the hardest word to say is goodbye


[5x03 - The Quaterback]

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Finn Hudson/Cory Monteith

Tonight, FOX aired the Glee memorial for Cory/Finn. I couldn’t stop crying. I knew he was dead, but it really hit me tonight. We never get to see him sit in that chair Puck stared at when he sang his song to Finn. We never get to see him wear his varsity jacket that Kurt and Santana share. We never get to see him sing to the Glee kids. But most of all, we never get to see him and Rachel again. We can never see Cory and Lea together again. If y'all couldn’t read it, Puck carved “QUATERBACK” in the tree. All of the letters were capitalized. Remember the plaque with the lady on it with her name, etc. on it? Well, now they have a new one. And it’s Finn. When Carole broke down, I broke down. I’m going to miss him so much. Even though I’m just a fan, I know he loved me. He loved all of is gleeks out there. What’s Lea going to do? Cory was her love. The one she wanted to marry and has kids with. Before I found out Cody was a drug addict, he was my role model. After I found out, he is still my role model. He wanted to change for kids. He didn’t want to influence them to do drugs. He wanted to change. In English, we had to choose an assignment. It was either to write about your future or your role model. And I chose Role Model. We had to write why and who and I put basically what this post explains. I will miss seeing him sing to Rachel. But I will especially miss him and Lea. R.I.P Cory Monteith/Finn Hudson, our quaterback.

‘The hardest word to say is goodbye’

Can I just say, I am very glad Glee never specified how Finn died. Because in regards to Cory’s death, I’ve seen people say “oh, well, he was just a druggie” or “don’t do drugs, kid.” And I feel like that belittles his death so much. It doesn’t matter how he died. What matters is how he lived. And whether this was the intention of leaving it ambiguous or not, I’m glad that’s what Glee chose to focus on.

Forever in our hearts.

Edit: Oh, and I should add I don’t mean we should belittle the problem of addiction either. Of course, there should be awareness that this is a mental illness that needs treatment along with love and support throughout recovery. But we cannot let this or any mental illness be the sole definition of the person who suffers from it - Cory or anyone else, living, recovering, in treatment, what have you. A person should not be defined by their problems, but by what they do and what they love - in short, who they are. Cory was not just a drug addict. He was a talented and all around good person, and though he had problems, he also had the bravery to face them head on. And that is how he should be remembered.

Farewell to Finn

Well, I’ve been dreading this post. Really, I don’t want to write this but it has become inevitable. Next week is “Farewell To Finn” on Glee, the episode dedicated to saying goodbye to both Cory Monteith and Finn Hudson. It hurts me on such a personal level to know that we are saying goodbye. I’ve seen what drugs can do to people and it is the worst way for someone to pass, especially someone who was so young and had so much promise. And while it is essential that we mourn and cry and praise Cory, we also must remember him in a way that he would want to be remembered. Cory was the guy who always made us laugh, and Finn was always such a goofball and made us question his actions sometimes. Cory would not want us to stop loving him and to stop singing. So next week, when you’re curled up on your bed or your couch or in your dorm, cry. Hold your sister or best friend or whoever you are watching with close and sob together. Sob for a young life so tragically lost. Sob for a man who had his whole life ahead of him only for it to be brutally ripped away so soon. But stay strong for his memory. Don’t stop smiling, even though it hurts. Remember his goofy ways, his witty one-liners and most of all, remember who he was as a person. Remember all the joy and happiness he brought to the world. Mourn him but do not bury him in your mind and do not dwell on the negative. This one’s for you, Cory Montieth. May you lead us all towards victory and may you always keep us smiling.

Rest in Peace Cory.