You know what’s wild?
If you asked me to rate my work performance over the past year I’d probably give myself a solid 6/10. And I would follow that up with: “I’m so young, I’m so inexperienced, I work hard but I’m overwhelmed a lot.”
When I asked my supervisors yesterday to do the same, they said they couldn’t rate me high enough. 11/10. I’m doing a great job.
I’m not saying this to brag, I’m really not. I’m saying this because I’ve read about and acknowledged the existence of imposter syndrome before and I even thought “I’m pretty hard on myself so I should keep this in mind”, but I literally didn’t think the gulf between my perception of my work and the perception of my supervisors could possibly be that wide.
But it is.
I’m not sure what my point is here, other than….give yourself a break. If you’re working your ass off, the work you’re producing is probably better than you’re giving yourself credit for. Acknowledge your badassery, celebrate your wins. You’re doing fine.