it’s so hard to make friends.
i stutter when i talk; i pause randomly in the middle of sentences because the word gets stuck and i can’t speak.
i flap my hands and rock back and forth when excited; i tap the table rapidly when stressed/irritated/uncomfortable.
i get obsessed with one specific thing for weeks to months on end and i’ll never stop talking about it.
i even obsess over people - i’ll hyperfixate on one specific person for, again, weeks to months at a time and will think endlessly of them and want to be with them at all times.
i don’t get sarcasm and social cues. i just don’t understand.
i can never see the big picture of things. it’s always seen in little pieces.
it’s so hard to make friends when every single thing i do is deemed as “socially unacceptable” and “weird”. i’m “not normal” and people have always avoided me because of it.
it’s so difficult.