Regarding Sangwoo: Hopes and Trust
A lot of people have been taking Sangwoo’s reaction in chapter 26 in a bad way, failing to understand him as a character and therefore misinterpreting his response. So i’m going to go all the way back to my favorite chapter, which I read religiously.
Sangwoo has had an issue with Bum from the very start; he thinks he’s pathetic.
He believes that Bum has no sense of self, no sense of responsibility. Sangwoo thinks that Bum will whine about everything, but not actually take the initiative to do anything to better his situation. However, Sangwoo does not act bitterly - instead he tries to help him. Bum was trapped in a situation he could not be free of, he didn’t know how to help himself. So Sangwoo gives him the answer.
“Move on.”He isn’t speaking directly, but instead he’s offering his understanding to Bum, offering his assistance. Throughout season 1, Sangwoo is trying to help him break away, and then in season 2, Sangwoo continues to encourage Bum to escape from his abusers, to live a happy life. To live a life with him.
Because Sangwoo did it, he firmly believes Bum can as well.
Sangwoo had it just as bad, if not worse. Sangwoo had been hit, he is probably a witness of his mother being raped, he has gone through just as much as Bum but in a shorter amount of time. The difference between them stems from Sangwoo having courage, and Bum being pathetic.
Much of the fandom ignores that Sangwoo has been through just as much, that he has experienced abuse and death and he has been through more than any child should. His reaction in chapter 26 is not a surprise, the only thing that is a surprise is how much we’re actually shown about Sangwoo via his expressions. Sangwoo wanted to go forward with Bum, he wanted to help him overcome his demons and he wanted him to grow strong. He wanted him to do what his mother never could.
He’s upset, he’s brooding in this moment. He’s not lashing out because he’s lost in his own thoughts, and he’s uncomfortable with what Bum is telling him. For not only does this break Sangwoo’s pre-conceptualized ideals on Bum, but it also breaks his trust. They’ve been with one another for almost, if not, a year, and so early on he had trusted Bum with a tiny snippet of his own past, and to him it feels like Bum has betrayed his trust for not being open with his own experience.
So Bum takes Sangwoo’s words into account.
And he tries to kill himself. Because Sangwoo told him that he hated people like that, that he hated people that whined but were too afraid to die. Sangwoo isn’t passive about this, Sangwoo is not reacting as a shallow bitch, he is reacting as anyone else would. He was walking away because he wanted to be alone, he wanted to think. He didn’t want to talk to Bum because he knew he would get angry, so he walked away.
Bum is the one that took the initiative to pick up the knife, and Sangwoo is reacting accordingly: he’s surprised. Their conversation in chapter 5 meant a lot to both of them, their conversation in chapter 5 is the most insight we have ever gotten on Sangwoo and his call to action. He acts not out of spite, but out of desire.
There’s no doubt in my mind that this chapter and the next are going to mirror chapter 5.
To Sangwoo, Bum has allowed himself to suffer for too long and he hates it. Bum has constantly turned away Sangwoo’s attempts at help, objectively speaking, and Sangwoo sees this as his words not having an importance.
Sangwoo is paranoid. He’s obviously going to help Bum, he’s clearly going to fix him up just as he has done before, but this doesn’t mean that he’s going to forgive him.
Sangwoo had given Bum a piece of himself when he told him about his own childhood, and in his eyes Bum did not think much of it because Bum was not honest about his own experience.
He didn’t ‘fuck up’, he acted accordingly and Bum is the one that took it to such extremes.
Thank you @ikkakujuu for constantly supporting me and my thoughts, I couldn’t have done it without you 💜.