“me and you? we’re simply not cut out for this lovers thing” with stuckony please, because I'm an asshole and my life force comes out of stuckony suffering and angst.
They had tried. When Bucky had come back
and it was clear that he and Steve were still in love, they had tried the
polyamory thing, mostly because Tony didn’t want to let go of Steve.
But it was clear that it wasn’t working
out. Steve and Bucky were closer than Steve and Tony ever had been and while
Tony was rapidly falling in love with Bucky it was clear that Bucky didn’t see
him as anything else but as competition.
And it was time to put an end to all of
Tony cornered Bucky when Steve was out for
his run with Sam and it already spoke volumes that Bucky angled himself away
from Tony before he even opened his mouth.
“Okay, let’s be honest here,” Tony started
and forced his voice to be steady. “You and me? We’re simply not cut out for
this lover’s thing.”
Bucky’s eyes went wide, but he continued to
put more space between them.
“What do you want me to do?” Bucky
carefully asked and Tony’s heart broke when he saw how scared Bucky looked. Scared,
that Tony would take Steve away from him and this only cemented Tony’s
decision. The three of them were no good together at all.
“Nothing. I just wanted to let you know
that I…, well, I guess I am breaking up with you.”
“And Steve?” Bucky asked, voice small and
Tony could hear it trembling.
“I’m gonna break up with him, too, of
course,” Tony said with a frown. “You belong together and I should have ducked
out when you first came back, but I…” he trailed off, unable to say it.
But he didn’t have to because Bucky
understood him perfectly as it seemed.
“But you loved him so much, that you had to
try. You loved him too much to just let him go.” Tony nodded but didn’t say
“Do you not love him anymore?” Bucky asked
“I do. Of course I do, but he loves you
more, and I’m just not worth it. And we’re not working out too well, are we?
You can hardly look at me as it is. I never meant to put such a strain on your
“I’ve been trying,” Bucky mumbled and Tony
chuckled, because otherwise he would start to cry.
“I know, and I’m not saying you haven’t.
But this is still not working out, for neither of us. So I’m just gonna give
you space and you can, you know, be together like you have before without me
“Tony?” Steve suddenly asked from the
doorway, still panting and sweaty from his run. “What is this?”
Tony had thought he would have more time to
prepare to break up with Steve too, but apparently the universe hated him
“I’m breaking up with you,” he said evenly,
trying to blink back the tears.
“Why?” Steve asked and he sounded desperate.
“It’s not working, Steve. We said we would
try, and we did, but Bucky and I, we are not working. And it’s straining your
relationship too, and I love you too much to see you unhappy.”
“Tony, I love you. Don’t do this. You and
Bucky are fine,” Steve pleaded and Tony laughed at that.
“We are not fine, and you know it. He can’t
even touch me. And don’t even pretend that you love me like you love him. I
know that you love him, maybe not more than you love me, but he is more
important to you. I won’t stand between you anymore. It’s been a selfish
decision from the start.”
Bucky had kept quiet this whole time but
now he started to reach out for Steve.
“Steve,” he pleaded and Steve instinctively
reached out for Bucky.
It was like a stab to Tony’s heart, to see
those two together, but it only showed him that he was right.
“Tony, he loves you,” Steve said when Bucky
didn’t say anything else and Tony had never thought that Steve could be cruel,
but apparently he had been wrong.
“Don’t,” he managed to say but Steve shook
“He does, Tony, he does. He just doesn’t
always know how to express it.”
“It doesn’t matter,” Tony said around a
sob. “It’s never gonna be enough. Not compared to what you have. And I just…
Steve, this isn’t working. Just let it go.”
“No!” Steve said decidedly and Bucky
reached out for Tony this time, but Tony took a step back.
“I’m sorry. I’ll go now,” Tony managed
before his voice cracked and he turned around.
He swallowed around a sob as he left, but
when no one called out for him again, he knew that he had made the right
Since @babyseguin and I are the worst™, we saw Papa Benn was at the game last night again. Skylar really wanted to talk to him about her jersey and tell him how proud she is of Jordie. I finally dragged her down to him and waited for the game to be over and start clearing out around him. I said “Excuse me sir, we recognized you from the dads trip” and he turned around and immediately started smiling. He had a hard time hearing but he was super nice about it. We introduced ourselves and skylar told him how she’s worn the habs jersey to every game and how many compliments and support she gets. He said “Oh I saw you the other day. I sent it Jordie and Jamie saw it in warm ups. It’s too cool!” (After she came back to life) Skylar said she had hard time with the trade but she’s super happy that he’s in a place he can contend and hopefully win a cup. He said “Oh yeah! That could be something over his brother”. Again we told him we’re happy he’s getting the recognition and appreciation he deserves. Skylar complimented Jordies attitude and work ethic and thanked him for raising two great guys. He thanked us and thought it was too cool that people were complimenting Skylar on the jersey.
Moral of the story: JORDIE BENN HAS A PHOTO OF SKYLAR ON HIS PHONE
I just rediscovered my developmental artwork for one of my uni projects, in which I collaborated with @ts-porter to illustrate their short story about steampunk lesbians. Most of the early art was getting a feel of the setting.
There’s a special election on April 4th to fill the Congressional seat in our district that was vacated when Governor Brown appointed Xavier Becerra as California Attorney General. With 23 candidates running for the seat we’ve been receiving a ton of direct mail pieces, but @gohst-prncss-awez got a POT HOLDER in the mail from one of the candidates. All I can say is that I hope he didn’t just send these to women because Steph and I are both registered Democrats and I didn’t get one. I mean, that would already be bad enough but I’m also guessing a “Here’s a pot holder for you women!” campaign is probably trademarked by the Republican Party