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12th House 101

The 12th house in astrology rules hidden things, endings, and your subconscious. The traits and energies of the 12th house have aptly been described as “belonging to you, but also not”. They are harder to recognize within ourselves, as these are concealed energies.

For the planets in the 12th house, the energies of the planet will be hidden and you may feel misunderstood in that area. 

Sun: You enjoy time by yourself, and you may be introverted. You prefer to have a quiet, peaceful environment. You may be very sensitive and empathetic. You are drawn to spiritual and hidden subjects.

Moon: You are very intuitive and may be very spiritual. Your emotions are hidden from others, although you feel things very deeply and intensely. You need to have alone time to recharge. You probably connect easily to music. You feel other’s pain and emotions deeply and they combine with yours.

Mercury: You keep your thoughts hidden and often hold your tongue instead of speaking. You think deeply and carefully before you speak. You may be very shy and private. You think deeply and are very observant. You like to learn abstractly, and love to daydream and imagine.

Venus: You are known to hide your feelings towards loved ones or love interests. You may prefer to keep your relationships private and to yourself, or are prone to having secret relationships. You may be attracted to or attract people who need your help in healing.

Mars: You hide your desires and feelings of anger. You like to pry into the minds of others, as well as your own. You may have a hard time expressing what you want, and it’s hard for others to tell what you want as well. You find it hard to express your emotions and passions or interests, or keep them inside.

Jupiter: You are very intuitive and optimistic. You are probably very spiritual or feel connected to your spirituality. You love to serve others and help them with your sensitivity. You may have visions, prophetic dreams, or very vivid dreams or imaginations.

Saturn: You repress your doubts, fears, and feelings. You feel responsible for others, and have a fear of letting them down. You feel guilty often and have a fear of the unknown. You prefer to be alone and to do your work or things alone. You try very hard to be in control of yourself and your emotions.

Uranus: You like to expand or learn by yourself. You like having the freedom of being by yourself. You may have visions or strong thoughts or feelings about the future. You love to help others who are suffering and to help others change.

Neptune: You are extremely sensitive to yourself, others, and your environment. Other’s emotions, feelings, or beliefs affect you deeply, and you pick up on those energies easily. You may feel misunderstood in your emotions, sensitivity, and beliefs. You are interested in taboo subjects. You may have psychic abilities.

Pluto: You feel like you have to hide who you really are. You like to work behind the scenes rather than be in the spotlight. You are naturally very secretive and hide things from others. You feel anger very intensely, but hide those feelings or thoughts from others.

The signs in the 12th house are energies and traits present within your subconscious. Or they are subconscious behaviors or energies you give off.

Aries: You are energetic and aggressive only behind closed doors. You repress your anger and feelings of rage. You think of yourself as very level headed, even though you might not come off that way. You aren’t very competitive, but once you get started, you have a hard time stopping.

Taurus: You crave and value security. You come across as less stable than you actually are. You may feel the need to live life in the fast lane, and rarely like to stop and take things slowly.

Gemini: You have a very quick and witty mind, but you keep it to yourself. You may be oblivious to just how smart or articulate you are. You are prone to over thinking and keeping your thoughts to yourself instead of vocalizing them.

Cancer: You probably aren’t very aware of your feelings, or just how deep they are. You hide your emotional nature from others, not wanting them to see that side of you. You try and come off as strong and brave, even if you really aren’t. Being vulnerable is really rough for you.

Leo: You don’t like the spotlight or being the center of attention. You are a great leader, but only when the attention isn’t on you. You may be very shy or introverted, or just appear that way. You are very selfless, almost to a fault. You need help realizing your potential.

Virgo: You come off as more judgmental or intimidating than you actually are. You have a very sharp tongue, usually without realizing it. You are very critical and have certain standards and expectations that you want met. You hate to be wrong.

Libra: Working with others isn’t your strong suit. You work better alone, not with a partner. You come off as independent and as someone who doesn’t need anybody else. You may have a hard time seeing the beauty and love within yourself.

Scorpio: You think you are much more optimistic than you actually are. You have a subtle intensity and power. You are very secretive and keep everything to yourself. You deny anything that would assume you are darker or have a darker side than you appear.

Sagittarius: You keep your beliefs and philosophies to yourself, but you like to share those thoughts when comfortable or alone. You may come across as more cold and cynical than you really are. You are more warm and friendly when you are alone or comfortable.

Capricorn: You are easily overwhelmed by responsibilities and work. You shrug off any problems or have trouble admitting you need help. You don’t like to focus or dwell on anything more than you have to.

Aquarius: Your humanitarian ideals and attitude is hidden, and comes out when you are alone or comfortable. You may be in denial about your individuality. You may sometimes find yourself trying to blend or fit in more than stand out. You feel misunderstood easily.

Pisces: You are a lot more gentle and sensitive than you come across, even if you push those traits down. You try to hide your sensitive side, and try to appear as tougher and stronger. But when alone, you are very compassionate.

acrownofblueroses  asked:

does lance cut off keith's hair to save him from spending his life being used as a weapon by the blades of marmora? also does keith's hair start to heat up when he's feeling intense emotions (mainly asking about the cute kingdom dance art u made; is keith's hair reacting to his feelings for lance?)

yes…

and yes

irrevocably-illogical  asked:

Concept: I trust my friends implicitly and don't become enraged when their story doesn't add up & I am capable of asking for further information before I am overcome with intense emotions. My personality disorder doesn't cause employers to dismiss me after I exhibit one symptom & I am not so terrified of their potentially life-destroying critique that I haven't looked for a job in two years. I do not feel like a fake borderline for not feeling morbidly desperate in the calm periods of my life.

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03.22.17

Leah and I went into the city and battled 50 mph winds, ate vegan chicken wraps, laughed over death by water, almost fell asleep on the train (twice), and found this sweet sweet mauve wall.

This past week has been the most intense and emotional I’ve had in a year, but it was so necessary for these feelings to be drudged up, felt, and properly put back away in order to move forward. I still feel very much in that process of this and definitely need a few days to turn the world off and figure out where I move forward from this point, but it’s all just beginning, and that is so beautiful. 

forward and on, my loves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@peaceloveandsandwiches

anonymous asked:

Chris Evans and his big vulnerable golden emotions :,,,((( I am coping by picturing Seb and Mackie lovingly putting things in his butt, I hope u approve

this message came at a great time: I read that GODDAMN FUCKING ARTICLE on my way to work this morning and then literally just wanted to walk around kicking things because I do not have the ROOM for this many feelings about Chris Fucking Evans and his big vulnerable golden emotions and primary-colour intensity and HONESTLY I AM GONNA MURDER HIM TO DEATH

anyway

so I read That Goddamn Article and then I checked tumblr and saw this ask and I just sat back at my desk at work and stared into space a little and was like “Vanessa, you created this. You became the person people message about this. Are you proud of yourself” BUT HONESTLY I AM

that seems like a real good coping mechanism, pal, real good, I approve. tell me more about Chris panting and putting his big beautiful hand over his face because it’s all just too much and he can’t, he’s gotta hide a little bit, he’s glistening and his chest is all, like, heaving with how he’s breathing hard

i never signed up for these chris evans feelings now I gotta go kick some rocks again

This is so so important and beautiful. And important. And beautiful.

Qualities of Highly Sensitive People

In general, highly sensitive people tend:

1. To be more sensitive to sights, smells, sounds, tastes and smells

2. To be philosophical and more in touch with their spirituality

3. To feel highly uncomfortable when being observed (e.g. by a teacher, a boss, during recitals and performances etc.)

4. To have vivid dreams which they remember in great detail

5. To have a deep appreciation for beauty, art and nature

6. To be good readers of others, and of non-verbal cues

7. To experience very powerful and intense emotions

8. To find it difficult to rebound from strong feelings and emotions

9. To be highly empathic and sensitive to others’ feelings

10. To be hard on themselves, and unforgiving of mistakes.

the signs feeling intense anger

Every sign can reach the stage when the mind just ‘quits’, no matter how laid back they are. check mars and moon!


Aries: She feels no anger. She feels rage. The intensity, the strong, sometimes short but intense feeling of emotions was something she was familiar with, but what she did hate was the feeling of anger she could mostly never shake off. It was always there with her, she let her rage out and it seemed like an exploding volcano. All she saw was red, there was too much energy flowing inside her bones that she could not get rid off and so she let out her anger, and she did not care who would see her like that. ‘I am fire and you will get burned.’

Taurus: He was angry. Angry with the world, angry with this unsteadiness, angry with the fact, that he could not do anything to stop the current situation. Long, slim hands pulled him out of his nest and threw him hard on the ground. He flinched as a cold breeze came and took away all his warmth. “No, do not take everything away from me!!”, he screamed but the dark did not listen. Gritting his teeth he felt his temper raging, long horns started to grow out of his head and he shook his head, trying to get rid of the feeling of losing himself. 

Gemini: Emotions were an construct. A map with a thousand of points, connected with each other by a small, small string. No there was a knot in the strings, there and there was nothing else he could do to untie them, to clear up this mess in his head. It was like the road for his thoughts was blocked and now everything just piled up. Irritated he shook his head, even communicating was hard and the knot in his head slowly transformed in his whole body. Then his mind just quit. Rash action. 

Cancer: She could not tame herself anymore, she got hotheaded again and knew the will easily fall in an tantrum again. Followed by this feeling of guilt: why me? Why this unfairness? Why the need to upset others and be upset? In the end a wave of intensity and sadness washed her away before she could get a hold of herself again. And getting back to the surface after being pulled down by the ocean would cost her a lot strength. Strength and a long time of swimming through these endless waters. 

Leo: “I do not like this”. It all started with the feeling of unfairness, adding a a little bit of hurt to the shattered self that lay on the ground. “I cannot let them now I am hurt! I will not allow them to touch me gain that deeply.” She opened her mouth and showed her long, sharp fangs. She roared. It was loud and vibrant. Whetting her claws she narrowed her yellow, fiery eyes. “Pray for yourself”, she whispered before sprinting to her prey. 

Virgo: The head was a like a working space. There were many files and papers he read, worked with, analysed, only to put them into a new file that was stored somewhere in his office. “Wh- what is this?” This certain piece of paper  was not like the others. Unreadable. Impossible to put somewhere, therefore it was just out of order. “I..I have the control..”, he said, his hands starting to shake. “I..I have the control over it…I have the control..”, he repeated unsteady before standing up and shredding the unknown paper. He started breathing hysterically, what was that? This brooding fear inside of him? “Control…”, he said one last time before shattering the mirror and flipping his precious work desk. 

Libra: These thoughts. These worries. These fears. She did not know what to do. How was she supposed to handle? “It is their fault!!”, she cried. But at the same time is was her own fault. She cried quietly, feeling like she wanted to let everything out, but couldn’t reveal herself, because everyone next door was sleeping. She did not want to disturb them with the mess of feelings. “I will ignore it. Swallow it.” But it was far too much to keep on pretending. She felt like being on fire, but she still smiled. A poisonous, deadly smile. Everyone should feel her poison sting inside their veins. 

Scorpio: His anger is intense. It’s like a thunderstorm with roaring thunder inside of him. His heart is beating and he wants to destroy, cry and scream. He wants to let out his darkest thoughts, he wants the world to feel his pain, transformed out of the bitterness. But in the end, he remains silent and waits till everyone left. He could hurt anyone right now, but he know it’ll be no good, knowing that he will destroy for sure if he demonstrates his power. So he balls his fists and closes his door. Outside of his bedroom you can her the thunder roaring. 

Sagittarius: ‘Do not stop me’, was all she thought. These feelings were caging her. No matter what she did to distract herself, the anger would haunt her after all, so the minute it became to much she snapped. She could be free spirited and joyous but deep emotions were something completely different, especially anger. Because she was not only the laughter of joy but indeed the stomp of a herd of wild horses swirling up dust as they made their way through the steppe. There was raw force and energy inside of her and that needed to get out, now. 

Capricorn: Get a hold of yourself. Get a hold of yourself. Now. But there was no way to get himself under control. There was this dam inside of his head that stopped this enormous river of feelings of overflowing. Now, there were little cracks in the once so strong concrete and each of them plainly showed the nerves he lost from time to time. He sat at his desk, swallowed and closed his eyes. Suddenly, the dam broke. The raging float of dark water swallowed him completely. 

Aquarius: She saw it often on other people. Anger. She watched them live it out, stomping with their feet, raging, screaming, shouting. Now? She felt it herself. “I know this, this familiar”, she explained to herself. But familiar did not mean good. She knew her temper tantrums for when she was young. She knew that destructiveness could be a part of it. “I do not want that. I will not.” Suddenly a dark, whispering voice talked to her: “You do not choose to be out of touch. You are not your own master.” She widened her eyes anxiously. And suddenly, it was like she was 7 again. 

Pisces: Anger? Anger, he felt it so deeply, anger and the need to cry out of frustration, he did not want to feel it anymore, the worst thing that ate him alive right now. So he grew bitter. “I can turn nasty”, he thought. “I will be the worst if you make me feel this again.” And so he did. So he became the feeling of anger and bitterness himself. As he looked in the mirror he couldn’t recognize himself anymore. Dark, red eyes starred at him, tears flowing. 

  • you: 50 shades of Jumin Han!!!
  • me, an intellectual: Jumin stuggled with intense emotional issues and spent so long attempting to control them. he wants to love properly, he doesn't deserve to be pushed into a box that simply classes him as "kinky" and "daddy" because there is so much more to him than that. he deserves to be emotionally healed and not pushed to the point where he breaks and lets out his emotions in an unhealthy, toxic way. it's a "bad" ending because he has been pushed to his limits, and it should not be romanticised as much as it is.
Getting Over Your Favorite Person

As sufferers of bpd, the fear of abandonment is a very prominent aspect in our lives, even when irrational. Sufferers of bpd will go to great lengths to prevent perceived abandonment. So how do you cope when the fear turns into a reality?

Natural Coping Mechanisms:

Splitting - Very common in cluster b personality disorders. This is when you go from idealizing something to completely devaluing it. It is particularly common in bpd when abandonment is perceived because devaluing the person leaving you causes you less pain. It doesn’t hurt so much if you hate them.

Detachment - Dissociation, although inconvenient, is a coping mechanism. If you experience an intense enough emotion, you will probably disconnect from your feelings. This protects you from the full intensity of how you feel, but probably won’t last forever.

Regression - You may go into what is known as child mode. This involves going into the mindstate of another age.

Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms:

  • Begging them to take you back - DO NOT! This is the worst thing to do! if they left you, they do not care about you and are not worth your time. No matter how much you want to go back to them and you miss them and ‘need’ them, don’t go back to them. They’re not worth it!
  • Stalking - This will just hurt you more. They are not worth your time and effort and you will probably see them being happy without you and this will cause further obsession and harmful feelings. It will only hurt you. Also, it’s kinda creepy.
  • Risky behaviour - A very common coping mechanism for those with bpd is putting themselves in dangerous situations. This is not worth it and can result very badly. This involves self-harm, suicide attempts, drinking, random sex, etc. It’s not worth it. Please talk to a friend or seek help if you feel the urge to do this.
  • Avoidance - It may seem like an appealing idea to avoid everyone in order to not be abandoned again, but you will essentially be abandoning the entire world. It will be lonely and hard and is not worth it. There are people out there who will really care about you and be good for you. Those people are worth it.
  • Dwelling on them - The more you think about them, the more likely you are to feel sad and build them up in your mind into someone they’re not. It’s better to cut contact for a while and remove reminders of them from your surroundings. It hurts less until you’re ready to face it.
  • Self-blame - You may blame yourself for them leaving. You may think it’s because you’re not good enough, you’re too much, not enough, etc. Don’t listen to those thoughts as they are untrue. They left of their own decision. If they had a valid reason for leaving (e.g. they were getting drained, they’re not in love with you anymore) then look at the reason, assess whether or not it’s true. You can get friends or family to help you decide. And then start your thoughts process. Either better yourself, or don’t. But don’t blame yourself or start self-hate.

Healthy Coping Mechanisms:

  • Giving yourself time - The most important thing is to let yourself be sad and grieve for a while. It will hurt for a long time, even if you split or detach, the emotions will crash on you eventually. So, remember not to be too hard on yourself and to let yourself be sad.
  • Venting - Use any support systems available and talk to someone about how you feel, whether it’s a crisis line, therapist, a trusted tumblr blog, or a friend. Just get your feelings out and share the pain. You are not burdening people, you are not being annoying. Your feelings are valid and deserve to be recognised.
  • Look at things that will help you get through -  Write down a list of all your personal strengths, attributes, and character traits that will get you through being abandoned. Write down a list of people and outside resources that you can turn to. Then turn to them
  • Focusing on bettering current relationships - Strong support systems are a vital foundation to make you feel better and friends and family make pretty good distractions (or new favorite people). Try and strengthen communication, go out with a friend, or whatever.
  • Focusing on bettering and taking care of yourself - Take up a new hobby, go out, meet people, get a pet! Do whatever it takes to fill the void and distract yourself! Also focus on your current needs and try your best not to fall into a pit of self-loathing and depression. It will be especially hard for the first few weeks/months to get back on your feet and ready to care for yourself, but if staying in bed and crying helps you to feel better, then that’s fine. Just don’t fall into bad habits. 
  • Self-fulfillment - often people use relationships to fulfill what they can’t do for themselves. They can use them to feel special, wanted, useful, valid, etc. A useful thing in life is to be able to serve your own needs and become as independent as possible. Do things to make yourself feel special, take yourself out to dinner, tell yourself nice things even if you don’t believe them. 
  • Remove reminders of them - being confronted with reminders of someone you love can be painful and hard. Remove all reminders of your ex favorite person and ask your friends not to talk about them. Or to remind you of all their negative aspects.

Yes, these seem like a lot of the ‘neurotypical rubbish’ we often see, but sometimes that shit works.

I hope this helps. Good luck!

Sloppy magic versus calculated magic.

Neither is fundamentally better than the other, each has it’s strengths and weaknesses. Sloppy magic may be include the risk of going wrong, but usually utilizes intense emotion which is the one of most powerful things in magic. Calculated magic can lack raw power but makes up for it in being very precise and effective. 

Sloppy magic is for the rushed sigil you draw on your math test that you’re sure you failed, but with your intense desperate magic, surprisingly find out later you passed with an ok mark. Sloppy magic is for emotionally, violently cursing your abusive ex to suffer endless insomnia and horrific regret. Sloppy magic isn’t ‘half assed’ magic, or ‘amateur magic’, it’s very simply neither calculated nor precise. Instead of elaborate rituals, it’s rage, desperation, elation, despair, raw love, pure joy, etc. It’s emotional magic, rushed or spontaneous magic, unprepared magic, but still just as powerful a magic calculated. 

Calculated magic is making your bigoted boss lose his job by targeting his superiors, making them notice his shortcomings that they’d previously been blind to. Calculated magic is the elaborate, long thought out wards that you permanently have surrounding your home, with intricate sigils and laboured over energy grids. It’s calm, well researched, complicated magic plays the long game. It’s demands less immediate results, and more long thought out processes of magic, unravelling things thread by thread or tearing them down brick by brick, ensuring success.

Calculated magic sacrifices time for exact, effective results, whereas sloppy sacrifices precision for raw intense power. Calculated magic tears down the wall carefully but laboriously brick by brick with your bare hands, sloppy magic slams a pickaxe into the wall and immediately knocks it down without care about where the bricks fall, whether they’ll land on your feet. 

Always be aware of your actions, your words, your intention, your emotions. 

Probably the most invalidating thing about BPD is the fact that my emotions can vary through such extremes in a relatively short amount of time. I can be genuinely suicidal for a few days or just one day or even for a few hours and then be totally fine. It makes me feel so fucking dumb and dramatic that my emotions are so so intense but can be so short-lived.

Havin an emotional disability be like

-Never cries for the right reasons (like when someone dies IRL)

-Crying buckets when a fictional character dies

-Resting blank face (no emotion, eyes often glazed over)

-Having intense feelings and consequently trying to play any violent reactions off as a joke

-Having no feelings at all. You don’t even know what feelings are. Emotions? You don’t know them.

-“How are you?” “Uhhhh… Fine?” You actually don’t know if you’re fine or not. You don’t know what emotion you’re currently feeling. You were pretty sure you were okay until you were put on the spot. In the awkward silence that follows, you know you’ve fucked up so badly the embarrassment physically hurts.

-Pretending to care about something that isn’t your special interest so your friends don’t leave you.

-Your voice is also monotone unless you get excited.

-Being constantly overwhelmed by everything and having a short fuse and snappish tone with everyone and feeling guilty immediately. It’s not anybody’s fault, and you’re not mad at them, but now they think you are. You immediately shut down.

-Your sense of humor is warped by time on the internet and how few neurons fire in reaction to what normal people consider to be funny.

-You look like a deer in the headlights when you’re being yelled at. You don’t know why this person is mad at you and all your energy and concentration is going towards trying to figure out why, hence the blank look on your face.

-Staring into space for hours. You look like your soul has left your body in favor of the Astral Plane.

-Being a big fan of the feeling of nostalgia bc it’s the only feeling that hurts in a nice way.

-Enjoying angst bc it’s better to feel intense emotional pain than nothing at all.

-Am I depressed or is my disability acting up?