the forest people

tonight i cried until my heart
lost itself in the forest.

i miss people i have never met,
places i have never been to,
worlds i have never seen. there’s
an ache in my chest that’s so timeless
no history book could ever hope to
determine the cause. fairy tales have
the most bitter of tastes but reality,
oh damnable reality, she’s so sweet
i think my teeth will rot and my tongue
will fall off. but yet here i am—still
reaching out to the stars with hope
at the ends of my fingertips like little
butterfly nets ready to catch the
radiance of the night. everyone around
me grows blinder by the day and rather
than join them, i just keep on stubbornly
playing pretend because it’s all i can do.

there are days where i want to think
that i was not meant for this world.

but i’m still here,
and my soul still yearns for
something more,
and my head just
can’t accept the way things are
and the way things always will be.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
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I’ve made an animation wuwuwuuuu!!!

It is the very first animation I’ve done, a short video with older DipDip and Mabel :3c 
Ship allowed me to use his voice for this (isn’t he the best?!). I’m really happy with how it turned out