the golux

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Farewell and Into the Inevitable

“I know, Da,” Poe says quietly. “I know you never wanted this for me.”

“I wanted the war to be over,” Kes Dameron says, arms tight around his son. “I wanted my son to live his life in peace.” He leans back, hands on Poe’s shoulders, and looks Poe up and down, from the military-issue boots to the tidy khaki uniform to Poe’s ever-messy hair. “But I guess that’s not going to happen, is it.”

“No,” Poe says sadly. “You know I have to go.”

“You’re very much your mother’s son,” Kes says quietly. “And I will remind you of a very important thing about your mother: she always came back from her crazy missions.” He sighs. “I think I always knew this was inevitable - you come by it naturally, at least. Go with my blessing, then. But I expect you to live up to your mother’s legacy - all of it. Including the bit where she kriffing well survived the war.”

“Yes, Da,” Poe says, smiling through his tears. “I’ll do my best.”

Kes smiles sadly. “‘Do, or do not,’” he quotes. “And you are Shara Bey’s son. There wasn’t anything out there that could stop her once she’d made a decision, and Force knows you’re the same. Come home to me, son. That’s an order.”

“Yes, sir!” Poe says, coming to attention, and then flings his arms around his father and hugs him tightly. “I will. I swear I will.”

*

Poe looks up at the masked monster looming over him and thinks, before the pain takes everything else away, I’m sorry, Da. I think that’s an order I’m going to have to disobey.

I was tagged by @jeweltardis!

- Relationship status: very happily married

- Favorite color: royal purple

- Lipstick or chapstick: neither

- Last song I listened to: um… “Timber,” because I had to go rewatch that one vid by bessyboo

- Last movie I watched: I think my family rewatched Zootopia the other month? We don’t movie much.

- Top 3 TV shows: …We also don’t TV much. I like the box sets of Monty Python’s Flying Circus and The Muppet Show, though!

- Top 3 Characters: Keladry of Mindelan, Mariel of Redwall, Finn

- Top 3 Ships: Poe/Finn/Rey, Belle/Beast, and Keladry/Domitan of Masbolle

- Fanfic I’m reading: currently open: “The Things Gentlemen Don’t Do”, which is in a fandom I don’t even really know the canon for…but mostly SW:TFA. @topographical-map-of-utah’s adorable fake marriage fic. @beautifullights1 and @animalasaysrauer’s “Fitting”. The absolutely marvelous “Honor Among Thieves” by bracketyjack. Um. I have a lot of tabs open.

- Last but not least, the people I’m tagging: anyone who wants to play?

‘I make mistakes, but I am on the side of Good,’ the Golux said, 'by accident and happenchance. I had high hopes of being Evil when I was two, but in my youth I came upon a firefly burning in a spider’s web. I saved the victim’s life.’

'The firefly’s?’ said the minstrel.

'The spider’s. The blinking arsonist had set the web on fire.’

—  James Thurber, The 13 Clocks
I can do a score of things that can’t be done,” the Golux said. “I can find a thing I cannot see and see a thing I cannot find. The first is time, the second is a spot before my eyes. I can feel a thing I cannot touch and touch a thing I cannot feel. The first is sad and sorry, the second is your heart. What would you do without me? Say ‘nothing.’
—  James Thurber, The 13 Clocks