“I wish she knew that I think she is the most hilarious person on Earth. And that whenever she’s not home, I feel like I’m missing my partner in crime. I wish she knew that she’s really Mom’s favorite–the princess she always wanted. That Mom used to dress her up like a little doll and parade her around like Mara was her greatest achievement. I wish Mara knew that I never minded, becauseshe’s my favorite too.”
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Finally! After two weeks of folding pages and who knows how many paper cuts, I’ve finished my entry.
And below is a lengthy insight to it.
I remember when I first read this line, it was 3 something in the morning and I was reading with the lights on (I mean…The Evolution was scary as fuck). I recall the shiver that ran through my body and the sense of doom it left in its wake. I’ve chosen that quote not only becuase it shattered my heart five years ago, but for the way in which words strung together in the appropriate order can completely overwhelm you. I’ll never not be fascinated by how an immensity of feelings and stories may be contained within four words.
Considering the immensity of those four words, I found it only fitting to convey it by building them from a story. Because that’s precisely what the words mean to me (an here I get all insightful ans shit, I am an english major, after all), the point around the story that builds up to the consciousness of what Noah Shaw chooses to be. During The Evolution, that quote was akin to Sarah walking through the Oubliette (I’ll never miss a chance to make a Labyrinth reference) and hearing the rocks claiming her certain death. However, once she makes it through, the result is most favourable, for she is once again in the right path to save Toby…I digress.
My point is, I’ve chosen to follow the same path with that quote. We’ve always considered “Love Him To Ruins” as a reflection of Noah’s inevitable death. But after reading the Retribution I began to wonder if it didn’t point towards something else. When Noah receives a letter from his mother (I needn’t inform you how I wept), he finds she’d writtten “Do not find peace, find passion”. And I believe it holds close relation to loving someone to ruins. We are aware of just how numb Noah could feel before meeteing Mara. So, couldn’t it be that Loving him to ruins isn’t but a reflection of how, if he is to live with the one he loves (passion,) the person he used to be, is about to be destroyed? Only for it to be replaced by an improved version. After all, how many times haven’t we done the same thing; anihilating those aspects we despise within ourselves and create new foundations.
Or it might just mean that I’m using this as a coping mechanism and Mara is destructive as fuck…oh well.
Anyway, I consider that’s the essence of Noah Shaw’s development in the Mara Dyer trilogy, and the reason why he will certainly struggle in The Becoming. All within those four words.
Look what came in the mail today! Its soft and squishy and the colors are wonderful. It’s my very first wool of any kind and I’m very excited to make warm fall knit(s)! I already have plans but I’m still picking patterns