I feel like I share the intense thirst and longing towards gabe with you so here it goes. I'm thirty one year old wrecked mega depressed piece of shit who's plotting how to off oneself daily but you know what keeps me dragging my miserable life through this gutter and not hanging myself right now? You guessed right. Gabe. The fact that a fictional character gives me more of a reason to live than religion says a lot about my mental fucked-upness but I don't care. Whoa this is dark I'm sorry.
I was writing something for this and I thumbed over my trackpad which took me back a page so I lost what I had typed before. I’m gonna attempt to speed run what I wrote before so hold tight.
Let me tell you you are absolutely not alone in this. Feelings like that are something I’ve been struggling with in my whole twenty five years of life. And like you whatever fictional universe I’ve stuck my nose into ends up being one of the only things to help.
So by all means self indulge in it if that’s what helps you get by cause that’s sure as shit what I do. If you write, write something with it, if you draw, draw something with it. If you don’t do either and don’t feel like picking one of them up, imagination is your best friend.
Hell, sometimes I start up skyrim or anything with character creation and make that character I like or even myself and I’ll get lost in it for as long as I can allow myself and it helps.
Just makes sure you don’t get so lost in it you start neglecting the things you have to do in life. Cause a) that’s not healthy either and B) you’ll start feeling bad about that too and you definitely don’t want to add on to the list like that.
Side note: If you have a people you trust and who care about you, absolutely talk to them. Aside from an actual professional to talk to having a support group will help big time.
They’re not always going to have something to say, sure, but getting what you’re feeling off your chest is good for you. And if you’re like me and you’ve got that voice in your head telling you “They don’t want to hear it” kindly tell that voice to fuck off. If it’s someone you can talk to about those things they will absolutely be willing to sit and listen to you.
Sorry if that’s preachy or stuff you’ve already heard but like I said, I’ve been dealing with this my whole life too and figured maybe something would help in there.