the lovely things in my life

i learn to miss you all over again

but this time i’m
forgetting how to
get the words
down, forgetting how
i used to have
a body, forgetting
there’s a different way
to break. i learn there

is a different
love behind the old one
and this one sings
in a voice too big
for its lungs, aches
with a different strength: this
love is missing you. blue boxes and cold
feet and too much  s p a c e
between the letters and words
leaping to my nerve
endings that i didn’t know
were growing. drawing
the pain out of me like
smoke. this love is

and letting go
and i am learning
how to curve its
edges. because it’s not
easy to leave this light, to
wrap my own hands around
my poem throat and
choke the words up
just because i want to hurt
the hard way. because i am learning love

is never
a lasting thing. i take june
and i crush it to dust, spend it
splintered and split and spitting
in the sputtering skin of a starling. i am such a
soft folded thing in
rosedrop hands. i am whisking
my junedust through this color blood. i
am fighting the fade. and blue boxes. cold feet. deep
breaths. sea green. your scent
in tatters.

i am overgrown and i am
glowing: my roots
hang loose with nothing to
love to, and that’s the worst part,
it’s the empty in me

(you slip into the
moon when you
sleep: i can feel the
beams of your love
on me still)

{ @leimakide }

ok so, it turns out that i love drawing altean lance,, a lot

mate, do u ever think about how Iconic River Song was??

  • trashed her husbands ride so bad that the universe exploded
  • lurked around at her parent’s wedding for The Lolz
  • faked being surprised at shit for 100 years??
  • basically threatened 2 let the universe die if the doctor didn’t marry her??
  • one time she and the doctor had a fight that was so bad he went and lived with some otters for a month
  • shoots everything (including hats) and it turns the doctor on
  • poisoned a dude so she could sell him the antidote 
  • probably had sex with cleopatra???
  • went back in time and became her mum’s best friend so she could kill her future husband in the future
  • asked some sontarans if they were on a hens night 
  • jumped offed things such as a building and also the empty vacum of space so the doctor would catch her
  • hung out with her parents and husband and did really crazy shit before they knew who she was
  • made constant jokes about how much sex her and her husband have while she doin said crazy shit 
  • also when they finally knew who she was, she didn’t let up on the inuendos at all
  • hair that expanded like the universe 
  • even tho she constantly breaks out of prison, she always goes back 2 be polite 2 the guards 
  • became an archaeologist to stalk her man and get paid 4 it
  • had sex with the doctor for 24 years straight lmao A Legend 
People like you don’t notice girls like me. You’re the type of person to play sports and hang out with large group of people, whereas I’m the type of person to hang out with a few friends and read a book. Some say opposites attract, but not in my case.
—  opposites attract // excerpt from a book I’ll never write #9
“Why do you write sad things?” is one of the hardest questions I’ve always been asked.

How could I answer that? How could I tell you that all I have is sadness, and all I can share to the world is sadness? How could I tell you that every time I get a little glimpse of happiness, I always just save it for myself, keeping it close to my heart, memorizing every details and feelings, and not writing it down because writing it down feels a lot like giving it away, like I am letting that little happiness go. How could I tell you that I write sad things to purge it out from my system? That it is impossible to write sad things without sadness consuming you to the core to the point that all you can do is to bleed it out on the paper. How could I tell you that? That I write sad things to let it out, hoping that one day it would never come back, that maybe one day, I will finally succeed in writing all my sadness away.
—  cynthia go // Why do you write sad things?

list of random spirits encountered:

- a spirit haunting a lamppost on 3rd street. it asks for the umbrella of anyone passing by in exchange for a temporary alteration in reality

- a spirit haunting people with burdens on their mind. manifests as a pair of wings on their shoulders


ROBINS + LABELS (Happy birthday, @henwick aka my sweet smol child!)

Me handing in my senior quote:
  • Me:
  • My teacher: "Veronica.this is a link to a Kpop M/V"
  • Me: ..."MONSTA X needs their first win fam"
  • My teacher: ...

All the hard work and dedication is for living fully his last year as a high school student 

I spent like 3 hours on this.

doing it for them tho *wipes tear*