the long good bye

I looked through our conversations when we used to be on cloud nine and in love, these were the times you told me how lucky you are to have a girl like me, how thankful you are because you never received such love I was giving to you and whatever happens, you will never let me go. The words you said mean everything to me and it stabs my heart, realizing that these words mean nothing anymore. I can’t help myself but to cry my heart out till the sun has set. The pain is too heavy to bear, the love I believed to be true and different was gone. We used to be over the moon, but the present tells the opposite. This is stupid of me to say but, I won’t deny the fact that I miss you so much. I love you, I still do. But somehow, I’ve come with the thought that I can’t do anything anymore, I need to let you go because it’s the right thing to do. I’ve decided to finally move on and this would be the last time I would cry over you because there was nothing left to hold on to and I can’t hold on to something that doesn’t want to be held.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I was the reason why you let things end. I’m sorry for the terrible mistake I made, I never blamed you for deciding to end this because you were hurt and I understand. I only have myself to blame. But, I was hoping you would’ve understood, that I did it for us. I always feared the day would come, the day you will finally won’t take back the words you’ve said. I’m sorry for the other things that have hurt you, for the things that made you cry, jealous and mad. 


Thank you. I’m thankful that I met you because you have given me a temporary bliss. I laughed and smiled because of you. Somehow, you made me feel loved and beautiful in a short period of time. Thank you for the good days: the days we felt unstoppable like we’re flying high, when holding your hand felt like home, leaning on your shoulders made me feel secure and hearing your voice sound like the angels are singing. It was worth it, being loved and loving you. Thank you for making me realize how capable I am to love someone. You proved forever within a number of days. You were the greatest and worst thing ever happen to me. 


Goodbye. This will be the last time that I will write you a message, I’ll accept the fact that some things are meant to end, even though I used to believe that you won’t let that happen. I did everything I could to make you stay, but I guess your life no longer includes me because, you’re happy now and I can see that clearly. You already found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be. I hope you find overwhelming joy by her side, I hope she won’t hurt you and make you cry. I hope for the best for the both of you. It hurts but I’ve accepted the painful truth that I am just a distant memory now. I don’t regret loving you, but what I regret is that I let myself believe that this would last.


I won’t forget you and the memories, I will always keep you alive in my heart. I’ll just get used to not having you in my life anymore. Deep within my heart knows getting over you won’t be simple. I need to stop loving you so I can start loving myself again. You were a painful blessing, but you were also a great lesson. I guess you’re just another chapter of my life needed to end. I still and will pray for your safety and happiness even though I’m in pain right now, I still believe you deserve the best. I hope you find everything in her that you couldn’t find in me. You will always be my greatest love.

—  S.L // unsent last message

things i learned in 2016:

  • sometimes i’ll try my best in school and i’ll still fall short of my goals, but i’ll still survive because life goes on
  • what’s important is learning how to overcome fear of failure and perfectionism
  • rest is important, but so is knowing how to push myself enough that i can accomplish the goals i have for myself
  • taking care of myself is important, but so is being aware of how to improve myself so i can be happy with the person i am
  • being by myself and having quality Me time is important, but so is interacting with people who uplift me and add positivity and radiance into my life
  • i don’t have to drink if i don’t want to
  • nothing excuses behaviors that hurt other people
  • i don’t have to cut off my friendships from high school just because college is a time to Explore and Meet New People™ 
  • with that being said, i also shouldn’t cling onto past relationships just because they were once a thing. there’s a time to let go for almost everything, and relationships aren’t an exception
  • support systems are important
  • social media breaks are important
  • doing things that are fulfilling in life is important
  • helping other people is important
  • GETTING. ENOUGH. SLEEP. IS. IMPORTANT.
  • i missed reading books purely for the joy of it
  • the most ‘successful’ people in the world learn to let go of envy or jealousy, and learn + gain motivation/inspiration from those who are better than them
  • negative bias is real, but just its mere existence indicates that good things do happen in this world and i will learn how to appreciate that more in 2017, god damnit.
  • i need to rely more on internal and not external validation
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and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

Owl Emoji Ratings

Really good solid owl here. He looks strong and brave, he wants to protect his loved ones. Love the details. Love the colors. Love those big ol’ eyes. A perfect owl, to be honest. 10/10

More simplistic approach, but still very good. Eyes gazing at you lovingly. Sweet lil ears. He wants to make new friends but he’s a little nervous. I’ll be his friend. 10/10

This sweet boy went for a more dynamic pose, and appears to be more of a barn owl! I’d love to hear him hooting outside my window at 3 in the morning. 10/10

A purple girl!!! She looks like she walked (or flew) right out of an enchanting fantasy realm. She would be the greatest friend imaginable. 10/10

A tiny fluffy friend…. I would die for him, but he wouldn’t want me to. He would be that one friend who pays attention to you when everyone else in your friend group doesn’t realize you’re trying to talk. 10/10

This LARGE owl is the friend we all need. He’s strong and powerful but he’s also polite and good hearted, and his ears are nice and big, so he can hear if you’re ever in trouble and come to your aid. 10/10

A cute, sweet little guy who is very nervous about being on this list. Luckily there’s room in my heart for all owls, and I think he’s magnificent. I love his sweet eyes. 10/10

This more stylized, colorful owl is really unique and gorgeous. I hope he isn’t worried about standing out too much. His unique patterns are admirable and he’s the envy of all. 10/10

This owl is just a head but I still love him. There’s a sparkle in his eye and you can sense warmth and kindness radiating off of him. He’s the wise old owl you read about only in fairy tales, but never imagined you would see face to face. I’m blessed just looking at him. 10/10

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#ChaePrinceDay
Happy Birthday to Monsta X’s visual, vocalist and dancer, Chae Hyungwon! 🐢 (Born on January 15, 1994).

When aqours kinkshame each other
  • You: Im just going to say this here, y'all are nasty
  • Kanan: i don't even have any kinks!
  • You: kinkshame the kinkless
  • You: I'm kinshaming you because you can't be kinkshamed
  • Riko: I can't even
  • Chika: What if You's kink is kinkshaming
  • Mari: My kink is being kinkshamed
  • //You has left the chat
  • Chika: Oh thank god
  • //You has joined the chat
  • You: Tf did you say about me binch
  • Mari: Hey, is it just me or is Dia is awfully silent
  • Kanan: Now that you've mentioned it, where is she
  • Ruby: SIS I SEE YOU ON YOUR PHONE
  • Chika: What if Dia is the kinkiest of us all
  • Dia: I , Dia Kurosawa, do not engage in such activities
  • Mari: That's not what you said last night
  • You: SHUT DOWN
  • Kanan: Really Dia, how did you think that was going to go down
  • Riko: Oh thank god, a relatable person here
  • Chika: What about me
  • You: It's decided, I'm kinkshaming all of you
  • Maru: NYTK DO;RTHEVE AIK KNKS
  • Yoshiko: Translation
  • Ruby: But I don't have any kinks
  • Chika: How does she do that
  • Yoshiko: That is a lie, I have seen some of those books under your bed when I come over
  • Mari: ‎( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
  • You: I can't believe Yoshiko is not a virgin
  • Chika: GOD DAMMIT I HAVE TO PAY 600 YEN TO KANAN NOW
  • Kanan: Haha pay up
  • Yoshiko: I DID NOT DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT , JFC
  • Yoshiko: I was only there for homework
  • Yoshiko: Also how dare you take bets on me
  • Mari: "Homework"
  • Kanan: Is that what you young ones now call "sexual intercourse"
  • Kanan: Since its at home, and could be considered work
  • Yoshiko: Shut your fuck
  • Kanan: Respect your elders!
  • You: Yeah yoshiko wtf
  • Riko: Yeah yoshiko wtf
  • Chika: Yeah yoshiko wtf
  • Ruby: Yeah yoshiko wtf
  • Maru: eAh hSiko wtf
  • Yoshiko: IT'S YOHANE
  • You: The suprising thing here is that Yoshiko had the balls to visit Maru
  • Yoshiko: l I S T E N H E R E
  • Chika: I'm listening
  • Yoshiko: Why is it that I'm always roasted in the group chat, why not riko
  • Riko: HEY
  • You: Because it's so easy to roast you?
  • Chika: Because you don't have any good comebacks?
  • Mari: What they said
  • Yoshiko: You are mean to me, you insult me and you don't appreciate anything that I do
  • Yoshiko: I'm going to go cry now
  • //yoshiko has left the chat
  • Maru: > : O
  • Maru: fukc yuo gu sy
  • Dia: : O
  • Kanan: Young lady I did not raise you to be like that!
  • maru: shit, gotta blast
  • //maru has left the chat
  • //maru entered th chat
  • //maru has left the chat
  • //yoshiko has joined the chat
  • Yoshiko: FUCK DID MARU LEAVE
  • Yoshiko: … wait are Dia and Kanan Maru's parents
  • Yoshiko: Does that mean I have to ask them to ask Maru out
  • Dia: If you so much as touch a hair on my daughter's head, say good bye to performing in love live
  • Chika: HEY SINCE WHEN WERE YOU IN CHARGE OF AQOURS
  • Dia: Hmmm, well I've gathered every one to join, named the group, and am competent in more ways than you are
  • Chika: BINCH WHAT
  • Chika: I'll have you know as honoka kousake's #1 fan, she personally told me I was the best aqours member
  • Dia: YOU MET HONOKA
  • Dia: I mean, hmph , it doesn't matter what she said to you, she isn't eli
  • You: Fake
  • Ruby: Fake
  • Dia: Shut up
  • Dia: Anyway, if you really want to prove yourself as the leader of aqours, meet me at the beach at 6 pm
  • You: CHIKA NO
  • Riko: CHIKA NO
  • Mari: CHIKA YES
  • You: YOU'RE GOING TO DIE
  • You: I MEAN LOOK AT WHAT SHE DID TO ME WHEN I SAID ELI WASN'T THAT GREAT
  • [You has sent a photo]
  • You: DO YOU WANT TO LOOK LIKE THAT?
  • Chika: Hmm, Do I assert my dominance or look like a pair of clothes that shiitake went through
  • You: Fucking rude, I did not look that bad
  • Riko: Yes you did
  • Mari: Yes you did
  • Yoshiko: Yes you did
  • Kanan: Yes you did
  • Dia: Well, what's your answer
  • //chika has left the chat
  • Dia: coward
  • //chika has joined the chat
  • Chika: I asked my mom
  • Chika: She said no
  • Dia: Hmph fine, I'll let you remain leader for now
  • Dia: Since you have Honoka's blessing, I will not object
  • Mari: Lame , this is why you're a bottom
  • You: d e s t r o y e d
  • Dia: Okay, but at least I get more out of Kanan than with you
  • Chika: Jesus
  • Yoshiko: I smell a break up
  • Mari: KANAN AND DIA COME OVER LET'S SETTLE THIS
  • Kanan: But I'm at the store..
  • Mari: I got the newest pair of crocs
  • Kanan: BE RIGHT THERE
  • Chika: Okay I know I've had some weird ass kinks, but crocs?
  • Kanan: Don't judge me
  • You: Nah i'm going to
  • Riko: holy fuck
  • Dia: Do I have to go too?
  • Mari: Yes
  • Dia: fuck , fine
  • Riko: So if Dia is a bottom.. then who's the ultimate top in the third years
  • Chika: interesting question
  • You: Protect Yoshiko , she's too innocent for this group chat
  • Yoshiko: Fuck you
  • You: You wish
  • //Maru has joined the chat
  • Maru: *knife emoji*
  • You: holy fuck
  • Mari: Are you two finally here , I'm ready
  • Dia: Im here, but the doors are locked
  • Kanan: Give me 5 minutes
  • Riko: You guys have dms, USE THEM
  • You: get your kinky shit out if the main chat
  • Mari: Fine
  • //mari has left the chat
  • Kanan: see you later kiddos
  • //kanan has left the chat
  • You : Kiddos?
  • Yoshiko: I can't believe the nerve of her , calling me a kid, I am 15 and -
  • Chika: Still a kid
  • Dia: Anyway good bye, and Ruby remember to lock the doors, I'm not going to be back tonight
  • //Dia has left the chat
  • Chika: Well I have got work to do , see you all
  • //chika has left the chat
REASONS TO LOVE KUROO
  • he’s tol af
  • black hair
  • comes up like someone intimidating but is actually a dork
  • he jokes around but know when to back off and if he realize he went too far apologize right away
  • his horrible laugh
  • he wants to make nekomata’s dream true, he respect his coach so much
  • HIS ARMS !!!!!!! !!!!
  • when kenma is lost in his games and get missed he goes and search for him himself // light novel, during the trip to miyagi before playing agianst karasuno
  • biggest meme
  • he helps kenma with his studies 
  • he’s in prep college class and is also captain so he has plenty of responsabilities already
  • he’s in prep college class and how awesome is that!!! !!!!¡¡¡¡
  • he wants to fight people he doesn’t like 24/7
  • he also helps people that is not from his team *coughtcought||tsukki||coughtcouht*
  • HIS BACK DAMN !!!11!!1!
  • his provocation comments are on point
  • he knows exactly what to say and how to say it for encouring people to do better and try
  • he’s one of the most reliable characters imo 
  • his smile is so adorable it makes me cry
  • he says he is kind as a joke but he actually is, he’s probably not aware of how great of a person he is and makes me want to hug him
  • he sleeps on his stomach while pressing two pillows onto both his ears and his hair and it makes me want to hug him too
  • his leadership skills are unquestionable
  • silly comebacks like “for someone who is so clearly lacking in docosahexaenoix acid, I dont think your opinions have much validity”
  • has grudge on people for silly things “coughtcought||chapter200||coughtcought||yaku||coughcough*
  • COMPETITIVE AF
  • HIS VOICE
  • he was so into volleyball as a kid that he used to tried out the techniques he watched being used in matches on tv.
  • he has the taste of an old man for food, pls save him
  • his current concern is that he can’t get rid of his bedhead hair, after all this years
  • he’s very skilled at shuffling cards. (light novel) @ furudate let me know how much time he spends playing card games and with who
  • he’s passionate af and works hard to achieve his goals
  • HE’S PRETTY AF NOT ONLY IN FANARTS BUT ALSO IN CANON
  • he’s cute af but also hot af
  • he gets as excited as yamamoto sometimes and it’s beautiful
  • HIS SMIRK
  • HE IS THE KIND OF PERSON WHO CHANGES THE SYLLABLES OF PLACE, WHY IS HIM LIKE THIS
  • he confuses himself when trying to say something intelligent
  • he’s so supportive, it makes me cry
  • don’t take shit from people who can’t be objective in their view and doesn’t stay unspoken either
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In which Revas issues a ‘friendly’ warning.

this is 100% the fault of @suledxn and @fadewalking by proxy tbh