the little matters

I have been reading about El Cid the Spanish knight of the eleventh century. That was a time when a man of soldierly virtue could through sheer force of will and of force of arms carve out a kingdom for himself. It was a time when kings still died in battle with other kings. Yet, for all the stories, it was not a romantic place. It was a dark, violent and immensely cruel time.

When you read history it is most often the history of warfare. You become struck by one fact and that is that no matter what Lord or King was in power it was always a group of warriors who took what they wanted from the farmers and villagers. For the poor, it little mattered which group of mounted, armored thugs occupied the local castle.

I’m not starving myself. I will never “fast” for weightloss. I just want to be fit and healthy. I also know that I will never have the perfect body I want. The body I want would be with big hips, a big bust but still a flat stomach. I know I could never achieve that no matter how little I weigh. I will continue on this weightloss journey so I can at least be healthy.

I love you!

Every time I say I love you.

I’m really trying to say so much more than those three little words.

I’m trying to say you mean more to me than anyone else in the world.

I’m trying to let you know that I adore you and that I cherish the time we spend together.

I’m trying to explain that I want you and that I need you and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts every time I think about you.

And each time I say “I love you”, I’m trying to remind you that you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me.

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happy birthday to.. me! haha uh its kind of a birthday tradition of mine to draw whatever i feel like no matter how little sense it makes lmao anyway here are yuuri and victor in kinda matchy KotOR star wars robes!! its very late!!! this is not an au dont @ me victor would never work for the jedi he is good and i trust him okay im leaving now bed time

Been wanting to say this for a long time so here we go:

Can we please collectively stop making fun of the “meth fandom” or w/e the fuck nomenclature we’re using to describe real people who finally have a space and community to talk about their substance use? Like I’ve seen posts lump this part of tumblr in with literal fucking neo-nazis and if that doesn’t strike you as fucked up i don’t know what else i can fucking say to you.

I’ve even seen this shit from leftists. Like how can we recognize that capitalism is built on the exploitation of labor and mass disenfranchisement of working class people - and then turn around and mock people who use stimulants to cope with the godawful hardships of that life? If you can’t recognize meth users humanity, then what the fuck are you even fighting for?

I have adhd, but I still abuse my stimulants because my body literally cannot produce the amount of labor necessary for my survival. Thousands of others do the same. We’re not that different from the people on here using meth. Everywhere ~drug users~ turn, we’re denied the chance to talk about our own experiences in our own fucking language. We’re denied the chance to find our own community and engage with it on our own terms. Especially us women who use. Why propagate that shit here? What do you gain by mocking us and people like those in the ~meth fandom~? Who are you helping?

And i know this probably describes only a sliver of my followers, but I hope it’ll reach further. Because honestly? Some people on here need to step the fuck off. 

I’ve never seen a post on my dash condemning this phenomenon (which is often treated like a joke, like it’s not about you know, real fucking people), and that’s fucking bullshit. I’m not saying no one’s said this before, but I sure as fuck haven’t seen it. We can do better. We must do better.

There are only two people in the whole who would really care about me”

- Meowth


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Episodes

Meowth Rules

A Poached Ego

Litwick Mansion

Meowth, Corless (I forgot the rest, it in the best wishes series)

Pokemon XY Japanese Opening

(TBA)

Pokemon XY episode 63 

I CAN FINALLY SLEEP TONIGHT KNOWING THAT THIS IS DONE.

To explain, “The Brave Little Toaster” is one of my all time favorite animated movies and I really respect it for what it manages to accomplish. Everything about this movie influences me and my work immensely; down to the great characters, heart-felt writing, and tHE TOP NOTCH SOUNDTRACK. 

I’ve been wanting to do a tribute for it since forever. So, here it is!

  • Family: Why are you in a bad mood?
  • Family: *acts like jerks for no reason*
  • Family: *gangs up on me*
  • Family: *lectures me for being upset because I should be happy at all times*
  • Family: I think you just have a bad attitude