10! For the shadows we fall series and 2! For game theory
10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story? // SALverse
I was a blackice shipper from the moment I walked out of the cinema after watching the film.
And that doesn’t normally happen to me.
Like I had no intentions of seeing RotG (the advertising campaign was SHIT), and then saw some (non-shipping) gifs and images on Tumblr and decided to see it.
While I was watching it, I loved the dynamic between Jack and Pitch straight away. I remember thinking during the Antarctica scene ‘I wonder if there’s any fanfiction of this? I bet there’s not. I wonder if there is though? Like ten maybe? Is there even a fandom? Fucking hell Pia there’s probably no fandom at all it’s a fucking kid’s movie goddamn you idiot’ etc.
I walked out of the cinema and went straight to my phone and looked it up on AO3 and saw that there was a fandom (pretty small, at the time maybe only 60-100 fics?) but way way more than I’d thought, and that the pairing even had a name: blackice. I was so excited. I joined the fandom at the time where people were still coming up with names for the pairings, lol. For a long time, blackice covered everything, including Kozmotis/Jack pairings (which is why I still use it for that, I’m an old-timer).
I read all the fic with the pairing (I’ve never really shipped anyone else in the fandom) and realised I couldn’t quite find something I was looking for. Like there were fics with hurt/comfort, but they weren’t huge or long (at the time), or there were PWPs with really hot sex, but they lacked sprawling character growth (no fault of the PWPs, which were still super fucking hot, I just have weird reading habits).
It was a pretty short step to then writing the first chapter of From the Darkness We Rise and exploring the pairing the way I wanted to. They’re the only pairing for me, in RotG. :)
2: What scene did you first put down? // Game Theory
I actually think it may have been the sex scene from the first chapter. But then I wrote a lot of it out of order. Like, I wrote Liver before Wait/Hunt/Display etc. But I am fairly sure the first scene I put down, was a hatesex scene, because I wanted to explore what it would look like.
At the time I wasn’t thinking of writing a long story, I wasn’t thinking of writing a happy story (I didn’t ever expect Gwyn would get a happy ending, I knew he’d fall in love with Augus but always felt he’d be doomed by it), and I wasn’t thinking of writing beyond a few ‘never to be published’ scenes of hatesex to get a feel for the characters. So initially, the chapters I was writing were sex scene focused, and you know, oh well, character growth and development happened from there, lol.