the fear of forgetting

No but life was easier when he used and objectified women. When he had the ability to snap HIS fingers and give a woman a room full of flowers and fancy dresses to “woo” her. And things like that and fancy trips to other planets always worked for him. But now he can’t. Now all he has to offer is Mon el, and just Mon el has never been good enough…but then it seemed like it was until the guy he used to be showed up and suddenly he was the one being told to leave–being sent away. Mon el was not good enough. And he is scared. So scared because he has something worth it and he is, in his mind, losing it. And so in his fear and self doubt, he forgets that Kara is not a person to be impressed by those material things and power. So he does something stupid, just trying to put it all back together and make sense of all these new emotions. But then the thing he feared happens. He loses her–romantically and as a partner. And his world shatters. And he knows he only has himself to blame.

The need for fic is real (2.08 spoilers!)

So in 2.07 Magnus said he was worried he was going to lose Alec if they did the do, and then apparently they did the do and then Alec LITERALLY THREW HIMSELF OFF A BALCONY.

OUCH.

I want fic. I want Magnus dealing (poorly) with all his feels; he’s scared, he’s hurt, he’s worried, he’s relieved, and he’s fucking ANGRY.
And he tries so hard not to show it, because Alec was/is fucking suicidal and now is not the time to be mad at him, he wants to be loving and supportive, but he just can’t control it. And the righteous anger is what comes out first.
“How could you?! You dismiss my fears and then you forget about them completely?? You said I wouldn’t lose you!” And then he’s crying and Alec’s crying and they’re both talking about their feelings and healthy hurt/comfort ensues. And there’s a positive, if not happy, ending.

Y'know, before the shitstorm that will be 2.09 happens and rips out our hearts like that fucking possesor demon to Jocelyn.

anonymous asked:

Do you have any guess on when the next chapter will be up? I'm vibrating out of my skin in anticipation

I couldn’t say this time, sorry! I just started drafting the dialogue today, and it’s pretty tough going since I want to get everything right, but I am working on it :) and yay that’s good cos it’s always a secret fear of mine that people will forget about me in between updates lmao.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.