the great work of the metal lover

nerddaydreamer18  asked:

Hi @ohtze! I love your Star Wars meta & am particularly intrigued by "Death and the Maiden." Do you have any book recommendations to learn more about literary tropes? Also, what are some of your favorite books of all time? Thanks!!

Re tropes: nothing off the top of my head that I would personally recommend. It always tends to be talked about as part of a larger body of work, rather than the main topic? I’d definitely read anything on archetypal literary criticism, though.

Honestly if you’re looking for an easy-to-use, tropes-all-in-one-place compendium, tvtropes.org works. It’s not classical archetype-oriented, but it’s a great introduction to modern/pop-cultural artifacts.

Favorite books of all time (genre is in brackets):

  • The Darkangel Trilogy, by Meredith Ann Pierce (dark science fantasy/tragic romance, sO GOOD OH GOD I THIRST I CRAVE SO FORMATIVE ON MY MIND I’M SHAKING)
  • The Silver Metal Lover, by Tanith Lee (dark science fantasy, robot fucking everywhere)
  • Silmarillion, The Hobbit, and Lord of the Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien (epic fantasy, Elves Making Stupid Decisions™)
  • Dune, by Frank Herbert (science fantasy, #my aesthetic)
  • The Foundation Trilogy by Isaac Asimov (science fiction, excellent world-building, terrible female characters. Like, all three of them. In a story spanning hundreds of thousands of years)
  • Memory, Sorrow & Thorn Trilogy by Tad Williams (epic fantasy, precursor to the “Game of Thrones” style of fantasy. If you’re looking for a nice mix between Tolkien and G.R.R. Martin, this is it)
  • Lady of the Forest, by Jennifer Roberson (historical romance, retelling of the Robin Hood and Maid Marian legend. Shameless fluff, but well written)
  • Flowers in the Attic, by V.C. Andrews (”family drama.” Incest. Incest everywhere)
  • The Chalice and the Blade, by Glenna Mcreynolds (pornographic historical romance. High-key medieval smut between former-male-escort-turned-Danish-sorcerer and Welsh magical-girl-destined-to-do-the-deed-on-the-Wild-Hunt. I shit you not)
  • This vampire novel set in Toronto, Ontario that was really good but for the life of me I can’t remember the name, it’s been ages

There’s more, but I’m forgetting the names. It’ll come to me eventually.

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.Unboxing Diabolik Lovers VERSUS III Vol.2 Laito VS Shin.

My DiaLovers Versus drama of Laito and Shin came in today! Right before work, so I was waiting pretty much all afternoon to open it. up~ 

It was a great listen. I love the voices of Daisuke Hirakawa and Showtaro Morikubo and hearing them together was wonderful. Laito made me a bit emotional halfway through the drama. He sounded so sad and not himself. 

I felt my stomach turn lightly near the end of the track 6, since where high up on a metal structure that’s sounds like it’s coming apart. I’m pretty afraid of open high places so I already had images of horror cross my mind as I was listen to Laito and Shin fighting. xD

Lovely design work on the booklet and the little label on the side of the cd had this cute little chibi Laito and Shin on the inside.

The cd has 6 track in total. 

Burnt bridges

Pairing: Steve Rogers x Reader

Prompt: Misunderstanding.


Part 2: X

—-

“Steve..” I tried to reason to him. “Steve, please..”

“I can’t believe you lied to me and met some other man behind me.. Y/n, I thought you were the one, I really do.” He countered, his blue eyes painted with sorrow, suppressed anger and sadness, looking at me with disappointment.

“Steve, he doesn’t mean anything to me..” I desperately plead, trying to save our relationship that was running on thin ice.

“Then, who is he?”

I stayed silent, god, I really wanted to tell him. 

He shooked his head and walked towards the door, I tried to call him again but he didn’t turn around. “I’ll take my belongings tomorrow.”

My eyes widen, this is it. Our relationship is over.  

As the door slammed closed, I stood still. Then my breath hitches as I squatted down, burying my face in my hands, tears streaming down my face. 

“It’s alright, Y/n..” I tried to assure myself, my voice merely a whisper. “You have to be strong.. It was for him and the team..”

I collapsed to the floor, hands still on my face. 

“It was for him..”

—-

Y/n Starr, an actress and singer. Well, a perfect cover. It’s not that she’s not a talented star, multiple awards that she gained proved that.

Her real name is Y/n L/n, she is an agent for S.H.I.E.L.D. her status used to grant her access easily, –well, used to. Considering how the organization fall after the Hydra commotion. She helped the Captain, Maria Hill, The Falcon and Black Widow stop the corrupted S.H.I.E.L.D. her ability as a metal bender were a great help. 

After the Captain had recovered, he offered a place for her in the Avengers. She had gladly accepted, but she worked in the background, as the one cracking codes, giving directions and send Bruce off. Sometimes, she would use her status for gathering informations. Even if she did joined the fight, she wore a mask that kept her identity a secret.

Then eventually, Captain Rogers and Y/n developed crush for each other. It wasn’t long before they were dating. Their relationship were just like the others, constant bickering, sweet moments, nasty lovers spats, and cheesiness. But, it was special to them..

Yet something happened.

Hydra found her, they threatened her to be their link to the Avengers, or they will ‘hurt someone she loved’. Y/n fought them, of course. But, when she was concentrating on a group of men, she didn’t realize someone sneaking up behind her and injecting something into her arm. 

After the day, it didn’t took long for her to notice that it was a tracker and tapping speaker. Y/n only told Natasha because she knew the assassin is well capable to handle herself better than she, even they had to talk about it using sign language so the damned organization can’t hear it.

Y/n and Nat then began the search for someone that can remove the tracker without alerting the planter, they do finally found someone, Y/n requested the doctor to meet her alone in a cafe. 

Unfortunately, fate decided to give her hell. Steve saw her with the young doctor, and got the wrong idea. Y/n wanted to tell him the truth so, so badly. Yet she knew unless she got the tracker out of her, he won’t be safe. If only Steve had asked her the day after… 

Then she would’ve been able to tell him the truth, but it’s no use. 

He’s gone now.

—–

Y/n missed him, she missed him so bad. She just wanna felt his lips against her again, she missed him when she can’t sleep, she missed having him near her.

Do he missed her like she miss him?

No, of course not.

He proved that after many weeks he was found flirting with Sharon Carter, she saw them, but can’t bring herself to pass in front of them. Y/n saw how he looked at her, like she’s the only girl he has ever seen. Has he ever looked at her like that?

She distanced herself from the team, drowning herself in concerts and shows. The tracker is kept in her car to avoid Hydra getting suspicious, but she knew it was only a matter of time before they realized that she had removed it. 

Y/n’s fame grew, but she was hollow. Her songs now consisted of the mellow sad ones rather than the upbeat energetic songs, her fans pointed it out but they didn’t complain. 

God, Y/n wanted so much to move on. Yet she just can’t seem to put anybody else above him, she always found herself comparing her assigned dates -thanks, Nat- with Steven Grant Rogers. She hated it. 

Steve now had Sharon, and Y/n won’t ever be her.

—–

Y/n decided that she should just quit, quit the Avengers and focus on helping people through her ‘celebrity’ side. Yes, it won’t involve using her abilities, but at least she could still help the UNESCO in their projects or donate her profits. Distance herself from the Captain even if it meant burning all the bridges between them.

She voiced her thought in a dinner with the team, she cringed at how quiet the room suddenly is, it’s almost if she could hear Thor’s breathing far from her seat. Then Tony was the first to respond,

“Wait, why..?”

“I’m tired.” I told them, playing with the hem of my skirt. “I’m tired of getting blood on my hands, I still wanted to help people but in other ways.” 

It wasn’t false, Y/n was tired.

Yet the reason she wanted to quit was different.

“Y/n, if something is troubling you–”

Y/n shooked her head, cutting Bruce off. “This is what’s troubling me.” she paused. “I’m still going to tomorrow’s mission, but after that, I’m out.”

Silence

Natasha grabbed her wrist, then proceeded to drag her out from the dining room, trying to find somewhere private. “Y/n, are you sure?”

“Nat, you damn well know that I am.” She sighed, running a hand through her hair. “I know that they are probably discussing about this at the moment, but you have to promise me, that you won’t ever say a word about this.” Y/n gestured to her bicep, where the tracker had previously been planted into.

Natasha’s eyebrows were still furrowed, but then she gave in. “I promise I won’t, until it was absolutely necessary.”

Y/n bit her lip, crossing her arms. “I.. hope this ‘absolutely necessary’ is when I’m already dead or dying.” She shooked her head, leaning back on the wall. “I don’t want to ruin them, their happiness. He found someone, and he has finally found his best girl.. I can’t afford to ruin that.” 

Natasha stared at Y/n’s walking figure as she walked away, once she heard the sound of the elevator closing, she huffed. “Rogers, I hope you are as happy as she said, I hope you are fucking delighted.” She told him, not even staring at him.

Steve walked out from behind the door, his expression was no less serious as Natasha’s. “What did she mean by that?”

“You heard what I said to her, Rogers.” Natasha said, walking pass him. “I guess you’ll have to ask her or wait until the last possible moment.”

Steve called out behind her. “Guess I didn’t care as much now.”

—-

Y/n sighed, grabbing her gun out of her holster and walking soundlessly towards the enemies outside of the Quinjet. She quickly took out two of them with her Taser Disk, old toys during her time as an Agent. The others realized their men fell unconscious and began attacking at her. Y/n dodged and punched any of them as the bullets and knives grazed her, as she hooked her thighs around the neck of an attacker and used him as support while she was upside down shooting her guns at the rest of them. Soon she was out of ammo but there’s only three left.

She swept one off of his feet and lifted her leg to kick the other approaching one on the face, Y/n moved to the one on her left and punched his stomach, chest and kicking his groin, once he was down kneeling on the ground she kicked his head, doing a roundhouse kick and turned around to the other remaining one.

“Y/n? Everything alright?”

Y/n blinked, hearing the Captain asking for her condition, as she let down her guard for a minute she was grabbed from behind, she squeaked from surprise. She quickly lifted her legs to the air and did a somersault, slamming the attacker to the ground groaning.

She stood up, her chest heaving as she noticed how the last one did not make any effort to attack her at all. The man smiled and opened his mouth,

“I told you that I’ll hurt your beloved didn’t I?” He turned around and shot his gun, towards a certain blonde man. 

Steve.

Then it happened so fast, she jumped and searing pain was on her side, she managed to throw her last Taser Disk at the guy before collapsing to the ground.

“Y/N!”

It hurts.

“Y/n’s down!”

But not as much as when Y/n saw him with her.

“Y/n..?”

Y/n felt herself being lifted to the air and brought somewhere, it doesn’t felt very long before she was set down on something. Somebody pressed on her side, making her groan in pain. The pain forced her to finally open her eyes, only to see those blue orbs she had loved so much.

When was the last time she ever looked into those orbs?

Oh, right. In their last argument.

But the difference is his eyes were now stricken with pain, concern, and regret.

“…Y/n? please, please answer me.” 

Her mouth suddenly felt dry, her chest hurts from breathing, her eyes felt heavy. Her voice was barely a whisper. “I’m so sorry…”

“Stop talking, you need to save your energy. You need to stay awake, don’t close your eyes, alright?” Steve asked, his free hand cupping the side of her face.

“..It hurts.”

“I know it does, sweetheart. But you have to fight it alright?” Steve assured, his eyes were glistening and his voice cracked at the end. 

Y/n felt her own eyes tearing up as she spoke the words she had tried to tell him for so long. “I didn’t cheat on you..” she coughed, blood dripping from her mouth. 

“Y/n, it doesn’t matter now. Don’t waste your energy–”

“No, Steve. We… both know that I might not–” She coughed again. “..make it. I don’t want any regrets and now my only one is you, …I’m sorry for not telling you… I don’t want to ruin you and your best girl..”

Steve applied more pressure on her side, flinching as she winced in pain, lifting his free hand to smooth her hair back. “Y/n, you are and still my best girl. Nobody could replace you in my heart, I still love you, ..I still do, doll.”

Y/n’s lips formed into a smile, tears beginning to drop from her eyes. “I do too, I love you and ..I’ve always did…..”

Steve’s hands moved to grab her hands once Natasha took over and wrapped bandages around her side.

Y/n’s sight was becoming blurry and her head was going limp, but she couldn’t help but squeeze Steve’s hand for one last time before her sight turned dark.

Steve’s tears fell on her cheeks, the captain lifted her hand up against his lips and kissed it, his heart was broken, shattered, reduced to dust.

He said that he didn’t care anymore, 

but oh, how he lied.

—–

:’)


(I’m sorry for this ridiculously long fic)