the fun & the lonely

no offense but it doesn’t feel cool or fun or edgy to be lonely and bitter all the time and i’m really looking forward to loving and being loved

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.
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spent way too much time on a shitpost again hahahaaaa

based on this (cause my Buffy phase never ended)

i wish i could do things right and i wish i had motivation to get up

some ppl: idk… yousef kinda gives me a bad vibe, im suspicious of him
yousef: literally works in a kindergarten, makes sure sana is having fun when they’re all hanging out together and isn’t feeling lonely, helps sana peel carrots, defends sana with the balloon squad against her brother who was joking around, would literally die for sana
me:

Honestly spending Valentine’s alone isn’t so bad because it’s literally THE day to eat breathe and live by the ultimate philosophy ‘treat yo self’. Be your own Valentine and spoil yourself, because you deserve it okayyy 💁🏿Shoot, I’m bout to get my nails done, go online shopping, stuff my face with food. I’m too juiced