yeah, i think there’s been a bunch of things this year that kinda stick out in my mind. and obviously, scoring your first goal or your first point… it’s obviously up there and i mean, when i got that, there was honestly no better feeling at the time. and it’s something that i’ll remember for the rest of my life. —— lawson crouse on his rookie season with the arizona coyotes.
“I understand. The bird represents God. And coyote is man,
endlessly chasing the divine, yet never able to catch him. It’s… It’s
hilarious.” —Castiel, Hunteri Heroici, 8x08
For me, a forty-mumblemumble-year-old who has never shipped
anything other than packages via FedEx or USPS before, Destiel was initially
amusing. Then intriguing. And the more I watched the show, the more I read meta
analyses from fans, the more I explored whatever that relationship was through
my own writing, something kept eluding me. Something deep. Something profound.
And one day in the shower—because all of my sudden insights take
place in the shower, where I have no place to record them—I finally caught up
to the idea that had been teasing at the edges of my mind for months. Yes, one
can view Supernatural as an urban-fantasy-adventure-horror story. One can
view it as a love story. And it also works really well as an allegory.
There’s a reason why, in Jewish tradition, Shir Hashirim—Song of
Songs—is the biblical book considered to be an allegorical expression of
the love between God and the Jewish people. It’s also essentially biblical
porn. When we’re integrated with our human physical selves, experiencing the
world through physical senses, sexuality is one of the most powerful ways to
give and receive feelings of love and connection that transcend words.
On the surface, the very physical surface, Destiel is about two
really hot guys who can’t quite figure out how to tell each other that they
love each other—that they’re in love with each other. Dig a little
deeper, and it’s about a man (especially in Season four) who sees himself as a fuckup
(he did start the apocalypse, after all), who can only make a difference
through hunting, and is completely undeserving of the attention of an angel,
who in turn sees himself as trying but always failing, yet dedicated to proving
his own worth to the man who represents everything beautiful about humanity,
and everything heaven is missing.
But underneath that there’s something more.
Dean is human. He operates on the limited information available at
the time, with limited resources, and limited energy. He tries. Sometimes he’s
successful. Sometimes he fails. And with one notable exception, his moral compass
is true. He redeems himself by saving others. He tries to prove his worth, tries
to prove that it wasn’t a mistake for him to be on the planet, by saving
others. He gives with everything he has, even if that’s not enough.
The one notable exception to his moral compass is what happened in
hell. That he broke under torture. That he became that which he despised. That
he became everything he’d ever fought against. It’s the one thing for which he
can never forgive himself, the one thing for which he can never allow anyone
else to forgive him.
Castiel is an angel. Timeless, powerful (for a while anyway),
unknowable in his complexity. He operates—at first—on orders, without question.
And when he does finally question, he sees that Dean’s moral compass is truer
than that of the angels in charge. He sees that Dean—humanity, doing the right
thing, making a positive difference in someone’s life—is worth learning from,
worth fighting for, worth venerating.
Castiel has seen Dean at his very worst, seen Dean torturing others
and enjoying it, seen Dean’s self-hatred that grew out of it. And still, Castiel
helps, follows, saves, loves. Everything he does, no matter how badly it turns
out, is for Dean.
Castiel is unconditional love.
He might get angry. He might disagree. But he will never stop
loving Dean. He will never stop seeing the brightness in Dean’s soul, Dean’s
beauty, Dean’s goodness.
How many of us yearn for that?
That no matter how many mistakes we make, how many bad decisions,
how many times we strike out, how little we think we’ve accomplished, someone
or something always sees our innate goodness, the beauty that is our essence,
the brightness with which we shine.
We spend so much of our lives certain that we’re not enough: not
beautiful enough, not thin enough, not muscular enough, not tall enough, not
wealthy enough, not in a good enough job, not lovable enough, not smart enough,
not educated enough, not a good enough child / sibling / parent / friend / employee / employer.
What would it mean to hear someone say that none of that matters? That you are
a beautiful, bright, shining soul and nothing could ever tarnish your worth.
Because you are, and nothing can. And no matter how much you think
you’ve failed, you are loved.
Doodles from yesterday and today. I like to make fake rockstars because I love rock music.
1) Hank Tussell of the made-up early 70s folk rock group, YoYo Saints. Famous for their controversial album “Walking the God” which featured a cover art image of a saint walking Jesus in a dog collar, walking on all fours.
2) Famous made-up prog-rock duo, Diatribe, from their 80s comeback years when their hit “Crystal Tears” reached the top of the charts. Mick “The Fox” Talbin (left, lead vocals and drums) and Joel “The Rabbit” Barker (right, synth and bass)
3) Mars Addams (with the most uncomfortable hand poses ever) a made-up Australian garage rock singer who was a former front man of Coyote Spirit. His career spanned throughout the 60s, 70, 80s, 90s, and early-2000s with many comeback hits and 6 reunion tours with Coyote Spirit. He’s one of two surviving members.
4) Made-up psychedelic country rock-singer Floyd Mitchell, who was a one-hit wonder known for his anti-war song “Fox Holes (In My Brain.)” He died on March 14, 1978 when his tour bus was struck by a drunk driver.
Have you ever seen the coyote in the desert? Watching, tuned in, completely aware. Christ on the cross, the coyote in the desert – it’s the same thing, man. The coyote is beautiful. He moves through the desert delicately, aware of everything, looking around. He hears every sound, smells every smell, sees everything that moves. He’s always in a state of total paranoia, and total paranoia is total awareness.
You can learn from the coyote just like you can learn from a child. A baby is born into the world in a state of fear. Total paranoia and awareness. He sees the world with eyes not used yet. As he grows up, his parents lay all this stuff on him. They tell him, when they should be letting him tell them. Let the children lead you.
INFORMATION FOR BEGINNERS SERIES, GLOSSARY OF TERMS COMMONLY USED IN WICCA
Glossary Of Terms Commonly Used In Wicca
Rowan Moonstone And Durwydd Mactara
AKASHA- the spiritual ether (or Aether); the omnipresent fifth occult element which embraces the other four- earth, air, fire, and water; and from which they stem. This is the realm of “pattern” or causality, from which the realm the normally thought of “five senses manifests. Some define it is the "other” of the “two worlds” that the witch or magician walks between.
ARADIA- Daughter of the Goddess Diana, and a name for the Goddess used by Italian Witches or Strega, commonly used in many Wiccan traditions today.
ASPECTING- Any advanced magickal activity in which a practitioner manifests a particular aspect of the Goddess or God, in thought, feelings, behavior, appearance, etc.; Often as a direct result of a “Drawing Down”. Often a minor variation of this phenomena occurs with the selection of a “Magical Name”, of Craft Name.
ASPECTS- Forms, facets, or personas of Deity: for example, Brighid, Iseult,Eos, and Kore are all aspects of the Maiden, and the Maiden is an aspect of the Goddess.
ATHAME- black handled, double edged dagger. Principally used to cast and dissolve the circle, for which purposes it is interchangeable with the magic sword. A tool of the “Element” of Fire in the Georgian Tradition and some others.
BELTANE- May Eve festival. One of the Ancient Celtic “Fire Festivals.” on this night, the cattle were driven between two bonfires to protect them from disease. Couples wishing for fertility would “ jump the fires” on Beltane night. Also the traditional Sabbath where the rule of the “Wheel of the Year” is returned to the Goddess. This Festival also marks the transition point of the threefold Goddess energies from those of Maiden to Mother.
BOOK OF SHADOWS- Traditionally hand copied book of rituals, recipes, training techniques, guidelines, and other materials deemed important to a Witch or a coven. Each tradition has it’s own standard version of the Book and each Witch’s book will be different as he or she adds to it with time from many different sources. Only another Witch can see your book of shadows. Also, traditionally, it may never leave your hands or possession until death, when it should be destroyed, or (in some traditions) returned to the coven to be disposed of.
BURNING TIMES- a term used by some Witches for the period of persecution in the Middle Ages and later. It is in fact a misnomer in some places, as Witches were only burned in Scotland, and on the continent of Europe. In England and the U.S., they were hanged.
CANDLEMAS- Festival held on Feb. 1. One of the 4 Celtic “Fire Festivals. Commemorates the changing of the Goddess from the Crone to the Maiden. Celebrates the first signs of Spring. Also called "Imbolc” (the old Celtic name). This is the seasonal change where the first signs of spring and the return of the sun are noted, i.e. the first sprouting of leaves, the sprouting of the Crocus flowers etc. In other words, it is the festival commemorating the successful passing of winter and the beginning of the agricultural year.This Festival also marks the transition point of the threefold Goddess energies from those of Crone to Maiden.
CARDINAL POINTS- North, South, East, and West, marked in the Georgian Tradition by candles of green, red, yellow, and blue, respectively. The Circle is drawn to connect these four points.
CHALICE- one of the tools of the Witch. Placed on the altar to represent the element of Water.
CHARGE OF THE GODDESS- The Traditional words of the Goddess to her followers, or “hidden children”. Normally declaimed by the HPS at every coven Circle.
CIRCLE- the area in which the magickal worship and spells takes place. Can also be used to designate a particular group of Witches or Pagans such as “Silver Acorn Circle”.
CONE OF POWER- power raised in the circle by the Witches assembled, and sent out into the world to work magick, is usually visualized as being retained and built in the form of a “cone” prior to release.
COVEN- an organized group of Witches, led by a High priestess and/or a High Priest who meet regularly for worship and fellowship. The traditional membership is 13, but in fact most covens number considerably less. 3 is the minimum in the Georgian Tradition. In Middle English, “Covin” a group of confederates; In Old French “Covine” a band or group with a single purpose; Latin “Com”-together, “Venire”-to come or move.
COVENSTEAD- regular meeting place for a coven. Usually the home of the High Priestess or High Priest.
COWAN- a non-Witch. Formerly used in a very derogatory manner. Still used in Masonic Ritual to indicate the non initiate and/or pretender to “real craft”. Not often used today among most Witches.
COYOTE ENERGY- trickster energies. Named for the American Indian Trickster, Coyote, who tricks man into learning what he needs to learn. Applies to one who constantly jokes and clowns. Also applies to the concept of “Holy Fool” in many traditions.
CROSS QUARTER DAYS- The modern name for the Celtic Fire Festivals of Samhain, Imbolc, Beltane, and Lammas.
DEOSIL- clockwise, or sunwise. Traditional direction for working “building” magick.
DRAWING DOWN THE MOON- Ritual invocation of the spirit of the Goddess into the body of the High Priestess by the High Priest.
DIVINATION- magical method of exploration or inquiry into a situation via such methods as Tarot cards, runestones, I- Ching, etc.
ELEMENTS- Earth, air, fire, and water, plus spirit, which includes them all. These are regarded as realms or categories of nature (both material and non-material) and are not to be confused with the physicists table of elements, which the modern witch, of course, accepts.
ESBAT- weekly or biweekly meeting of a coven. Traditionally held either on the full moon or the new moon.
FAMILIARS- Either a Witch’s pet animal which has been trained to be a magickal helper, or an artificially created “elemental” which performs the same functions as the animal friend.
FIVEFOLD KISS, FIVEFOLD SALUTE- The Witches’ ritual salute, with kisses; (1) on each foot, (2) on each knee, (3) above the pubic hair, (4) on each breast, and (5) on the lips- really 8 kisses in all. It is only used within the Circle, but the words that go with it are the origin of “Blessed Be.”
GARDNERIANS- Tradition of Witchcraft descended from the teachings of Gerald Gardner.
GNOMES- an “entity” or “elemental” that dwells in the plane of Earth or is associated with the EARTH Element.
GREAT RITE- The rite which is the main feature of the third degree initiation, and which is also laid down for certain festivals. It is sexual in nature, but may be `actual’ (and private to the couples concerned) or symbolic, as the participants wish.
HALLOWS- name used by some traditions for Samhain, or Halloween
HANDFASTING- Wiccan equivalent of a wedding. It can be made legal if the Priestess and/or Priest are registered as clergy with the local authorities, or it may only be considered binding within the coven.
HIGH PRIEST/ESS- Technically speaking, a Witch who has received the 3rd. degree initiation. More usually, the male and female leaders of a coven.
IMBOLC- Celtic name for Candlemas.
INVOCATION- The ritual “calling-in” of an entity (or energies) higher than human, either for communication with the caller through a medium or by visible manifestation or else to enter into a human body as in the Drawing Down the Moon. In some traditions, a Prayer.
LAMMAS- August 1st. Witch Festival. The Old Celtic name for this festival is Lughnassadh. It is the Festival of the First Fruits, and is the first of the 3 harvests. This festival also marks the change of the Threefold Goddess energies from that of Mother to Crone.
MAIDEN- An appointment held by one of the women of the coven. She is virtually the assistant High Priestess. This term is also the descriptive term used to describe the first of the aspects of the Threefold Goddess Energies (Maiden, Mother, and Crone). It is traditionally associated with the Waxing Moon, and the period from Imbolc (Candlemas) to Beltane (May eve) where the energies are those of initiating, beginning, and creation.
OLD RELIGION- another name for the Craft.
PAGANING- Presentation of an infant to the Circle and to the Gods.
PENTACLE- a disc shaped talisman; in particular, the metal disc which represents the earth element among the witch’s working tools.
PENTAGRAM- The five-pointed star. With a single point uppermost, it represents the human being. Inverted, with two points uppermost, it can have Satanist associations; but not necessarily. Some traditions of Wicca use the inverted pentagram to signify an initiate of the second degree.
QUARTERS- The North, East, South, and West parts of a magickal circle or other ritual area. (See also “Watchtowers”)
REDE- rule or law.
SABBAT- one of the Eight festivals or high holy days of Wicca.
SALAMANDER- an entity that dwells in the realm of Fire.
SAMHAIN- The festival of remembrance for the dead, held on the eve of Nov. 1st. It is the last of the three harvests. This festival also marks the transition of rulership of the “Wheel of the Year from that of the Goddess to that of the God.
SCRYING- divination, usually using such methods as crystal gazing, or divination via incense smoke, or water as opposed to tarot or other manipulative means.
SPELL- a prayer, or verbal direction of magickal energies toward the accomplishment of some goal.
SUMMONER- The male officer of the coven who corresponds to the Maiden. He is the assistant High Priest.
SYLPH- an "entity” or “elemental” that dwells in the plane of Air or is associated with the AIR Element.
TRADITIONS- any of the various “sects” of Wicca such as Gardnerian, Alexandrian, Georgian, Seax, etc.
UNDINE- an “entity” or “elemental” that dwells in the plane of Water or is associated with the WATER Element.
WAND- A rod or staff that is prepared so that it may be used for magickal or psychic purposes, usually to project some form of power.
WARLOCK- a term coined in the Burning Times. It was used to denote a traitor to the Craft, or one who had betrayed the followers of the Old Religion. It’s origin is Scottish. Because of the negative connotations, it is not used by most Wiccans today.
WATCH TOWERS- Originally from the Enochian branch of Ceremonial Magick, now incorporated into many “Traditions” of Wicca, these are the four elemental “directions” or “quarters” (corresponding to the appropriate points on the compass) called to protect the Circle during its establishment. Each of them have a correspondence between the compass point, an element, and (varying amongst different traditions) color associated with them.
WICCA- the name most modern day Witches use for the Craft. It comes from the Anglo-Saxon word Wicce, meaning to bend or to shape. This is the root word from which we get wicker.
WIDDERSHINS- counter clock wise. Used for “tearing down” OR BANISHING magick.
WHITE HANDLED KNIFE- the working knife of a Witch. It is used to carve candles, and for fashioning the other tools. Traditionally, it can only be used in a Circle.
Copyright 1991 by Rowan Moonstone and Durwydd MacTara.
Permission to reprint for educational purposes at no cost is hereby granted to all and sundry, provided the text is not altered in any way.
I’M SORRY THAT THIS IS CURRENTLY ABSOLUTELY NOTHING LIKE THE REQUEST BUT IDK I GOT THIS IDEA AND I WROTE IT SOOO I HOPE IT’S STILL GOOD FOR YOU.
hi! can i request a
angst scenario where you are jimin’s gf and he have never seen you cry and the
character is VERY sarcastic an is a very strong person,and one day you and
jimin fight in the dorm with the rest of bts about something and he says you
are the same as your mother (you hate her) and she like dont cry and storms out
and suga goes after her and she is crying hard and having a breakdown so he has
to call jimin? “
….. I swear it will follow what is written here…maybe…maybe not the dorm thing with the rest of BTS but IT WILL BE SOMETHING ALONG THESE LINES. I’M SORRY I’M SO BAD AT THIS.
“Stop him!” The
men’s voices blurred together, all equally loud and chaotic, their voices
followed by the sounds of their heavy boots and the nails from their dogs
running alongside them.
“Don’t let him get
“Cut him off over
“He’s going down the
He tried to detect their
movements based on sound alone and plan his own accordingly to make sure their
paths wouldn’t cross, but he’d been running for a while and his legs were on
the verge of giving way beneath him. The change always took a lot out of him,
and he couldn’t keep up with the added stress and adrenaline surging through
his veins on his empty stomach. He should have had breakfast.
But he was stupid, and he
thought that maybe he could control it today.