the breakdown of a hero

I finally got around to draw another amazing scene from one of @crispykrimi ‘s fics !

I definitely didn’t cry reading this

Something I think is very interesting about Lance, Voltron Legendary Defender, and the archetypal “five hero ensemble” that the show plays into…

Roughly, there’s usually the hero, the hero’s rival/right hand man, the brains, the brawn, and the fifth ranger- sometimes a healer, other times generally identified by compassion, and virtually always in older continuities, the Designated Girl of the team.

In prior continuities of Voltron, the breakdown is such:

Keith is the Hero, with Lance as his Rival Right Hand, Pidge is Brains, Hunk is Brawn, and Allura, stepping up to the plate rapidly in the fifth episode of DotU, is the Token Girl.

This is true for GoLion, it’s true for DotU, and it’s true for Force, though Force “matures” Allura from the ‘soft sensitive one’ to more of a mediator figure- a more motherly take on the Token Girl role to reflect Force having an older take on all of the old school heroes.

Sven tends to take a back seat, as whether he lives (DotU, Force) or dies (GoLion), he’s pretty much shuffled off the team from the start, but his early role as a counselor and wiser, more patient head to Keith paints him with a bit of a similar brush to Force’s take on Allura.

However, in VLD?

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[efflorescence] - bakudeku; hanahaki, 4/?

as beautiful as they were, he grew tired of the sight (and taste) of green chrysanthemums after the first petal fell from his mouth.

one - two - three

The bus ride to their training location was frustrating to say the least.

Iida had previously instructed them to line up according to their assigned seats, but thankfully with the bus’s layout, it didn’t allow for that to come to fruition. Bakugou had sighed and thanked whatever higher power would listen that he didn’t have to spend a bus ride seated next to Midoriya.

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anonymous asked:

You: I want to protect Deku from all the harm in the world!! / Also you: *ships him with the very person who caused him suffering for 10 years*... huh, okay

I actually kind of want to thank you for being cordial about this instead of just… insulting me anonymously like others. 

Granted, I just ignore them/delete them, but still. It’s appreciated.

Since you honestly seem a little bit curious and confused, I want to answer this with a more specific response! So thank you for being reasonable about it. 

There are some things I want to clear up first.

You’re completely entitled to your opinion on a ship, my anonymous friend, and I also respect and understand why people hate the ship and even Bakugou as a character. 

Do I share the same feelings? No, not at all, but I definitely understand it. 

It would be dreadfully boring if every human who experienced the same artistic medium had the same exact opinions and points of views on a character/ship, no? 

At least, I would think so. I love the variety in opinion and watching different people fall in love with anime/books/movies, whatever, in totally different ways and coming out of them with multiple conclusions is wonderful to witness. 

It… almost feels similar to getting angry with someone for picking green as their favorite color, and because it’s not your favorite color you argue about how the different shades don’t make sense and shouldn’t be acknowledged as a favorite.

(Not you, specifically, Anon, but more of a general “you,” if that makes sense.)

Alright. So.

What draws me to the the Bakugou Katsuki / Izuku Midoriya ship, and the two characters individually (as well as their canon dynamic) is based on the concept of healing, forgiveness, growth, redemption, understanding, mutual respect, and genuine deep-rooted pain and realistic acknowledgement of the gratuitous and toxic elements of their relationship

And this only scratches the surface, believe it or not.

Yes, Bakugou Katsuki treated Izuku horribly while growing up (hell, he’s still an egotistical asshole). The infamous line in the manga/anime with Katsuki suggesting Izuku “find a Quirk in the next life” is inexcusable, and he should be held accountable for this. 

We’ve been allowed glimpses of their dismantled friendship at Katsuki’s doing, and Izuku’s equally flawed and dangerous perspective in placing Katsuki on a pedestal for his admiration. 

Before I go further with this, I want to touch on things about how I view Izuku as a character, since something in your anonymous message struck me, with the quote you had written: 

“You: I want to protect Deku from all the harm in the world!!”

The thing is, when it comes to characters, and Izuku in particular… I don’t think I’ve ever adopted the mindset of “must protect the precious baby,” because I personally view Izuku as a very relatable and human character. 

I know that this doesn’t cancel one idea out from the other, since many wonderful authors/readers/viewers/consumers, whatever, who like BNHA have this same viewpoint. Clearing this up so that nothing is miscommunicated.

So.

This may seem strange, and a bit… actually yeah this is a little weird, but as a viewer, I see him as someone who strives for an incredible goal, is very determined, much stronger than he appears (and believes) both emotionally and physically, and it’s slowly becoming a surprise to both himself and everyone around him. 

But I see him as not just a character, per say, but a definite reflection of the other side to his dynamic to Bakugou Katsuki. 

(Will touch more on this later.)

He’s been acknowledged as a beloved presence, and I actually don’t like viewing Izuku as a “precious cinnamon roll,” because he’s so much more than that. 

QUICK NOTE HERE: I do not think it’s wrong to think of him this way. This is how I personally think, and how I want to hopefully portray the character in fics I write, or just in a general acknowledgement of him. 

He’s a character that thrives on a complex personality and series of motivations that make sense for a character his age, with his history, and with his flaws and strengths as a protagonist. 

Izuku being “adorable” falls to the very bottom of my list of reasons why I love and relate to him as a character, and when he engages in horrible situations that challenge him, I live for those moments. 

(I know I’m not alone in this. Bear with me.)

I love seeing characters like this suffer and get thrashed and struggle in the face of their darkest times. It shows depth, and a sense of darkness that defies the overly comfortable image that comes across in an anime that is, quite objectively, a bit less of a risk-taker in the earlier arcs in comparison to others.

So, with that in mind… it makes sense why people can’t stand Bakugou Katsuki as a character for treating Izuku like he does, and it also makes sense why Izuku is shipped with just about anyone who can grant him that feeling of “must protect.” 

Again, there is nothing wrong with this. 

In fact, I want to point out, for the sake of people who can’t stand BakuDeku and enjoy other ships, that I see, respect, and completely understand why you feel the way you feel. 

There’s even a strong sense of admiration for it, because you wonderful people are coming from a place that wants Izuku Midoriya to have a stable dynamic. 

This is an incredible, awesome, respectful thing, and shows so much love for Izuku as a character. 

So at this point, it may seem that I’m arguing against myself. That I’m shoving my own argument into the ground for why BakuDeku is my Number Two OTP, and how I’m arguing for its validity.

But, this is where I want to put some light onto the perspective that I have for this ship, and I don’t think I’ve ever gone this deep before on Tumblr.

I mentioned a little bit earlier that part of what makes Izuku shine as a character is how he affects other people. He brings out elements of characters that they won’t even realize themselves. (Todoroki Shouto, Shinsou Hitoshi, and All Might are both huge, and popular, examples of this, even though they’re not the only ones). 

His drive and his motivations are directed towards an incredible goal that is founded in the roots of his passion. And this aspect of Izuku? This passion, this drive, this embodiment of equal strengths and flaws balancing and cancelling each other out as he grows and learns? 

They are reflected in none other than Bakugou Katsuki.

I’m in love with the depth to this dynamic, with the potential that’s built on what they could accomplish together. 

Izuku cares deeply for Katsuki, and admires him and respects him, but even with that in mind he knows that Katsuki is an asshole. It’s important to acknowledge this, that Izuku will not let Katsuki take advantage of him in any way. 

And Katsuki, quite evidently, hasn’t attempted to take advantage of Izuku at all; in fact, he’s been only focused on what he wants to accomplish, and is overly obsessed with Izuku potentially surpassing him and “looking down on him” (as confirmed in the story.)

Katsuki is dreadfully immature in a lot of ways, but the fact that they contain so many similar ambitions, balanced on top of a quite impressive tower of flaws that parallel each other perfectly… this, is what draws me to them. 

Izuku and Katsuki are both incredibly ambitious and determined. They both work exceptionally hard. 

I wrote a list awhile back that needs to be updated again anyway, so…

Here are some general contrasts/parallels to them:

  • Izuku is humble, while Katsuki is egotistical.  
  • Katsuki is prodigiously talented, while Izuku had to go the extra mile, despite them both being hard workers.
  • Izuku lacks self-preservation, and Katsuki looks out for himself, first and foremost, and how he will accomplish his goal.
  • Katsuki exhibits elements of both an intense superiority/inferiority complex, while Izuku… doesn’t. 
  • Katsuki is more instinctive with his actions, while Izuku is analytical and a definite planner. 
  • Izuku’s Quirk is more focused on the all-embodying element, like a supercharged mechanism that can both protect and damage in spurts. Katsuki’s Quirk is designed as more of a shield for himself only, and can release constant bursts of power. The more they develop, the more similar their Quirks can become in terms of balance.
  • Katsuki is exaggeratedly egotistical and lacking humility, pushing others away and immediately accepting himself as the greatest priority. Izuku is the exact opposite, but with a quality just as exaggerated and vast: his anxious hesitation and lack of confidence in himself and only believing that he can succeed with others. 
  • Izuku’s struggles in confidence is mostly internal and how he thinks of himself. Katsuki’s confidence is both too bloated for him to handle and in the exact same plane as Izuku’s.
  • Izuku admires All-Might for being the ultimate protector and savior of lives with a smile on his face. Katsuki is focused on the idea of winning, and how heroes always prevail in the end. 

I could go on and on with this… but yeah.

Something I noticed, as well, while writing this, is that Katsuki and Izuku’s contrasts, while very prevalent, are often rooted in similar, if not the same, bedrock of emotions that affect them differently because of their personalities. 

Sometimes their points of views and emotions are so balanced and imbalanced at the same time that it takes awhile to look back and think through all of those individual moments.

And so, before this gets too unbearably wrong, I’m going to bring this home with emphasizing the main point of why I love writing this ship: it’s a challenge

A huge. Fucking. Challenge.

It begs the question: how can you make this ship work? How can you make their potential dynamic come together and brush through those layers of misunderstandings and reckless emotions? 

How can Bakugou Katsuki pull his head out of his ass and realistically come into his own while learning to appreciate the person who’s respected and admired him for so long? 

How can Izuku Midoriya learn to stick up for himself when it comes to Katsuki and allow them both to be on equal ground, rather than Izuku always chasing the other? 

How can they get over their differences, and develop something beautiful and, dare I say it, healthy, after a possible length of years and years of mending?

For me, this ship demonstrates the gray areas of relationships, and the possibility of redemption for even the vilest people. 

For me, this ship revels in the depths of Izuku’s character as well as Katsuki’s, and how their dynamic can develop into something founded on equal respect, grounding, and healing. 

For me, this ship focuses on the damaged elements to both characters and embraces the toxicity to their current circumstance, as well as the awful and wonderful elements of their relationship down the line. 

For me, BakuDeku | KatsuDeku focuses on drama, realism, emotion, and the ultimate idea behind rebuilding, protecting, forgiving, and learning to pick up the pieces from one person to another.

There are no excuses for the damage done between these two. 

But there is something really beautiful, and tragic, about the potential in the horizon. 

So those are my thoughts. 

Thank you for inboxing, Anon.

❛ atlantis: the lost empire ❜ sentence starters
  • “It’s just a myth, isn’t it? Pure fantasy?”
  • “Well, this is it. I’m finally getting out of the dungeon.”
  • “They can’t do this to me!”
  • “Besides, we need you here. We depend on you.”
  • “You have a lot of potential, [ NAME ]. Don’t throw it all away chasing fairytales.”
  • “Maybe the cold water will clear your head!”
  • “Who – who are you? How did you get in here?”
  • “I came down the chimney. Ho, ho, ho.”
  • “Relax. He doesn’t bite… often.”
  • “They said if anything were to happen to them, I should give it to you when you were ready. Whatever that means.”
  • “I’ll show them, I will make them believe!”
  • “You hear that, [ NAME ]? I’m going to the afterlife with a clear conscience by thunder!”
  • “If I could bring back just one shred of proof, that’d be enough for me.”
  • “Our lives are remembered by the gifts we leave our children.”
  • “You will not regret this! Boy, I am so excited, I – I can’t even hold it in!”
  • “Carrots… Why is it always carrots, I didn’t even eat carrots…”
  • “Blondie, I got a bone to pick with you!”
  • “Hey, junior, if you’re looking for the pony rides, they’re back there.”
  • “Gunpowder, nitroglycerine, notepads, fuses, wicks, glue… and paper clips, big ones. You know, just office supplies.”
  • “Yes, this should be enriching for all of us.”
  • “Back, foul creature! Back to the pit from whence you came!”
  • “So I said to him, what’s wrong with my meatloaf, and he says to me – ”
  • “Geez, I used to take lunch money from guys like this.”
  • “Hard to believe he’s still single.”
  • “You wanna do my job? Be my guest.”
  • “Melt the butter and bring out the bibs, I want this monster served up on a silver platter!”
  • “We’re all gonna die.”
  • “Don’t move, don’t breathe, don’t do anything… except pray, maybe.”
  • “Yeah, yeah, thank you very much, shut up.”
  • “Two for flinching.”
  • “You’re so skinny if you turned sideways and stuck out your tongue, you’d look like a zipper.”
  • “I sleep in the nude.”
  • “Somebody’s gonna have to suck out the poison… Don’t everybody jump up at once.”
  • “They can smell fear just by looking at you, so keep quiet.”
  • “About time someone hit him, I’m just sorry it wasn’t me.”
  • “There were not supposed to be people down here. This changes everything.”
  • “You presume much to think you are welcome here.”
  • “Our weapons allow us to remove obstacles we may encounter.”
  • “Some obstacles may not be removed by a mere show of force.”
  • “A thousand years ago you would have slain them on sight.”
  • “We were once a great people, now we live in ruins!”
  • “What they have to teach us, we have already learned.”
  • “I have some questions for you, and I’m not leaving the city until they’re answered!”
  • “You are a scholar, are you not? Judging by your diminished physique and large forehead, you are suited for nothing else!”
  • “All I can remember is the sky going dark and people shouting and running…”
  • “Don’t forget to eat the head! That’s where all the nutrients are.”
  • “We are like a stone the ocean beats against. With each passing year, a little more of us is worn away.”
  • “Oh yeah, I swim pretty girl – Pretty good, pretty good! I swim pretty good…”
  • “Why don’t you lead the way, because… I have no idea where we’re going.”
  • “Hey guys, what’s going on…? What’s with all the guns…?”
  • “I mean, I would’ve told you sooner, but it was on a strictly need-to-know basis and, well… Now you know.”
  • “What’s to know? It’s big, it’s shiny, it’s gonna make us all rich.”
  • “For once, do the smart thing.”
  • “You will destroy yourselves!”
  • “I’d suggest you put a bandage on that bleeding heart of yours, it doesn’t suit a mercenary.”
  • “Well I know, why don’t you translate, and I’ll wave the gun around!”
  • “All will be well, [ NAME ]. Be not afraid.”
  • “Hold your horses, loverboy.”
  • “But that’s what it’s all about, right? Money.”
  • “It’s called natural selection! We’re just helping it along.”
  • “That was an order, not a suggestion!”
  • “This is wrong and you know it!”
  • “You pick now of all times to grow a conscience?”
  • “Nobody got hurt! Well… maybe somebody got hurt, but… Nobody we knew!”
  • “Internal bleeding. There’s nothing more I can do.”
  • “What a nightmare. And I brought it here.”
  • “My burden would have become theirs when the time was right. But now it falls to you.”
  • “I followed you in, and I’ll follow you out. It’s your decision.”
  • “Oh, my decision? Well I think we’ve seen how effective my decisions have been.”
  • “Of course, in my experience, if you hit bottom… the only place left to go is up.”
  • “I didn’t say it was the smart thing… But it is the right thing.”
  • “C’mon, we better make sure he doesn’t hurt himself.”
  • “We’re gonna come in low and fast and take them by surprise.”
  • “I’ve got news for you, [ NAME ] is never surprised and they’ve got a lot of guns!”
  • “Great, well do you have any suggestions?”
  • “Yeah! Don’t get shot!”
  • “Holy smokes! You told me he only had guns!”
  • “What I said was they’re never surprised!”
  • “Okay, now things are getting good.”
  • “Alright, this is it. Any last words? … Yeah, I really wish I had a better idea than this!”
  • “That’s it, unless someone wants to jump.”
  • “Well I have to hand it to you, you’re a bigger pain in the neck than I would’ve ever thought possible.”
  • “Nothing personal.”
  • “Tired? That’s a darned shame! I’m just getting warmed up!”
  • “Ah, I don’t think the world needs another hero.”
  • “Nervous breakdown. You could say he went all to pieces.”
  • “I’m gonna miss that kid. At least they’re in a better place now…”
  • “I hope this piece of proof is enough for you. It sure convinced me.”
MC takes care of Saeran after he breaks in herself

This really reminded me of yet another one of @blueplusiron little comics, this one to be precise, and I really love that thing. I actually love all of her stuff so yeah, I hope I did it justice :)


Zen

♬ he’d been so scared for you

♬ throwing caution to the wind he’d run the entire way just to safe you

♬ as it turned out, you didn’t really need saving

♬ if anything the poor sod you’d beaten up and tied to a chair did

♬ “H-how on earth…are you okay?!”

♬ apparently that question was silly to you, going by the snort Zen got in reply

♬ “Could you be a dear and call an ambulance? Actually no, if we call them, we’ll get the police involved and that’s not necessary. Can you call Jumin? He knows doctors, right?”

♬ it took a moment for Zen to comprehend what you were suggesting

♬ not only were you worried for the guys health

♬ you know, the guy who wanted to kidnap and/or blow you up

♬ but you were also worried for his criminal record?!

♬ how a person could be generally that good was beyond Zen

♬ so was the fact that you were apparently able to knock the guy out cold with a frying pan

♬ still frozen at the door, Zen watched as you treated the guys bump with such care

♬ he seriously needed to step up his game if he wanted to be good enough for you, because you were a literal angel

Yoosung

★ you’d been rather nervous about the whole ordeal with Mint Eye

★ somehow your fear had woken a part of Yoosung he hadn’t known existed, the hero

★ however, when he finally convinced the RFA to let him go, he was greeted with a surprise

★ for one, he was too late as that Unknown hacker guy had already entered

★ secondly, said person was unconsciously lying on the floor with you bend over him

★ your head whipped around and he could see the tears on your cheeks

★ it got Yoosung on edge, seeing you upset, ready to pounce

★ “I think I hurt him, Yoosung! Oh God, what do I do? He’s not waking up.”

★ Yoosung deflated like a popped balloon

★ “You were the one who knocked him out?!”

★ honestly Yoosung wasn’t even sure he would have been able to do that…

★ “I got scared when I heard glass breaking and I hit him with this pan. Oh God, what did I do?”

★ Yoosung didn’t know either, since he’d come running before actually thinking

★ his solution was to call Seven and let him deal while he had an internal breakdown

★ how on earth was he supposed to be your hero now?!

Jumin

♛ Jumin was beyond furious

♛ he’d warned everyone in the RFA not to send you back to the apartment yet

♛ the moment you were safe Jumin would make sure to give them a piece of his mind

♛ revenge wasn’t usually his style, but this was you and the mere thought of you getting hurt…

♛ when he got to the apartment with a SWAT team worth of bodyguards, you didn’t need any help

♛ well, that wasn’t entirely true, you didn’t need any physical help

♛ the guy was tied to the chair, eyes burning with rage while you calmly leaned against the wall

♛ “Oh Jumin, hey! You’re good with legal stuff, right? He can’t sue me for hurting him, right? Even though this is technically not my apartment…”

♛ he was shocked to see how composed and logical you were about the entire ordeal

♛ shocked, highly impressed and slightly aroused – although he’d never admit to the latter

♛ “Where did you learn how to tie knots like that?”

♛ his mouth is dry as he looks at the fine job you did, eyes half lidded

♛ you merely smirk at him while the team takes care of the rest, completely forgotten by both of you

♛ “Oh this? That’s nothing. Wait and see, I’m really good with bondage”
♛ Jumin knew he was in deep trouble and he loved it

Saeyoung/Seven

☼ he was worried sick, racing his way over to the apartment only he should know the location of

☼ of course the hacker had found out somehow, solidifying his theory about Rika’s involvement

☼ to top it all off the hacker had turned out to be his long lost twin

☼ Rika was the devil, V disappeared, his brother was brainwashed and you were in danger

☼ the entire way over Seven thought of his options, what he was supposed to do

☼ he wanted to save you, of course, but he couldn’t harm his brother, could he?

☼ there was also the bomb he figured Saeran possibly had a trigger to

☼ Saeran, his beloved brother, who he was promised would be safe!!

☼ luckily his worries kind of evaporated once he reached the apartment

☼ he found you basically chasing his brother, trying to patch up a cut on his arm

☼ “Seven, there you are! Wrestle him down, I need to put a bandage on that before it gets infected but he’s playing hard to get.”

☼ Seven was frozen for a moment, before you screamed at him to move his ass

☼ that is how the two of you ended up chasing his brother through the small apartment

☼ you eventually got him and had Seven sit on him while you tended to his wounds

☼ tender and yet taking no shit from no one…Seven knew he loved you in that moment

Jihyun/V

📷 V knew the lengths Mint Eye was prepared to go to sustain their paradise

📷 in fact, he’d seen their methods first hand making him all the more scared

📷 when he infiltrated for what he feared the last time to safe you, he was worried

📷 what eventually greeted him was so entirely unexpected, V was sure he was dreaming

📷 for a few moments he considered that maybe his worsening eyes were playing tricks on him

📷 but now, it was true; Rika unconscious on the floor with Saeran kneeling beside her, frozen

📷 you kneeled beside him, rubbing soothing circles up and down his back, whispering

📷 you noticed V a couple of moments later, gesturing for him to be silent and hide

📷 a lot of things happened that day, Saeran following you out amongst other things

📷 apparently they’d tried to feed you the elixir and you’d shoved it down Rika’s throat

📷 she’d passed out and you’d taken the opportunity to clear the boys head

📷 a couple of days and you’d gotten Rika arrested, Saeran freed and Mint Eye destroyed

📷 that day V’s drive and inspiration changed

📷 whenever he needed strength, he now thought of that moment in the Mint Eye Dungeon’s

📷 you truly were the hero that he dreamed to be one day

enneagram as villain/villainous tropes

1: well intentioned extremisttautological templar, politically correct villain

2: arson, murder and life saving / arson, murder and jaywalking, ineffectual sympathetic villain

3: not so well intentioned extremist, faux affably evil, visionary villain, villain with good publicity

4: villain ball, villainous breakdown, necessarily evil

5: the chessmaster, smug snake, enlightened antagonist

6: cp: hero antagonist, p: harmless villain

7: card carrying villain, for teh evulz

8:  even evil has standards, pragmatic villainy

9: affably evil, ambiguously evilobliviously evil

3

Subaru is honestly so charismatic.. 

anonymous asked:

do you have any tips on doing palette swaps? I can never get the colour to the right shade when I try.

Nas here! I don’t know what program you use for editing, but I use Paint Tool Sai since it’s free (I think?) and relatively simple, and I can give you a basic breakdown of my process:

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its-a-straw-tali  asked:

if bakugou had horrible anxiety he'd be unstoppable. his palms would always be sweaty because he'd be nervous 24/7 lmao. not that i'd wish that on that poor boy, he's already enough of a hot mess as it is.

i mean

he’s a teenage boy

i think that’s reason enough for him to be sweating constantly

hormones, growing up, bodily changes, emotional breakdowns every other month….

S4 Meta: A Different Kind of Monty Appreciation Post

So a lot of fans have been talking about Monty being the MVP of the season and wishing Monty was more appreciated. I may be the only one who wishes Monty’s flaws in S4 were being recognized too. And not because I’m a Monty hater by any means, but because Monty’s flaws make him a more complex character. In my Cold Child Thawing essay, I discussed that - despite fandom’s perception of Monty as this precious cupcake - Monty is actually one of the most ruthless of the delinquents. I’m seeing a lot of anger directed towards Jasper and Harper for upsetting Monty in 4x9, but not much criticism of Monty’s lack of empathy and his disdainful judgements towards his suicidal loved ones. I can’t criticize Monty too harshly either. I don’t think it’s entirely his fault. Monty strikes me as one of those High IQ Low EQ types who can solve all manner of technical problems but is useless when it comes to dealing with emotional problems. It has to be said that despite Monty’s many heroic accomplishments in S4, he has neglected his personal relationships. And now it’s come home to roost.   

“Clarke thinks you’re expendable”

Like Clarke, Monty has always been a diehard Team Survive member and can in no way comprehend anyone not sharing his ‘survival at any cost’ mentality. So with this aspect of Monty in mind, let me put this on the table - I think Monty was pissed off about being excluded from Clarke’s list. To be fair, Monty should be pissed. I’M pissed at Monty not being on the list. Everyone is. While Monty later says that he might’ve agreed with Clarke’s decision, I don’t believe him. If you re-watch the scene where Jasper discovers the list, Monty is defending Clarke and insisting that she “has her reasons!”, etc, right up until the moment he’s told he’s not on it. This isn’t the only thing that gets Monty appalled enough to make the list public. Harper being left off and Jasper being shock-lashed and locked up also contributed to his decision. But I don’t believe that Monty was opposed to Clarke playing God and deceiving the Arkadian population like Jasper was. I think Monty understood Clarke’s secrecy and control over her list as necessary survival protocol. Monty defying Clarke over that list was personal. I’d also say that Monty’s actions through the rest of S4 go to show how much Monty took being left off Clarke’s list personally. Yes, Monty is the MVP of the season but that is largely because Monty’s been hankering after the role of MVP ever since Clarke deemed him expendable. Monty thought he’d already done enough to be worthy of the A Team (IMO, he had). So Monty finding out that he has not been ranked as one of the top 100 most valuable members of the Arkadian camp has made him even determined to prove his worth.

“Someone’s moving up in the world…”

Monty proving his usefulness in S4 has ranged from tirelessly contributing to field missions (if he’s not in an episode he’s off in the rover somewhere), to individual feats of heroism (surrendering himself to Ice Nation to warn them about the Riley situation) and exhibiting his intelligence (solving the bunker key). None of this is out of character for Monty. He has been a useful team player in past seasons too. But in S4 I feel he’s more proactive and assertive where he used to be subservient. Take Monty’s involvement in stopping the Ark mob killing Illian. Monty compares the situation to the delinquent mob hanging Murphy but in that situation Monty had been a passive bystander. More recently Monty set a mob of Grounder slaves on the Ice Nation guard who’d killed his dad. Why does Monty, who has previously been passive or even supportive of mob justice, now object to the mob executing Illian? In my view, it’s because mob rule in Arkadia would mean that Kane and Jaha have lost control. If there is no hierarchy then what is budding MVP Monty supposed to aspire to?

Monty has been working to make himself invaluable to the camp leaders and Harper teasingly notes that Monty is “moving up” when he’s asked to join the leaders on the Polis mission. Monty’s striving for status not only puts him in a stronger position to be chosen for survival if options become available again. I think Monty also wants to be in a position to save Harper and Jasper who were also deemed expendable as per Clarke’s list. Monty spends S4 largely ignoring Harper and Jasper’s symptoms of serious depression because he’s mistakenly convinced that finding a sanctuary will be one simple cure all to their emotional breakdowns. When Monty succeeds in being the hero and the two people he cares for most don’t instantly recover, he doesn’t get it. He is angry at them for being suicidal even though the red flags were there all along and Monty had disregarded them. Jasper and Harper instinctively recognize each other’s despair while Monty is blind to it. Blind to them.   

“Are you judging me, Monty?”

When Jasper addresses his DNR party crowd he tells them they’re free to leave and there will be no negative judgements on those who change their mind. As much as Jasper may be nihilistic, the delinquents are not getting this kind of choice or respect from Team Survive. Monty is a prime example of this. Monty judges Bellamy for abandoning the survival cause for just one night of fun. The DNR party is being called a suicide cult, but Team Survive are just as religious about their ideology, frowning on those who lose the faith. Monty’s judgement of Harper is even worse, calling a suicidal person a coward being one of the most emotionally tone deaf things you can do. Harper and Jasper have both braved enough dangers during their time on earth. They are both broken Gryffindors who have fought for their own lives and their friends. What they’re questioning now is whether this fight is worth it when life comes in endless cycles of pain. If Monty had got them both to come to Polis they’d have been greeted by another bloody war. However, the decision over whether to leave the DNR group to their choice is still a very difficult issue. In the real world, you would certainly not let drunk traumatized children lock themselves in a room to die. Monty wants Jaha to take them by force. He argues that they are “wasted”, not mentally competent enough to make a sane decision. It is Bellamy, not Monty, who defends the DNR group’s free will. Monty’s not entirely wrong, but he fails to show empathy for Jasper and Harper the way Bellamy empathizes with them.

Ultimately I think Monty has made the best decision he could have under the circumstances. It would’ve been wrong to force those kids to go to Polis but it also felt wrong to abandon them. Jasper and Harper are Monty’s people and what were all his survival efforts for if he’s left alone? This is the problem that Monty has to solve now and emotional problems are not his strength. But at least he has the right approach now. Like Jasper said “If you think you have the best idea then you have to convince people” not take away their free will. So if Monty wants to convince those kids that it’s worth trying to survive then the first thing he needs to do is try to understand them. Not look at them as cowards or crazies. If Monty can do that he really will be the MVP.

It’s messed up that all the adult heroes know Wanda had a mental breakdown that caused destruction and death, but they are determined to believe she’s guilty and evil. Cassie also believes Wanda’s evil, due to Wanda killing her dad, but she’s also willing to allow Billy to search for her. Also the way they are treating Billy because his powers are similar to Wanda’s is terrible. Well meaning adults can be some of the worst.

anonymous asked:

probably an tough question to answer (but hey where's the fun anyway right? :'D) what are your top 5 moments in bnha?

gah, that sure is a tough question to answer! Let’s see…

(this should go without saying, but beware of the manga spoilers ahead)

1. The vent-fight between Bakugou and Midoriya after Kamino arc. Not gonna lie, one major reason why I got so into this manga was the incredibly complex dynamic between those two. The build-up for them to address all those pent-up, complicated feelings they have about each other has been plaguing me since chapter three, so when I reached that part I could barely blink I was so engrossed in it. The close ups, the raw emotions on both their faces, the unnerving fact that their inability to communicate was so bad that the only way to understand each other was through violence… BOOOOOOIIIIII. Plus, the whole fight is charged with nearly palpable tension, it’s written so well, and the moment when Katsuki starts crying is still haunting me a whole month and a half later :’D 
Just. I love Katsuki’s characterization and that fight, despite not adding much new, really helped me understand him better. 

2. When Midoriya encouraged Shouto to use his flames because they’re his power, not Endeavor’s. Again, the emotion poured in this fight was so real that it was impossible for me not to respond to it. Midoriya, sweet sweet angel Midoriya, who’s so serious about his ambition of becoming a hero, gave up a win he basically had in the bag just because he couldn’t bear Shouto being so sad anymore. I swear, that’s the most altruistic and… truly heroic thing he’s done. And all because he recognized that Todoroki needed to hear those words. Remember Midoriya’s breakdown after All Might told him that he could be a hero? I think that these words:

had the same overwhelming emotional impact on Shouto. They made him forget his grudge against his father, something he’s held on to for 10+ years as his main motivation to keep going. Just. How powerful is that???

3. When Bakugou reached out to take Kirishima’s hand during Kamino arc. It was such a symbolic moment for his character growth… Still, he has a long way to go, I know, but that moment means a lot to me and I hope they won’t fuck it up in the anime.

4. Kirishima’s arc. I love this boy so much and I’m so happy that Horikoshi didn’t just write him as that monodimensional cheerful guy who’s friends with everyone. Finding out his backstory put a lot of things into perspective, starting from why he was so adamant that he had to save Bakugou even though he fully recognized that engaging in a fight against the villain alliance was far out of his league. I also loved how his pov deepened his connection with Bakugou by showing us that the support doesn’t just go one way. When his confidence sank low, he thought of Bakugou’s words and picked himself back up. The healthy, positive dynamic they share speaks a lot to me.

5. This is just my bias speaking because I love the #bakusquad, but I loved the entire Kaminari vs Shishikura Seiji (the meat packer) fight. I love how it was implied that Kirishima let himself be turned into a meat bun to shield either Bakugou or Kaminari (probably Bakugou, if you take into account that Kami was just tagging along and staying behind at first). And I love even more how Kaminari jumps in to defend them from this asshole who treats them like they’re worthless without even knowing them. Kaminari is a secondary character, I know that, so it’s not like I expect all that much screentime for him. But I was SO excited when I reached that part of the manga because dang, finally he kicks some ass too, and he’s not just relegated to comedic relief. It seemed fair that he’d take action to save his friends, because friendship is the main theme around which his character is built. But that scene implied that Bakugou does care about him and Kirishima in turn:

Also, the teamwork at the end… 

not gonna lie, when I saw that last panel, Bob Marley’s Bad Boys started playing in my head… 

Bad boys, bad boys whatcha gonna do whatcha gonna do?
When they come for you?