the one account is his initials!

Regarding Sangwoo: Hopes and Trust

A lot of people have been taking Sangwoo’s reaction in chapter 26 in a bad way, failing to understand him as a character and therefore misinterpreting his response. So i’m going to go all the way back to my favorite chapter, which I read religiously. 

Sangwoo has had an issue with Bum from the very start; he thinks he’s pathetic. 

He believes that Bum has no sense of self, no sense of responsibility. Sangwoo thinks that Bum will whine about everything, but not actually take the initiative to do anything to better his situation. However, Sangwoo does not act bitterly - instead he tries to help him. Bum was trapped in a situation he could not be free of, he didn’t know how to help himself. So Sangwoo gives him the answer.

“Move on.” 

He isn’t speaking directly, but instead he’s offering his understanding to Bum, offering his assistance. Throughout season 1, Sangwoo is trying to help him break away, and then in season 2, Sangwoo continues to encourage Bum to escape from his abusers, to live a happy life. To live a life with him

Because Sangwoo did it, he firmly believes Bum can as well. 

Sangwoo had it just as bad, if not worse. Sangwoo had been hit, he is probably a witness of his mother being raped, he has gone through just as much as Bum but in a shorter amount of time. The difference between them stems from Sangwoo having courage, and Bum being pathetic. 

Much of the fandom ignores that Sangwoo has been through just as much, that he has experienced abuse and death and he has been through more than any child should. His reaction in chapter 26 is not a surprise, the only thing that is a surprise is how much we’re actually shown about Sangwoo via his expressions. Sangwoo wanted to go forward with Bum, he wanted to help him overcome his demons and he wanted him to grow strong. He wanted him to do what his mother never could.

He’s upset, he’s brooding in this moment. He’s not lashing out because he’s lost in his own thoughts, and he’s uncomfortable with what Bum is telling him. For not only does this break Sangwoo’s pre-conceptualized ideals on Bum, but it also breaks his trust. They’ve been with one another for almost, if not, a year, and so early on he had trusted Bum with a tiny snippet of his own past, and to him it feels like Bum has betrayed his trust for not being open with his own experience. 

So Bum takes Sangwoo’s words into account. 

And he tries to kill himself. Because Sangwoo told him that he hated people like that, that he hated people that whined but were too afraid to die. Sangwoo isn’t passive about this, Sangwoo is not reacting as a shallow bitch, he is reacting as anyone else would. He was walking away because he wanted to be alone, he wanted to think. He didn’t want to talk to Bum because he knew he would get angry, so he walked away. 

Bum is the one that took the initiative to pick up the knife, and Sangwoo is reacting accordingly: he’s surprised. Their conversation in chapter 5 meant a lot to both of them, their conversation in chapter 5 is the most insight we have ever gotten on Sangwoo and his call to action. He acts not out of spite, but out of desire. 

There’s no doubt in my mind that this chapter and the next are going to mirror chapter 5. 

To Sangwoo, Bum has allowed himself to suffer for too long and he hates it. Bum has constantly turned away Sangwoo’s attempts at help, objectively speaking, and Sangwoo sees this as his words not having an importance. 

Sangwoo is paranoid. He’s obviously going to help Bum, he’s clearly going to fix him up just as he has done before, but this doesn’t mean that he’s going to forgive him. 

Sangwoo had given Bum a piece of himself when he told him about his own childhood, and in his eyes Bum did not think much of it because Bum was not honest about his own experience.

He didn’t ‘fuck up’, he acted accordingly and Bum is the one that took it to such extremes. 


Thank you @ikkakujuu for constantly supporting me and my thoughts,  I couldn’t have done it without you 💜.
 

Why this was the most emotional love scene yet on GOT (imo, at least)

Let’s start with the obvious: The Stare
Wow. They look like they just want to drown in each other’s eyes. It’s absolutely beautiful - especially when you take into account the line from season one about finding love in a person’s eyes. And the best part about it is that line was said to Daenerys… Not to Jon. She initiated that stare with Drogo. And we never had anything like that between her and Daario or Jon and Ygritte. But now, Jon initiates it. He pulls back of his own choice just to stare at her. (I mean if that cave scene with Ygritte didn’t prove the man has great instincts, this one sure as hell does.) And regardless of whether or not Dany remembered the line, she’s completely mesmerized when she sees the love in Jon’s eyes.

Next: The Kissing
They kiss lip on lip only. There’s no sucking or licking on any other part of the body. Now, don’t get me wrong… there’s nothing bad about kissing other parts of the body but in this case, it illustrates the connection they have. I mean, there’s a reason Julia Robert’s character in Pretty Woman didn’t kiss on the mouth - ‘It’s too personal’. There’s something deeply emotional about it that just isn’t as strong when kissing other places.

Now, on to: The Positions
I love that it starts with Dany on top and then switches to Jon. It just goes to show that they are equals once again. Neither is dominant over the other. This is a relationship of respect for each other as much as it is about attraction. And I truly believe that deep emotional love requires mutual respect.

Lastly, and this is the biggest one for me: The (lack of) Nudity
Yes, you heard me right: The lack of nudity. Sure, you can see Jon’s ass (and gorgeous it is, too) and you can see that they’re both bare, but all the important bits stay covered. This is not the norm for HBO or GOT, masters of the 'Let’s add as much shock value as we can by putting them in some impractical position just so we can get a full frontal of the female’ mentality. And, honestly, I’m a little shocked that they didn’t jump at the chance to show Emilia in all her glory again. But they didn’t. Which, to me, says so much about the tone the scene was supposed to imply. They didn’t cheapen it with nudity. They didn’t go for an awkward camera angle just so they could get a shot of Emilia’s chest. In fact, they didn’t even get a shot of Kit’s chest, either. Their bodies stay plastered together the whole time which prevents any important bits from being seen - even when he flips them over. They’re two people who want to be as close to each other as they can. They’re not just having sex. They’re not just fucking. They’re not just testing it out to see if Jon’s swimmers are better than Daario’s. No, this is a deep bond. They’re in love. The lack of nudity implies romance because they don’t want to detract or distract from the longing looks and passionate kisses.

Which leads me to the honorable mention: Hand Placement
Again, this is about keeping it romantic. Their hands never roam below the waist. Dany keeps her hand on his back. Jon keeps his on her face. (My only wish here is that Dany’s hair had been down so he could runs his fingers through it.) But again, grabby hands would have distracted from and cheapened the moment and they didn’t want focus pulled from what was going on in their faces.

Say what you want about how short the scene was or how we didn’t get to see the first kiss (I admit it, I’m disappointed, too) but this was by far the most loving sex scene they’ve had on this show.

Random things about book Stan

- people called him Stanley Urine

- how much did he love birds? A LOT

- he was pretty good at baseball

- he carried his bird book with him everywhere

- he has a unique sense of humor

- the reason he had such a hard time accepting IT is because it offended him

- he was the one who suggested cleaning up Beverly’s bathroom

- until Mike joined, he was the most tormented of the group by the bowers gang

- HE INITIATED THE BLOOD OATH

- he’s a shorty

- he met his wife in college

- he was the most successful young accountant in Atlanta


Feel free to add!

screwed || b.b || p.3

Part One | Part Two

Relationship: AU!Bucky Barnes x reader (Modern AU)

Summary: Bucky Barnes had never taken a liking in you, no matter how hard you tried he always seemed to loathe you. That is until you get a little drunk and carefree leading to becoming much closer to Bucky than you ever imagined. The question is, how screwed are you?

Warnings: the teeniest tinest big of angst, teeth rotting fluff!!!

Word Count: 1.1k

A/N: hooooooly shit this chapter is so fluffy i am in l o v e


You had never seen Bucky as anything else other than your enemy, basically. So seeing this new vulnerable, soft side of him was tearing you apart on the inside, not knowing how to react. 

You felt responsible since it was you who initiated everything with Bucky that night. He may have wanted to be the one to start things but clearly you had beaten him to it, either way you felt accountable. 

So when Bucky trudged out the door with no goodbye you knew something really snapped in him, everyone saw it. “I’ll go check on him,” Steve said, getting up from his seat, “no,” you interjected, stunning everyone, “let me, I think I know what’s bothering him,” you told him giving him a look that said you needed to be the one to talk to him. 

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anonymous asked:

Hey, I really loved your meta on the circumstances of Jon deciding to join the NW. I was wondering, what is your general opinion of AGoT Jon? I just saw a post about how he is supposed to be an insufferable character as he whines about being a bastard, while being ungrateful towards his privaledged upbringing and loving family. Idk, if that is the whole point because he learns and grows after bullying the recruits, or if it undermines his emotional and mental upbringing to view him like that?

It is most assuredly not the whole point.

To be frank, some of the discussion of AGoT!Jon seems like it is stuck in the chapter where he bullies the other recruits and is generally bemoaning his place at the Wall, and simultaneously fundamentally misunderstands the problem Jon’s behavior showed: Jon’s flaw was not that kept whining that he was a bastard or however he gets described, it’s that he could only see his own pain and his own problems, and that he took it out on the others around him while implicitly expecting sympathy and recognition for what he was going through without caring to look farther than his own troubles, it’s that he could not recognize that his own behavior–that of an entitled brat–was why he was met with such a chilly reception, and yes, it’s that he could not recognize his own privilege and only saw his disadvantages. But Jon was disadvantaged. Erasing that to only focus on his privilege not only undercuts a major part in Jon’s story and identity arc, but also strikes me as rather unsympathetic to a boy of fourteen. Jon definitely enjoyed perks that many other bastards and most recruits on the Wall did not, but that does not change the fact that he grew up a bastard in a household whose chatelaine was invested in putting him in his place and asserting that Winterfell was most assuredly not it. This is a major point of contention in fandom, I know, but I personally classify Catelyn’s treatment of Jon as emotional abuse, which should not be ignored when we’re talking about Jon. That’s why some of the discourse around this part of Jon’s story rubs me the wrong way because it smells too much of an expectation for Jon to just get over it already and grow up! He is whiny. He is broody. He is too caught up in his own pain, etc etc etc. He is freaking fourteen, and there is no set time limit for someone to get over trauma or they’d cease to be sympathetic or relatable. That’s a disturbing train of thought, and unhealthy expectation to put on a kid, especially one who already had to contend with unfair expectations being placed on him, as demonstrated in the conversation between Catelyn, Ned and Maester Luwin.

That, however, does not mean that Jon should not be held accountable for his actions at Castle Black, especially since his initial deeds were not exactly acts of solidarity to his fellow downtrodden. The narrative does not expect us to be on Jon’s side when he was lording his physicality over Tyrion, or when he was proclaiming his superiority to the other recruits or when he was expecting favorable treatment in demanding he accompany Benjen in his ranging. Neither of these moments were exactly a ringing character endorsement for Jon, and the narrative treats them as they are: shameful, mean and entitled behavior in which Jon was using his privilege, whether his physical ability or his castle-bred training, to bully others. He was being Theon Greyjoy, plain and simple. No, really. Jon’s thought process to explain why the other recruits hated him is too reminiscent of Theon’s own thoughts about why Jon hated him. That’s why Jon earned Donal Noye’s much-deserved verbal smack-down to shake him out of that behavior and that narrow-minded view, and why Benjen had to tell him point-blank that he hadn’t earned what he was demanding. Jon needed those wake-up calls.

But while the narrative give Jon’s behavior the reaction it deserved, it also does not neglect to remind us that Jon was fourteen years old. He was a kid, and kids do not typically see past their own troubles. His behavior was unacceptable, absolutely, it was petty and entitled and childish, but Jon was a child, and one who was dealing with feelings of abandonment and displacement, desperate to prove himself and find a place where he was not demeaned. The thing about this period of Jon’s story is that it represents the learning curve he had to go through in order to be the most suitable choice for interacting with the free folk later on. The point about these AGoT chapters is that Jon learned. It is not easy to recognize your privilege, neither is it easy to have your worldview challenged and to accept whatever change that challenge brings. But Jon managed both. He listened when he was rebuked for his behavior. He felt shame and unease when his misconduct was pointed out to him. He changed his attitude and went from looking down on his fellow recruits to helping them and even protecting them in the case of Sam. When he grew angry at his appointment to the stewards, Daeron and Sam’s words made him ashamed again for his tantrum. That’s not an easy thing to do; grown adults have trouble owning up to their mistakes or accepting challenge to their worldview, but Jon did both. That ability to revise his stance on things and to face his mistakes, his willingness to learn and desire to be better marks a very important part of Jon’s character, and is frankly one of the main reasons I love his character so much.

Those attributes are what propelled Jon to recognize that their society’s definition of masculinity was deeply flawed, and the stance that worth is ascribed or denied to a person simply based on their martial ability was faulty, which is why he saw the value of someone like Sam, a self-proclaimed craven based on Westerosi code of masculinity, but who is actually extremely brave and extremely valuable to the fight against the Others even if his bravery and his value do not lie in performative masculinity or on the field of battle, or someone like Satin, who does not fit masculinity standards at all with his traditionally feminine self-presentation and his profession that attracted the ire of other watchmen even more than literal rapists and murders simply because it was feminine-coded, but who is also loyal and steady and able as shown by him holding his own as a new recruit even in the face of the disarming attack from the free folk. Those attributes are what make Jon one of the most radical thinkers in the entire series. He was someone capable of facing his own prejudices and preconceived notions and conquering them. That’s how he was able to look beyond the bigoted view of the free folk and see them as simply human and equally entitled to protection and safety as much as anyone living south of the Wall. Jon, through a learning curve that started in AGoT, demonstrated how he was the perfect leader for the War for the Dawn because Jon proved that he was capable of looking beyond any and everything to see the common feature between warring sides–their humanity– and recognizing that this was the thing that mattered most in their fight, and that this shared humanity is what he was fighting for in the first place. That’s how he understood that holding onto old constructs about the evilness of the free folk was not acceptable any more. He had the courage and the prudence to think about what his oath truly meant. But that ability did not come from nowhere. It was a journey that started with a privileged bastard taking his frustration out on his fellow recruits, to a lone ranger living and building relationships with the people he was taught were enemies, to a Lord Commander insistent on using his power and his position to do good. But the latter could not have been without the former, could not have been without the tutelage of Donal Noye, Benjen Stark, Jeor Mormont, Maester Aemon, Qhorin Halfhand, Mance Rayder, Tormund Giantsbane, Stannis Baratheon, and most importantly, Ned Stark himself who taught Jon the value of human life and who treated his lessers as human beings.

2

The Salt Murder

No story is more inspirational or heart-rending than a story about a single mother fighting for the the life of her sick child. Twenty-five-year old Lacey Spears of Decateur, Alabama, presented herself as such a mother - from 2012 she frequently blogged about her life as a single mother, and chronicled the mysterious illnesses that plagued her young son, Garnett.

Lacey Spears was born in Kentucky to an upstanding family, and from all accounts she had a happy childhood and adolescence. Her friends remember her as being ‘obsessed’ with becoming a mother, and when Lacey fell pregnant in 2008 at the age of twenty-one she was over the moon. The baby’s father, Chris Hill, supported her financially through her pregnancy, but was never a presence in the child’s life. Garnett-Paul Spears was born healthy in November 2008.

Despite an uncomplicated birth and an initial period of perfect health, Garnett Spears was soon being brought into hospital with a variety of health concerns; his ears were aching, he seemed difficult to soothe, and he was wracked with tremors. Most troubling of all, baby Garnett could not eat. Lacey complained to confused medical staff that Garnett could not keep food down, and he would require a feeding tube. Doctors assured Lacey a feeding tube was unnecessary, and ran a battery of tests on Garnett to find the cause of his eating troubles. All tests showed that Garnett was perfectly normal, and he was always sent home.

As Garnett grew older his health issues seemed to worsen; Lacey became a common sight in the ER room in Decateur, clutching a sickly Garnett in her arms. Twice the baby was rushed to the emergency room after Lacey reported him having seizures. When he was nine months old a doctor finally agreed to insert a feeding tube into Garnett, hoping to alleviate his eating troubles. A day after he was discharged Lacey Spears packed up and left town - thus beginning a strange journey from hospital to hospital all over the country, trying to find out what was wrong with Garnett, and documenting it all on a blog called 'Garnett’s Journey’.

By age five Garnett had become something of a minor internet star; thousands of people offered support and kindness to him over the internet, through the blog that Lacey regularly updated with photos. However, people close to Lacey began to notice something was not adding up; Garnett was often seen eating quite normally at restaurants, and his own grandmother noted that he had a good appetite and never threw up unless Lacey was present. Another close friend even confronted Lacey with her suspicions, saying that the boy was only ill whenever his mother served him food.

In January 2014, Lacey Spears admitted Garnett to Nyack Hospital in New York, claiming her son had suffered a seizure. She took no previous records with her, and so medical staff were largely unaware of Garnett’s history or the fact doctors had deemed him perfectly healthy. Lacey fed the nurses a number of strange stories about Garnett’s health, and insisted that doctors operate on him immediately. The nurses were shocked at the suggestion, especially since test results showed Garnett was in good physical condition. They decided to keep the little boy in for a day of observation, where he seemed to thrive. Then, a few days later, Garnett took a turn for the worse; just minutes after accompanying Lacey to the bathroom the child began to clutch his head and scream, and then rapidly fell into a semi-coma. Frantic doctors airlifted Garnett to a specialist hospital, but it was no use - just a day later Garnett Spears was dead. The cause of death was determined to be brain swelling. Lacey had been online most of the time documenting Garnett’s condition, and even posted a photo of her son’s inert body being worked on by medical staff. But it was the result of a blood test that would reveal the true extent of her callousness.

Just after his final collapse a nurse had taken a blood sample from Garnett - it revealed that there was 182 mg of sodium in his bloodstream, or the equivalent of sixty-five packets of McDonalds salt. There is no way the little boy could have accidentally ingested this much salt; somebody had forcibly poured it into his feeding tube. But who?

It soon became apparent that Lacey Spears was involved in Garnett’s death; when police reviewed the camera footage in the ward Garnett was staying in on the day he fell into a coma, they observed Lacey leading him into a bathroom three times; after each bathroom visit, Garnett is visibly sicker. A neighbour made a statement that suggested Lacey was trying to get rid of evidence - just a day after Garnett’s passing, Lacey had begged a neighbour woman to destroy two plastic bags and several drinking straws in the kitchen. Upon being recovered, the bags were found to have contained at least two pounds of salt. Lacey Spears was promptly arrested and charged with second-degree murder.

During her trial it became apparent that Lacey suffered from severe mental instability; several experts declared that she had been poisoning Garnett with salt for practically his entire life, and she did it because she enjoyed the attention and sympathy it brought her. Lacey’s blog about Garnett was not intended to help the boy or raise awareness, but merely as a vehicle to attract more attention to herself. Lacey never admitted to poisoning Garnett or administering the fatal dose of salt, instead blaming the hospital where he died for his death. Lacey Spears was found guilty of murder in September 2014 and sentenced to twenty years without parole.

seungchuchu sns things

- phichit putting seunggil’s initials in every one of his social media profiles
- a twitter moment about how seungchuchu are hashtag couple goals
- a buzzfeed quiz on “which candid photo of seunggil lee from phichit’s instagram account are you?”
- phichit has google alerts on for ‘phichit chulanont’ ‘lee seunggil’ 'seunggil lee’ 'seungchuchu’ 'seungchuchu pair skating’
- that last one is for a powerpoint he’s working on titled 'Babe, It’s Not That Bad of An Idea’
- one of the references is just a link to the katsuki yuuri/victor nikiforov barcelona gpf exhibition skate
- phichit uses memes of victor tearing up rinkside from watching yuuri at competitions whenever people tag him in cute pap photos of him and seunggil
- seunggil’s first tweet was “HELLO TWITTER!!! :D” followed immediately by “i got hacked, i got hacked right away…”
- if we’re going to be real here the people of south korea are more familiar with phichit chulanont than with seunggil lee because the thai skater gets on famously with a significant amount of kpop idols, oftentimes being invited to the same parties as them and, i’m quoting an anonymous user from an ALLKPOP! forum here, “daebak!!! phichit is holding another livestream and baekhyun oppa is in the background!!! but who is that angry-looking ajhussi who keeps blocking the way ㅠㅠㅠㅠ”

anonymous asked:

I feel like I'm kinda alone on this, but I hc Keith as having galra short genes. We've seen that a lot of galra in their military are tall, but we've also seen some VERY short galra, so I've been thinking that it's really not that big a thing as fandom makes out for Keith to be the height he is. Whether he turns out to be full galra, half, or whatever, I don't think galra his height are as unusual as it's thought. Ideas of him nyooming up in height an stature make no sense to me & sound painful.

ya thats true!! see the thing i love about the galra is that their level of biodiversity is just completely unlike any other race we’ve seen. They look like they’re from this vast empire that’s expanded across half the universe in 10,000 years, i mean just from an evolutionary standpoint they’ve?? got it all?? I know a lot of people joke about them being “space cats” but while some have fur and other kinda feline features, a lot of them look more reptilian: 

and even if you try to find commonalities, there’s honestly almost nothing beyond the purple skin (which curiously, along with a growth in height, are the only galra attributes a shifting altean would inherit). So like, you could say–well, galra have these facial markings, that’s a distinctly galra thing. But thace doesn’t. Or you might point out that they all have those little frills on their head, but morvok doesn’t. You could try saying they all have the big fuzzy cat–or more so bat–like ears, but ulaz and zarkon don’t. Even the golden eyes, something that seems to be a given for all the galra in the military at least, is a trait that sal lacks. i mean, some galra aren’t even purple, like the guard in beta traz. There’s also galra that have these rare recessive traits you don’t really see elsewhere, like kollivan’s hair and antok’s tail 

so going back to your height headcannon, there’s certainly precedence for that. The mall cop galra looks closer in height to say hunk or lance, while the commander on Traujeer is noticeably very short. Though in the case of the latter, that seems more like some form of dwarfism. Allura gets taller when she shifts into her galra form so, I would assume that means most galra are taller by default, though there are exceptions to the rule. Others include Lotor–who’s already been called a “little fellow”–and the Mystery Galra in the weblum. But Lotor is half-Altean, which would account for his lack of height, and presumably so is MG, because they were digging around looking for scultrite (an outdated altean fuel source).

something else that’s kinda funny, but when keith agreed to his trial, the bom already had a suit in his size. Even though all the other galra there are like, a foot taller than shiro, apparently galra that short aren’t so unheard of that they wouldn’t have a set of armor or two that takes that into account. Either that or hallucinogenic ceremonial cult initiation armor comes in a Child Size or its one size fits all lmao

but anyway ya, i think its totally possible keith and maybe his mom are both on the shorter side. And though he appears more galran, lotor is still referred to as small by galra standards. So even if keith does shift or gain more alien attributes, i don’t think he’ll suddenly grow a few feet like allura (whose growth is based off the height of an average galra rather than a half-blood one). 

Then again, allura might actually not be a reliable source on any of this, since i think much of the galran biodiversity is rooted in expansionism and evolution across the universe (not to mention the introduction of druid experiments and quintessence), and allura’s ability is meant to mimic a galra that predates that empire by over 10,000 years. So maybe being tall and purple was a given back then, but now the galra are a bit more varied in their gene pools. anyway im also just really short so i will defend small galra keith to the grave either way lmao 

anonymous asked:

Am I the only one who notice that Liam change like whole story behind why they choose the name Bear? In the beginning he told a different story at all.

Hi Nonnie!

You are correct, Liam has yet again changed his story about the naming of Conchobear. We started with them needing to take time to get to know him, followed closely by Liam saying he had no input and Chernobyl chose the name, and now he’s backpedaling to say that he was the only one that heard Conchobear making noises that led to his name. Apparently Conchobear didn’t eat for the first day because Chernobyl was asleep the whole time LMAO So, what is the truth? Hint: Liam doesn’t know a Conchobear.

This is actually a pattern that Liam has developed. He tells a story to lay groundwork, and then revisits it later with new details that contradict his initial account. Liam rehearses a few specific stories and repeats them over and over in interviews until he’s confident playing the role. A normal dad would never need to repeat the same story as an example because he should have hundreds. Instead Liam is stuck with harping on about milestones for Conchobear (hence the walking, solid foods, singing mess) because he doesn’t have any normal stories about this child he doesn’t interact with. Liam has a very limited arsenal when it comes to this baby, so I assume he’s doing the best he can to reinforce how present and loving he is, before we get the inevitable split when it best suits Chernobyl and she tries to paint him in a negative light.

(Not actually relevant but something that amuses me is his outlandish birth story. Perhaps it’s just because Conchobear was born in the UK, but from a healthcare standpoint in the US it’s wildly inaccurate. First off, there would be one, maybe two surgeons to perform this “invisible C section” (which isn’t an exisiting procedure to my knowledge) and an attending physician. After birth, the baby stays with its mother until she’s tired and wants a break to rest. Nurses will then take the baby to the nursery to measure and examine it. Any abnormal sounds are normally chalked up to amniotic fluid left over in the lungs. They generally are clear of sounds within 6 hrs after birth, and nurses would be assessing this. Maybe it’s different for rich people/in the UK, but here in the US, no nurse in their right mind would call a busy specialist in to tell a family their kid was floating in fluid for 9 months and needs time to get rid of it, much less multiple specialists. If there was an actual issue, the baby would never leave the nursery, and Liam would be nowhere near the doctors and their assessments. Once again, his story is interesting with a level of detail that makes it sound true unless it’s something you’ve studied. Nice try, but no cigar Lima Bean 😘)

The Internet's Beloved Humboldt Penguin "Grape-kun" Has Died

After falling in love with a standee of Hululu, the penguin character featured in sleeper hit Kemono Friends, the Humboldt Penguin known to us as Grape-kun has passed away according to tweets from the official account of the Tobu Zoo, one of the zoos that participated in the initial Kemono Friends collabooration events run while the series aired earlier this year.

Grape-kun was initially moved out of his normal habitat on October 10th, with the Hululu standee at his side as workers observed changes in his physical condition that required him to be removed from the exhibit. Rest in peace Grape-kun.

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Goodbye (B.Barnes)

Goodbye 

(1940′s) Bucky Barnes

Warnings: bucky being a mopey cutiepie, possibly a swear i don’t remember tbh


Bucky knew time was ticking, flying past him aimlessly as if for some forsaken reason each click of the hands on his wristwatch were erasing the moments he had left. It hadn’t occurred to him that time could seem to move so fast, where every minute passed in the blink of an eye. 

He barley slept anymore, his eyes trained on the form next to him. He wanted to remember, no, he needed to. He needed to remember every slope, curve and freckle on her face. He thought he had her memorized after the three years they spent together, but for one reason or another he realized he hadn’t - he didn’t even know that she had a small freckle the blended in with her eyebrow. 

And that small fact he failed to memorize pissed him off to no end. How was he supposed to leave her at home without remembering that she had a damned freckle in her eyebrow arch? He couldn’t leave, he absolutely couldn’t.

He let his fingertips trail lightly across her hairline, her hair shining in the light projected by the glowing moon that flooded through the sheer curtains in her bedroom. He inspected the soft feel and lush volume of her long strands, his fingers twirling in it to possibly get another whiff of her milk and honey scented shampoo. He loved that scent - God did he love it.

His eyes follow the curve of her face from her flushed cheekbones to the slight perch of her nose. He always teased her about how her nose turned crimson in the winter from the chill, but looking at it now he feels pains in his chest that he won’t be able to see that sight this winter..he’ll be too far away.

Her plump lips catch his attention, his eyes zoning in on the crimson stained skin. He was always found of her lips, he caught himself staring at them almost as much as he caught himself breaking up fights that Steve had started. His jaw tensed at the idea that he won’t have her there with him to kiss him in order for him to calm down, for her long nails to rake through his hair and shush him when the only thing on his mind is tearing apart the guy who dared to put a hand on her.

He runs his fingers across the skin of her jaw, smiling slightly at his favorite place to kiss. Her skin is so soft everywhere but her jaw is something else entirely. A small patch under her cheek is her weak spot that Bucky knows far too well. It was his secret weapon, one sloppy kiss to the delicate skin had her small frame crumbling in his strong arms that were usually wrapped around her waist to hoist her up onto his hips. He reminds himself to remember how she sounds when she whimpers from his lips there, he’d have to do that before he leaves.

He hopes she remembers her key when she leaves the house, she always did have a tendency to rely on him to unlock the door. She was scatterbrained but in the best way possible. She was spontaneous and exhilarating, which in turn lead her to be somewhat forgetful in the grand scheme of things. She’d just be moving too quickly to remember to put her house key in her purse but luckily enough Bucky always had his on his key chain.

He hopes she takes care of herself. He hopes she eats full meals and doesn’t get too wrapped up in work when she deems life to be too stressful to deal with. Bucky can’t even count how many times he had to remind her to put down the pen and relax for a few minutes, that taking a break would not kill her career as a journalist. She was too smart for anything to stop her from succeeding.

He hopes she steers clear of the guys who always seem to want to touch her, especially at her favorite bar. He remembers the feelings of jealousy and anger steaming through him when he first saw a guy touch her, he saw how she inched away and looked for help. He hopes she doesn’t have to look for help anymore, he hopes she will lash out at the man and make sure he knows her boyfriend is in the military.

He hopes she doesn’t stop stealing his shirts to sleep in at night. He hopes his scent clings to them until he gets back so she doesn’t have to go a single day trying to remember his scent. He wants her to remember him, not to force herself to and end up getting angry with herself for her lack of memory. 

He hopes she doesn’t find comfort in somebody else. He hopes he can return home soon enough so he can cradle her in his arms and show her how much he loves her. He never wants another man to take his place at any point in her life. He wants to be the only person to kiss her, hold her, love her.

He hopes she can forgive him for leaving, he didn’t intend on hurting her by choosing this life. He remembers the night he told her, how upset she was. She damn near broke his heart in two with the look she gave him, a look of complete heartbreak and sadness. A look of someone who is grieving the loss of a loved one though she had not lost anyone to death but in her mind she had. She had lost Bucky, she lost him the second he enlisted. He was gone, left for dead and there was nothing she could have done because god, he hadn’t even told her he was going to.

Bucky Barnes regrets a lot of things in his life. He regrets not hugging his mother more, instead justifying his behavior that he wasn’t a touchy feely person. There were so many perfect times to hug his mother but now he would have to wait until after the war to do so. 

He regrets not telling Steve that he was scared shitless every time he saw his best friend in the back of an alley with a man two times his size, squaring up to start fighting. He hopes Steve will realize that fighting isn’t the way to fix the world, he hopes Steve can forgive him for all those times Bucky wasn’t able to stop the fights.

Bucky does regret a lot, but the one thing he regrets more any anything else is not telling her that he loves her more. He always thought it was a given, he showed his love through slight touches and sentimental gifts but he regrets all of that now. He told her he loved her every morning when her eyes were barley open and a small smile splayed on her lips. But, that’s it unless it was a special occasions such as an anniversary or birthday or holiday or something he thought was important to her. But fuck, he should have said it every second he breathed, he should have screamed it from the rooftops and told the world how much he loved that blue eyed girl from downtown.

God, Bucky thinks if he could somehow rewrite the past so he could fix all those stupid mistakes he hadn’t realized he made until this very second. He would kiss her more and tell her stupid jokes to see her smile, he wouldn’t eat all the brownies she made for the cookout and maybe he wouldn’t have yelled at her that night he told her he was leaving.

He thought she were over reacting, he was doing his duty to the country he loved so he didn’t see the big deal. But now he does, he sees the damage it’s caused for everyone he loves. He watched as his mother begged him to stay home, how his father gave him a tight hug as if to say ‘why did you do that? that was so stupid of you’. He watched as his girl cried into his shoulder, pleading for him to not die on her because she didn’t think she would survive this by herself.

She wouldn’t be by herself, Bucky couldn’t ever let her be by herself. He thought she was being selfish at first but he finally realized he was the selfish one. He hadn’t included her in his spur of the moment decision, he hadn’t taken her feelings into account. Initially he believed he was the only one hurting because he was the one leaving but..he wasn’t the only one hurting. He wasn’t the only one who would be alone with the memory of their loved ones in their heart.

He made Steve promise to take care of her. He went into great detail to explain what she’s feeling when she acts a certain way so Steve won’t end up making her feel any worse. He told his best friend to hold his girl, cuddle her if he has to but not to let her feel like she’s alone in the world. To have her call her parents once in a while, Bucky knew she wouldn’t do it without being pushed to and in this hard time she’d definitely need her mothers comfort despite her believing she wouldn’t. Bucky told Steve to keep her safe from the world, even from herself. To not let her watch the news about the war, to not let her imagine one of the dead soldiers as Bucky.

Bucky told Steve to make sure she gets his letters, he will write everyday and he expects her to receive every single one of them until he returns home. He told Steve to watch her, to stop fighting everyone and protect her like his life depended on it. He told Steve to compliment her, remind her how beautiful she is because she will forget that she is the most gorgeous girl in the world all because Bucky isn’t there to show her.

Bucky doesn’t realize he’s crying until a small tiger reaches up and brushes the salty liquid away, snapping him away from his thoughts. “What’s wrong baby?” Her gentle voice coos, a voice he thinks he needs more than air.

He shakes his head, pressing his lisp to her forehead. “Nothing doll, just thinking. Go back to bed, it’s late.” He murmurs, his voice threatening to crack at the waves of emotions flowing into him.

Her small body turns and cuddles into him, her cheek pressed to his bare chest. Bucky holds her like his life depends on it because she truly believes that it does. He thinks that if he lets her go even the slightest bit then she will be torn away from him before his eyes. “I love you Bucky, we’re going to be okay.”

Those simple words soothe his mind more than he though possible. Bucky kisses his girl lightly, reminiscing on the pillowy skin before nuzzling into her neck and taking a deep breath of her shampoo. He holds her tight, feeling her hands drag up and down his back as sleep finally greets him with open arms, the thought of what tomorrow will bring now far from his mind.

Downfall [19]

Characters: Jungkook x Reader

Word Count: 8,784

Genre: Assassin AU

Prologue | Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Part 10 | Part 11 | Part 12 | Part 13 | Part 14 | Part 15 | Part 16 | Part 17 | Part 18 | Part 19 | Part 20 | Part 21


The week following the disappointing outcome of the Gimpo Airport mission passes by in a blur. The days elapse in a jumbled mess as if you’re watching scenery shoot by from within a speeding vehicle, but once the brakes are applied and the dust settles behind you, you’re able to organize your thoughts on the events that have occurred.

The first few days were utilized to their full potential as your team vigorously flushed out the rest of the points of interest that Taehyung had marked on the map. The locations were scoped out with the utmost speed since you only had a limited time frame to act. You knew it wouldn’t take long for the enemy to catch on, but you didn’t expect to have already exhausted your upper hand so early in the game.

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On Keith Leaving Voltron and the Validity of His Decision

*deep breath*

Here we go… So, it couldn’t be more clear that a lot of the fandom is upset or dissatisfied or confused at Keith giving up the Black Lion and instead joining the Blade of Marmora. I admit, it does seem like a step backwards from Keith’s character development as a leader of Voltron from the previous season… But I think that’s the point.

Let’s take a step back and think about this; first, let’s start by asking some basic questions: What is Voltron: Legendary Defender? [Yes we’re getting that fundamental; get back here, take some time to read an actual intellectual argument about a family show for once.] That’s right, Voltron: Legendary Defender is a TV show! Now, what are TV shows, really? Well, they’re basically expressive visual media stories meant to shed light on the human condition and entertain us while doing so; the alternative to the written word doing so, yes? Meaning, they’re a kind of art. And the best art/stories challenge us to think in a new or creative perspective. This is why I love how Keith’s story has been unfolding.

Last season was spent exploring Keith’s attempt to fill Shiro’s shoes as Voltron’s leader. He wasn’t the best at it, surely, and he blatantly expressed hesitance to even take up the mantle. Even up until the end of the season, Keith told Shiro he didn’t believe in his ability to lead the team. This doubt in Keith’s mind culminates as he makes the decision to yield the Black Lion to Shiro and leave the team altogether for the Blade of Marmora. This is a good thing. Keith’s undeveloped leadership skills and his cognizance of his skill set poignantly validate his abdication as Team Voltron’s leader.

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petyr baelish week 2017;king of the ashes

According to ancient accounts the Great Fire of Rome was initiated by Nero himself. It seemed that Emperor started the fire in order to create room for his monumental palace, the Domus Aurea.

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«If you want to built a build a better home, first you must demolish the old one»

*Nero at Baiae by Jan Styka

Ἕκτη Φθίνοντος/ Ἕκτη μετ’εἰκάδας, XXV day
From today’s sunset: twenty-fifth (sixth waning of the third decade) of Anthesterion.
ΜΙΚΡΑ ΜΥΣΤΗΡΙΑ - VI day of the LESSER ELEUSINIAN MYSTERIES

“The cathartic (pertaining to purification) and the theoretic (virtues) are telestic (pertaining to mystic ceremonies). Hence, Olympiodoros adds, the cathartic virtues are denominated from the purification which is used in the Mysteries; but the theoretic from perceiving divine things. On this account, he accords with the Orphic verses, that
‘the uninitiated soul that dies
lies plunged in Hades in the blackest mire’
For initiation is the divinely inspired energy of the virtues.”
Iamblichus, Pythagorean Life 167

“For them (the Blessed Ones initiated in the Mysteries) in Elysium the Sun shineth in his strength, in the world below, while here ‘tis night; and, in meadows red with roses, the space before their city is shaded by the incense-tree, and is laden with golden fruits. Some of them delight themselves with horses and with wrestling; others with draughts, and with lures; while beside them bloometh the fair flower of perfect bliss. And over that lovely land fragrance is ever shed, while they mingle all manner of incense with the far-shining fire on the Altar of the Gods. From the other side sluggish streams of darksome night belch forth a boundless gloom.”
(Pindar, Dirges Fragment 129)

(Kore holding the torch; Museum of Cyrene)

nytimes.com
BREAKING: Russian Government Sought to Aid Trump’s Candidacy, According to Email
The president’s son was told in an email that the Russian government wanted to boost Donald Trump’s election bid last year.
By Matt Apuzzo, Jo Becker, Adam Goldman and Maggie Haberman

WASHINGTON — Before arranging a meeting with a Kremlin-connected Russian lawyer he believed would offer him compromising information about Hillary Clinton, Donald Trump Jr. was informed in an email that the material was part of a Russian government effort to aid his father’s candidacy, according to three people with knowledge of the email.

The email to the younger Mr. Trump was sent by Rob Goldstone, a publicist and former British tabloid reporter who helped broker the June 2016 meeting. In a statement on Sunday, Mr. Trump acknowledged that he was interested in receiving damaging information about Mrs. Clinton, but gave no indication that he thought the lawyer might have been a Kremlin proxy.

Mr. Goldstone’s message, as described to The New York Times by the three people, indicates that the Russian government was the source of the potentially damaging information. It does not elaborate on the wider effort by Moscow to help the Trump campaign. There is no evidence to suggest that the promised damaging information was related to Russian government computer hacking that led to the release of thousands of Democratic National Committee emails.

But the email is likely to be of keen interest to the Justice Department and congressional investigators, who are examining whether any of President Trump’s associates colluded with the Russian government to disrupt last year’s election. American intelligence agencies have determined that the Russian government attempted to sway the election in favor of Mr. Trump.

Alan Futerfas, the lawyer for the younger Mr. Trump, said his client had done nothing wrong but pledged to work with investigators if contacted.

”In my view, this is much ado about nothing. During this busy period, Robert Goldstone contacted Don Jr. in an email and suggested that people had information concerning alleged wrongdoing by Democratic Party front-runner, Hillary Clinton, in her dealings with Russia,” he said to The Times in an email on Monday. “Don Jr.’s takeaway from this communication was that someone had information potentially helpful to the campaign and it was coming from someone he knew. Don Jr. had no knowledge as to what specific information, if any, would be discussed.”

It is unclear whether Mr. Goldstone had direct knowledge of the origin of the damaging material. One person who was briefed on the emails said it appeared that he was passing along information that had been given to him by others.

Jared Kushner, Mr. Trump’s son-in-law, and Paul J. Manafort, the campaign chairman at the time, also attended the June 2016 meeting in New York. Representatives for Mr. Kushner referred requests for comments back to an earlier statement, which said he voluntarily disclosed the meeting to the federal government. He has deferred questions on the content of the meeting to Donald Trump Jr.

A spokesman for Mr. Manafort declined to comment.

But at the White House, deputy press secretary Sarah Huckabee Sanders was adamant from the briefing room lectern that “the president’s campaign did not collude in any way. Don Jr. did not collude with anybody to influence the election. No one within the Trump campaign colluded in order to influence the election.”

The president, a prolific Twitter user, did not address his son’s controversy on Monday, and instead sought to highlight other issues throughout the morning.

In a series of tweets, the president’s son insisted he did what anyone connected to a political campaign would have done — to hear out potentially damaging information about an opponent. He maintained that his various statements about the meeting weren’t in conflict.

“Obviously I’m the first person on a campaign to ever take a meeting to hear info about an opponent… went nowhere but had to listen,” he wrote in one tweet. In another, he added, “No inconsistency in statements, meeting ended up being primarily about adoptions. In response to further Q’s I simply provided more details.”

The younger Mr. Trump, who had a reputation during the campaign for having meetings with a wide range of people eager to speak to him, did not join his father’s administration. He runs the family business, the Trump Organization, with his brother, Eric.

On Monday, after news reports that he had hired a lawyer, he indicated in a tweet that he would be open to speaking to the Senate Intelligence Committee, one of the congressional panels investigating Russian meddling in the election. “Happy to work with the committee to pass on what I know,” the younger Mr. Trump wrote.

Mr. Goldstone represents the Russian pop star Emin Agalarov, whose father was President Trump’s business partner in bringing the Miss Universe pageant to Moscow in 2013. In an interview Monday, Mr. Goldstone said he was asked by Mr. Agalarov to set up the meeting with Donald Trump Jr. and the Russian lawyer, Natalia Veselnitskaya.

“He said, ‘I’m told she has information about illegal campaign contributions to the D.N.C.,’” Mr. Goldstone recalled, referring to the Democratic National Committee. He said he then emailed Donald Jr., outlining what the lawyer purported to have.

But Mr. Goldstone, who wrote the email over a year ago, denied any knowledge of involvement by the Russian government in the matter, saying that never dawned on him. “Never, never ever,” he said. Later, after the email was described to The Times, efforts to reach him for further comment were unsuccessful.

In the interview, he said it was his understanding that Ms. Veselnitskaya was simply a “private citizen” for whom Mr. Agalarov wanted to do a favor. He also said he did not know whether Mr. Agalarov’s father, Aras Agalarov, a Moscow real estate tycoon known to be close to President Vladimir V. Putin of Russia, was involved. The elder Mr. Agalarov and the younger Mr. Trump worked together to bring a Trump Tower to Moscow, but the project never got off the ground.

Mr. Goldstone also said his recollection of the meeting largely tracked with the account given by the president’s son, as outlined in the Sunday statement Mr. Trump released in response to a Times story on the June 2016 meeting. Mr. Goldstone said that the last time he had communicated with the younger Mr. Trump was to send him a congratulatory text after the November election, but added that he did speak to the Trump Organization over the past weekend, before giving his account to the media.

Donald Trump Jr., who initially told The Times that Ms. Veselnitskaya wanted to talk about the resumption of adoption of Russian children by American families, acknowledged in the Sunday statement that one subject of the meeting was possibly compromising information about Mrs. Clinton.

But he said that the Russian lawyer produced nothing of consequence, and that the meeting ended after she began talking about the Magnitsky Act — an American law that blacklists suspected Russian human rights abusers. The 2012 law so enraged Mr. Putin that he halted American adoptions of Russian children.

Mr. Goldstone said Ms. Veselnitskaya offered “just a vague, generic statement about the campaign’s funding and how people, including Russian people, living all over the world donate when they shouldn’t donate” before turning to her anti-Magnitsky Act arguments.

“It was the most inane nonsense I’ve ever heard,” he said. “And I was actually feeling agitated by it. Had I, you know, actually taken up what is a huge amount of their busy time with this nonsense?”

Ms. Veselnitskaya, for her part, denied that the campaign or compromising material about Mrs. Clinton ever came up at all. She said she never acted on behalf of the Russian government. A spokesperson for Mr. Putin said on Monday that the Russian president did not know Ms. Veselnitskaya, and had no knowledge of the June 2016 meeting.

Ms. Sanders said at a press briefing that the American president had learned of the meeting recently but declined to discuss details.

The White House press office, however, accused Mrs. Clinton’s team of hypocrisy. The office circulated a January 2017 article published in Politico, detailing how officials from the Ukranian government tried to help the Democratic candidate conduct opposition research on Mr. Trump and some of his aides.

News of the meeting involving the younger Mr. Trump, Mr. Kushner and Mr. Manafort blunted whatever good feeling the president’s team had after his trip to Europe for the Group of 20 economic summit.

The president learned from his aides about the 2016 meeting at the tail end of the trip, according to one White House official. But some people in the White House had known for several days that it had occurred, because Mr. Kushner had revised his foreign contact disclosure document to include it.

The president was aggravated by the news of the meeting, according to one person close to him — less over the fact that it had happened, and more because it was yet another story about Russia that had swamped the media cycle.

Fun Pet Names Part 2 of 2
  • Griffin: I think we can find some elucidation in the answers that have been provided.
  • Justin: Oh good, good.
  • Griffin: Yahoo Answers user PB responded, "Names I've called him: Sap, Sweet Boy, his middle name, Dumbo, Loser or just L-"
  • Justin cutting him off: Is his middle name Dumbo? 'Reginald Dumbo Bevins.'
  • Griffin: ... "Killer, Cop-Boy or 'his occupation' hyphen Boy."
  • Travis: Unemployed-Boy!
  • Griffin: 'Hey Cop-Boy!'
  • Justin: 'Hey Accountant-Boy, get over here and have some sex.'
  • Griffin: "Cutie, Nuts, Wiener, Tiger, Slug, Sloth."
  • Justin: 'Hey Wiener Tiger.'
  • Travis: 'Penis.'
  • ...
  • Griffin: "Names he has called me: Baby, my initials (PB), Lover, Baby Dolly, Blonde Dumbo, Angel, Goodie/Goody, Kitty, as in 'here kitty kitty'."
  • Travis: You had to clarify that one?!
  • Justin: Gross!
  • Griffin: "And my favorite, Darlin'."
  • ...
  • Griffin: Anastasia responded, "Mr. Sweetsy-Poo, Lovey-Snookums, Cuddlykins, Huggy-Bear, Love-Muffin, Snugglypie, Boo Boo Bear, Bon Bon Sugar Lips." *laughing* The next thing is the best thing I've ever read. "B'doodlykitten."
Miracles Take Time part five

(Writer’s note: I know I said five parts total. Turns out I lied. But I am pretty sure that the next part, six, will be the end. Sorry.)

2013

Time slipped by as John soldiered on. He could almost feel himself growing more dull and grey as he trudged through the days, buoyed only by Sherlock’s messages.

He received one on his birthday as a spambomb to the email accounts of everyone at his surgery. Initially, John ignored the barrage of emails advertising, ‘New, cheap Viagra!’ and 'Enroll now! Hot singles in your area!’ but it was a huge topic of discussion all day, especially after one of the lab technicians pointed out that the first letter from each subject line spelled out, 'Never going to give you up.’ As the whole office wondered who had played the prank John had learned somewhat against his will about Rickrolling, a fad that had happily passed him by while he was stationed in Afghanistan,.

Even then he would have missed the connection to himself if what had felt like the millionth email from the office manager about the 'issue’ hadn’t included a screenshot of the emails. The sender name on the first email jumped out at him: Jefferson Hope. A second look through showed that all the senders were named for the criminals from cases he had helped Sherlock with. Quickly, he clicked over into his trash folder, finding all the messages still there and, in direct violation of the orders he had just been reading from the manager, he opened each one. They were all blank save for the last one, where only two words greeted him: 'Never again.’ He hoped with all his being that would be true.

Another and considerably less heartening message showed up on the second anniversary of Sherlock’s 'death.’ That day John had taken off, thinking it would be suspicious if he didn’t. He had made the trip out to what he now knew was just a meaningless headstone and, feeling somewhat foolish, stood there and tried to look sad instead of worried.

To his own surprise words began to fall from him onto the empty grave. “I miss you. God, I miss you. You must know that right? And every day it becomes that much harder to believe-” he faltered for a second, knowing better than to voice somethings out loud even when he seemed alone, before continuing, “-well, to believe that there is any sort of happy ending to be found in this mess.”

He paused again, one hand coming up to rub at his nose as he struggled with the rest of what he needed to say. He crouch down and rested one hand on the black granite just as he had years ago, took a sharp breath, and said in almost a whisper, “I know what you said, I know miracles take time but I am running out of it, Sherlock. I can’t do this without you. Knowing that you’re alone too, where ever you are… Please. Please, this has to end soon, one way or another. Okay?”

He stayed there, hunkered over the grave for several more minutes, almost as if he expected the headstone to have an answer for him. It didn’t.

Instead he found his answer when he arrived back at home tied with red ribbon to a brightly colored box of Swiss chocolates he found mixed in with his mail. At first he was puzzled by the package, knowing it was not something he had ordered. He almost knocked on Mrs Hudson’s door to see if they were hers, but the card caught his eye first:

I wish everyday that I could have brought you with me, but everyday it is only knowing you are safe and sound that gives me the concentration I need to finish this.

Suddenly paranoid that Mrs Hudson would come out and ask him who the box was from he bundled it up with his mail, hurriedly taking the whole stack up to the flat.

He threw the rest of the mail carelessly onto the desk, taking the box with him as he sat down in his armchair. He read the card again, the words making the constant ache in his chest almost unbearable, before he untied the ribbon and set it and the card aside to open the box. He wasn’t surprised to find all his favorite chocolates, he was surprised by the bullet he found wrapped in cellophane at the center of the box. Picking it up he could see the point of it was deformed from impact into something fairly soft and his heart froze in horror at the thought of what or who it had hit. He looked back down at the box, hoping for a further clue and was not disappointed. Scrawled on the wax paper cup that had held the bullet was a second message:

P.S. I am now doubly sorry for all the times I blessed the shot to your shoulder that brought you to me. Being shot is rather tedious even when it heals completely.

Clutching the bullet tightly, John didn’t find the note as comforting as he was sure Sherlock had meant it to be. He stared across the handful of feet separating him from Sherlock’s grey leather chair, wanting more than anything to see his friend sitting there, and he wondered how much longer he could bear this purgatory.

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Apartment 5108 // 15

Apartment 5108 — ft. Oh Sehun
// Contemporary Romance
// Adult Fiction
// Sexual & Explicit Language — in later chapters

A/N: This chapter is extremely long. I apologize for its lengthiness—17,205 words

Chapters
// 1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 8 // 9 // 10 // 11 // 12 // 13 // 14

15

My parents were unforgiving.

Not once while growing up in their home did I see or hear them spare anyone for mistakes. Not me. Not the staff. Not even at work. It wasn’t within their capabilities to grant second chances let alone a second glance. They didn’t understand that the notion of being human was to be flawed. Faults and errors were a part of life but they aspired for perfection—to appear perfect in all its entirety and nothing short would’ve sufficed. In their strides for these impossible standards, they expected the same of others. They held everyone at the caliber they set for themselves which meant character defects, weak behavior and confused emotions weren’t permitted.

My mom and dad were stubborn and never deviated from their habitual conduct.

They acted in this manner because they feared disappointment (not that they would ever admit it). The idea of placing their trust in a person after a failure was unthinkable. They couldn’t fathom being let down; to feel defeat more than once. And they were this way because they lost faith in each other. They didn’t believe in one another and if they couldn’t count on the person they were with, then who could they rely on? It’s why no one was able to rectify their missteps.

In their eyes, a trust once lost was lost forever.

I lived similarly but the only difference was I never gave anyone the opportunity to disappoint me from the start. I didn’t allow anyone to get close; to understand me for the exact reason my parents never gave anyone another chance. I was afraid of the disappointment. I was afraid they would fail me as my parents failed me.

But the person I am now doesn’t reflect my past upbringing. I form relationships with others when I know it might not work out in the end. I’m unlike my parents and think everyone’s personality can cycle to not only the lows but also the highs. They can learn from their experiences and if they make a mistake, it doesn’t mean it’ll inevitably happen again.

Because—

I believe people can change just as I have.

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Hogwarts Houses (Chocobros)

I’ve been wanting to do this for a while, even though it’s a pretty stock post to make as a headcanon blog. I was also initially going to do the ones for the Girls first but I found it easier to get the bros done before them. Also please feel free to chat with me about any of these.

Sidenote: I’m taking the other media (in this case Brotherhood) into account as well.

Noctis.
Gryffindor. A common sorting for him, I’ve seen it often. The biggest reason I say so is how much he matures by the end of the game and how he’s prepared to carry out what his destiny requires of him. Nothing braver than that. Before that though, we can see it even in Brotherhood where he has an almost brash way of looking at life. The way he lashed out at Ignis in the anime comes off very much like an immature Gryffindor to me. There’s also how he used to sneak away from the castle when he was younger, which indicates he has an adventurous side to him too. And I think it’d be fair game to say that putting up with everyone reminding him how his father will die someday (as in having to be King someday) by those around him can be considered another sign of bravery.  His character also seems to dislike the restrictions that come with being a Prince and Gryffindors are typically free birds. A favourite of mine is how he was willing to cover for Iris when he knew Gladio would be absolutely livid over her running away. Standing up for others is very Gryffindor.

Prompto.
Gryffindor. I don’t think this one is too surprising, since I’ve seen others sort him into Gryffindor too. To elaborate on my reasons though, he’s a lot like a Neville!Gryffindor than a typical Gryffindor. He has this hidden inner strength that shows in times of duress, for those who’ve finished the game you can understand why I say that. He’s also pretty courageous, when looking at how he found a way to keep going even when he was miserable as a child. And looking at his childhood further, he seems to have a proactive and determined attitude. And I say this in terms of how he focused on losing weight, and  becoming more sociable so he could befriend Noctis. Or, in terms of how he was prepared to stick by Noctis’ side no matter how tough it got. Showing that he’s also very loyal. And while that’s a very Hufflepuff trait as well, his other qualities tell me Gryffindor is where he belongs. Most importantly though, Gryffindors like to stand up in the face of what’s wrong and I think that’s one reason for why Prompto continues to stay by the other bros’ side. Because he wants some kind of justice for what happened to Insomnia.

Ignis.
Hufflepuff. I was going back and forth on whether he was a Slytherin or Ravenclaw but I settled on Hufflepuff. It seems odd, I’m sure since the common consensus is Ravenclaw for Ignis. but let’s look into it. Hufflepuffs are generally loyal and hardworking. These two qualities initially had me peg Gladio for a ‘Puff but the more I thought about it the more it applies to Ignis. Staying by Noctis’ side and making the effort to get him to take life more seriously is a big deal. He’s dedicated his life to Noctis and grooming him, with the latter task being pretty demanding. Hufflepuffs are big on common sense and words over actions in times of conflict, and even though Ignis fights in the game, you can probably see in his characterisation that if he has the chance to, he’d rather not fight. He’s also pretty selfless and cares about the well being of the team. The way he cooks for everyone and even in gameplay I’d say his Regroup ability is reflective of this. The dedication and group-centric focus he shows tells me he’s a Hufflepuff.

Gladiolus.
Slytherin. I haven’t see this sorting often, so to some it may seem odd. But Slytherin is a good fit for Gladio. One Slytherin trait that sticks out to me as pointedly Gladio is a deep rooted respect for tradition. Being an Amicitia is very important in the Lucian Royal Court and we see that Gladio has fully embraced the role this involves. Never once does he shirk his duty as the King’s Shield. His loyalty can be considered a trait that puts him in either Gryffindor or Hufflepuff, but in his case the loyalty is a result of the importance he gives the Amicitia’s duty. Not to say that he doesn’t care beyond that, to me personally it just looks like that’s where his sense of loyalty stems from. He seems to also have great social skills (as noted by Prompto) and the fact that he doesn’t seem to resort to violence immediately (as shown by him taking a hit for Noctis and getting that scar), while still being prepared to raise his sword if need be, also owe to why I sort him this way. Slytherins also tend to be resourceful, and I’d be willing to say that can be tied into his Survival skill. All in all I think the strongest aspect to this sorting is how he values tradition. Take that away and his sorting would be different.