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#LastYoungRenegade - out July 2nd, 2017

Who is the Last Young Renegade?

After all this time writing music, playing in a band- checking moment after moment off the bucket list- collecting mistakes, making memories, I wondered what it might be like to write about myself if I wasn’t the one standing in my shoes. Who am I from the other side of the mirror?

I tried to change perspective in my approach to writing and center in on all of the different versions of me that other people might have met over the years, through the ups and the downs, in the public eye and behind closed doors. Would I like this person? Do I like this person? Do I even recognize this person anymore?

I realized that there’s a lot more to me than I’m usually ready to acknowledge, both good and bad. In that realization, I noticed a common thread. We are who we are, even when we try our hardest not to be.

It’s a challenge to accept it sometimes. I gave those other sides of me a persona, and a name– then came the stories like a flood. It was a way for me to confront demons without having to sit at the dinner table with them.

That’s the journey on this record: a story of self-realization. Of growing into your own skin through the eyes of someone watching it all unfold on the big screen, wearing a ‘Frankie Says Relax’ t-shirt. Like watching an old familiar movie, but suddenly you’re Marty McFly.

We tried a lot of new things on this album, all within the context of what we love so much about All Time Low– There’s no denying that we were binge watching Stranger Things at the time, while also reflecting on the loss of some of our favorite musicians; Prince, Bowie, George Michael… I think the influence comes through in the best ways. We all felt pulled to exciting and different places as we searched for inspiration, approaching something that’s become so familiar to us from a new direction.

I truly hope everyone listening enjoys this record as much as I do. It’s been an amazing journey.The album comes out June 2nd and will be available for pre-order on Friday, Feb 24th. We’ll also be posting some pre-order merch bundles, so stay tuned! Pre-order options will be up on

Last Young Renegade
2. Drugs & Candy
3. Dirty Laundry
4. Good Times
5. Nice2KnoU
6. Life of the Party
7. Nightmares
8. Dark Side of Your Room
9. Ground Control (feat. Tegan and Sara)
10. AfterglowxoAlex


—  A pair of starfighters. Jedi starfighters. Only two. Two is enough. (Matthew Stover)


I used to want to save the world. To end war and bring peace to mankind. But then, I glimpsed the darkness that lives within their light. I learned that inside every one of them, there will always be both. The choice each must make for themselves - something no hero will ever defeat. I’ve touched the darkness that lives in between the light. Seen the worst of this world, and the best. Seen the terrible things men do to each other in the name of hatred, and the lengths they’ll go to for love. Now I know. Only love can save this world. So I stay. I fight, and I give… for the world I know can be. This is my mission, now.

                          Daar Lein los dii! -

                                              - “This World is mine!”


Happy 4th birthday the most passionate little cule Milan Pique Mebarak [22/01/2013]

“Milan is a football freak. The number of the players he know, jerseys and all the equipment … everything. It reminds me of when I was little. He lives football with passion and with only three years he spends 90 minutes hooked. I am proud that my son likes football the same way as me. He mostly asks me why we lost a game. He doesn’t understand a Barça loss, something that new generations think happens a little.He also questions a lot of the rules of the game such as a penalty, fouls or corners.”

AU’S NOBODY ASKED FOR (for @casbabe​)

↳ At first, Castiel is angry.

He can recall each one of the prayers he screamed at the skies, waiting for God to answer, waiting for his Father to give him a sign - anything, really, that could have helped him to protect humanity from his elder’s wrath. He remembers all of it, every single plea fallen on deaf’s ears and his chest getting heavier as his faith began to crumble.

So when Joshua - God - appears to him, His eyes full of compassion and sadness, Castiel doesn’t understand. He wants to yell. He wants to rage against the Father who abandoned him - them - and then mocked everyone by disguising Himself as a low angel, a simple gardener while the rest of His creation was tearing themselves.

Castiel doesn’t understand.

“Of course, you don’t.” God answers with a deep sigh. “Nobody really listens the gardeners those days.”

He lets Castiel speak. He lets him tells his story, even though He probably knows everything. His hands look small when He puts them around Castiel’s vessel - such tiny frames, so tiny and miserable and he is shaking with rage and grief - but he can feel the power under them, the raw rays of light that were used to create the world. That were used to create him, his brothers and sisters. Everything.

It’s somehow humbling. He feels small, wrapped in His Father’s arms - and yet, Joshua appears smaller.

When they part, after long talks and heartfelt explanations, God touches Castiel’s head again.

“If you ever need to find me again… you will always find me in the gardens.”

Castiel stops to pray after that, stop to scream at empty skies and void galaxies. He takes time to walk on his own path. Still, when he needs it, he finds a garden and he watches. He waits. Sometimes, his Father comes and they sit together. Sometimes, Castiel only feels a warm feeling brushing over his cheek - almost a touch, something tender and sad. Something that says “I’m proud of you.” Something that says “I am here, my son, I see you.”

Sometimes that says “I love you.”

Joshua as God, finally replying to Castiel’s prayers.


“There is an anchor attached to my heart and I am trying to get it to come off because it’s making my chest feel heavy and painful yet you tell me that this anchor is actually yours and that it is the only thing making me stay with you in this unruly ocean.
So I keep the anchor because it gives you comfort and not because it is the only thing keeping me steady.
I don’t need it to keep me here.
You are enough reason to stay.


Happy 25th/26th Birthday Jonghyun~!

I don’t think that you’ll ever understand how much you mean to me, blingers, and shawols around the world. Just in the few years of being a fan I’ve seen you grow so much; composing your own music for both SHINee and other artists, having a solo debut, and bringing so many happiness and smiles on your radio show. I still can’t believe that I’ve been a shawol/closet blinger for almost 3 years now, yet I’m still left speechless by the amount of talent, heart, and soul that you put in your work. From your puppy eyes, to your adorable smile, into your pure heart, and right down to the insoles in your shoes, I must admit that I may be in love with you.

 I am so grateful that you’re so supportive of others and you care so much for your fans, even sharing your deepest thoughts with us though you were afraid in the past. To tell the truth, ever since the day I saw the first episode of Hello Baby I knew that I was going to love you, and now I know that I probably always will. You are such a caring soul, inspirational idol, wonderful son, dedicated artist, and cute little brother. I hope you spend your birthday happily doing as you please!

You are such a unique and beautiful person with a heart to match, and not only am I so proud of you, I’m also so glad that I got into SHINee because of you ♥

So tell me, can you feel this
Come into my dream

So on my sort of return to Tera and finally getting the new fashion coupon items I returned Kassim to “factory default”, so he’s back to high elf. He’s the most majestic, magical being I’ve ever laid eyes on. The only thing he’s missing is the Celestial weapon skin, then he’d be seriously complete.