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(takes place after 6.22 where nothing happens to Kai except him turning into a heretic)
Reader and Kai are best friends , but both are keeping a secret from the other … *not my gif _______________________
It was one of those days (for 3rd day in a row) when Y/N just felt alone , as if the whole world was against her. She watched as her friends got their lifes together , got married and had a family while she was still alone. Well , she was in love but it was an impossible love - Kai , her best friend.
Their friendship had had a rough start but it only got better from there. Somehow Kai had become the most important person to her. Everything came into focus when he was around. Y/N’s friendship with him has had its ups and downs. She kept writing him off and he kept proving her wrong. It didn’t take long for her to fall head over heels hard for him and there was no going back from those feelings. Y/N loved him at his worst and at his best.
The days he was away were the hard , and he had been away for nearly a week.
Kai had called her every day , sometimes over 5 times just to talk to her and hear her voice. Today he was coming back and she couldn’t wait to see him.
The doorbell rang and Y/N ran downstairs , stopping only for a moment to glance at the mirror and make sure her make up wasn’t disturbed. Hesitating for a moment , she put her hand on the door knob and twisted it , Kai standing in the front door his eyes bluer than ever. For billionth time he took her breath away just with existing. A smile spread across his face and he pulled her into a hug , twirling her around before letting her down on the ground , both of them laughing. Somehow Kai was the only one who could make her smile even in the darkest of days.
“Oh how I missed you !” Kai said pulling her into another hug , wrapping his hands around her tight. “Are you ready for movie night?”
“Born ready.” she smiled and walked with him towards the living room. Kai had picked the movie - some romantic comedy he had heard was really good. She didn’t feel like watching a romantic movie just now but seeing how excited he was about it , she couldn’t bring herself to say no to him.
“Pork rinds ?” she said smiling and waving a pack of his favorite junk food infront of him. Kai smiled and snatched the pack from her hands. “Hey !” she protested “Those are -”
“Mine.” Kai finished her sentence laughing , “but I am willing to share.” he added winking at her.
Y/N sighed. It felt amazing to have Kai back , for a few moments she forgot completely everything that has been upsetting her the past few days … until the movie started. It was about two best friends who fall in love but none of them tells the other , until the boy tells the girl while she is sort of drunk and falls hitting her head getting an amnesia. The rest of the movie is spent with the boy trying to get the girl to remember their friendship , reliving old memories. In the end the girl falls in love with the boy all over again and later on gets her memory back. The movie itself wasn’t bad - it was funny and the actors were amazing. It was the feeling she got while watching - a little pit in her stomach that was growing. Y/N glanced at Kai again.
He hadn’t taken his eyes off of her the whole night. Y/N laughed and acted as if everything was OK , but something was clearly bothering her. He knew her too well and could pick up on the slightest change in her mood. Her heart was beating a bit faster and she was trying to silence the sniffles. Kai couldn’t understand why she was acting like this , couldn’t have been the movie. It was a romantic comedy and Y/N wasn’t one to cry over happy endings…
“Is something wrong ?” he asked concerned.
Y/N didn’t meet his eyes , just kept watching the movie where the girl was about to get everything she wanted - the boy she loved and who loved her , about to walk off into the sunset. She felt a prick in her heart as the thought of never getting this herself creeped in her mind again.
“Nothing. Everything is fine.” she said , putting on a fake smile.
He just kept looking at her. Something was definitely wrong , she acted like herself but it wasn’t really her. A few minutes passed and he couldn’t take it anymore , he pressed the pause button hoping this will get Y/N’s attention enough for her to tell him. Kai hated seeing her struggle with something without telling him. They always told each other everything. It was as if she hadn’t even noticed the movie had stopped playing , she just kept looking at the screen. He moved closer to her , his hand on her chin turning her face towards him and then he saw it - the tears glistening in her eyes.
“Don’t lie to me , Y/N. I can see the pain in your eyes… Did someone hurt you ?” he asked , concern in his voice.
Y/N shook her head. “No , everything is fine. I told you.” she said getting up , taking a few steps towards the stairs. She didn’t want him to see her like this. Kai didn’t like it when people cried. Just a few steps before she reached the stairs Kai flashed infront of her.
“Whatever it is , I’ll be there for you.” he said trying to pull her into a hug but she pushed him away. “Always… ”
“Don’t … Don’t say this. Any of it. Just … leave me alone.” Y/N said pushing her way past him but he grabbed her wrist not letting her go. She blinked back tears and refused to turn around.
“Nobody knows you the way that I know you. Just tell me… we’ll face it all together.” Kai said calmly and she finally turned around.
“Stop it Kai ! You can’t fix this , none of it ! Don’t you get it ?” she raised her voice wriggling her wrist out of his hand.
“Why are you acting like this ?” Kai raised his voice a little. “Did I do something wrong ?”
He looked confused and broken.
“No. You haven’t done anything , just please … leave me alone.” she said tears streaming down her cheeks.
“No. Not until you tell me… ” he pressed. “I’ve always been there for you , why won’t you let me in this time ? Don’t shut me out , please.”
She looked at him through tears. He was right , why was she shutting him out like this ? He looked so sad , it broke her heart even more.
Y/N took a deep breath wiping tears from her cheeks.
“Fine.” she said. “You want to know whats wrong … everyone around me is moving on with their lifes , starting a family or finding the perfect job and I am stuck. I have no one , Kai. They post pictures from their weddings on Facebook or Instagram and I just … When I think about my future ..” she couldn’t continue.
Kai sighed , calming down and a smile spread across his face.
“That’s it? That’s whats been upsetting you?” he said taking a step towards her. “You think you will never have a family or a loving husband who would stand beside you ?”
Y/N shook her head. “You don’t get it. I’ll never have this with the person I want. ” she said resting her back against the stair railing. “Everyone always leaves… you will leave someday too and then what ?”
For a moment none of them said a word. Kai couldn’t believe the reason Y/N was so upset about. She was one of the smartest perseptive people he knew and somehow it had escaped her the way he felt about her.
“Look in my eyes , Y/N. Can’t you see it ? Don’t you know me at all? Do you think I stayed in this town because of the soggy fries at the Grill ?” Kai said his voice soft , lifting up her chin. “I stayed because of you.I’ll never leave you. Never. ” he said smiling. “I want to spend eternity with you , Y/N. I want to be your future.”
A small smile showed on Y/N’s face as she was taking in his words.
“Don’t play games , Kai.” she said her voice barely a whisper.
“I love you Y/N ! I’ve loved you probably since the day we met when you pushed me away and told me to ‘stay hell away’ from you. I’ve never met someone so strong , so defiant as you who always speaks her mind … ” he said , his hand stroking her cheek. “You drew me towards you like a magnet and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you since. The day you decided to give me a chance and become my friend was the happiest in my life !” he said with a wide smile on his face , wiping a tear from Y/N’s face who was now smiling too. “I love you with everything that I have and I want to give you everything that you’ve ever wanted and could ever want in life.” Kai cupped her face , gently resting his forehead on hers , their eyes locked on each other. “I love you. I love you.” he said smiling before pressing his lips against hers , pulling her closer to him. Y/N’s fingers tangled in his hair tugging on it , pulling him closer to him.
“You really mean all of this ?” she asked , her voice a little louder than a whisper.
“Every word.” he said smiling. “I tried to tell you so many times… I um …” Kai said suddenly nervous , his hand reaching in his pocked pulling out a small box , the corners of his mouth twitched into a smile. “I’ve been working up my nerve to ask you this question for a few weeks now … I know we haven’t … we haven’t been in a relationship , not in the traditional way anyways but… ”
Y/N’s heart was about to leap out of her chest , her smile unable to leave her face for a second. Kai took a step down the stairs and got on one knee , opening the small box revealing a ring inside.
“Y/N , will you make me the happiest person in the world by marrying me?” Kai said smiling , his eyes bluer than the ocean filled with so much love and hope.
“Yes ! Yes , Malachai !” she said smiling , happy tears filling her eyes as Kai put the engagement ring on her finger. He got up and Y/N jumped in his arms , wrapping her legs around his waist , his arms holding her tight as his lips found hers and he kissed her passionatelly. “I love you.” she repeated in between kisses.
Maybe she could have it all , with Kai , just as she dreamed.
This is basically a very small examination of my favorite Marvel character, Tony Stark, based on this post.
Tony Stark has always been a very dynamic character. He’s the confident, suave, genius, billionare, playboy, philanthropist wearing the badass metal suit. His sassiness, wise-cracking, and attitude are familiar and entertaining. To me, he can be downright lovable. I can see why he’s not a favorite to some. The narcissism, the unprofessionalism, the immaturity, the condescending remarks. But I’m not really writing this to recruit Tony Stark fans. This is more of an analysis (especially on his PTSD, like the post linked above) that I hope will deepen the already-existent appreciation of his character. Keep in mind that I STILL haven’t seen Age of Ultron or Captain America: Civil War please. Occasional ranting will occur, so I apologize in advance.
CAN WE PLEASE JUST ACKNOWLEDGE HOW MUCH PAIN THIS MAN HAS GONE THROUGH?
Just to start, both of Tony’s parents were murdered.
Fast forward a couple decades, Tony gets kidnapped by FREAKIN TERRORISTS! During the kidnapping, he witnesses the violent death of young American soldiers and gets hit by shrapnel. Then he’s taken back to the terrorist base, has an incredibly painful crack surgery done on his chest with no anesthesia, until he’s not knocked out with what looks like chloroform. Then he wakes up with a chunk of metal surgically attached to his chest and is obviously freaking out before that scene ends (I mean I would too, I would think I’d been fuckin cyborged!). AND he can’t take it out or he’ll die. He’s kept in captivity with those terrorists for 3 WHOLE MONTHS, and is even subjected to water torture on one occasion.
When Tony escapes from the terrorist compound, his only friend and ally in those 3 months of captivity is killed.
Tony’s mentor, business partner, and friend, who had been in his life since he was a child, reveals he’s been using Tony as a “golden goose”, and had arranged for him to be kidnapped and killed by the terrorists. I mean, THAT BETRAYAL. Then the guy tries to kill Tony again, multiple times.
THEN, Tony is literally dying. I mean he’s actually dying. He’s slowly being poisoned from the inside-out by the electromagnet in his chest, which he can’t remove or he’ll die. So he’s basically got a terminal illness (of which he luckily cures HIMSELF later).
While being a part of the Avengers, Tony flies a nuke into a wormhole to space to save millions of lives, while under the belief that he won’t make it back before the wormhole closes. He loses consciousness believing that he will die alone, in the empty nothingness of space.
Fast forward again, and Tony has PTSD. Like full-on flashbacks and crippling panic attacks. And just to top it off, he gets ABSOLUTELY NO FUCKING SYMPATHY FROM ANYONE, not even from his best friend or girlfriend. Even Bruce fucking Banner falls asleep while Tony is telling him his story. FOR REAL?
Aaaaand his home is destroyed and falls into the ocean, with him underwater trying to hold it up. I’m sure that does wonders for his PTSD.
Every superhero has been through their fair share of tragedy, I’m not denying that in the slightest. But I think people (even his own fans) forget just how much trauma Stark has experienced. It’s easy to; Tony Stark covers up so much with narcissism, wise-cracks, and attitude.
Frankly the only times Stark really shows that he has some strictly mental issues to work through are during Iron Man 3.
If you had first met Tony Stark right before The Avengers, you would never guess he’d been held captive by terrorists for three months (something for which I am shocked he doesn’t have PTSD) and had suffered through and survived a terminal illness. His personality wouldn’t allow you to even consider that. He effectively covers it up will rebellious antics and jokes and immaturity.
But we know what’s happened to him. We’ve seen it. We’ve watched the movies. We have witnessed his traumatic experiences firsthand.
So when it comes to Iron Man 3, it’s always a surprise when I see some of his fans, y’know, hating on him for being…
A GODDAMN HUMAN BEING.
Iron Man 3 comes along and so many of his fans are so confused and annoyed with his obvious emotional and mental issues, and I’m just sitting here like, “Honestly, I’m surprised this didn’t happen sooner.” For real, this guy has been through SOmuch, and some people in the audience and even in the movie itself don’t give half of a fuck about his mental state. He has PTSD and people are sitting there being disappointed that he didn’t wear the suit enough. WHICH WAS KIND THE THEME OF THE MOVIE. Sorry, ranting, ranting…
With all the trauma in his life, it’s honestly a miracle that it’s taken him four movies to finally experience any sort of mental struggle, and he gets very little understanding from the characters alongside him and the audience (even when it’s full of his fans). It’s more than a little disappointing and sad that such a large number of people are so unreceptive to his problems, especially when it seems very obvious why he possesses them.
Iron Man is a superhero, but Tony Stark said it himself: “I am Iron Man.” You can’t separate the two. Without Stark, Iron Man won’t exist. Stark is the one who willingly put his life on the line to fly a nuke into a wormhole to save the lives of millions. Tony Stark is a human being, with human problems, a human brain, and human emotions. He’s not perfect. He’s human, and I think the very least his fans can do is judge him as such.
Wow! I’m a big fan of witch!Cas, that’s no secret, but this story was truly wonderful and enchanting! Aside from fluffy, it was cleverly funny, and of course the amazing friends-to-lovers trope was the cherry on top!
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Thank you so much for sharing your story with me, and congratulations on being the winner of the promo contest!
easy to be friends with a witch.
learned this the uncomfortable way when he entered Castiel’s home for the first
time, totally oblivious and naive, and immediately got cuddled fiercely by the
coat rack while the portrait of some bearded Shakespeare dude on the opposite
wall watched with a gleeful expression and warned Dean at the same time in an amused
voice to keep away from the refrigerator, since it tended to eat people wholly
and only ever return the shoes of its victims.
however, didn’t appear to be impressed by any of this and reassured Dean that
Shakespeare was fond of lying simply out of boredom, and that the refrigerator
only occasionally liked to nibble at people, not eat them.
took it with a dumbfounded face and asked for some coffee, hoping against all
odds that the coffeemaker wouldn’t like to chat or grope him as well.
last since that stupid machine told Dean just two minutes later that he was a
“pretty boy”, and tried to smack his ass with its cord.)
recalls quite vividly how overwhelmed he had felt back then. Granted, he heard
about witches and their crazy powers, but before that, he didn’t encounter quite
that many. Only the nice lady with the herb shop around the corner who offered
everyone her stale cookies, and a family from the edge of town that liked to
stay by themselves.
Castiel moved into the house across the street with his talking furniture, his
ugly car, his cat familiar named Douglas and – most importantly – with the
bluest eyes in existence.
How Elsa Should Have Turned Out: Surprisingly enough, social isolation during childhood doesn’t usually lead to a mature and well-adjusted adulthood. To see a terrifying real-world example of what isolation does to kids, take a look at the story of Genie Wiley, who was abused and sequestered in a room for more than a decade. Her horror-story treatment resulted in, among other things, physical abnormalities (at age 14, she was the size of an eight-year-old) and the inability to speak or interact in any sort of social situation. Genie was 13 when she was found, and she never recovered from her trauma.
Although we don’t see any examples of physical abuse in the movie beyond the solitary confinement, this treatment in and of itself most likely would have resulted in extreme mental and emotional disconnect, speech problems, physical disorders … think Tom Hanks from Cast Away, especially with the added guilt and shame of near-sororicide. Being without human contact until the age of 21, she should have been making grunting noises and building human-shaped statues out of her own poop.