36? with ethan maybe? because i love angst lol
We all have one of those days where we feel down. Everything feels like it’s against you and you try to avoid looking in a mirror as you know that you’ll feel even worse, you’ll start pointing out every single flaw that you think you have.
Today was one of those days, you didn’t feel like going out with your boyfriend as his brother as they went out to eat some breakfast. You simply stayed in bed and as much as you knew that you shouldn’t, you still wounded up checking Twitter.
It was a bad decision. No matter how many nice comments there were, the nasty ones always made a greater impact.
A picture of Ethan with a fan caught your attention. She was gorgeous, she had the type of beauty that you wish you had, the one that stands out. Her traits had no imperfection what so ever.
Her nose was as small as a button, clear skin, her mouth drew a big bright smile with perfectly straight, white teeth. Your boyfriend’s hand was placed on her slim waist. Her light brown hair cascaded down her shoulders to the middle of her back.
She was everything you weren’t, at least that’s how you felt in that moment.
The thing that caused tears to brim in your eyes, your heart to clench and your breath to stagger was the way Ethan looked at her. The way your boyfriend looked at fans had never bothered you before but in that precise moment with that particular fan, it has caused your breakdown.
Instead of closing Twitter and shutting your phone off, you decided to skim trough the tweets, another bad decision.
“Omg she’s so beautiful.”
“They would make such a perfect couple.”
“If I was Ethan I would ditch Y/N for her.”
“I wouldn’t blame Ethan if he cheated on Y/N with her.”
After that last tweet, you shut your phone off. The amount of people that were defending you or the ones that were saying nice things about you didn’t matter. Those three that you read kept repeating in your head.
They wouldn’t go away, even your loud sobs couldn’t cover the voices in your head repeating those hurtful words.
You knew that Ethan would never be capable of cheating on someone, he’s been hurt before and he has too pure of a heart to hurt someone like that in return. Despite that, all logic was gone, your thought process was irrational, all you could think about was your boyfriend with another girl, a more attractive girl.
Your confidence was what got Ethan’s attention when you first met him, you had this false confident appearance on the outside but on the inside, you were reeking of self conscious thoughts, like everyone. Your thoughts escalated from a small flaw you found to every single flaw you could possibly find on yourself.
Your loud sobs prevented you from hearing Ethan’s arrival. A small gasp left your lips as you felt his strong arms wrapping you in a much needed embrace.
His hand rubbed your back, up and down in a soothing manner. His lips pressed to your temple. He rocked side to side, hushing you ever so quietly once in a while as some of your sobs would get louder.
You stopped crying after a while, your throat was dry, your eyes were red and swollen. Ethan was laying in bed, on his back, still holding onto you as your head rested on his chest, your face hidden away. You looked horrible.
His hand was running through your hair, his slow breathing was calming you down as well as hearing his heart beat against your ear.
“I love you.” He says as he places a tender kiss on top of your head.
“And I will never stop trying to help you see your beauty even though I’ve been doing a crappy job at it lately.” He says as he runs a hand trough his hair tugging at it in sign of his frustration.
You open your mouth in order to protest, he wasn’t at fault of your insecurities. He’s done nothing less but show you how much he loves you and the way he looks at you, whenever you catch him, makes you feel like the most beautiful girl in the world. Only even that wasn’t enough to make your insecurities disappear completely, especially in your gloomy days.
“Having something you can’t bear to lose is fucking scary.” He says breathlessly, his voice shaking in the process.
You quickly shook your head as you sat up, placing your hand on his chest in order to support yourself as you look at him, making sure that you look him in the eyes as you place your hand on his cheek.
“You’ll never lose me. I’ll be here as long as you want me to, I promise you that.” You say softly as you lean your forehead against his, placing a small, tender kiss on his lips.
The rest of the evening was spent in bed, talking about everything and anything. Getting through bad days won’t be as hard anymore with Ethan by your side.
A/N This was very hard to write as we’ve all experienced bad days and hard times in our lives, I really wanted to do it justice and hopefully I did. Just know that everything gets better eventually. My ask box and messages are always open if you need someone to talk to. You are beautiful, loved and appreciated. Thank you to whoever requested this and thank you for reading !