the only girl ive ever loved

First I fell for a junkie,
Then I fell for his ways.
He introduced me to the needle,
Had me spinning for days and days.

At first the high was amazing,
Until I realized i was on day four.
When paranoia, shakes, and cravings hit,
Bet I was straight laid out on the floor.

So when the junkie left for rehab,
My head instantly spiraled down.
And he told me, “you stay sober now,
You’ve got this, babe, don’t frown.”

I knew Her voice would be louder,
So much louder than any before.
But I told myself I could fight it still,
Even with arms all bruised and sore.

And now this junkie avoids her mirror,
Can’t even look in her own two eyes.
What has her pathetic life come to?
Revolving solely around that fucking high.

First I fell for a junkie,
Then I fell for his ways.
And not to my surprise I gathered,
There’s no escaping this deadly maze.

Because a junkie is a junkie,
And it doesn’t matter if we’re in love.
Because the only true love we’ve ever felt,
Came straight from this devil’s drug.

—  I guess one could say Me and T have a love/hate relationship (ael)
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Anon request: Fighting with Jungkook + drabble
It’s not the same as Yoongi’s but I thought this fit better. 
I am so sorry it has taken so long, it has been sitting in my drafts for weeeeks (ask you can tell by the date of the text) I am so sorry
I hope you like it! 


Jungkook x Reader
Warnings: Implied Smut
Words: 1250


You knocked once on the bathroom door and waited for a response. After receiving a text from Yoongi, you rushed out of the door and into the nearest taxi. Reading over the texts again and again, you felt your stomach twist as the guilt set in. Fuck, what had you done. The fact Jungkook thought he was a bad boyfriend made your heart squeeze into your throat. He was far from it, in fact he was the best boyfriend you have ever had, going above and beyond anyone ever had. Making you smile when you needed it, telling you that he loved you nearly every day even when he was on tour. He would always make you feel so loved and important and you couldn’t even let him off this one time. You were being selfish and you needed to fix it. You phone beeped with another text, this time from Taehyung.  

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anonymous asked:

do u have any tips on how u can figure out/guess someone's moon sign ? theres these two lovebirds in my class and theyre awful and hes a leo and shes a cancer but we all know the real shit is at the moon (and venus when it comes to love™) signs

leo and cancer couples seem so messy ndndndn but i love this question so here u go (also this is from my pov and my own experience so dont quote me on this lmao)

aries moons are those attention seekers u know they dont ASK for it but they end up getting it and enjoying it?? and they can be real messy and angry when emotional tbh (fire moons are so emotional smh no one says that about them but they are)

taurus moons are so?? stubborn? and critical like they want people to think they’re chill u know from a distance but inside they’re fucking DYING and wont tell anyone abt it 

gemini moons are the easiest to spot ndndndn look for the non stop talking bitch whose attention span doesnt EXIST and u can talk to them all u want tbh they’re not even listening, they’re just waiting for THEIR turn to talk and hoard the conversation

cancer moons? did u mean? angels sent from above? they’re my personal favorite tbh, when they really care about a person YOU JUST KNOW like they’ll listen and care for u a lot but on the other hand, its so visible when they dislike u bc they’ll just pretend you dong exist, they’re soo transparent i swear

leo moons are ICONIC i swear some of the most entertaining people out there, i just have so much love for them, they’re real sunshines always trying to make the world a better place for the people they love (but watch out for the undeveloped ones and their huge ass ego)

virgo moons?? i’ve only known one my entire life and she was a mess tbh but she was also a gemini so i cant blame her, they just need constant reassurement that they’re doing good tbh JUST TELL THEM U LOVE THEM

libra moons are not my cup of tea when underdeveloped like they’re just the Ultimate People Pleasers 3000 but still on the other extremly superficial? they’re not all this bad honestly though the developed ones are like human versions of a cotton candy but i still??? idk??

scorpio moons are such wildcards honestly u know never what ur gonna get like, is this scorpio moon a mean bitch with a god complex?? or the sweetest most caring person u’ve ever met? anyway im both

i loveee sag moons with my entire heart ugh they can be a little “ill do things my own way so fuck you” but they’re also like reallyy funny and optimistic and serious when they want to be, god i would die 4 them

capricorn moons are soo easy to spot ugh and i KNOW this is a stereotype but they’re sooo sarcastic like i knew this girl who was a cap moon and i always thought she hated me but turns out she really liked me and that was her way of expressing emotions? idk tbh they seem like robots but deep down they actually have feelings (i think)

aquarius moons ugh ive known 2 in my life one was a cold ass bitch who only had like 3 friends and didnt talk to anyone but still somehow was superpopular ?? idk and the other is probably the most fun loving person ive ever met ugh i still miss her tbh

pisces moons !! hidden gems!! such kind hearts ugh i always love them so so much they’re just trying their best tbh they might be too emotional but they’re TRYING

(also message me if u still dont know bc i can help u out lmao)

bts as parents

seokjin
•probably has a little boy and girl
•the one that always! picks! up! their! kids! from! school!
•loves packing their lunches bc he loves helping out his s/o! he also loves cooking but we all know that
•he leaVES LIL NOTES FOR HIS KIDS ON THEIR LUNCHES
•"do well in school today! please don’t fail!“
•tries to be encouraging but its very kinda embarrassing
•like at soccer games or really any sporting event this man is yELLING YOUR CHILDRENS NAMES OUT
•he’s also the type of parent to always wanna tuck their kids in bed even when they’re grown
•overall wonderful parent 10/10 v loving

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I. We go out for a swim at night and I purposely touch my skin on his. I expect it to burn but I only felt my desire to love fading, fading.

II. We stand together and our shoulders kissed sometimes. He had a girl on his mind but when we separate half of his heart is already mine. But my heart is not his, it’s still mine.

III. I’ve never met eyes as sad as his and it seduced me. But as we talk I let his sadness consume me and I had to leave. I had to leave.

IV. He said he loved me once and ever since I’m trying to make him fall for me again. But he has moved on and I can’t risk loving someone who doesn’t love me.

V. I told him, “Don’t fall in love with me.” But I kinda wish he did. Kinda wish he broke the rules, broke my heart, and save it altogether. He didn’t.

VI. I want to put him on this list but I can’t find flaw. But we screwed up and I wish I was the one who end things but it’s him. Not me. He did.

—  owlandowly // all the boys I’ve tried to love but failed
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hazy summer nights - for warm nights that seem endless and are full of hazy, tumbling thoughts 

neon baby - cuco; loner - kali uchis; fangs - matt champion; pink + white - frank ocean; degas park - kevin abstract; my kind of woman - mac demarco; lover is a day - cuco; honey - mariah carey; super rich kids - frank ocean; lottery - kali uchis; dreaming of you - selena; lust for life - lana del rey; forrest gump - frank ocean; cupid’s quiver - cuco; only girl - kali uchis

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i’m kinda pissy bc of people who haven’t even watched skam reduce it to a show about “cute white gays”.

season 3 of skam is literally the most realistic, beautiful and good portrayal of a gay character and a gay relationship i’ve ever seen. it’s the only tv-show i’ve seen that has a canon bipolar character, that’s btw very realistically written and doesn’t romanticize the depressive episodes he has, and makes a big deal out of making sure everyone knows his mentall ilness doesn’t make him crazy and doesn’t define him as a person, and in the end his mentall illness doesn’t stop him from having good healthy relationships. he gets a happy ending. also the only show i’ve ever seen where they mention pansexuality and talk about the differences between pan/bi. 

season 2 is also so very important, especially the whole rape storyline about the importance of reporting the person who raped you. the reports of rapists went up 30% in norway after that season aired, that’s so increadibly important. when eva breaks up with jonas & says this 

that’s the only time ive ever heard a female character say this on a show even tho its so common irl. the storyline about Vilde’s and Noora’s eating disorder and them helping each other out was so realistic and important. Skam is also a female driven show, the first two seasons surround a girl group of friends and listen, these female characters, they’re so good. so so so good, so realistic. they look realistic, they don’t always wear makeup and have their hair done, they make mistakes and they grown and learn. they take care of, help and love each other. they’re SO real, so so so real, and i’m so thankful for that. 

there’s so much more but bascially. skam is a really really really important show and the absolute most realistic portrayal of teens i’ve ever seen in any tv-show and/or movie. i do wish and hope that they will include more non-white characters (there’s only 3 so far and people who tell u that that’s just how it looks in scandinavia are literally lying lol) and tackle subjects like racism (they did very lightly dab into islamophobia tho, but yeah very lightly).

besides the important topics this show deals with, it’s one of the most detailed well written tv-shows i’ve literally EVER seen, it’s almost impossible to find a single plot hole. there’s amazing subtle symbolism. it’s visually stunning, every single shot planned out perfectly to showcase exactly what they want to show case. it has an amazing soundtrack and amazing actors, it’s honestly one of the most well made shows i’ve ever ever seen.  skam is also very uniqe in the way they release their clips/episodes since it all takes place in real time and all characters have their own social media, we get to see texts between the characters between the clips etc. this have never been done before and it’s really cool. but yeah basically, this is why i get pissed and a bit petty. skam is actually such an important well made show, don’t reduce it to some boring attempt to being “gay inclusive”, because that’s not this show at all.

anonymous asked:

I'm going to steal your girl

Okay well before you do that there’s something’s you should know…

She’s crazy and jealous and controlling and everything in between but that’s what I love because that’s how you know they care and are seriously terrified of ever losing you, so don’t get mad when she starts to get crazy because she just cares get mad when she stops getting jealous.

Being in love with her isn’t easy and it won’t ever be. I mean come on look at her there’s always gonna be that one slut who thinks she can take her away *cough cough you* and you’re always gonna have people complimenting her and trying to make you mad, and sometimes trust me it does get to you but. when you sit back and realize she’s yours and you get to kiss her and show her off and make love and be with her whenever you want it makes it all worth it.

Another thing, she’s the most easy and difficult to please at the same time.
She’s a cuddling person she LOVES to cuddle but she’s more a home body. I mean don’t get me wrong she loves going out and drinking and being with friends or going to the movies but she would prefer to stay in and watch movies and wrestle and be weird instead of parting which is one of my favorite things. But when she’s mad she’s mad she’ll tell you to “leave her alone” and “stop texting” her but she really means “bother me, bug me” show me you care because if you don’t she’ll think you don’t.

She’s needy af
Not saying that’s bad because it’s not also another thing I love, but she needs to be reminded that you love her, she needs to be reminded you still think she’s the most beautiful person inside and out or she starts to feel alone and unwanted and that’s the last thing that girl should feel.

Likes and dislikes.
She’s not really a chip eater nor is she a candy person but she likes watermelon sour patch and gobstoppers, she loves fruit snacks and the pretzel m & ms. she loves Powerade and green tea, she can literally drink a whole case of green tea by her self, she LOVES milk EW I know gross AF but she loves it, it makes her super sleepy so if she says she’s drinking it before bed be prepared for her to crash out with in seconds. She only likes drinking stuff from a clear cup so she can see, oh she has this baby blanket she CAN NOT sleep with out literally she can’t, she does this weird ass thing with her hands that’s puts her to sleep I know it’s weird but it’s cute when you see her do it. She doesn’t like using paper towels she likes using like rags I know that’s pretty weird too but it’s okay soon you’ll realize all these little weird things are the cutest things in the world, so you have to appreciate them. Her favorite song is runnin out of moon light by Luke Bryan. She loves her hair played with and her back rubbed big shirts and no pants. breakfast is her favorite meal and long hot showers, she loves the rain hates thunder. She’s a little complicated and will literally make her mind up and change it but also something to love.

She’s literally psycho
She’s gonna have temper tantrums and she gonna throw fit when she doesn’t get her way and when she’s mad she’s gonna be mad but she get over stuff so fast literally with in ten minutes, so let her chill and then but cute and kiss her ass but don’t tell her to chill it will make matters worse. I know she looks mean and tough but she’s the most sweetest softest huge hearted person I know she has a heart for anyone and anything and that’s what makes me love her so much more she has insecurities duh who doesn’t but reminding her always helps. She’s the most competitive person IV ever met so just let her win at something’s that’s what I do to keep her happy.

Weaknesses
Call her babe or baby, text her randomly to tell her she’s beautiful, show up at her house with a small gift just because, make her feel like she’s the only girl in the world and will ever be. Neck kisses and being grabbed from behind are probably her most favorite things. She loves hickeys because she loves showing people she’s taken. Someone who understand who’s always and will always be there.

I know that was a lot but that’s not even half of what you think you would be getting your self into. she’s everything and nothing at the same time. how does that work? I don’t even know but I’m telling you right now this girl deserves the world and I intend to give her that.

Tell you about this girl too. The downside of usually only journaling her achievements and progress, people can get a warped view and take that as how she only ever is!

Yes she is scared, reactive and has high prey drive to boot…but she has improved so very much and there is so very much more to her.

She is:

People loving for all her fears: She does actually want to greet you. She wants a chin rub and a butt scratch. Maybe even a belly rub. She is just scared but if you wait she will come and ask you for these things quicker than you expect.

So damn smart: We can teach the basics of a new trick in as little as 5 steps. She makes leaps of understanding so quickly and with such enthusiasm. She is so very eager to puzzle things out.

So eager to please, to get it right: She loves doing things, she loves getting a behaviour right. She will perform a command even if the context scares her a little - such as going through a loud rustling tunnel or standing for the vet. She thrives off following the rules, having everything understood and following requests. She especially loves recall and spinning.

Bit of an intense show off: Recall - ZOOM. Booty awareness - BAM. You opening that fridge? She will by god close that for you before you even get the milk. She will love you so hard you’ll ever forget there are other dogs in the world.

Aware of the booty: and her legs, her body. She has great body awareness to go with her speed and power. She will zoom around a field for no other reason than because she can. Toys are optional. She will take joy in her ability to run and jump and skid and do a barrel roll while still moving because why the fuck not.

Not fussed by novel objects: Oh what’s that? A surfboard? whatever. Tractor? Okay. Helicopter taking off? Whatever. I’m only scared by people, dogs and fast movement. Metal stairs? Bit uncertain but down I go okay im okay now. Emu? Pretty sure I wanna kill that. New statue in yard? Sniff sniff approved.

Cuddler extraordinaire: She will slowly melt her way from your feet and up until she is tucked under your chin, where her head is meant to be for full cuddle enjoyment. She will flip over and her tummy will magically end up near your hand - yes, even you stranger on the couch. She is a solid slug of warmth.

Also opinionated: She will do what you ask but you’re going to hear her objections about it! Whine whine warble warble yodel SCREAM whine whine squeak rumble bark growl whine whiner whine.

Pest control: There are no mice or rats in this yard.

A delight: She adds a flavour to your life that is beyond compare. She brings life to a whole new level of appreciation. Everything is more.

The one

A long distance relationship is never something I could see myself doing but I suppose I never thought about it. I always see the quote saying “there is 7 billion people on this planet, do you really think they live down your street?” and I think this is so dam accurate. I met the girl of my dreams over the wonderful world of tumblr in the most unlikely circumstances, in the most unlikely way, so unexpectedly. And I cant help but think this is ‘meant to be’.

I cant begin to explain how this girl has changed my life. Before I knew her I had no drive in life, I was just going with it, just doing as everyone else did. I had no plan on meeting anyone and I wasnt exactly looking for anyone. Most importantly I wasn’t myself, I was still coming to terms with myself and hadn’t come out too many people. I wasnt comfortable wearing what I wanted to as I was afraid of being judged or caring what people thought of me, I had a second hidden personality that only I knew about. But then this beautiful girl comes into my life and within weeks I am comfortable as me, want to talk about her ALL the time, the only girl ALWAYS on my mind, the more we spoke the less I cared about what anyone else thought because I was BEING ME.

Ive never been so proud to be gay and never been so proud to call someone mine.

I’ve never felt something so strong and never been so happy with anyone. A feeling I cant compare and something worth fighting for if times ever get tough.

I would do anything for this beautiful girl and I’ll do anything to spend my whole life with her. Im determined to never let distance win and love to always be on top.

Long distance is hard, extremely extremely hard BUT there is nothing more rewarding than having someone to love and someone love you, knowing that you always have someone there for you no matter what. Having someone motivate you to be the best version of YOU and love you for YOU. someone to be your best friend, your rock and your soul mate.

Baby you have my all, my 100%, you have my heart. I will love you with my entire heart, keep you safe and treat you like a princess. The days are couting down until I can see you again, every minute closer, stay strong for me and I will never give up on you. You are THE ONE

I love you🌍💞

@fvvck–it

I would write happy poems if we didnt love being in pain,
I never want to read about a girl who has it all,
who’s never known what its like to lose herself and never find her way back,
who’s held the world in her hands and didnt feel the fear of the people.

I would write happy poems if I didnt feel uneasy when good things happened,
I will forever turn every lovely moment into something dirty,
I deserve everything dead rose I’ve ever received,
and its all ive ever know
I only know those alive as unnatural

I would write happy poems but sadness comes so easily

—  Happy poems//kayla
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••• VANCITAY SQUAD •••
••• Brianna ( @fragileflame13 )
••• Ashley/Hairflip ( @hairflipswift13 )
••• Vivian ( @allyouwantedswift )
••• Char ( @tswiftvancity )
••• Steph ( @kingdom-swift )
••• Dani ( @saluteswift )
••• Leanne ( @feelingforeverfearless )
••• Bernice ( @rainstormsswift )

HEY @taylorswift!!!!
These are my Vancitay Squad sisters!!! For the most part, a lot of us have known each other since the RED TOUR VANCOUVER!!!! Ever since we’ve kept in touch and as we’ve all grown up and older, we’ve grown together. We have the BEST memories together and that’s all because of YOU.
During 1989 Vancouver, I got to tell them that I was going to meet you and the scrapbook we made you would FINALLY GET TO YOU! We all had letters inside and we are really hoping you got it.
Although I’m the only one out of these beautiful girls who has met you, I NEED YOU TO LOVE THEM. They are the sweetest, kindest, most BADASS WOMEN IVE EVER MET! Their hearts are made of gold and honestly, I wouldn’t be who I am without them. (Especially Brianna and Bernice)
THANK YOU FOR BRINGING THESE INCREDIBLE LADIES INTO MY LIFE AND I HOPE WE ALL GET TO SEE YOU ON TOUR SOON.
PS. PLSSSSSSSS ADD VANCITAY TO YOUR TOUR DATES 😩😩😩😩
Love you buddy, forever. Sending you HUGE HUGS.

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the captain; a beth cassidy playlist

i. seventeen running from innocence like it’s a lion nipping at my heels ii. doll, you make them feel so small, and they love it iii. it’s a mean world that i’ve known, never got no good doing what i’m told iv. smart ass little girl, always on the run, playin’ with fire and daddy’s gun v. they only want you when you’re seventeen, when you’re twenty-one you’re no fun vi. i used to cry but now i don’t have the time, i used to be so fragile but now i’m so wild vii. life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it viii. all the fires i ever started can’t begin to warm me ix. once i wanted to be the greatest, no wind or waterfall could stall me, and then came the rush of the flood x. who’s gonna stop me when i’m coming through?

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Lovely

MOVIE : MAZE RUNNER
COUPLE : NEWT X READER
RATING : FLIRTY + SEXY {NOT REALLY SMUT BUT PRETTY CLOSE}

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tgd characters + social media:

-shao has all his accounts on private but his snapchat is thirst trap after thirst trap and parkour. his ig is for shoes and the occassional picture of the get down brothers. he always subtweets mylene even tho she blocked him ages ago. hes also flash’s party promoter, and is the first person to tweet about some funny (read: cute) thing zeke did. he also posts music recs once a month (either trap or 90s rap, some a$ap rocky too). hes got the les inferno twitter and ig #blockt

-zeke is looooowwkeey an ankh he follows all the big hotep instagrams and loves the picture of the naked black woman with the earth as her ass (y'all kno the one I’m talking about) but he doesn’t tell anybody. he has a link to his soundcloud on everything. posts black and white pictures of himself, the ny skyline, and flashes of mylene and shao. he tweets lyrics (half the time about mylene) and stories about ra geeking out over something (they interact the most over social media. every tbt post is about some wild shit he and ra got into when they were in middle school). he’s the receiver of all of shaos thirst traps

-mylene has the most followers out of anyone. her snapchat story is watched by dozens and is mostly her doing cute things around manhattan with yolanda and regina. her pictures on ig always look super professional (zeke took em lol) and she does the occasional look book. she has a youtube where she posts videos of her singing, and actually got a couple songs of hers on itunes. shes the biggest beyonce stan and has gotten a few of her tweets favorited by her. she also tweets advice and useful tips, but is always threatening to block people. subtweets about zeke’s buffoonery on a daily basis.

-yolanda is a big youtuber who mostly vlogs and does reviews, but will sometimes post a sketch video or two a month. her snaps are mostly of her brothers doing geeky shit and her cackling in the background. her vlogs are super personal without seeming super personal, and they’re funny as hell. wokest of the crew cause she calls out zeke’s lowkey hotepery. she rarely posts to ig because she feels like all her pictures are trash when they’re not, but when she does post she gets tons of likes.

-regina is p big on twitter. her stories and threads get thousands of retweets a day and she’s constantly getting sponsored. huge meme lord, and exposes uglies on a daily basis. her ig is all pictures of her and yolanda cause They Gay™. her snaps are wild but she actually doesn’t use sc that much compared to the others. she has a tumblr and its mostly new wave memes and aesthetic posts, but she’ll sneak in something really personal but feel guilty about it for some reason.

-ra is the second biggest meme lord. he runs a marvel/dc blog (his fave is probably iron man smh) and writes star wars fic. posted the pics of him dressed as Finn at comic con all over ig. he also posts vintage comic finds, and pictures of him and his brothers around the park. his tweets are always really insightful and deep, but he never realizes it until his notifications blow tf up. a video of him calling out someone who was bullying boo boo went viral and he doesn’t know how to handle it. his snaps are of zeke and him being goofy.

-boo’s name on everything is “booboothefool” and he mostly posts dancing videos on instagram. he’ll sometimes post a singing video, which surprises everyone every single time. he makes youtube poops even tho its 2016, and is mostly subscribed to prank channels. he is the third biggest meme lord, and probably lowkey a troll, but a chaotic good one.

-dizzee is an art hoe and only really uses ig, twitter, and sometimes tumblr but its rare. he mostly just posts pictures of his graffiti and he never shows his face in the pictures that are actually of him. he uses really funky filters too. his tweets are somehow more fake deep than zekes, and he calls everything An Experience™. probably obsessed with kanye west and is always live blogging his trash fashion show. he also posts a lot of music recs, but they’re mostly stuff from the 70s and 80s.

-idk who thor is but! he’s super lowkey about everything and only uses facebook to post his graffiti art and insightful quotes. comments on all of pakoussa’s posts and secretly keeps an eye on dizzee’s ig.

-that rich white punk girl stays in zeke’s dms, runs a black and white blog that’s mostly AHS: murder house gifs, posts gore on every account she has, tweets “#whitegirlsevolving” and snapchats herself twirling a butcher knife around her tiddies

the signs as people i know

aries: my younger brother whom is loud but also a sweetheart. all he does is watch anime and weird gaming youtubers but tbh id die for him

taurus: a close friend. swears she’s the most good looking person on the planet and asked us to give her a tiara for her birthday? she may seem a bit extra to others but inside she’s actually made of cotton candy and cinnamon rolls and everything else thats good

gemini: is dating like 20 people at the same time and everyone knows about it BUT said girlfriends ?? also definetly over shares too much like no dude i dont care about that time you accidentally pissed yourself I DONT CARE

cancer: the most extra person ive ever met ?? hates the “cancers are emotional” stereotype but also cried one time someone included tomatoes in her sandwich after she told them not to 

leo: literally every guy i’ve had a crush on ever. i always fall for their self confident persona and surprisingly i always let myself down?? when will one (1) leo love me

virgo: an old old best friend of mine, she used to be an average 5.6 like the rest of us but then went through a big breakup and the bitch literally REINVENTED HERSELF she’s like the best person ive ever met honestly i aspire to be her one day

libra: my best friends ex who cheated on her with a 15 year old (and hes 21??) if ur reading this hey ur a dick (also literally the only libra i know is him sorry)

scorpio: a close family friend but also like a second mom, is also an extremly extra person, is 40 but acts like she’s 16 and REALLY EMOTIONAL 

sagittarius: the worst fuckboy of them all, is in “love” with 392323 different girls and also he tells everyone stories about how he spent a week in jail and no one belives him????? but he keeps telling them?? wyd

capricorn: i thought she hated me but turns out sarcasm is how she expresses emotions, a really good+smart+loyal friend and i would ALSO die for her

aquarius: i only know myself?? im not much of an aquarius honestly even though one time i unstanned an entire fandom just bc they were getting too popular, yeah im looking at you twenty one pilots yeah I WAS AN ORIGINAL FAN SO FUCK YOU 

pisces: my best friend? my actual soulmate? is the kindest person ive ever met, and she inspires me every day to become the best version of myself? also gives the best advice ever and i would ACTUALLY catch a bullet for her

Old Friend! Cal

Pairing: Y/N and Calum

Warning: Smut, Swearing and Spanking

Word count: 3K

Summery: Y/N is a surfer who bumps in to her old friend and they catch up ;) Also i’ve written before, not on tumblr though so first one! I’m excited af!!

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I placed my surfboard in the sand and looked at the sea, todays been the longest day and its only really just begun, I had to work the late shift at work again last night and my boss is a pain in the ass, always wanting something from me, do this, do that. Like what do I look like a piece of shit you can walk on? No, at least I have the weekends off, which gives me two day to relax and enjoy the view of the sea and of course, go for a surf. I’ve been surfing since I can remember my dad used to take me out every Saturday morning, since his death I’ve still gone although his replacement is a pain in my ass i still love her for coming out with me, id rather be with Y/F/N then be alone. 

“What did you want? I have a ham sandwich or cheese before we hit the waves”
I looked over Y/F/N as she leant over the picnic basket, Y/F/N was tall, blonde and blue eyes, you would of thought she actually knew how to surf but she doesn’t, but she’s getting better every time I take her out. She got out the sandwiches and looked up at me.

“Y/N" 

"Mm cheese please”

“Are you sure?”

“You want the cheese don’t you?” I giggled, she tossed me the ham sandwich and sat on the tartan picnic blanket.

“Do you ever get tiered of surfing?” she asked

“How do you get tiered of something you love?”

“Didn’t Derrick get tiered of you?”

I took a bite out of my sandwich at the name of my Ex of nearly 6 months, We’d been together 2 years It was puppy love we’d met in high school he was the new beautiful American boy in a foreign land and he was the classic popular boy with all the girls swooning at him, after about 3 months he asked me out and me being shocked as why he asked me I said yes, turns out that the relationship was a bet which earned him $20 and that for 5 months he’d been cheating on me with his soon to be step-sister, which is disgusting 1. because you don’t cheat on somebody and 2. its practically insets. But after people found out his mum never did marry that guy and he moved far away from here.

“He didn’t really love me though”

“He was a asshole and a pig and he didn’t deserve someone like you sorry for bringing it up”

“Thanks" 

"Hurry up and eat the rest of that and we can go surfing" 

I ate the last piece of my sandwich and stood up wiping off the sand that had already managed to get on my ass. As I looked over the beach it was quite empty apart from a tanned boy reading a book and a elderly couple sitting on deckchairs. As I looked more at the tanned boy the more I recognise him, I’m not sure where from though.

"Y/N c'mon”

I grabbed my surfboard and followed Y/F/N down to the sea


I shook off the water from my hair and undid my wetsuit revealing my blue poka-dot bikini. Nothing attractive really it just something comfortable, and something that if I take of my wetsuit I won’t be stripping down to my birthday suit. I folded my towel around my wetsuit so my bag won’t get soaked and put it in my bag whilst getting out my shorts and t-shirt and putting them over my bikini. Y/F/N was also doing the same. 

“Are you entering the surf competition this year?” She asked

“No I don’t think I should”

“And why not?”

“Because of last year” Last year, the year was awful it was the year i fell off the surfboard and whacked my face against the board whilst doing a trick, after the competition I came 4th and had to get stitches in my nose. 

“But that won’t happen again, history doesn’t repeat itself”

“I’ll think about it”

“Ok well I’m going to go to Dans and I’ll see you tonight at the camp fire”

“Do I have to go” I wined

“Yes and if not I’m going to drag you by your hair”

“How about no”

“Bye Y/N” she giggled

I waved goodbye to Y/F/N as she walked across the road to her boyfriend Dans house, he’s really nice and takes care of Y/F/N, he’s holding the campfire party tonight as he practically lives on the beach, which I wish I could do, unfortunately I live 10 minutes away from the beach and have a small flat in the middle of town, which is the busiest part of any place. 

I grasped hold of my bag and surfboard and walked over to my car. A shitty blue box basically, but thats all I can afford, due to the fact that all I do is surf and theres not really a degree in that. I opened the passenger door to put my bag in but the wind made it slam against the car next to it.

Shit” I said whilst dropping my surfboard and bag to the ground.

I pulled my door away from the other car, hoping that no one had saw as there was a little bit of my blue paint on there red car, I licked my thumb and rubbed it against the blue paint but it seemed to make it worse and it smudged a little and revealed a silver scratch down it. I looked back up and saw no one, I shouldn’t leave it but theres nothing I can do, I turned around going to pick up my bag but I fell into someone’s arms.

“Oh my god I’m so sorry”

“No worries” the man said, I stood back up on my own two feet and looked up at the man, although, these eyes I recognised all too well, the tanned boy on the beach was in fact the boy who went to my high school and was one of my good friends until I started dating Derrick, His name was Calum and boy did puberty hit him hard.

“Calum?”

“Hey Y/N”

“H-How are you, its been so long?”

“Good, apart from I now have a blue scratch on my car”

“This is your car? I’m so so so sorry” I said turning around and closing my car door and leaning against it with my head in my hands.

“I really didn’t mean too it was the wind but I was just putting my bag in the-”

“Y/N! it’s ok I’m getting a new car next week and this is going to the scrap”

“Oh well thats a relief” I sighed

I stood there looking at him, he’s changed a lot since the last time I saw him. His full fringe now turned into the semi quiff. His muscles now defined and tattoos over his arm and chest, which is practically screaming at me as he’s not wearing a shirt.  His brown eyes still warm, a beautiful dark brown colour and more noticeable now he’s not wearing his geeky glasses. He’s also such a beautiful colour and has beautiful golden skin. In a way I missed him and when he used to come round and tutor me, well when I say tutor me I mean we used to make pillow forts even know though we were 15 and supposed to be learning Shakespeare. But it all went, the fun, the laughs and the happiness when Derrick asked me out and Cal used to ignore me, he never wanted to hang out. I tried for months every time i asked him to go somewhere he’d shove it to the side, in the end Derrick told me to stop trying with someone who didn’t care for me anymore.

“Do you need help with your surfboard?" 

"Oh no I’m ok really”

"Ok well I’m going to go, it was nice seeing you”

“C-cal”

“Yeah”

“What are you doing tonight?”

“Nothing, why?”

“Did you want to come to the camp fire party? It on this beach at 7?”

“You want me to come?”

“More than anything" 

"Ok”

I grabbed my surfboard and went round to the back of my car whilst Calum pulled out his car, all i heard was the remains of All time low Backseat serenade as he drove off.

I put my surfboard in the boot and my bag in there too. I got in my car, the green air freshener Y/F/N made me buy after I had eaten a McDonalds filled my nose with a mint flavour, one of them smells that you can actually taste, I’ve been meaning to get read of it but its in the shape of a surfboard and looks pretty cool. I turned the radio on and drove home.


“So that’s why we broke up” I finished explain mine and Derricks break up to Calum

“Well if you’re asking me he’s a dick for doing that to you”

“Yeah”

I looked around the beach and everyone was in there pacts and chatting away, Y/F/N was practically eating her boyfriends face off.  There was a group of girls on the beach dancing to the overly played pop music. However I was sat toasting marshmallows with Calum who arrived in a black button up shirt and black jeans which made him look more attractive then ever, it was hard to take my eyes off him.

”What happened to us?”

“He told me to stay away from you”

“What really?!” I gasped and turned toward Calum. 

“Yeah, after you got together he told me to stay away, so I did”

“Why did you listen to that ass?" 

"Because..h-he told me he’d hurt you if I didn’t, not as in violence but he’d tell you things, that wouldn’t be true not ever, but you seemed so happy with him”

"You shouldn’t have listened”

“I know.. But I was young and stupid”

I looked at the fire in front of us and back at Calum

“Wanna go to my house and build a pillow fort?” Calum laughed and grabbed the packet of marshmallows we were eating

“Let’s go”

The whole journey to my flat I couldn’t keep my eyes of Calum and his jawline mostly, man that could cut a bitch. 

We got to the door and I unlocked it, I went straight to my room and got all the duvets and pillow and ran back into the living room

“I went through you cupboards and found chocolate, cola and ice cream, along with the marshmallows we stole" 

"Great here we go”

We spent a hour building the fort, trying to keep pillows on top of other pillows but failed most of the time so our fort is a few pillows on the floor with the duvet lying across two sofas above us. We managed to eat the rest of the marshmallows and the ice cream had melted by the time we got to it, after the cokes I went and got something a bit stronger.

“I can’t believe I haven’t seen you in three years” I said whilst opening the bottle of beer and passing it to Calum

“I missed you”

”Ive missed you too” I whispered, looking down at the beer

“How’s you love life, anyway? I told you about Derrick what about you?”

“I’m not with anyone”

“Really a guy like you?” I said whilst Calum sat up on his elbow looking over me

“Yeah a guy like me, there’s only one girl that I can’t live without”

“Really who?”

“Selena Gomez” I laughed at him and I smacked his shoulder

“No but really, ever since day one it’s always been her”

“Ever since she went on Disney channel?”

“No I’m not talking about Selena I’m talking about you”

“Me?”

“Yeah you” he mumbled 

I looked up at him and his eyes seem to look genuine, I never thought that he would like me, I didn’t even know I could like him. But the feeling in my stomach tells me otherwise. He lent down and gave me a Eskimo kiss which made me laugh and as did he.

“God you’re a idiot”

I rolled on top of him and leant down 

"I know Cal, I know” I pressed my lips to his, I’ve never felt fireworks, never ever but if this is what fireworks feel like I want more, I swiped my tongue over his lips and he taste like minty-cola. I stopped kissing him and tugged on his bottom lip, smirking at him which made him moan and made me laugh. I moved to his neck, he smelled delicious and I sucked a hickey. His hand grabbed hold of my waist as he tried to grind up into me, which made me moan into his neck.

“Y/N-N please”

“What do you want?" 

“You” I sit up straight and rest my hands on his chest slowly scratching down as I grind on him. 

“As much as I love this” He gets hold of my shirt and pulls it over me and flips us over. 

”I’m Incharge, you don’t know how long I’ve wanted this”

I grabbed hold of erection and slowly palmed him

“I think I have a rough idea”

He leant down and kissed me again as I leant up and unclipped my bra. He started to kiss down my neck sucking hickeys as he went, he got down to my boobs and sucked onto my left nipple whilst his hand massaged my left. 

“F-fuck Calum” I whined 

He moaned which vibrated around my nipple, he took the other nipple into his mouth I was in pure bliss, my hand went into Calums hair and the other too Calums button on his jeans he sat up and took off his jeans and then undid mine. 

“I’ve been waiting for this so long I don’t think I’ll last…”

“It okay I just need you and only you”

He took of my panties and his boxers and reached over to his jeans as he was doing that I leant forward and kitten licked his dick

“Y/N Jesus” I looked up at him and he had his head tilted back and his hand moved into my hair 

“Y/N” he whined as I took him into my mouth, he let out a few curse words before tugging me off him

“I-I w-wanna fuck you”

I leant back “then do it” I giggled whilst rolling onto all fours and wiggling my ass in the air. I heard a small ‘fuck’, after he rolled on the condom his hand came down and slapped my ass. Which I was not expecting to feel so good, so I wiggled my ass again and he laughed whilst palming my ass and spanking it again. I felt his tip at my entrance and he stayed there circling it around my entrance. “Calum” I whined, “What?” he smirked, I pushed myself backwards onto him. We moaned in unison as he pounded into me, he kept smacking my ass and I could feel him hitting my g-spot which made me muffle my face in the pillow below as I clutched the sheets.

“Nu-uh pretty girl” Calum moaned and grabbed my hair and pulled me into his chest hitting me at a better angle. I reached around and grabbed hold of his ass and leant my head on his shoulder. He sucked on my neck licking over the hickeys he previously made. Which made me whimper over and over again. 

“I’m going to cum pretty girl”

“S-same”

“Cum then beautiful” he whispered in my ear, which sent me over the edge as I fell onto the pillows, I series of swears and relating Calums name came out my mouth as I saw stars. I got up just to turn my head around and watch Calum cum in me.

I rolled over and he collapsed on top of me so his head was resting on my chest. 

“You know I wasn’t joking, I’ve like you for a really long time when you went with Derrick I was so upset and I didn’t want to hurt you so I let you to be with someone you loved”

“I never really loved him, I always thought of you, ya know, I thought of you more than him, you were always on my mind”

He raised his head and kissed me 

“Be mine?”



6 weeks later it was the surf competition and I had made it into the final, there were me and two others Australia’s sweetheart and a girl who is a bitch so I’m not associating with her, it was the last race and we had to perform at least 5 tricks I was nervous as fuck. So far I haven’t smashed my face on any surfboards and I’m a lot more experienced this year and i’ve got an amazing boyfriend who’s been supporting me through this competition along with Y/F/N and Dan.

“You’re going to do great baby” Calum says whilst kissing my forehead

“Thank you”

“Yeah!! you’re gonna splash them outta the water” Y/F/N said excitedly whilst jumping up and down into Dan’s arms

“I love you” Calum whispered in my ear my breath hitched and I turned around to face him 

“You mean it?”

“I wouldn’t have said it if I didn’t” he blushed

I grabbed hold of his face and kissed him “I love you too” I mumbled against his lips

We smiled into the kiss and let go by the sound of the speaker calling me over

“If you win I’ll give you the champion a small present” he spoke whilst winking

“Pretty sure it’s not small Cal” I shouted as I ran to the start line.

This just in

I think I’m bi


I.
five sets of two hands, fingers spread wide
my best friend lying next to me squeaks out
“never have I ever masturbated”
a chortle and a shrug between the boys as they flick down their obligatory fingers
and I can’t help but feel a twinge in my stomach as my pinky follows suit
the silence in the room is thick and grey and suddenly sliced by
“…really?”
yes really.
have you ever experienced fun?

II.
I pull away a hair caught in my scarlet lipstick
in my reflection I see my table mate from english class
behind me she blinks twice and scoffs
“who are you trying to impress?”
the bathroom door is closed behind her before I can ask
the last time she did something to impress herself.

III.
before a trip to the mall
one of my friends spends two hours
perfecting her bronzer
and choosing the perfect pair of shoes
the other rubs in dry shampoo
and is out the door in less than five minutes
they are two of the most beautiful girls I’ve ever seen.

IV.
my father calls me beautiful through a mouthful of popcorn
as I pour a glass of milk to accompany my now third piece of leftover birthday cake
he plants a kiss on my cheek and I grin as I wipe it away.

V.
she asks me what to do to start loving herself
and I send her away to my full length mirror
and demand to only speak to her
when she’s found something to adore
the way I did with my knobby knees
and tiger-striped hips
and big square teeth
fifteen minutes go by
and she finally points to the freckles on her nose
splits into a grin
the one that makes everyone weak in the knees
and I watch the lightbulb go off above her head
as she realizes
it’s never been her job to hate her body

VI.
i tell my sister she looks cute today
and the look on her boyfriend’s face
when she blurts out “damn right I do!”
is priceless.

VII.
I used to worry that I’d never find someone who loved me at all
and now my biggest fear
is finding someone who can adore me as much as I’ve come to.

—  seven thoughts on self love that came to me before I got my driver’s license (llb)
8

FT Fluff week Bonus Day 1 - Puppy

Lucy: Age 08

Natsu: Age 09


“Dear Mama,

How are you? I’m fine. I’m sorry, Mama. Plue got lost today. But I found him thanks to my new friend, Natsu! And he has pink hair! He wears a cool scarf. He’s very kind to me. He didn’t want me to cry so he helped me look for Plue. Natsu found him for me and I was so relieved. Plue was the last thing that you gave to me so he’s extra special to me. I promise to take care of him better! Oh, I noticed that Natsu’s cheeks were red at some points. I wonder why. He has an abnormal temperature so I can’t tell if he’s sick. Oh no, I need to check on him later. But I’m so glad I have a new friend! He lives at the end of the street with his adoptive parents. He told me that he has a little sister named Wendy. I will meet her tomorrow! I’m so excited!

Dad is always busy with his work as usual. But I understand because it’s for my future!

I miss you and I love you Mama.

Love, Lucy.”


                       /That day was the start of their wonderful adventure./


Yes, I connected each prompt to one another, creating an AU story. 


Parts: I (Puppy)  //  II (Together/Come On)  //  III (Music/Games)  //  IV (Starlight/Rain)  //  V (Promises/Always)  //  VI (Count On Me)  //  VII (I Lived/Show Me)  //  VIII (Serendipity)  //  IX (Happy Ever After)