the making of a beautiful lie

28.3.17

Today I’m only asking for one thing: for you to unbox a pair of hummingbird wings for me. Something slender and sea foam green and see through. Just shave a space and jam them in. Lie here prone with me, while the living room drowns us in sunlight. This bottled water has bubbles I wasn’t expecting. They make my heart beat that much faster. Feet leaving the ground. Arms slapping the wind. I’ll never be young again, I know that, but I can still watch the beautiful people on TV do it for me. They die each night, for my entertainment, kissing each other madly on sea side cliff or a burning ferris wheel. While we tie our fingers together, safe and tired, and say, Maybe next year.

even his fucking wrist is beautiful i can’t believe i have to quit my job now nothing i’m saying is coherent i just told my friend i was making tea like i’m not even doing that why did i lie about it i can’t find my socks nothing makes sense

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Closer (2004)

Director - Mike Nichols, Cinematographer - Stephen Goldblatt

“It’s a lie. It’s a bunch of sad strangers photographed beautifully, and… all the glittering assholes who appreciate art say it’s beautiful ‘cause that’s what they wanna see. But the people in the photos are sad, and alone… But the pictures make the world seem beautiful, so… the exhibition is reassuring which makes it a lie, and everyone loves a big fat lie.” Alice

Don't demonize Saeran in the Unknown route

If there’s an Unknown route I think the main focus should be on having MC making Saeran realize that he’s been brainwashed, and having him forgive Seven. I’d also like to see the group all deciding to help him out in their own way, some of them skeptical and doing it for Seven, but once getting to know him, never regretting once they did.

I don’t want a Beauty and The Beast situation for his Good End. In the Bad End, him kidnapping her could probably make sense… But I want the story to end well for him, not with him shown to be a posessive yandere that’s really just toxic to MC.

I want Saeran shown to be human, a fragile, emotional human. I want him to be vunerable and scared when realizing what Rika did to him, that all he believed was a lie. I want him to become angry, I want him to stand up for himself against her, to take control of himself and cutting all the ties she used to make him do what she wanted.

I want Saeran to be angry at V for things turning out the way they did, for not stopping it sooner. But I want him to forgive Seven, when finding out it wasn’t his fault, for them to re-unite and talk about it.

I want Saeran to be gentle and kind with MC, and her with him as well. I want her making sure he knows she’s there for him, but giving him all the space he needs when processing the situation, and never preassuring him.

The Unknown route should show how Saeran isn’t evil. Rika turned him into a tool, a weapon, but that doesn’t make him a monster. He’s a human, who has been through things no one should ever have to endure.

Honestly I know everyone’s talking about bellarke sex in that beautiful bed but like…. seeing Clarke so soft in that room but with an uncertainty about her, like she can’t remember what it’s like to have something nice, seeing Bellamy so hopeless and wrung out…. it just made me ACHE for a scene where they get to hold each other, make each other feel human again, lie in that big bed and just /be/ beside each other. Just imagine bellarke holding each other in that soft lighting, forgetting that the end of the world is coming because it feels like their whole world is already there, in their arms…

For Lamashtu!!

Recently during my weekly Pathfinder game, the party split up to explore some catacombs under a small town. While in these catacombs, our Human Swashbuckler, Aasimar Sorcerer, and Catfolk Slayer encountered a mutated goblin with three arms.

Goblin (in Goblin): Who you!? You not Lamashtu!! (he meant “a follower of”)

Swashbuckler (in Goblin): Uhh, she Lamastu!! –points to Sorcerer–

DM (me): Roll bluff. And no, your “Innocent” trait doesn’t apply (makes a lie more believable).

Combined, they roll a 24, but the lie is nearly impossible, so they took a -20 penalty. The goblin’s Sense Motive, on the other hand, was at a -1 due to his Wisdom Modifier.

He rolled a 4, with a -1. He believed that this beautiful Aasimar was Lamastu incarnate. He immediately runs up and falls to his knees in worship.

Goblin: What do you ask of my, Mistress of Monsters?

Aasimar: Slay yourself for the Goddess!

DM: Bluff again…I really hope you don’t–(roll made fairly high)Oh come on…

The goblin Coup De Grace’d himself with three weapons for 41 damage, killing himself instantly.

The party couldn’t breath for several minutes we were laughing so hard.

Just another reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today: Your love matters. Your emotional stability matters. Your worth should be valued. You deserve better once you choose better. You don’t have to put up with the bullshit. You have a choice. Loving them doesn’t make you stay, lack of loving yourself does. Now pause before you lie to yourself.
—  Horacio Jones
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4:56 .  there i was staring off into space & eating my fig bar. sighing in frustration & thinking about my day. i look down to see an ethereal light cascading over the tiles. i glance up to see the most magical sky outside. not only are sunsets truly beautiful, but they project a hazy yellow light  that makes you feel as if you are in a dream. i slide the door open & step out into the brisky air. i continue to lie down on my deck to take in the beauty. my dog comes out & lays on my feet, her rhythmic breathing making it all the more peaceful. i felt content for once. a feeling i hadn’t felt in awhile. everything seems to be still yet alive. i snap a few photos that obviously don’t capture the true art. but its still something. enjoy!

OMG!!! I see a shade called “OG Lolita” and it looks like the original formula!!! This makes me so damn happy. The original Lolita was my favorite! I hope this shade comes out in the studded kiss lipsticks too! No lie, I have been hanging on to a 5 year old Lolita lipstick because I can’t live without this color. Gross, I know. But the original color is to die for.

Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes.
Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more.
You’re doing just fine.
—  Charlotte Eriksson

Well….. Finally…. IT IS DONE! IT’S DONE GUYS! I AM SO FREAKIN HAPPY! This Artwork took more than 16 hours! BUT It’s cool, right? Come on yo also think it’s cool, don’t lie to me, sweety :D
Thinking back to “I just want to make a little fanart” is weird…..
And after I finished this here… I get determind to make another one O-O!!!!

First I want to say thank you to a great friend of mine namend Meerrrettich or Mapany or.. well she has many names let’s say whale. She helped me alot with the shading! :D
And then thank sou to the great and beautiful @xladymalice! Well she is the reason why I draw this shit here so XD Thank you for your amazing stuff! I love it so much!!!

I am sure there are some mistakes. I never draw something like this before, I mean this perspective, so if you find something, please say it. Also give me some criticism! I need it! Really!! I want to become a better artist so please. I’m begging for it ^^’

And here is the pic without the effects and one colourless rasterized :D

If you ever wonder if I’m okay,
let my lie make your heart stop for a centisecond,
let my lie make your smile afraid to appear on your lips,
let my lie make your whole body tremple and all your insides shake,
“I’m okay,”
I lie proudly, smiling outside and sighing inside,
feels good saying this,
feels so good I almost believed myself,
but why wouldn’t I be okay though?
the sky did not stop showing me his stars,
the sun did not stop setting and rising,
the rain did not stop pouring,
the snow is still white,
my dad still makes my mom laugh,
my brother makes me coffee when in good mood,
my favorite songs are always with me,
the birds are still singing,
and I am okay and will always be,
“I’m okay,”
I say proudly.
And this time I did not lie.
sentence prompts ➝ in this moment
  • ❛ This is our eternity. ❜
  • ❛ I was never good enough. ❜
  • ❛ Will you be the death of me? ❜
  • ❛ I’ve been drowning in questions, over and over again. ❜
  • ❛ Just look at me and say goodbye. ❜
  • ❛ I know you’re by my side. ❜
  • ❛ The only promise I could make you is that my promise is a lie. ❜
  • ❛ I don’t know how I’ll get through this. ❜
  • ❛ My beautiful liar, why are you crying? ❜
  • ❛ I love you for always driving me insane. ❜
  • ❛ Can I give you just a taste? ❜
  • ❛ I don’t need you to save me. ❜
  • ❛ You’re dangerous, so keep your distance. ❜
  • ❛ I’ll tell you exactly what you want. Teach you to behave. ❜
  • ❛ Come on, inside my room. ❜
  • ❛ I would walk through flames for you. ❜
  • ❛ And in your hate, I find love. ❜
  • ❛ I’m not gonna change. So stay out of my way. ❜
  • ❛ Can we run away now and hide from tomorrow? ❜
  • ❛ These voices are killing me. ❜
  • ❛ All my life I was afraid to die but now I come alive. ❜
  • ❛ It’s been a beautiful tragedy. ❜
  • ❛ We wanted peace but you brought this war. ❜
  • ❛ I’ll be the best you ever had. ❜
  • ❛ You’ll never know what it is you’ve done to me. ❜
  • ❛ We’re not gonna stop tonight. We’re gonna burn this city down. ❜
  • ❛ I know that I can survive this. ❜
  • ❛ I don’t want to wake from this. ❜
  • ❛ You know where to meet me and you know just what I need. ❜
  • ❛ Don’t try and stop me now. ❜
  • ❛ I’m so tired of you telling me how to live and what I should not be. ❜
  • ❛ Take me away tonight, just me with you. ❜
  • ❛ Let me hear you scream. ❜
  • ❛ I crave excess, turning wine into sweat dripping down my neck. ❜
  • ❛ You’re cutting into me. ❜
  • ❛ There’s just something about you. It feeds the addict in me. ❜
  • ❛ It’s haunting, that hold that you have over me. ❜
  • ❛ Release me from these memories. ❜
  • ❛ Let me tell you how I want it. ❜
  • ❛ I know how this will end so I’m turning away now. ❜
  • ❛ Why does fear dominate when all we want is peace? ❜
  • ❛ I’m only here for one thing. ❜
  • ❛ You and me. We’re gonna be alright. ❜
  • ❛ There’s a look in your eyes, I know just what that means. ❜
  • ❛ I feel you growing closer. I feel you in the air. ❜
  • ❛ These memories run through my veins. ❜
  • ❛ You never once have doubted me. ❜
  • ❛ I’m the person you’ve been thinking about. The one thing you can’t live without. ❜
  • ❛ The strong will fight and the weak will run. ❜
  • ❛ You love me for everything you hate me for. ❜
  • ❛ I found a world where we are free. ❜
  • ❛ You know I’m always there with you. ❜
  • ❛ I love the way you dominate and you violate me. ❜
  • ❛ It’s true, I was waiting for a sign. ❜
  • ❛ You won’t forget me. I will haunt you until the truth unfolds. ❜
  • ❛ I’m the one that you need and fear. ❜
  • ❛ Tell me why we’re lying here on the floor. ❜
  • ❛ I am falling down the rabbit hole. ❜
  • ❛ Endless days and nights I wait for you. ❜
  • ❛ You’re so pretty, dripping sin. ❜
  • ❛ I’m just what you need, the perfect disease. ❜
  • ❛ You don’t know how hard I fought to survive. ❜
  • ❛ I still believe in the good and I still believe in the light. ❜
  • ❛ You left me there alone. ❜
  • ❛ I’ll have you down on your knees. I’ll have you begging for more. ❜
  • ❛ I was my own worst enemy. ❜
  • ❛ Take me, pull me all around. Break me, I’m yours. ❜
  • ❛ I’ll taste you until I can’t. ❜
  • ❛ You’re beautiful and sick like me. ❜
  • ❛ I want you biting down on me. ❜
  • ❛ You’ll still love me. Dead or alive. ❜
  • ❛ I am the misery you crave and you, you are my faithful enemy. ❜
  • ❛ I’m yours to have and to hold. ❜
  • ❛ No matter where you run, you cannot hide from me. ❜
  • ❛ Is it sick of me to need control of you? ❜
  • ❛ Even in these chains, you can’t stop me. ❜
  • ❛ What I would give just to be with you. ❜
  • ❛ I thank you for the moments of your life. And never giving up on me. ❜
  • ❛ You run through my veins. ❜
  • ❛ Stay the fuck out of my head! ❜
  • ❛ There’s nothing I won’t do to show you, I would sacrifice my dying breath for you. ❜
  • ❛ Let me sleep away these memories within. ❜
  • ❛ Shut your dirty, dirty mouth. ❜
  • ❛ Baby, go ahead. I’ll be the villain you can blame. ❜
  • ❛ Hello, are you listening? Can you hear me? ❜
  • ❛ They will never know all the blood we shed. ❜
  • ❛ We knew it was meant to be, but never meant to last. ❜
  • ❛ The wrath of your hate has returned. ❜
  • ❛ Not even death could take me away from you. ❜
  • ❛ I am your sinner, I am your whore. ❜
  • ❛ I know you had to go, it’s my war not yours. ❜
  • ❛ Even if the world ignites into flames, you’ll be right here by my side. ❜
  • ❛ We have to end the hate. ❜
  • ❛ This sufferings my blessing. ❜
  • ❛ You’re gonna listen to what I say this time. ❜
  • ❛ Determination is pushing me. Perseverance is what I bleed. ❜
  • ❛ I’m drowning in solitude again. ❜
  • ❛ You don’t know the torture. You don’t know the pain. ❜
  • ❛ I still can see your eyes believing in your love for me as you watched me die. ❜
  • ❛ The time has come for me to say goodbye. ❜
  • ❛ I wanted to believe in you. ❜
  • ❛ These faces come and go and all I do is think of you. ❜
  • ❛ I hate you for the way you smile when you look at me. ❜
  • ❛ You think if I bleed, it can save you. ❜
  • ❛ As your sky starts to fall, you realize you’re standing alone. ❜
  • ❛ This confession is killing me again. ❜
  • ❛ Take my hand, show me the way. And never bring me back here. ❜
  • ❛ I know you’ll never understand me. ❜
  • ❛ In my dreams last night, I saw your face. You held me and washed away my tears. ❜
one direction's song titles
as sung by one direction
one direction's song titles

(an updated version of this post

what makes you beautiful / gotta be you / one thing / more than this / up all night / i wish / tell me a lie / taken / i want / everything about you / same mistakes / save you tonight / stole my heart / stand up / moments / another world / na na na / i should’ve kissed you / forever young / live while we’re young / kiss you / little things / cmon cmon / last first kiss / heart attack / rock me / change my mind / i would / over again / back for you / they dont know about us / summer love / shes not afraid / loved you first / nobody compares / still the one / truly madly deeply / magic / irresistible /one way or another / best song ever / story of my life / diana / midnight memories / you & i / dont forget where you belong / strong / happily / right now / little black dress / through the dark / something great / little white lies / better than words / why dont we go there / does he know / alive / half a heart / steal my girl / ready to run / where do broken hearts go / 18 / girl almighty / fools gold / night changes / no control / fireproof / spaces / stockholm syndrome / clouds / change your ticket / illusion / once in a lifetime / act my age / home / hey angel / drag me down / perfect / infinity / end of the day / if i could fly / long way down / never enough / olivia / what a feeling / love you goodbye / i want to write you a song / history / temporary fix / walking in the wind / wolves / am / just cant let her go

People will make you promises they cannot keep. And they will cut you at the knees to protect what is theirs. They will make you think you are less than you are. Lie. Cheat. Steal. People will wreck you. But people will also hold you. And they will press your sojourning soul back into your body when you forget how to hold it close. They will laugh so hard their ribs nearly tear at the seams, cross oceans to hold their favorite person in their arms, and ring a bell to let you know they have arrived at your home. Because people are cruel and beautiful and breathing and although they are not perfect, they are all we will ever need.
—  excerpt from a book I’ll never write
Incomplete list of dorky things Mettaton has done

(aka reasons I love him)

Here’s your friendly reminder that this hotbot:

  • Had a bed in his house, even though the lack of one in Napstablook’s house and their fake sleep in ruins indicate that ghosts most likely don’t need to sleep;
  • Collected diaries, making only one entry in each;
  • According to Toby, had 4, 5 and 6-fingered gloves because he wasn’t sure how many humans actually have;
  • Got invited to an unfamiliar house and immideately decided that the appropriate thing to do is to lie seductively on the piano and feed himself grapes;
  • Bonus points if he was in the box form; 
  • Was unironically selling Bishie Cream, Anime Powder, Cute Juice, Attraction Slime, Beauty Yogurt and fashion basketballs made for wearing not playing;
  • Also sweet treats made out of sparkling stars, burgers made out of edible glitter and sequins and sandwiches shaped like a sword; 
  • Also pressed his face into the steaks and sold them as well (and it apparently wasn’t real meat either);
  • Promised one of his employees that if something happens to him, their face will be pressed instead;
  • Wrote reviews for his own hotel, one of which said “my face tastes beautiful!”;
  • Had tables in form of himself in his restaurant;
  • Refused to put functional lamps in the rooms of his hotel because “stars make their own light”;
  • But put giant bottles of perfume called Eau de Rectangle that looked like lamps and had caps too large to open;
  • Apparently placed a statue of himself in an already existing fountain, causing the water to flood the floor and the carpets?
  • Hired a monster just because as a rectangle he sympathized with their angular struggles;
  • Ignored all suggestions on the improvements of his hotel because “that’s not how they do it on the surface”;
  • Instead of berating Burgerpants made a whole CD album full of songs of how bad he is at his job and played it;
  • Was posing dramatically when the eggs on his cooking show didn’t turn out right and beating up villains on a quiz show;
  • Had a show dedicated to washing hands;
  • Made 28 movies all consisting of a 4-hour shot of rose petals showering his body;
  • Made a fabulous entrance by sitting god knows for how long behind a wall of his friend’s lab and then repeatedly running into the said wall until he crashed through it;
  • Included a question “would you smooch a ghost?” that only had answers “hell yeah” in his quiz and made the timer count up during that question;
  • Had adorable rectangle outfits;
  • Kept repeating “welly well well” when he couldn’t think of a good excuse;
  • Tried to make a pun and immediately decided to cut it in post-production;
  • Totally believed his enemy saying that there was a mirror behind his back and decided to check if he (a rectangle) looked good enough for the fight;
  • Made Frisk write an essay about himself in like 6 seconds;
  • Was fine with beating up a 10 yo and threating them with a chainsaw on live television, but didn’t allow them to write curse words in the essay because “family-friendly show”;
  • Felt the need to have a union-regulated break in the middle of the fight;
  • Caught a thrown stick in his mouth and winked;
  • Pointed at his friend and her crush with a leg and said “smooch now”;
  • Decided to sell Toriel plushies with his face instead of hers;
  • Put legs on his rectangle.

I’m not gonna lie, I don’t think I’d ship SuperCorp if Lena was anyone other than Katie McGrath… She gives Lena an emotional depth I don’t think that even the writers intended for her to have. I have never felt this much love for a guest starring character, and her portrayal of this very deep character (with the potential to have the most amazing backstory of any other character on the show - bar Kara of course) is just beautiful.

Also the fact that she makes the character seem so very very gay for Kara, and hers and Melissa’s chemistry is off the charts.

I tried to make a home out of you
But doors lead to trap doors
A stairway leads to nothing
Unknown women wander the hallways at night
Where do you go when you go quiet?
You remind me of my father, a magician
Able to exist in two places at once
In the tradition of men in my blood you come home at 3AM and lie to me
What are you hiding?
The past and the future merge to meet us here
What luck, what a fucking curse
—  Warsan Shire in Lemonade

Mom: u lost weight…

Me: really i dont think so

Mom: ya have u been eating?

Me: yes mom (lie)

Mom: well ur losing weight fast

Me: i wish i could see it

Mom: r u hungry?

Me: no i ate before i got here (lied)

Ana makes me a liar
Ana makes me hungry
Ana reminds me how fat i am
Ana wants me beautiful
Ana wants me dead
But ana is my best friend
Shes the only one there for me