the final separation

crawling out of pitioss dungeon like

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some things NEVER change

scars add up - rips pull at thread - three organizations … SAME ATTITUDE

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Definitely hugely inspired by @segadores-y-soldados and @coelasquid. THANK YOU to both of you for your AMAZING ideas and for sharing them!

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I’m not sure I can shout any louder or more regularly that THIS IS CLASSIC ROMANTIC STORYTELLING.

Act 1.

~ Dean doesn’t believe in Angels.

~ Cas is a soldier and Angel of the Lord.

Classic antagonistic meet-cute. They get to know each other through season 4 as reluctant allies. Debate is rife between them as to the right thing to do. Denial is a running theme for Dean re: Cas, let’s be honest, not even romantically but the ever old “It’s Cas, he’ll be fine” etc. Denial is central.

Season 4 finale: THE NEW RELATIONSHIP. Cas rebelled. He did it, all of it, for Dean. They are now compatriots working together against Heaven and Hell.

~ Dean starts to have faith in Cas, he prays to Cas.

~ Cas starts to see Dean as his leader and ally, not the Angels.

Act 2.

Season 5 - 8. Getting to know you. Well its SPN, so not exactly Fun and Games but yeah, this is it. They do get to know each other, and we get to know them better too. Cas even occasionally takes part in some MOTW ‘fun and games’ episodes and we see the development of both the romantic Destiel and the very kindly clearly written as a mirror obviously platonic Sastiel for comparison.

Point of no return / deeper commitment: somewhere around season 8 / Purgatory. “I’m not leaving here without you” etc. This is also the point where Dean believes that emotions will break Cas. This is literally heartbreaking and affects how he reacts to everything moving forwards, most specifically it is the reason why he holds back so much other than when Cas is human (see all the meta about 2nd nightstands, all of 9x06, the bar scene etc). It is also a standard unrequited/undeserving/it’s better for them if they don’t love me love trope in order to drag the story out, just saying.

Falling for you / Complications & Higher stakes: Cas becoming Human. Dean’s Demon/MoC arc. All these arcs lead them to a more profound emotional development towards each other and more textual romanticism in the writing rather than the initial crush/interest.

Final straw for Cas: Perhaps believing Dean is dead in 9x23 but then consolidated in 11x23.

Final straw for Dean: Lucifer possessing Cas, the whole second half of s11.

~ Dean over this whole period comes to see Cas not as a distant Angel but in a much more Human way. He even might have stopped praying to him as he replaces it with phone calls / direct communication, but his faith in Cas is clear.

~ Cas replaces his love and faith in God with his love and faith in Dean (consolidated in 11x23) and doesn’t want be a soldier but wants to help people, maybe by saving people, hunting things…

12x12 is the expositional point telling us that Cas has CHANGED. It also is a call back to Dean’s worry that emotions will break Cas as here he is, emotional and breaking. Dean even bows his head and visually looks like he is praying (it doesn’t even matter really if he is or not, the effect for the audience is the key).

These concepts tie back round to and build on where they were BEFORE THEY MET to show how they have changed within themselves and grown in relation to each other.

So, Now. They have both experienced the complications and higher stakes towards each other. They have both fallen in love, Cas both metaphorically and literally falling (it’s only on becoming human that I think he truly realised how he felt, it’s both a narrative reality and a metaphor). Dean’s gone from having no faith to eventually meeting God and worrying the whole time about saving Cas.

Which leaves us currently at the Break up Moment. 

Which is honestly exactly where I see this separation and all the questions about choices/Angels/nephilim/cosmic consequences going, leading us to…. 

Act 3.

Winning him back.

Originally posted by pierce-my-panic

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Perhaps the biggest fan of the song [about Matthews] is Maple Leafs forward Mitch Marner. Both live close to each other and drive to practice and games together. “It’s pretty funny,” Matthews said. “Mitch starts playing the song on the drive on the way to the rink. It’s pretty cool.”

anonymous asked:

Do you think you could compile a list of time travel fics? They're my not so secret love lol (Love your blog btw!!)

Friend, I LOVE time travel AUs! Thank you for this request!

Originally posted by omgdango


Time Travel AU


Turn Backwards on Go by inkwellstars, Not Rated, 5.3k
In which Yuuri and Victor, happily married and retired, find themselves thrown into the past and proceed to mess with everyone. One of the few time travel fics without angst. Super hilarious, too! I adore this fic <3

On My Love by RikoJasmine, Teen, 48k
Time travel AU where Yuuri and Victor are happy aged and married, but an accident occurs and suddenly Yuuri wakes up back in Detroit, in a time before he had even met Victor. Angst and pining ensues. Great fic!

Once More, With Feeling by Watermelonsmellinfellon, Explicit, 34k
Yuuri wakes up in Detroit after going to bed under heavy stress and emotional turmoil due to Victor’s declining mental health. Things are different. He’s dreaming obviously. And in dreams, people can do what they want. IM SOBBINGJSB

Unimaginable by emilyenrose, Teen, 4.8k
Sixteen year old Victor spontaneously travels to the future, where he’s… retired? And married?  Oh my gosh I can’t explain how much I love this AU. Funny, quick, and sweet.

Gods of Circumstance by Ritequette, Mature, 15k
During his Free Program at the 2016 Barcelona Grand Prix Finals, Yuuri suffers a freak equipment malfunction and falls, hitting his head on the ice.
When he wakes up, he’s back at the 2015 Sochi GPF. Get ready for angst, angst, and more angst. Thumbs up!

Way to Victory by crea_sei, Teen, 18k
Defeated after his loss at the GPF 2015, Yuuri doesn’t expect anything more from the GPF.
That is, until he wakes up on the 5th of December, five days before the GPF even begins. I’ve been screaming ever since I read this. SO CUTE! 

the gentle light that strays and vanishes by nauti, Gen, 7.7k
Yuuri and Viktor go back in time eight weeks before the 2015 Sochi Grand Prix Final separately, only to find each other again. Angsty and sweet. Must read!

Only You by quesadiaz, Teen, 13k
AU where Victor dies and time travels back to relive falling in love with Yuuri. Angsty, fluffy, and great writing. *sniffs* I’m totally not crying right now… *sobs*

anonymous asked:

Hi love! IDK if you will reply, but may I ask for some angsty Viktuuri fics? HIT ME WITH UR BEST SHOT 💜

YOU GUYS ARE KILLING ME WITH THIS ANGST… but I’m trash for angst so I’m not even mad. Get ready for lots pain and some amazing writing!


Victuuri Angst


Until My Feet Bleed and My Heart Aches by Reiya, Explicit, 147k (WIP)
Pretty sure everyone’s read this one… but if you haven’t, do! Rivals AU where Yuuri’s main goal, ever since he was a child, is to beat Victor and win the GPF. SO MUCH ANGST (like, so much) and deliciously hot, hot, hot! You might die from reading this… it’s that good. My personal favourite!

Submerge by cryingoverspilledvodka, Mature, 38k
The pining and angst is real in this one! Full of angry Yuuri and an equally frustrated Victor. Takes place after their first argument. Relationships aren’t easy, and Victor and Yuuri are no exception.

On My Love by RikoJasmine, Teen, 48k (WIP)
Time travel AU where Yuuri and Victor are happy aged and married, but an accident occurs and suddenly Yuuri wakes up back in Detroit, in a time before he had even met Victor. Yuuri competes against him again, a completely different skater this time. Amazing fic!

Between us by Vitavili, Mature, 169k
Love hurts. Love heals. Sometimes it’s really easy to love. Sometimes it feels like hell. You can forget to love yourself because you are too busy with loving someone else. Stunning fic with heavy angst but a happy ending.

Gods of Circumstance by Ritequette, Mature, 17k (WIP)
During his Free Program at the 2016 Barcelona Grand Prix Finals, Yuuri suffers a freak equipment malfunction and falls, hitting his head on the ice.
When he wakes up, he’s back at the 2015 Sochi GPF. Get ready for angst, angst, and more angst. Thumbs up!

Break the Cycle by SigmundFreud, Explicit, 26k
College AU where ex boyfriends Yuuri and Victor can’t stay away from each other. LOTS of mutual pining, arguments, miscommunication, and, of course, angst. Thumbs up!

and I feel life (for the very first time) by smudgesofink, Teen, 10k
In which Victor helps Yuuri with his skating, but Yuuri helps Victor find himself again. Oh, man, I was sobbing while reading this. Very angsty, indeed!

“let’s (not) end this” by YuuriVityaNyan (NarryEm), Not Rated, 1.7k
It’s as though Viktor’s world came crumbling down.  All that they have built up to in the last eight months: gone. Okay, this physically hurt me to read this… like it’s pure angst… that’s it…

the gentle light that strays and vanishes by nauti, Gen, 7.7k
Yuuri and Viktor go back in time eight weeks before the 2015 Sochi Grand Prix Final separately, only to find each other again. Angsty and sweet. Must read!

Never Enough by ireallyloveicecream, Mature, 35k
All Katsuki Yuuri wanted was skate on the same ice as rising star Viktor Nikforov. But when his dream comes true and they meet, his awe for him mutates into a cut-throat motivation for retaliation, sending the two of them into a rivalry that should’ve burned into the history of figure skating. Intense rivals AU!

Hold Me Tight by smudgesofink, Teen, 11k
To say that Victor is touchy-feely is the understatement of the century. So when Victor just stops touching Yuuri, without explanation, without reason, it makes for a painfully jarring experience. It’s all fluff… then goes straight into the depths of angst.. *cries*

but all they ever, by webbedfeet, Gen, 3.7k
Yuuri could do anything for Victor’s sake, even if what he had to say felt like ripping out his own heart and tearing it to pieces. He just never thought he could do the same to Victor’s heart. wHY DO I PUT MYSELF THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN????

First Fight by apollosoyuz, Gen, 2.4k
The first time they fought was loud and then quiet. In which Yuuri panics and blames Viktor, and Viktor doesn’t realize the impact his petty response will have on Yuuri until it’s too late. Fluffy ending!

Over Planning = Procrastination

I am making this post based on a request by an anonymous user, but as soon as I heard the idea it really resonated with me. When you are a perfectionist, like I am, procrastination comes very easily. As soon as I have a single doubt about what I am doing, I stop and turn to something else, which leads to a lot of unfinished assignments and unnecessary stress. So in this post, I’m going to give you my best advice on how to avoid this very thing and get back to work! 

Methods of Planning

You  need to start by addressing how you are organizing you time and if it needs to change. 

  1. Daily study schedule: This is my least favourite, and in my opinion leads to the worst kind of overplanning. This is when you schedule out your time hour by hour, down to what time you will study, eat, workout, etc. I understand that this works for some people and if you find yourself to be very disorganized, it can work for you. However, I personally find (and I think many would agree) that it ends up giving me anxiety and guilt when I don’t do something exactly at the right time. 
  2. Weekly or monthly schedule: This is ideal for people who like to plan ahead a lot, but don’t want to be too constricted to an hourly schedule. This method involves writing down what you need to study each day, but not declaring a specific time that you need to have it done by. I really like to use this for exam periods or before a big test, so I know that all the topics are covered by a certain point. 
  3. Daily to-do list schedule: This works for a ton of people I know, including myself. It is low-key, but also allows you to know what you have to do and actually get it done. This is what most people use in a bullet journal, which is obviously a very successful technique! It blends together the planning of the daily schedule with the fluidity and low-stress of the monthly schedule. I highly recommend this if you tend to overplan! 

Overall: You might need to re-evaluate the way that you organize your time and find something that is more productive. My personal favourite is the daily to-do list, but if you need more structure in your life, feel free to look at others. 

Dividing Tasks

One big thing that leads to procrastination is not being able to focus on the most important tasks that need to get done. If you put too much stuff on your to-do list or into your hourly schedule, it might actually end up taking away from more important tasks. 

Learn to prioritize. List tasks in order of their importance when you are creating a to-do list or other type of schedule. You can use a numbering system, or colour code them if you need more help:

  1. Red = Extremely important: Things that are due in the next day or two, studying for upcoming tests, steps in a process that needs to get done by the end of the week, bills that need to be paid, chores that have to get done before your home becomes a wreck. 
  2. Yellow = Pretty important: Things that are important to your schedule, but it wouldn’t be tragic if they got pushed off one more day. Re-writing or typing notes, writing out flashcards for a test a week away, working on an application or deadline that is still a while away, chores that aren’t going to affect you if they aren’t finished tonight. 
  3. Green = Filler stuff: Things that would be nice to get done, but aren’t urgent. Cleaning, organizing your desk, finishing a book or movie for pleasure, etc. 

Avoid Procrastination

After you have organized yourself and prioritized tasks, you need to be able to focus on actually getting them done. 

  1. Set firm deadlines. A lot of times, this is easy because teachers or bosses set them for you. But if they don’t, learn to set your own deadlines and stick to them. Write them in your calendar and make note of them in the days leading up to it. 
  2. Make mini to-do lists for an assignment. If you have trouble following deadlines, or value to-do lists as much as me, breaking down assignments and large tasks into small pieces can be super beneficial. For example, if you have an essay due, create a checklist with the intro, body paragraphs, conclusion, editing, typing, and final draft all as separate tasks. 
  3. Find ideal study setting. A lot of people have trouble focusing on tasks when they get distracted easily. I find it really helpful if I’m in an environment that gets me in a studying mood! Going to the library or a quiet coffee shop really motivates me. Finding somewhere with few distractions, limitations on how much noise you can make, and being able to see other people being productive is the ideal way to focus yourself. 
  4. Avoid social media and TV. This goes hand in hand with #3… Being in front of the TV or the computer (when you aren’t actually using it) is super distracting! Go somewhere that doesn’t have these distractions. 
  5. Start with small tasks. Sometimes, tackling your to-do list is easier if you start by completing a few small tasks. When I’m not in the mood to study, I try to do some household chores and update my bullet journal to get the ball rolling.  
  6. Use the Pomodoro technique, or something similar. Use a Pomodoro timer or another type of scheduling to stay focused when studying and take breaks when needed. If you find that breaking it down minute by minute is too stressful, try setting goals like “as soon as I am done studying this chapter, I will get up and make a snack,” and stick to them! 

not to be offensive or anything but do you ever just think about the mine music video and how the little girl grows up watching her parents fight until they finally separate and then when she’s actually in a relationship and they have their first big fight she runs out crying, terrified he’s gonna leave, because it’s “all she’s ever known” but then he takes her by surprise and tells her he’ll never leave her alone because sometimes I think about that and cry my eyes out okay bye

I finally created a separate page that could gather all my “art” posts and I went back to all of the things that I’ve ever posted and noticed that I never uploaded this one. :O

I do realize that I barely have a theme with my postings, but if you just wanna check the art, there’s this redirect link thing under my bio that says Art Dump. There will be more. :)

Lolololol. Yeeaaaaah it’s weird. 

Separate them-Part three (final)

Separate them

Separate them part two

TRIGGER WARNING IN THE TAGS

“Can I at least say bye?” You asked Billie as tears filled your eyes.

She eyed you suspiciously before answering, “No funny business. I take you to them right as you’re about to go and then I reap you. If you try to run, you’ll regret it.”

You nodded your head, “Deal.”

“Deal.” She replied with a smirk, “Now, let’s get down to business.” She said as she handed a razor blade over to you. You hesitated a moment before you took it from her; you’d be lying if you said you weren’t scared, but Sam and Dean were needed here. They had sacrificed so much. Had died so many times.

It was your turn to sacrifice something for them.

You looked up at Billie with tears pooling in your eyes, a tear slipped as you asked her, “You promise to take me to them?”

“I do.” She responded. You nodded your head one time before placing the blade on your wrist, “Cut deep.” She told you.

And you did.

Your world was dizzy and black spots were overtaking your vision when Billie grabbed onto your shoulder, “Time to say goodbye.”

Slowly blinking you opened your eyes and suddenly you were in front of Sam and Dean. You shot them a tired smile as Billie’s grip on your shoulders tightened so that you would remain standing.

“Y/N?” Dean whispered as he took in the sight of you; you were extremely pale and swaying on your feet, you looked completely out of it, that was when Dean noticed the blood flowing from both your wrists that was pooling at your feet. “What did you do?”

“You have about thirty seconds left Y/N.” Billie said as she slowly released her hold on you and slightly pushed you towards your brothers, you began to fall but Sam quickly stepped forward to grab you, “Say your goodbyes.”

“No, no you bitch, you can’t have her!” Dean shouted as he stood above you.

“Cas, heal her.” Sam said desperately as he clung onto you.

You grabbed Sam’s hand and squeezed it, “Ts gonna be ookay ‘ammy.”

“The angel can’t fix her. She’s done for boys. I wouldn’t waste my last twenty seconds with her by fighting with me.” Billie told them.

Dean was furious but quickly bent down to be with you, “Hey babygirl, it’s gonna be okay. Cas is gonna heal you, okay? Don’t worry. Big brothers got this.”

“Tss okay De. No fixing this.” You said softly as you grabbed Dean with your other hand, “Ts all gonna be okay.”

“Cas heal her!” Dean shouted.

“I’m trying Dean! It’s not working!” Cas replied in a frustrated tone. This isn’t what he wanted. The world couldn’t lose any Winchesters.

You squeezed both your brothers hands, trying to get their attention but only succeed in gaining Sam’s; Dean was too busy being upset with Cas.

“I love you ‘ammy.” You tiredly told him.

“I love you too Y/N/N, so much.” Sam told you as he kissed your hand that he was holding. Your eyes fluttered before they suddenly stopped.

So did your breathing.

“Y/N?” Sam said, terrified as his brain tried to process what his eyes were showing him, “Y/N. No. Y/N, Y/N!”

Sam’s panicked tone grabbed Dean and Cas’s attention who both looked down at you with fear on their faces.

“No.” Cas said quietly to himself.

“Y/N? Y/N, babygirl open your eyes. Y/N!” Dean called to you as he began to lightly pat your face, trying to get you to open your eyes. “No.” Dean said as tears began to fall from his eyes while he cupped your still warm cheek.

“No.”

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Scrubs + Season-Ending Songs