so when i was younger, like 13/14 years old, i was seriously considering trying out for the SM global auditions. i practiced really hard only to chicken out in the end bc i was scared i wouldn’t be pretty/skinny enough for SM’s taste LOL. but i do think back to that a lot and wonder if i regret not even trying. as rewarding as my current career path is, i’ve always had such a longing for the stage, not to hear people screaming and shouting and cheering for me, but just to be able to sing for people, uninhibited and just totally in my element. the times i’ve sung for people, whether it was an audience of 50 or 1000, i’ve loved every single moment because of the feeling of freedom i feel when i sing. that feeling of just letting it all out, immersing myself so deeply in the song, or just having a fun time jamming out and making other people happy. i think that’s why no matter how many times i drifted from the performing arts, i always somehow found my way back to it, i just love it too much.
my short answer: if i were given the chance, i’d definitely want to give it a try. i know it’s a horribly hard life, trying to make it in the k industry, and most people don’t make it, but i’d still want to try. it’s too amazing of a feeling to sing and dance and perform; it’s absolutely liberating.
History geek note: Now I’m imagining an editorial cartoon from 1615 comparing “Ye Moderne Bible Reading Woman” with the good, old-fashioned women from 1315 who didn’t insist on learning to read the bible for themselves but were content to have a learned Man of the Church interpret it for them. I’d try drawing it myself if I could draw anything other then stick figures.