the most important thing ever

z4thatluv asked:

how do I become beautiful in my eyes since I'm not in his anymore?

You take it day by day. You don’t need someone else to love you to love yourself, but I think that’s the most important thing before ever loving someone else. You come first.

ok so

we’ve all seen this gif before

and some have theorized that peridot was at some point destabilized herself, which led to the fear of gem destabilizers (when she used one herself, it was a worst case scenario kind of moment, and she seemed rather desperate)

but what i haven’t seen discussed before is the story behind this defensive body language. and i think i have a theory.

peridot is a bad gem, and this is a fact. she will carry out orders from her superiors without question or diversion, no matter what they are. she may just be a standard working-class technician who is told from birth that carrying out orders is the most important thing ever (in either case shes been spoonfed propaganda by homeworld about earth, so the possibility for further corruption is feasible), but there could be something else that drives her to obey so wholeheartedly.

what i think happened is that peridot had a friend of some sort, one who wasn’t too keen on mindlessly following the pack. this friend might have attempted to go against their rulers, bringing peridot with her. but the diamond authority wouldn’t allow working-class gems to rise up. so, yellow diamond decided to simply crush the two like bugs. peridot’s friend was shattered, and as punishment for following her friend, peridot would also have to suffer. she was destabilized, possibly by a larger gem like jasper, and sent back to work.

this is just a theory, but it could explain why peridot is so insistent on following diamond’s command and not going after rose. and why she fears the destabilizer when it is brought out by jasper.

MY SISTER STORY

¼/2015

In 1 month you would be turning 17, and i wonder everyday what would that be like, if you would be borrowing my clothes and make up, or if you would still play with dolls as you did when you left me here.

Would you still be funny and sweet as you were?, Never calling me “fat” or things that you know would hurt me.

I miss you, so much its unbereable, like a hole in the middle of my chest. You were my sister, my only sister and I dont have you by my side anymore. And its really unfair. I would give up my life if that would bring you back.

I’m so afraid noone will remember you but me. Thats one of my greatest fears. If people forget how lovely you were and how strong and brave and how willing to go through hell just to live.

I want all people to know about you.

Lucy (Lucia Florencia), was born in February 4th in 1998, when i was six years old, and she was my best friend ever.

She was really funny and loved to play dress up. She usually used Sailor Moon’s suit and put make up on and it was just hillarious.

She really liked when i took pictures of her, she was like my model, i really liked taking pictures of her. She is the cutest thing the world has ever had.

Her hair was long and waivy and dark brown, and her eyes where so bright and charming and obscure at the same time, really misterious.

She played the piano, the violin and had a really good ear and could play lots of songs only by ear, without even know how to read partitures.

She was bright as hell, but really talkative, and sometimes naughty. Once she came back from school (9 years old), and told my dad, “I have one bad new and one good”, my dad said “Tell me the bad first”, “the teacher put me a bad face on my notebook because i punched Anna on the face, she was being really rude”, and my dad said, “and whats the good one” “That Anna is okey, that we are fine, and it was nothing at all, just that”. He could not stop laughing after that.

She was my rock, and I was hers. We loved each other even more other sibbligs do. She was the true face of love.

Her favourite stuffed animal was the racoon you can see in the bed besides her. She was burried with him, his name was “Mapachin”, and he was her fav since she was like 3 years old, when she cut really deep her finger and had to have stitches and mum bought that to her for being so brave.

She got sick in 2008, she was 10, her back started hurting really bad, and after xrays and exams, mum came back crying like I had never seen her, and my world felt appart.

I had to go and tell Lucy she had to go to another city to get her back cured. and she asked me if she would have to take some medicine, and it broke my heart.

She had cancer, a new kind of cancer, in one tumor it had different fenotipes and there was no treatment that cured the whole tumor, so they removed it. It didnt work.

She thought she was cured, my parents never could tell her the truth after that, we were all a reck, really messed up people, we still are. We will always be. Life really took love away from us in such a hurtfull and horrible way its almost impossible to describe.

Whatever doctors said that she might have or experience, happened. Every single bad thing. She had to lie on a bed for 4 months without moving, cause her brain tumor wouldnt let her. Her lungs tumors filled her lungs with water, so she couldnt breath anymore.

After some months of unbeareable sadness and hoping for miracles and praying to every god ever existed. Doctors had to put her in medical coma, because she wouldnt get better. Ever.

And that was it. on June 8th on 2010, my sister died of cancer, in a hospital bed. Her last thing she “said” (she couldnt talk anymore, so she said I LOVE U blinking her eyes really hard), was I love you, to my mum, dad and me.

And I lost everything.

The day after that, was when i saw death itself. My sister, insanely pale and blue-ish in a coffin, and i had months and months of nightmares.

I miss her smell, i miss her voice, and i miss not remembering everything that happened before the illness, because i wasnt really thinking something as destroying as that would happen.

Im just writing my heart here, you cant see my fingers trembling, or the tears running down my face, but i know you can feel them, because i need to tell you all this.

Please think of her, even though you didnt know her. She was my baby sister, and my mate, and my love. And i dont have her anymore and I dont want her to be lost in time and noone knowing who she is.

She couldve been a remarkable piano player, or an actress, or a veterinary,for her love towards animals. But she hadnt the chance to do that.

She didnt have her first kiss

or her first period

or travel to disney world

or be trully in love with someone

and most of the things we enjoy as teens and young adults. She couldnt have them, so please, think of her when u do. Say her name before going to sleep, tell your kids about this amazing girl who lived in Mar del Plata, Argentina and told the kindergarten teacher she wanted to be a Ship captain just like her dad. And how she was not ashamed at all when she asked santa for a HotWeels Car wash instead of a barbie.

I love you, and I hope you think of her.

Eugenia Cecilia Arroyo.

taylorswift

Rules for Life
  1. You are allowed to change your mind. Don’t hold yourself to things you believed years ago
  2. You are allowed to be needy. You can be that annoying friend sometimes, you can stop helping other people all the time and let yourself be helped. 
  3. You are allowed to call people on their bullshit. 
  4. You are allowed to speak up if you feel uncomfortable. 
  5. You are allowed to let things slide sometimes. You don’t always have to be the bitch that calls people out, but you CAN if you want!
  6. You are allowed to make mistakes. and move on from them, or not
  7. You are allowed to ask for things. 
  8. You are allowed to be a self-centered attention whore sometimes
  9. You are allowed to be screwed up. 
  10. You are allowed to freak out over nothing sometimes. 
  11. You are allowed to over-exaggerate your problems
  12. You are allowed to ignore people if they are causing you problems. 
  13. You are allowed to pretend you are fine, if you want. 
  14. You are allowed to feel however you feel, and nobody should ever tell you differently, even yourself. 

7. As much as Will is attracted to Nico, he never lets it effect his role as a doctor whilst treating the son of Hades. His ability to give medical care is the most important thing to him, and nothing will ever get in the way of his professionalism. 

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The First Steps

a dancer!destiel story

(read on ao3)

It was the biggest competition of Dean’s life, the most important thing he’d ever done.  It could make or break his career as a dancer.

He’d practiced for this for months - probably, if he thought about it, his whole life. He was ready, the nerves were there, but it was good for him, he knew that. He needed some nerves.

He was ready. Just his luck that his partner for his duet had broken her ankle two days before.

Lisa’s face had been stained with tears when he went to visit her, partly from the pain in her ankle but mostly because she knew she was letting him down big time.
He’d had to comfort her when he saw how upset and guilty she felt - they’d been dancing together since they were four years old and had always been there for each other. Dean wasn’t going to be a dick to her now because she’d had an injury.

All the same, he’d cried when he left the hospital, thinking that this was the end of his dancing future. No chance to get noticed by the representatives from the dance companies he so desperately wanted to get into. It looked like he was destined to work a long miserable life in his dad’s garage for all eternity.
His tears meant that he didn’t notice the boy sat on the steps outside the hospital until he ran in front of him.

“Dean?”

He looked up with teary eyes to meet a pair of bright blue ones. Cas. Of course it was Cas.

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