Save Me - Chapter 110
The sun was barely peeking through the cracks in the drapes but I was already wide awake. I stayed wrapped in Jared’s cocoon as he softly snored, his soft breath drifting over the sensitive skin on my neck, still very much asleep. I don’t remember anything after his admission last night, I must have fallen asleep. That lead me to wonder if it actually happened or if it was just a dream.
I know if it did happen, and in my heart I do believe it did, that it was never meant for me to hear. He thought I was sleeping so there was no way I would bring up anything he whispered but it did ease my overly emotional state knowing he felt the same way about me as I did him. Finally being faced with going our separate ways was going to be hard on both of us. Somehow having to share that helped ease the pain.
Knowing these last few hours together here were all we had left, caused tears to begin to slowly slip down my cheeks. I didn’t want to leave. I wanted to go with him more than anything. If somehow I could make that work, I would but I didn’t see how it was possible. I had a job I loved and I couldn’t throw it all away. Not even for him.
Sometimes being a responsible adult sucks.
“Are you awake?” Jared asked as he kissed my shoulder, his voice still full of sleepiness.
“Ah huh. I woke up and couldn’t fall back asleep.” I said rolling over in his arms so that I could face him.
Tucking my head under his chin, I slipped my leg between his and wrapped my arm around his waist. I burrowed myself into him wanting to memorize every feeling for later, when I was alone and missing him.
“You’re going to regret that later, I think.” He said with a chuckle.
“I’m sure you’re right.” I whispered back.
We laid there quiet for a moment. Both of us lost in our own thoughts.
“I’m going to miss you…” I whispered trying to keep my tears behind my closed eye lids.
“I’m going to miss you more, baby girl.” Jared whispered back as his arms tightened around me.
“I feel like I can’t get close enough to you.” I said barely above a whisper as I flattened myself against him.
“You’re closer to me than anyone…” He said as his hand began to wander across my skin, “I’m not quite sure how you managed that but you did..”
Lifting my head from under his chin, I brought my brown eyes to his blue ones. Each of us trying to convey wordlessly how we really felt because somehow it seemed too soon to feel so strongly so openly.
As I began to struggle to hold back, Jared rolled on top of me, nestling himself between my open thighs. Bracing himself on his elbows above me, he cupped my tear stained cheeks in his hands as his eyes bore into mine.
Wrapping my arms around his back I gently traced every muscle as I slipped my ankles over his calves. Bringing his nose against mine he softly kissed my lips. As if he was able to read my mind, Jared lifted his hips enough for me reach between us and direct his hard cock to my entrance. I needed to feel the ultimate closeness with him.
Without breaking eye contact, he slowly eased into my body pushing his cock as deeply as he could. Bringing his forehead to mine, he tucked his arms under me as he wrapped them under my back to hold me tightly against him. Jared kissed my nose and across my cheek as he tucked his face against mine. Gently rocking his hips, he deliberately kept his pace slow, expressing more than words ever could.
Holding onto him tightly, I gradually began to meet his thrusts, the tightening in my tummy becoming too much to bare. As I got closer to my release, I felt him begin to falter, unable to hold back anymore either. I gripped my hands in his hair and unconsciously slid my legs up around his waist, tightening them around his body.
“Jared…” I softly moaned in his ear as I toppled over the edge, my pussy convulsing around his shaft.
He tightened his embrace around me then kissed the skin where my neck and shoulder met. A moment later, I could feel his teeth clamp down hard as I felt the pulse of his cock then a rush of wetness as he quietly came deep inside of me.
For the first time is our relationship, Jared made love to me.
He seemed unhurried as he slowly pulled out of me, rolling on his back and pulling me with him. We laid there in silence, neither of us wanting to break the moment. With my head on his shoulder, I closed my eyes as I listened to the steady beat of his heart.
“Everything is going to be okay, baby.” Jared said as he kissed my forehead.
“I believe you.” I said.
As much as I wanted to lay here with him a little longer, when Jared started to get fidgety, I knew it was time to get up. Lifting myself off his chest, we smiled at each other as our eyes met.
“It’s our last day here and I don’t want to waste it.” He said rolling over then sitting up on his side of the bed. Looking over his shoulder at me, “Time to get up.” he said.
I wasn’t quite that anxious to get up and moving just yet. I rolled over, looking at my watch, ugh, it was only five thirty in the morning. Jared was already up and half dressed when he noticed I was still laying bed. I thought he seemed a bit impatient this morning but I knew for sure when he put his hands on his hips and huffed.
“Vivie…” He warned.
“I’m moving, I swear!” I said quickly standing up and walking towards the bathroom.
“You have ten minutes to get ready. It’s early and I’d like to go for a walk before breakfast.”
“I’ll be ready, Sir..” I said, winking and blowing him a playful kiss.
Just as I promised, I was walking into the living room ten minutes later. Jared was sitting on the couch looking over emails when I approached.
“Anything interesting?” I asked as I sat down next to him, laying my head on his shoulder.
“Just looking over our flight itinerary. Emma just sent the revised copy. I forwarded it to you so you have it too. Looks like we have to be at O'Hare by eight and our flight leaves at ten.”
Yep, ‘okay’ was all I had to say about that because what I still wanted to do was block it out and not acknowledge it at all. I wasn’t ready for reality. My silence spoke volumes it seems because Jared closed his computer looking over at me then pulled me onto his lap.
“It’s not good-bye forever, it’s just see ya soon, baby girl. No tears.” He said as he watched me struggle to hold my emotions back.
I laughed at how emotional I was, “Ya know, no one has ever brought out my emotions like you do, my goodness!” I said as I wiped my eyes, “Can we head out?”
I desperately needed some fresh air and to do something with myself. If I continued to sit here, I would turn into a slobbering mess and I didn’t want him to see that. I planned to wait to full on sob until I was sitting alone on my connecting flight to Kisangani.
“Absolutely. Let’s go.” Jared said as he let me go and I stood up, walking to the door to wait for him.
As we started walking towards the lakefront, Jared held my hand tightly. It was another bright and beautiful day in the city and I felt grateful we got so lucky with the weather. The sun still rising in the sky and it really was my favorite time of the day. I was happy he wanted to get out and enjoy it.
We wandered around until about ten then started back toward the hotel. The day couldn’t be totally free, both of us felt the need to start catching up on work that had been pushed aside during the week. We also needed to pack.
The day flew by and before we knew it we were approaching mid-afternoon.
“I’m going to start packing, okay?” I asked.
“Yeah, I should get started on that too.” He said as he pushed his laptop off his lap and followed me into the bedroom.
We were about halfway done when the doorbell rang.
Jared quickly jumped up, “I’ll go get the door.”
He was gone for so long that not only was I done packing myself but I finished his as well. Lifting up one of his tee-shirt to my nose, I inhaled deeply pulling his scent in my lungs. Deciding I had to have it, I folded it and slipped it into the pocket of my bag. He had so many, I didn’t think he would miss it. Or at least I hoped.
Zipping up both bags I wheeled them into the living room and left them by the door. Jared was sitting on the couch, pouring two glasses of wine. He definitely had a knack for just knowing what I needed because a glass of wine sounded absolutely wonderful right about now. Hopefully it would help numb my aching heart.
“Come here, baby girl.” He said as I walked towards him as he held a glass of wine for me to take.
Holding up the glass to toast, “To the most amazing week we could have asked for.”
Clinking our glasses together I bit my lip, I wasn’t ready for ‘good-bye’ yet. As I took a sip, I appreciated the alcohol and hoped my dull senses would give me a bit of control over myself. At this point, we were going to be leaving for the airport in about two hours.
“I have something for you.” Jared said as he placed his glass on the table next to him. Opening the drawer he pulled out a teal blue Tiffany box.
So much for being able to control my emotions. As I brought my hands to cover my gaping mouth, tears silently fell from my eyes. Taking my hand from my mouth, he opened my hand and placed the box on my palm.
“Open it.” He quietly said.
I untied the ribbon, letting it fall away then slowly lifted the top of the box. Inside was a white gold necklace with two interlocking circles. One circle was gold and the other was white gold with diamonds.
I was speechless.
“I wanted you to have something tangible as a reminder of what we share. The interlocking circles represent our connection and no matter how much distance there is between us, that connection will not be broken.” He said as he took the necklace out of the box, “Turn around, baby.”
Holding up my hair, he clasped the necklace around my neck. As soon as he was done I launched myself into his arms.
“It’s beautiful, Sir…. Thank you.” I said as I wrapped my arms around his shoulders, my tears drenching his shirt.
“I told you that you were mine and I don’t want you to doubt that.” He said as he pushed me away enough to look into my eyes, “Tomorrow when we get off that plane, it’s see you soon not good-bye forever, okay?”
“Okay.” I said, cupping his cheeks and bringing his lips to mine.
This was by far, the best present I have ever received.
We left for the airport a short time later. For him, I noticed work started to pick up as soon as we pulled away from the hotel since his phone was constantly either ringing or dinging with calls and texts. I wasn’t in the mood for work, instead I just slipped my arm through his and put my head on his shoulder, watching him work instead. Every now and again when I felt like crying, I’d reach up and trace my fingertips over the interlocking circles. Their meaning was a far better thing to dwell on.
Once we were at the airport and my mind was busy again, I felt better. It’s almost like once we got to the airport my mind began to finally shift to what was coming next. The sadness lifted a little bit and I was happy about that. While we waited we talked about his upcoming schedule as well as mine.
Thankfully our flight was overnight and by around midnight both Jared and I started to doze off. Our first class seats were comfortable and allowed us to lay down, the only negative side was that I couldn’t hold onto him.
“Get some sleep baby girl.” Jared said, leaning over to give me a kiss before laying down himself.
By the time we woke up for breakfast, we were only about an hour and a half from landing at Heathrow. From there, Jared would be heading to Prague to catch up with everyone else for the show that night and I would be heading to Kisangani.
As the plane touched down there was a weight in my chest that I couldn’t escape from. This was going to be the hardest 'see ya soon’ I ever had. And due to the connecting flight, the shortest one too. He had a very small window to make it onto his flight.
Once the door to the cabin opened, we booked it out of there, both of us hoping to say good-bye somewhere out of the way of prying eyes. We started towards the gates and just as we were about to pass through, Jared pulled me into a small corner.
“I wanted to kiss you one more time before we walk through those gates.” He said pulling me into his arms.
Dropping my bag, I wrapped my arms around him, grasping his shirt in my fists. His tongue easily slipped between my lips as he caressed his against mine. With his back to any on lookers, it was as private as we were going to get.
Pulling back he whispered against my lips, “Be safe, baby girl. When you land, I want you to text me. Once you get an idea of when we can Skype, let me know. Do you understand?”
“Yes, Sir. I understand.” I said kissing him again quickly.
“Good girl.” He said as he smiled knowing that if he didn’t, I’d let my emotions take over and start to cry.
He reached down, picking up my bag then took my hand as we walked silently to the gate. He had to go one way and I had to go the other. This was our last moment together. Stepping in front of me he brought his fingers to the interlocking rings.
“See ya soon, baby girl.” He said as he looked in my eyes one more time.
Tears began to flow unchecked once again, “Yes, Sir.” I whispered as watched him turn and walk away.
The End 💗