the fearful odds

The odds of being killed by a refugee in America are one in 3.64 billion

  • The Cato Institute’s Alex Nowrasteh did a risk analysis examining all the U.S. terrorist attacks between 1975 and 2015 and who perpetrated them.
  • Nowrasteh found — based on all terrorist attacks over the 40-year period — that the annual chance of an American being killed from a terrorist attack committed by a refugee is one in 3.64 billion. Yes, billion.
  • The number becomes even more gargantuan if you apply it to undocumented immigrants — it’s one in 10.9 billion a year. Read more (2/23/17 2:10 PM)

But most lesbians never went to bars. Occasionally middle-class lesbians could make contacts with other women if they were members of a private group such as the Nucleus Club, an informal New York-based organization of the late 1930s that held weekly parties for lesbians together with gay men.

But although police harassment of lesbians was not common in the 1930s, they knew, perhaps by their observation of gay male experiences, that it was a potential they had to take into account, and that awareness must have dampened the enthusiasm of many to join such a club. The Nucleus Club parties were in private homes, but the group still thought it essential to adopt the rule that each gay man would pair with a lesbian as they left the party and they would go strolling out arm in arm so that neighbors would think the couples had been to a heterosexual gathering.

One should not underestimate the fun in this game of “fooling the straights,” but underneath the fun was genuine fear.

Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers: A History of Lesbian Life in Twentieth-Century America, pg. 108 by Lillian Faderman

(Lame) Tears for Fears pen doodle, supposed to look like Roland but it’s like a mixture of different eras? Lyrics are from the song “Cold”

Imagine your OTP playing truth or dare. Person A dares person B to climb up a very tall tree and stay there until A says they can come down. Not wanting to chicken out, B reluctantly does it, despite their fear of falling. After B has climbed the tree, they ask if they can get down since they really have to pee. Person A days no, they have to stay there for a while longer. Person B doesn’t want to be stuck in a tree with wet pants, so they pee off the tree (maybe they even aim to get person A wet as revenge.)

Alternatively, B wets themselves when a branch snaps under them as they are climbing.

Imagine Cas Being Excited To Celebrate Halloween With You

Originally posted by winchesterstrenchcoat

“Okay, calm down, Cas,” you laughed as the angel did a strange leap of joy outside the bunker.

“What will we do first?” He asked, “Pass out sweets to children? Collect treats of our own? Needlessly drape toilet paper across private property?”

“No, later,” you smiled, “we’re gonna go to the video store and pick out a scary movie, first.”

“That sounds like a good start,” Cas gave you a nod, “may I please select the film?”

“Whatever you want, Cas,” you smiled, “this is your big Halloween.”

ABCs of Me!

I got tagged for this fun little thing by the adorable partners in crime, @tothepit and @spice-ghoul.

A - Age: I feel like this question comes up all the time for some reason.  I think I’ve answered this more on tumblr in the last couple of months than in my entire life.  Which has been 37 years so far.  Yup!  Old.

B - Biggest fear: Oh…the fears.  So many fears.  Um….I don’t know about the BIGGEST fear I have, because there’s just kind of a static layer of fluctuating fears going on from time to time, but I guess the most irrational fear I have is the deep, dark water fear, which is at odds with the complete fascination I have of a lot of things that live in deep, dark water.  The most rational fear is having something bad and beyond my control happen to my children.  Just typing that makes me feel nervous.

C - Current time: 11:16pm

D - Drink you last had: Red wine.  Don’t get excited, it was from like a six dollar bottle of Pinot Noir from the Wal Mart Neighborhood market.  Before that, a cup of coffee.  Yup, that seems like a stupid combination to me too!

E - Every day starts with: If I get to sleep until my 6:45am alarm, I wake up to Deus in Absentia.  If I don’t, either my cat comes and stands on my chest and meows until I get up and feed her, or my oldest son comes and sits on my legs until I get up and feed him.

F - Favourite song: I’m with Spice and Pit - there’s no such thing as one favorite song.  My favorite song right this very second, today, is Scenario by Subvision. It will change again in an hour.  

I do have a few songs that I always love and have loved for a years.  It’s a longer list than I’ll type out now, but here are a few of them:  Modern Love, Station to Station, Cat People, and Five Years by David Bowie - Nantucket Sleighride by Mountain - Famous Blue Raincoat, Who By Fire, First We Take Manhattan, Hallelujah and Everybody Knows by Leonard Cohen - Waltz #2, Alameda, and Pitseleh by Elliott Smith - Bring On The Dancing Horses by Echo & The Bunnymen - Close to Me by The Cure - The New Zero, Watch T.V., Things I’m Gonna Do, and Hunter’s Kiss by Rasputina - Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd - The Last Polka by Ben Folds Five - Save Me by Queen - The Decline, Thank God It’s Monday, Bottles to the Ground by NOFX - Time Bomb, What Do You Want Me To Say and The Ice of Boston by Dismemberment Plan - Haunted, Wild, and Amazed by Poe - Devil’s Night Out, Awfully Quiet, Pictures to Prove It and Toxic Toast by the Mighty Mighty Bosstones - and if you’re still reading at this point, I am so impressed and I know I need to wrap this up - and lastly, the Rocky Horror Picture Show soundtrack in it’s entirety.   

G - Ghosts, are they real?: I want so much to say yes, because that’s kind of fun and I love ghost stories, but really, no.

H - Hometown: Somewhere extraordinarily boring in Arkansas.  

I - In love with: So….is it just super dull if I say my husband?  ‘Cause that’s the answer.  We met when we really young (he was 17, I was 19) and had this crazy instant connection and have been together since then. So, that was 18 years ago.  We’ve been married for 13 of those.  He’s been my best friend pretty much my entire adult life.  

J - Jealous of: You know….I don’t really feel a lot of jealousy very often?  If I do, it’s usually about some skill someone has that I would love to have but have also never put much effort into acquiring?  Like, I’m jealous of people who can sew really well.  Ooh, I’m jealous of people that have enough free time to sit and read for like eight hours.  I’m jealous of all those girls who have gotten Cirice’d by Papa III at a ritual, although I am fully aware that if I were the one in that position I would be so nervous that I would THROW UP, probably on Papa’s hand, and I’d prefer to spare him that.

K - Killed someone: Huh?  Um…with kindness, I guess, weirdo question.

L - Last time you cried: Ugh…..Sigh.  So, I’m going to answer this, but I’m going to answer it in a separate post because the answer is just sad and personal and while I don’t mind sharing it with my sweet Ghost and Fox Fam, answering it here would just drag this whole kind of fun post into something sad.

M - Middle name: Lea Anne

N - Number of siblings: I have a brother who is five years younger than me, and also two younger brother in laws who I am super close to and who have known me since they were little and over half their lives now, so they have always felt as much like my brothers as my actual brother.

P - Person you last called/texted: The last person I both called and texted was my mom.  We talk all the time, so the answer to questions like this is usually her.  

Q - Questions you’re always asked: I am a total hermit, so most of my questions come from my husband or kids.  Those are usually food or item location related.  I get asked “what are you reading?” a lot in public, because I take a book everywhere I go, always.  

R - Reasons to smile: Talking to my Fox and Ghost Fam, Niels using my logo on the little demo he posted, having Ghost tickets for June.

S - Song last sang: If You Have Ghosts

T - Time you woke up: 7am

U - Underwear colour: Leopard print

V - Vacation destination: Of places I’ve been and would happily return to, Manhattan and Playa del Carmen.  Of places I haven’t been but would love to go to, Japan and Italy.

W - Worst Habit: Fixating on things that aren’t really important and letting social anxiety prevent me from doing things I really want to do.

X - X-rays you’ve had: Oh my god, this is a long list.  Aside from dental x-rays, I’ve had to have x-rays on my right hand, left pinky finger, left wrist, right ankle, both knees, left foot, ribs, spine and tailbone.

Y - Your favourite food: Black olives, broccoli, fried okra, sweet potato fries, salmon, crab legs, avocados, pretty much all Vietnamese food, macadamia nuts, soft pretzels, pot roast with potatoes and carrots, my great grandmother’s deviled eggs, pretty much all Italian food, peanut butter, flourless chocolate cake.

Z - Zodiac sign:  Unsolved murders followed by taunting letters to the San Francisco Chronicle.

Alright!  I’m tagging……..@bearfeat42, @silverthurible, @ghulehtela, and if they’ll kindly comply, @askpapaemeritusiii and Lilith and Aether of @lilys-tiger.  =)


laurel lance week → day one
↳ favorite scene

The Hunger Games {Sentence Starters}
  • "Hope. It is the only thing stronger than fear."
  • "May the odds be ever in your favor."
  • "I volunteer! I volunteer! I volunteer as tribute!"
  • "You shouldn't have gone! You said you weren't gonna go!"
  • "There is this one girl that I've had a crush on forever."
  • "I just don't want to be another piece in their game, you know?"
  • "Okay, well, I'm not gonna kill anybody with a sack of flour."
  • "What the hell was that? You don't talk to me and then you say you have a crush on me?"
  • "No! I'm not gonna leave you. I'm not gonna do that."
  • "We could do it, you know. Take off, live in the woods."
  • "You know, I meant that as a compliment."
  • "You're not gonna risk your life for me. I'm not gonna let you."
  • "A little hope is effective. A lot of hope is dangerous."
  • "Just try to win. Maybe you can."
  • "I don't know how else to put this. Make sure they remember you."
  • "You definitely smell better than I do."
  • "As long as you have it, nothing bad will happen to you, okay? I promise."
  • "It's okay. You're okay. You're okay!"
  • "I have NO chance of winning! None! All right?"
  • "You realize that your actions reflect badly on all of us, not just you."
  • "You scared me to death. Damn you!"
  • "You're stronger than they are. You are."
  • "Yeah, but I'm not very good at making friends."
  • "I think that if I can apply myself to the situation at present, I will be able to figure it out."
  • "I hope you noticed we have a serious situation!"
  • "I'm not allowed to bet, but if I could, I'd bet on you."