the darkest of places

When temptation grabs ahold
To sing a dirge of defeat
This weary soul can not shake the agony
No patience for believers
Despair bleeds hopelessness
These thoughts leave me drained
Futile and frail where light has died

The darkest place is where I make you mine
Deep within the human heart
Hidden away from the eyes of your kind
No hope… No faith… No light…

I have been broken a hundred times
Beaten and battered forever scorned
Living life with the rope around my neck
Just one push from the edge of life

—  Buried, November’s Doom
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GUESS WHOS CANCER FREEEE!!!!!!? THIS GIRL! Y'all have no idea how grateful, thankful, and amazingly blessed this kid is. She’s been through the darkest places for any child to ever go. She lost a friend to cancer, who we know was smiling and jumping when Iva was declared cancer free. This child has saved me. She’s why I try, why I get up and keep going, and why I choose to not let my own demons win bc she beat hers.

Grey’s Anatomy quotes each sign needs to hear

Aries: “Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don’t give a damn what anyone thinks. You’re on your own. Be on your own.”  - Cristina Yang

Taurus: “If you aren’t willing to keep looking for light in the darkest of places without stopping, even when it seems impossible, you will never succeed.” - Amelia Shepherd

Gemini: “We’ll try again and we’ll fail again because that’s what progress looks like. Progress looks like a bunch of failures. And you’re going to have feelings about that because it’s sad, but you cannot fall apart.” - Meredith Grey

Cancer: “People can be broken but what’s broken can be healed and no matter how dark things can get the sun is always going to rise up again.” - Meredith Grey

Leo: “If you love someone, tell ‘em. Even if you’re scared that it’s not the right thing, even if you are scared that it will  burn your life to the ground, you say it, and say it out loud. And then you go from there.” - Mark Sloan

Virgo: “Oh, screw beautiful. I’m brilliant. If you want to appease me, compliment my brain.” - Cristina Yang

Libra: “I think you can’t wait for someone to fly underneath you and save your life. I think you have to save yourself.” - Meredith Grey

Scorpio: “Not everybody has to be happy all the time. That’s not mental health. That’s crap.” - Meredith Grey

Sagittarius: “The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.” - Meredith Grey

Capricorn: “It’s good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose.” - Richard Webber

Aquarius: “A little coffee. A little sunlight. Your troubles will get smaller.” - Richard Webber

Pisces: “Don’t let what he wants eclipse what you need. He is very dreamy, but he is not the sun. You are.” - Cristina Yang

When I read, I become a part of the character. If the character feels lost in their world, I feel lost in life, if they’re confused, I become confused, if they’re breathlessly in love, so am I. And this is what I love about reading so much. The ability to become lost in someone else’s life, someone else’s world. To be able to leave my life, and live in someone else’s is the most amazing thing in the world.

Have you ever had a crush on someone even when you know it would never happen but you’re constantly drawn to them? Everything from their smile to the sound of their laughter that brings light to the darkest places, or the way words roll of their tongue as if it’s a spoken lullaby. Yet, it’s more than that, it’s the similarities that keep you thinking that maybe in another time or world, just maybe there would be a chance. Just maybe.

i just have a lot of feelings about peter and mj so here we are. (part two can be found here)

  • peter is not looking forward to junior year
  • he somehow ended up signing up for like 3 different AP classes that he definitely did not remember signing up for
  • but being spiderman, he barely sleeps so his memory has been out of sorts lately
  • anyways so the first day of school rolls around and his first class is AP bio, and ned was his partner in regular bio but Ned is taking environmental science this year
  • and ned is peter’s only friend
  • so our spidey boy is without a lab partner, until michelle walks in right as the bell rings, drops her bag right next to Peter’s laptop on the lab counter, and begins reading catcher in the rye
  • she’s read it multiple times, just fyi
  • peter is shook
  • because he and michelle are friends now? i mean she’s caption of decathlon now that liz is gone and he’s sort of one of the best on the team and they are sort of partners there too
  • so peter rolls with it
  • and michelle ends up making AP bio fun, for example she and peter come up with names for everyone else in their class since they sit at the back of the room
  • flash is named: “dumbass”.
  • not original, but it works for them
  • AP bio is usually after lunch, and so often if there is a quick decathlon meeting during lunch, peter and michelle find themselves walking together
  • it’s not until peter realizes he’s low on webs that he realizes the problem
  • Michelle is sort of his ‘other ned’ if you will
  • basically, she never leaves him alone
  • and she doesn’t know he sneaks into the labs to make more webs
  • this is a situation, because how is peter supposed to distract her long enough to sneak into the chem labs?
  • cue ned the chair guy
  • peter gives ned one job, JUST ONE JOB, to keep michelle distracted during lunch so he can sneak into the chem lab, test out his new webs, and get out.
  • but the only thing ned can talk about is his new lego millennium falcon
  • and michelle is not into hearing ned talk about that for more than 5 minutes because he isn’t peter
  •  so somehow she escapes and finds herself wandering around the halls when she realizes where the hell is peter?
  • eventually she finds herself downstairs and she hears a strange noise from a nearby door. 
  • so she peeks into what looks like the chem lab and low and behold peter parker is shooting webs out of his hands
  • it clicks
  • the bruises, the sudden disappearances, decathlon, why spiderman was in DC out of all places…
  • next thing peter knows, michelle is in front of him, and she’s pissed
  • like, REALLY pissed
  • peter doesn’t catch much of what she’s saying besides the occasional “you could be killed” or “NED knows and i DON’T?” or “is this the damn stark internship?”
  • and peter is staring with his mouth open because even though she just found out his deepest darkest secret in the most obvious place (did he learn nothing from the aunt may incident?) her eyes are a gorgeous shade of brown and she’s kind of adorable when she’s mad
  • but that’s not that point
  • it takes peter the rest of lunch period to calm her down and to convince her not to tell anyone, not that she would, but you never know
  • and it takes him even longer to reassure her that he is perfectly safe and that the suit is very, very, reliable
  • she demands to see it, and peter refuses because they’re in the damn chem lab for god’s sake
  • eventually they head to AP bio, and Michelle doesn’t ask anymore questions. In fact, she doesn’t ask anymore questions for a while
  • peter thinks she forgot, or that she doesn’t care that much, but then a major accident happens in downtown in the middle of the night a few days later and spiderman is seen pulling people from a burning building, but no one saw spiderman come out before it collapsed. 
  • he skips school the next day because he’s “sick” and ned brings him his homework. he doesn’t ask about michelle, because he thinks that if she really doesn’t care after all, it’s better that he doesn’t know
  • he’s proven wrong – because when he does go back to school and walks into AP bio, Michelle launches herself into his arms in front of the whole class. 
  • and while afterwords she makes some joke about how peter saved their project that isn’t due until the end of the semester, peter starts to feel butterflies in his stomach. 
  • and maybe, just maybe, michelle feels them too
Elemental Personalities
  • Aries: You're the smoldering embers of chaotic fire, you are the product of chaos.
  • Cancer: You're the heartbeat of a lover, you flutter so sporadically and keep life what it is.
  • Taurus: You're the grass that grows under the innocence of adolescence,you alone can soften the fall.
  • Gemini: You're the air that coats the lungs of all, you intoxicate every living thing that has ever walked this Earth.
  • Leo: You're the first and the last beauty. You are missed sometimes, often actually, but when someone finds you; however, oh god they're going to love you.
  • Virgo: You're the first snowfall that covers our sorrows. You heal the hearts of many and soften the pain.
  • Libra: You're the bark of the old willow tree that has many names carved into it, you remember each and every one and the memories stored within every stroke of the knife.
  • Scorpio: You're the shadows that silently welcome each and every person to a place of peace and rest.
  • Sagittarius: You're the soil beneath our feet, ready to carry the new life that will come from it. You're ready to burrow the lost sorrows.
  • Capricorn: You're the cold air that is visible to the naked eye, haunting in a sense. You remind us that we're human.
  • Aquarius: You're the bottom of the ocean, reminding everybody that there is beauty in even the darkest of places. You tell people where your mind can sink to.
  • Pisces: You're the sun that leads the way, that warms our skin. You my friend, are needed very much so.
Birds in Magic

Originally posted by commander-eagle

Okay Y’all, this took forever, so I hope you like it. If you have anything to add, please do! I left a lot of stuff out, just because I couldn’t find it. *NOTE* these correspondences are tailored to my personal beliefs  

**WARNING**  Please be careful when working with feathers you find yourself, don’t mess with dead birds, and know that on some places, it is illegal to collect feathers you find yourself.   

PEACOCK

Peacocks were thought to be very unlucky, because they resemble an  eye. The eye shape in the Feather represented the evil eye which people were  afraid of. Today the beauty and natural strength of the peacocks are again  recognized. The feathers are specially valued for their multicolored eyes.

CROW

The Crow is one of the animals humans have always been afraid of. A  crow at the window is said to represent the soul of a dead person. Crow  feathers are used for mourning and letting go of unwanted feelings or  situations.

ROBIN

Robins bring the omen of new things coming into one’s life. The  feathers can also be used to induce fertility. Robins laying eggs early in  spring represent abundances in the coming year.

SWAN

The pure white feathers of swans are used to purify and cleanse by  attracting new energy. They represent beauty, grace and goodness. Black swan  feathers can be used to purify of unwanted energy.

NIGHTINGALE

This bird´s feathers are good communication feathers. They help to  tap into the deeper consciousness and can teach sacred wisdom.

HAWK

The feathers of hawks not only hold the active energy of those artful  hunters, but can also be used to identify diseases at skilled hands. Finding  a hawk may mean you need to protect yourself from bad energy

EAGLE

Eagles are thought to be great energy bringers and remind us of the  basic sacredness of all birds. They represent peace and happiness and there  feathers can also drive away harmful energy.

OWL

The owl has always been associated with death, sorcery and the dark  side of life. However they are also associated with knowledge and power. Baby  owls represent curiosity while Adults carry an air of Cunning. Owl feathers  may help bring advancement at any task, or help to clearly find a goal or  objective  

MALE CHICKEN

Cocks were believed to represent light and goodness. There feathers  can also be used as part of weather spells to raise rain and storms.

DOVE

Often, The feathers are used to help bring love, peace and Joy. These  birds are also an omen for a long (or prosperous) life

BLUE JAY

Blue Jays are valued as bringer of light and joy and are said to have  the ability to brighten up even the darkest places. Seeing one while pregnant  means you will have an intelligent child.

COW BIRD

Someone in your life is not good for you. It’s time to seriously  re-evaluate your relationship with this person. Use these fathers in curses  and Hexes- especially those to end relationships.

WOODPECKER

Carrying these feathers will help something you’ve been working hard  for in your life to pay off. If you feel like you aren’t getting somewhere,  seeing a woodpecker means it’s probably time to use another method to achieve  your goals.

SWALLOW

The Feathers of Swallows may be used to help attract luck in some  magic, Likewise, seeing a swallow may mean that it is time to reach out for  help

MOCKINGBIRD

Feathers are used for defensive and protection magic. Seeing one can  mean that it is time to act aggressively in a situation, and seeing one while  pregnant is a sign of a strong-willed child.  

CARDINAL

The Cardinal’s feathers can be used to encourage Courage and good fortune,  but seeing one can often mean that you’re flamboyance or outrageous means of  doing things will get you into trouble. Seeing one while pregnant will mean a  beautiful child.

HUMMING BIRD

These birds represent Faithfulness, but also some over-activity.

I miss you

I miss the sound of your laugh—carefree and light,
Like a favorite song I hadn’t heard in awhile.

I miss your smile, beaming brighter than a thousand suns…
Lighting up the darkest of places,
Infectious in its intensity

I miss the feel of your lips on mine
Perfect and full

I miss it
The way the moment I ventured to kiss you
A match lit in a methane filled room
The intensity with which you’d grab me

Hungry
As if you’d been craving me
All this time that we were apart…

I miss dancing with you
Alone together in a crowded room
The music mesmerizing
Our bodies moving in perfect synchronization
Swaying to the beat
Every nerve ending ablaze
Electricity crackling between us

I miss the way you looked at me that night
Your eyes never leaving mine
Two lost souls seeking the North Star
Existing in an eclipse
And discovering, for the first time,
The moon again.

I miss the way we made everything feel like an adventure
I miss the way we made everything brand new

I miss the peace you brought me
Like a warm fire on a cold day
Like coming home…

Your existence a ray of hope
That I might not be alone in this world.

Soothing my fears
Of a future unknown
Of a future alone.

—  Unknown

To the last girl who tried to love her,

To the girl who was her first love and her first everything. The girl who took a beautiful flower and stuck it in some journal that she threw in the back of her closet and expected it to be there when she returned. The thing you never took the time to understand is that you can’t exterminate something so beautiful, you cannot simply just snuff out the light of someone so radiant, something that bright and beautiful will grow even in the darkest of places. So for all the times you used the words, ‘I love you,’ to keep her around while you added flowers to your collection and she hopelessly waited until you turned back to her page, and the times you made her think she’d be your favorite bookmark you’d place in every book you read but you left her behind?

Thank You.

She’s stronger now and she’s learning that she is her own source of light, she brings oxygen to the people who felt like there was no air left. 
I’ve never been a fan until now, I’ve always loved the color blue.. they were never JUST blue. But her brown eyes shine so bright, it’s as if someone was holding a light behind them making them radiate in the form of a caramel sunset that never ends. I am going to encourage her to be everything she aspires to be even if that means I cannot be a part of it. I guess that’s the difference between you and me. I will not let my own selfish needs hold someone who has so much potential back. I’d take sleepy facetimes with failed attempts of watching GoT, as she sneaks smiles and glances of me as I fall asleep, over all day communication if it means knowing she’s making personal gains.

Thank you for fucking up, so that I have a chance to get it right ,

But I think you’re catching on now, you are trying to throw out all your flowers in an attempt to get this one back.

But sweetheart didn’t they teach you flowers were meant to bloom not be hidden in the depths of a book you forgot was even there until you’re bored and have nothing left but it to read?

—  She may have been your favorite flower, but someday she will be my favorite book… the one I will never get tired of reading. 
My thoughts on ‘Tales From The Yawning Portal’

I received my advance copy of @dndwizards​’s new book Tales from the Yawning Portal not quite a week ago. If you haven’t heard of this book here’s the gist of it:

TftYP is a collection of seven ‘classic’ dungeon adventures from D&D editions past, all updated with fifth edition rules. In this book you get…

  • Against the Giants (AD&D)
  • Dead in Thay (D&D Next)
  • Forge of Fury (D&D 3e)
  • Hidden Shrine of Tamoachan (AD&D)
  • The Sunless Citadel (D&D 3e)
  • Tomb of Horrors (AD&D)
  • White Plume Mountain (AD&D)

All of the maps and layout have been updated to make them easier on the eyes, while their traps, monsters, structure, and challenges remains largely unchanged. TftYP is a ‘best of’ book, rather than a remake or reboot of these adventures.

If you’re a millennial who got into D&D through things like Acquisitions Inc, The Adventure Zone, or Critical Role, my take on this book is gonna be of interest to you…because this book might be specifically FOR YOU.  

Originally posted by ewzzy


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