the moment my soul left my body

yuffah asked:

Net ball, qucik ball

Net Ball:Favorite Pokémon villains

Shark Boy and Lava Girl. Legit though, it really is Maxie and Archie. They’re great I love them. Although I guess Lysandre could get an honorable mention because his goal kinda came out of left field for a Pokemon game and it made me think of things.

Quick Ball:Luckiest Pokémon memory

*takes a deep breath* Okay, so this may not exactly be my actual luckiest moment in Pokemon but here goes. 

So I was trying to catch Groudon for like the thousandth time in ORAS and I got it down to the reds and paralyze him and just raise his catchabilty to the nines (which all didn’t work), when the doucher pulls Rest from his ass and fully heals himself. Aggravated to the point of my soul leaving my body out of pure rage, I decide to throw a Pokeball (a regular Pokeball because I’m a stickler like that) at him while he’s asleep and one shake…two shakes…thREE SHAKES ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDI-OOOH MY GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I CAUGHT IT ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME ARE YOU FUCKING FOR REAL RIGHT NOW FUCK OFF FUCK THIS GOD FUCKING DAMMIT

And that’s one of the luckiest/most aggravating Pokemon memory I can remember at the moment.

I accidentally opened my neighbor’s mail and saw a $570 charge from the city and in that moment I’m positive my soul left my body. 

It has been a good solid week of training so far. I swam 2.5 miles for the first time and as I’ve begun to shift focus to hours on the bike, that is just what I’ve gotten. I’m confident in the time left I have before CDA that my swim and run will be there. With the bike being the longest portion of the experience it’s time to churn out some miles and hours.

It looks like today will be a rest day, unplanned as it were, but one none the less. That’s ok. Wyatt, Elliot and I will have lots of time to do stuff and I’m feeling like that is what my soul needs at the moment.

Just as I think it’s important to listen to your body, one also has an ear towards your soul. Routine must not spoil the joy, importance, and spontaneity of fatherhood.

BLACK VEIL BRIDES - “In The End”

In the end
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life?

In the end
As my soul’s laid to rest
What is left of my body
Or am I just a shell?
And I have fought
And with flesh and blood I commanded an army
Through it all
I have given my heart for a moment of glory
(I gave it all)

In the end
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life (oh whoa oh oh)
And who will remember your last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I’m not afraid to die.

I’m not afraid, I’m not afraid to die

Born a saint
But with every sin I still wanna be holy
I will live again
Who we are
Isn’t how we live we are more than our bodies
If I fall I will rise back up and relive my glory

In the end
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life (oh whoa oh oh)
And who will remember your last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I’m not afraid to die.

In the end
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life (oh whoa oh oh)
And who will remember your last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I’m not afraid to die.

Who will remember this last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I’m not afraid to die

Not afraid
I’m not afraid to die
No not afraid
I’m not afraid to die

one moment to the next

Why did you do that? You led me on from the start. You made me believe that you really wanted me, that you were really happy with me when you weren’t. I loved you WITH ALL OF MY HEART!! But that didnt matter to you. 10 months straight you made me feel like you were the one. You made me feel like i had someone in this lifetime that truely loved me wanted me for my imperfections and my perfections. You killed me. Not the litaral me, not the body but my soul. We were best friends then lovers then from one moment to the next i was nothing to you. My feelings were nothing to you. My hopes and dreams of what we could have been were nothing to you. You left me in the time i needed you the most. You never loved me. I was a fool for believing someone really could. I wanna say mean things about you. I wanna curse you and your entire family to hell but thats not me. I think i tried as hard as i could and i did nothing but love you. So maybe me losing you wasnt the worst. Maybe…you losing me was the worst and one day you might see how much love YOU really lost….

The first time I’d ever been graced by Inanys was while sitting on a shoreline at night.

I sat under a brilliant array of stars, the void peeking from beyond their influence. The ocean was black without the sun overhead, the only indicator that it was not the sky bleeding onto the earth was its own lack of celestial beings in sight. The breezes gently pulled my mind away from my body and allowed me to extend my sight beyond the physical plane for the first time.

A single breath was like exhaling nebulae as I could see through the eyes of my god. It was overwhelming and so very right as thoughts seemed to materialize before my eyes. The abstract became tangible for a single moment before his being left my own vessel.

But there was an unbreaking connection which he had forged then, as if he had left a shard of himself inside of my soul, allowing me to hear him.

His intentions and voice were so clear to me then- I was now his mouth to the mortal ear.

Baby, did you dream last night?
Do you know you were in my dreams?
Do you know how real you feel there against my flesh. Inside my body. In my heart?
Do you know waking and leaving you hurts on these mornings?
I want to go back and I know you’re already gone from that mist.
But, my soul is still reaching out. My heart is still holding you. My arms are still grasping at the hologram of your form in the darkness as you drift away. My flesh is aching. My lips are moments from the soft warmth of your mouth. Who can start their day in this world left in such desire?
Baby, I know you don’t see where we go as I see. I know you feel us in your body. I want to feel the way you feel in your body. Baby, don’t stop coming to my dreams. Don’t stop reaching. I am still there. I am always there inside you. Maybe I am the one waiting.

Quote from De Profundis

I bore up against everything with some stubbornness of will and much rebellion of nature, till I had absolutely nothing left in the world but one thing. I had lost my name, my position, my happiness, my freedom, my wealth. I was a prisoner and a pauper. But I still had my children left. Suddenly they were taken away from me by the law. It was a blow so appalling that I did not know what to do, so I flung myself on my knees, and bowed my head, and wept, and said, ‘The body of a child is as the body of the Lord: I am not worthy of either.’ That moment seemed to save me. I saw then that the only thing for me was to accept everything. Since then — curious as it will no doubt sound — I have been happier. It was of course my soul in its ultimate essence that I had reached. In many ways I had been its enemy, but I found it waiting for me as a friend. When one comes in contact with the soul it makes one simple as a child,