them with a permanent whole in their life just like the one Caroline would literally have.  

(Unimportant Info - beautiful scenery, loved April’s breast pump scene, loved the Chinese food with extra fortune cookies)

Jackson finally sees his father.  This demon has been haunting him for years.  We have seen hints of it, but I am so glad Jackson finally confronted him because he was projecting all of his abandonment issues on to April.  The scene where April finds Jackson at the diner is so good.  Jackson is so hurt and Jesse played that perfectly.  April, of course, takes his anger because she knows him so well, and above everything she is just worried about him.  It is heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time.  And then that line, “I didn’t bail on anyone!”  That is really what this is all about for Jackson.  As much as he wants to know his dad, he is also scared as hell that he might be like him.  And here is the one person he thinks he might have bailed on telling him he is bailing on a patient.  Like I said, heartbreaking and beautiful.  

I like that we got the small moment between Robert and April.  Of course it was put there so April could realize that he is Jackson’s father, but regardless, I like that they met.  They are both incredibly influential to Jackson for very different reasons and they should know each other.

In the scene where Jackson wakes April up early, the first thing he says when she opens the door is, “We still need to find a way to help Caroline.”  The first thing he thought of that morning is that he and April have things they need to fix.  He says they need to figure out how to fix Caroline, but again I think this line is about them still needing to find a way to fix their relationship.  And I also love that even though he knows he was pretty awful the night before, he doesn’t even hesitate to knock on her door.  He knows she will answer and help him.  Because she is April.  He knows her as well as she knows him.  And I actually love that he walked into her room as he told her to get dressed.  It shows that their comfort level with each other is still there.  Maybe she changed in the bathroom or maybe she didn’t.  I’m sure she probably breastfeeds in front of him, especially right after getting out of the hospital.  She would have needed his help for absolutely everything, so maybe undressing is not a big deal to them.  Either way, the fans certainly caught this moment.

Let’s move to the first scene in the lab where Jackson and April are bickering.  It starts with Jackson saying “I hate this.  I don’t see how we can do anything but the laryngectomy, but I hate the laryngectomy.”  Of course he does.  With the laryngectomy, Caroline loses her voice and the parallel here with Japril is that the laryngectomy means they don’t figure out a way to really heal or fix things.  They settle.  They take the easy way, probably stay co-parents, maybe friends, but really they hate this option - they hate the laryngectomy.  But there don’t seem to be any other options.   The scene in the lab, to me, was them going over the obstacles in their relationship.  They start by acknowledging that they do not want to do the laryngectomy, but also, they are running out of time.  Jackson saying he was drunk is a substitute for him saying he needs to deal with his dad, which is a huge obstacle for them.  April says that Jackson doesn’t want her there, which I don’t think is true, but her saying this acknowledges the divide that has strengthened between them recently.  Then Jackson brings up April’s friendship with Catherine, and we all know Catherine has created many problems for them.  She may be helping now, but that has not always been the case.  April argues that her relationship with Catherine started before Japril became romantic, but even when they were friends Jackson wasn’t comfortable with April and his mom’s relationship.  "Stop facebooking my mom!“  Then their differences in financial status and upbringing are brought up. "Your mom says the difference between you and I…” As much as these two are meant to be together, they come from very different worlds and see things differently.  This line reflects those issues..  But the conversation is cut short because of the 911 page.  Time is almost up.  If they are going to fix this, they must do it fast.

So Jackson gets the 911 page.  Caroline’s parents want more.  They want their daughter whole and healed and not just the easy fix.  April tries to tell them, “We’ve gone through every possible alternative.  There comes a point when you have to hear…We’ve been down every road.  Every one.  There are no other options.  We do the laryngectomy, Caroline lives.  It’s that simple.”  I can only imagine how many times Jackson and April must have went over every alternative for their relationship in their own heads.  But since they refused to talk to each other, none of the options seemed like they could work.  The easier choice was to choose to settle for less than what they really wanted.  Luckily Caroline refuses to do that.  She wants her voice, and Jackson promises that he and April will find a way to get it back for her.  

Outside of the hospital April finally tells Jackson he made a promise he can’t keep.  Jackson can’t possibly come up with an idea to save her voice and they should do the laryngectomy.  He is confident they can until April tells him she knows about his father.  “He’s the whole reason we’re here!”  And she’s right.  Not just in Montana, but in this frustrating, difficult place in their relationship.  Jackson’s father and his trust issues and inability to let go of his abandonment are what led them to this moment  - completely in love but so alone.  He is the whole reason we are here. 

The transition from Facetiming with Harriet to sitting in silence could not have been directed any better by Kevin.  The shift in tone was almost tangible.  I felt physically uncomfortable watching them sit in silence.  And then finally Jackson told April everything that he had been holding on to for years.  And she responded perfectly.  She listened, which was all he needed.  And then she pushed him to go confront his father.  No one else could have done this for Jackson.  No one.  

Jesse’s acting in the scene where he confronts Robert was some of his best.  His little decisions like not lifting his arms to hug him and the absolute shattered look in his eyes when Robert says he couldn’t be torn away from his diner in Montana were fantastic.  There was no remorse or apology.  Jackson had waited years for this moment, and this man was still able to let him down even more than he already had.  But he also gave Jackson some things to think about.  “Are you happy?”  “I was born into this life, but she was born for it.”  There is no way those lines didn’t instantly make him think of April.  

One of my favorite scenes of the whole episode begins with the coffee apology.  Kevin’s camera angle was perfect.  We hear Jackson say, “Hey” in that voice he only uses for April.  The camera focuses on the coffee in Jackson’s hand and then transitions to April smiling up at Jackson.  While we all would have loved a great speech from Jackson, somehow this was enough.  It has been awhile since we have seen such a sweet gesture from Jackson to April but this was all she needed to know he was sorry.  The way the writing weaves the discussion of Caroline’s surgery seamlessly with Jackson’s explanation of what happened with his dad is some of the best writing of the entire series, I think.  The two are completely intertwined. Jackson must let go of the past in order to move forward, as the tagline said.  He must let go of his anger with his father to move forward with April, but how do they get there?  How do they fully heal Caroline without just settling for the laryngectomy?  “Her guts for her throat,” he realizes.  “Then she’d be her own donor…You think it will work?”April asks.  “No, maybe, yeah.”  “Well which one do you wanna go with?”  They have to heal themselves.  Not even Jackson meeting his dad can heal them.  They have to fix things from within, together, just as Caroline is essentially fixing herself. Will it work?  They aren’t entirely sure, but they decide to go for it.

Dr. Cordon argues that this has never been done before.  And it hasn’t.  When Shonda wants to end a couple, she ends them.  Japril are divorced.  The papers are signed.  So to put them back together is new and different and never been done.  And we all love it. 

Jackson steps up and accepts the Avery name.  The shadow of his father not being able to handle being an Avery is not looming over him anymore.  He is not his father.  He does keep his promises, and he certainly doesn’t bail on his family.  He realizes that now, even if it took him awhile to get there.

The surgery scene.  The music.  The looks.  The silence. “I’ll see it.”  Jackson and April are literally healing Caroline and figuratively healing themselves.  They work together to use Caroline’s body to heal itself and they work together to heal their relationship as well.  And that camera angle over April’s shoulder where Jackson is watching her.  That moment is when he realizes that he could not have done this without her.  Talking to his dad, saving Caroline - it all happened because she was there.  She is and always has been exactly who he needs.  At the end of the surgery, April ask, “This is gonna work right?” And Jackson confidently replies, “We did it.”

The hotel scene.  The parallels to the hotel scenes in San Francisco were perfect here.  As a fan, I appreciate that they put in details they know we would catch.  I also appreciate that neither Jackson or April show any hesitation.  They have both grown so much that they are completely sure at this point of what they want.  And those looks. The chemistry with these two is unbelievable.  I can’t say enough about how great this scene is.

The next morning was almost more satisfying to see as a fan than the hallway scene (almost…).  Again we saw that they had no regrets with their choice to be together.  The lighting, the bed sheets, their emotions - everything is light and bright.  Everything is hopeful and positive.  And this is April’s apology scene the way the coffee cup was Jackson’s.  April telling Jackson he is a good father and that he never bailed on her and Harriet, is everything Jackson needed to hear to 100% let go of his fear of becoming his father.  These few, important lines allowed Jackson to go back to Robert and tell him that he doesn’t need him.  He met him, and now he can move on.  The shot of Jackson’s back walking confidently out the door of the diner into the sunlight was another really nice addition from Kevin.  Jackson is literally leaving the past behind him and moving toward his future.  

In case they had any doubts about their decision, Caroline is completely healed.  They go to check on her and she has her voice.  And we get another adorable scene of them communicating with only their eyes.  

The episode ends with Jackson narrating, again, about how important it is to speak up.  “We lose our words because the stakes are so high”  The camera shows Jackson and April looking at each other.  “And we have so much to lose” And we see the Avery family, Catherine, Jackson, April, and Harriet, reunited.  April asks for a ride home, to her home with Jackson, to signify that there is no more division between them as there was at the beginning of the episode.  

And this is why when Jesse and Sarah have been giving their scripted answer that Japril could go in several different directions, I don’t believe them.  If they were going to just stay friends after this episode, Caroline would have had the laryngectomy and lost her voice.  If they were going to split up completely, Caroline probably would have died.  But she was healed completely, and so were they.  And it wasn’t just their friendship that was healed.  That was not a good-bye night together.  So, when they tease that it could go any way, I think that is just to keep us on our toes until the end of the season where something else is waiting for us.  Could I be wrong?  Of course!  Shonda has definitely surprised me in the past.  But if they stay true to the writing and meaning behind this episode then I believe I’m right.

That is our hope. Not that things will work out for our benefit. Not that our lives will look the way we wanted them to. And not that we will be spared from suffering.

Our hope is in the One who never failed to fulfill His promises to us. We hope in the One who has only ever been faithful in our own lives, and since the beginning of time. Our hope is in God alone.

—  Raechel Myers, She Reads Truth
Sylvia Plath is my favorite poet. She was not only a descendant of Modernism and the Romantics, she was a poet that cared about her own feelings so much that she cared about yours. She had some fucked up shit happen in her life, but who cares about that? We all suffer and that has everything to do with poetics. Have you ever heard of Modernism? The Nazis called Modernism primitive and the work of the brutes. The only brutes on this earth are the dogs and those are the things that I love. Do you wonder what I am? You are reading the work of a great poet, possibly one of the greatest ones of your time. If I am standing in front of you right now, you are listening to the voice of one of the greatest poets of your time. Do you take time to analyze greatness? I don’t think you should bother–you will never get it right. I am both a Modernist and a Romantic. All poetry that is good today is some combination of modernism, ethics, and faith. Take note. All poetry that matters today has feelings in it. You can refute or deny this with your lack of them. You can wrestle against feelings and make funny words for it. Take a look in the mirror. You were born a child and you will die one, too. When you are in your grave all that you will be able to say is mommy. You are going to die you know and so am I. That’s it. You were born to die. Take the things you say because you can’t write poems and figure out how to write some. Go to the grocery store and buy some food. Sit alone by yourself and think of how it is, the way it really is. There are a million cells of fluid rushing in your veins. On earth a thousand rivers rush through. The only thing that keeps you contained is the faith God has in your every breath. When you are mean, you let him down, so don’t be. Read Plath. Hell, Read Stein. She was a woman and would have approved of you–you man, you woman, you dog. Bark your last breath while we all swim along a river. There are children playing around you. They know more than you will ever know.
—  “The Poetry That is Going to Matter After You are Dead,” Dorothea Lasky
DL(Plushie Skit)- Brotherly Talk

@rinna-diabolik is the one who requested! Thank you so much for your support~!!!!!!! I have a lot skits that are from your amazing ideas~~

@fyeahdialovers is the one mentioned make sure I add extra salt to the skit JK do not worry I already added~LOL

Ruki, the only Moooooookami brother who lives with Shu and Subaru…

What does he think about these hoes?

by the way i dressed them up this time~Hope you guys do not mind OWO

Must read the Bonus~ (the end of the skit)

(Pink represents my dialog ;3)

Ready for Bonus!? Don’t Lie I know you are ready~!

They get  along well. Best Brotherly Love Ever.


Peter Frampton 💘

So Basically, after seeing the movie “A Series of Unfortunate Events” a few weeks ago for the first time ever, I could NOT get these poor children out of my head, so, naturally I had the Lunanoffs adopt them.  I mean, is there a BETTER family to adopt a young scholar, inventor, and bald, bubbly baby?  I think not!  I haven’t read the books, but I still tried to merge the book!versions of their designs with the movie!versions.

And after reading paterxumbra’s blog and looking at @monsterbrush‘s art, I just imagined even Pitch interfering and ‘relieving’ Olaf of his favorite pastime.  ((“Perhaps you didn’t know, but there’s only one person who is allowed to frighten these children and that’s ME.  Given that you’re obviously a dried up old prune without an ounce of creativity, I’ll let your past attempts slide, but make no mistake, Count Olaf, you make a pathetic Boogie Man.  Cast your shadow over these children once more, and you won’t live to regret it.”))

…And I drew Pitch in a suit because subconsciously he reminds me of the Joker from BTAS, forgive me, but it seemed better than his usual robe/tunic/dress.