the best woman omg

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.
Stoned love

Stop messing round with that fire,
Living like love is just a gun for hire,
Cos one moment its just messing round,
To your wiki saying she’s your spouse,
Oh but its not just girls,
Cos yeah one moment I was tearing off her blouse,
Now she says she’s living in my house,

Babe I know you said you’d never smoke pot,
Its just; that burned Like your first splif,
Now we just hanging around in the dark, you’re pale as a ghost.
Stop messing round now, cos am too stoned,
You’re know I can’t save you cos in this game am too gone,

She’s only seventeen, and thinks at sixteen am all there is,
But a degenerate kind, baby am definitely not what you need,
She wants to dance with devil, Mr brownstone is just grave,
Oh Y’know the drugs will drown her out, just too young,
Can’t believe this is my life, smoking and fucking in the back,

if people were elements,
then we are ice and fire.

your touch is frost upon my burning skin,
my breath melts your frozen heart.
your kiss is cool against my lips,
and my heat warms you all the way down
to the tips of your toes.

and although we could complement each other,
beckon the other away from the end of polarity
to come and meet in the middle,
too much of one

will eliminate the other.

—  and i’d never forgive myself if i caused your destruction, c.j.n.
About the Recent ERASED Episode

I know everyone is upset because Kayo and Hiromi fell in love, got married, and had a precious little angel of a baby (OMG IT’S SO DARN CUTE) all while Satoru was in his 15-year long coma. I get it. Satoru and Kayo had chemistry together. I’d be lying if I didn’t secretly ship them myself whilst reading the manga.

But that’s not the point, and I’m pretty sure that the author, especially after putting in those cute ‘lil moments between them, intentionally decided to have her marry Hiromi. 

Why? Because the relationship between Kayo was only a child’s crush, probably stemming from her admiration of Satoru’s courage and boldness (which wasn’t even young Satoru’s original demeanor). Satoru didn’t save her to have her wait 15 years alone (within that span of time, we don’t know if her Grandmother died) without the assurance that he would return. He saved her so that she could live a fulfilling life, with friends, with eventual love both romantic and platonic. By having her meet him with a baby in her arms indicates that she’s reached happiness and her arc, that Satoru basically sacrificed his life for, is finally complete. That’s why he’s crying. Because he did it. He made a difference. That was what Kayo represented for him. Not a potential lover, but the personification of his ability to change the cruel future that he originated from. Seeing her happy and with a family of her own, that was just confirmation for him. 

Plus, if ya’ll read the manga, you’d realize (just like I did at this very exact moment) that the way Satoru sees Kayo is not the same as the way he sees Airi. Airi believed in him from the beginning, even when he didn’t believe in himself. Airi trusted him. Airi supported him unconditionally. He realized that in front of Airi, he didn’t have to always be a hero. He could relax and be honest, something he couldn’t even do all the time in front of his own mother (who is the darn best I say, omg don’t even get my started, that woman is amazing).

For anyone is anime-only, the scene where Yashiro stops the papparazi didn’t happen. It wasn’t Yashiro. It was Airi. The scene between them is just marvelous, which leads to an ending that the anime isn’t producing. The anime is showcasing an alternate ending to the series, which I find very interesting, because I feel that they’re not rushing, but instead doing this purposefully since the entire series is based on “time traveling” and “changing the future by changing the past”, and perhaps the small differences in the anime, like Satoru not seeing Kayo return to school and rejoining the gang after she moved away like he did in the manga, is what led to Yashiro entering the scene rather than Airi. Regardless, you really see what Airi means and does to Satoru in these panels:

It was at this moment I realized that Satoru needed Airi in his life. Someone that would protect him as well and would always do her best, not just for herself, but for everyone around her. Someone that would always be an inspiration to him.

After this moment, Satoru begins the process of recalling all his alternate future memories as well as those from when he was a kid. 

So I hope I kinda helped everyone realize that Kayo was never meant to be a romantic interest for Satoru. It’s okay, I really did ship them too, trust me on this. But after I saw this scene in the manga, it hit me. Airi is the one that Satoru needs in his life, to support him, to inspire him, to help him. After this, I sat back I thought, “Wow, I guess it’s a good thing Kayo got married and had a kid. It’s all so clear now.” No joke. I have never switched ships before this manga, at least not as fast as I did here. Though I honestly believe the fandom doesn’t give Airi the credit she deserves. :<>

Please do continue to watch the series regardless of ships. It’s just too beautiful to focus only on the couples, because that isn’t what it’s about.

It’s about a man, who thought he was useless to the world, changing the past and saving lives. It’s about a man who made a difference in the world.

Unpretty Rapstar 1 Review

I I just had to write on this show because it is GOLD OMG GOLD I TELL YOU! BETWEEN jessi cheetah and jolly v i dont know who is my main anymore. This show has me in stitches just in the first couple minutes. ok lets begin.

1. EVERYONE LOOK AT FACIAL EXPRESSIONS WHILE WATCHING THIS SHOW IT IS PURE COMEDY and FOCUS ON THE ENTRANCES OF EACH PERSON. 

     Cheetah’s face when people walk in is the best shit on this planet. Like she looked at everyone like they were the most basic bitch on the damn planet…. actually the whole damn milky way. cheetah was like these girls aint even in my damn lane much less the damn freeway. they are still on the local with stop lights…..jollys face when tymee walked in had me on the damn floor! i already know her thought bubble read exactly these words,“dis bitch is literally my fucking shadow; she follows me everywhere.” And before that when they asked her if she thought tymee was coming or something along those lines and she replied “are we 1+1.” PURE GOLD SOUNDBITE AHAHAHA. Tymee walked in like guessssss whooooooos baccccccccck. and i started laughing all over again. P.S. laughing this much as an asthma is going to get dangerous but this show is that awesome. Jessi walked in like queen is here and people automatically knew who she was. Cheetah looked at lil cham like huh? when she walked in ahahahaha. And there is a reason why they let Cheetah in first LMFAO! To me, she is one of the baddest if not THE baddest in the whole group. When Jessi said it was a SMTM reunion, it was nothing but the truth because it truly was. They literally casted every popular female from every season of SMTM. 

2.JIMIN

    Yes I am giving this child her own section. I am reserving a place in my prayers for this girl cause either she can a. get eaten ALIVE or b. rise to the occasion and show us some good shit……but after I saw that cypher…..ooooooooo boy…..this is when i wish it was kind of like smtm in that you have mentors but this show is DEFINITELY not that. Ugh im scared for her to be honest. Everytime she raps I get that embarassed for your friend feeling. Like when your friend thinks he is an awesome rapper, gets on stage, and isnt very good. But I do hope she rises to the occasion. And im not gonna lie when they got to the roast of jimin in the room i was like……..damn………….

3. Jessi

    Ok here is why Jessi is one of my favorites. I am biased when it come to her because I love Lucky J a lot and she is from my neck of the woods in the states. But i love how she doesnt give a fuck because SHE DOESNT HAVE ANYTHING TO LOSE….i feel like she has lost and gained so much in the 10 years she has been in this business that she has nothing to lose. I love that she isnt afraid to SPEAK. If she has something on mind that she thinks needs to be addressed, she will ADDRESS THAT SHIT. And to be honest, I loved her snippet of a dis rap you know CAUSE IT SHOOK UP THE GAME THAT NEEDED TO GET SHOOK. it really is a competition. Wake up. Of course, SMTM was more friendly of course, but this one is going to be more cut throat and you know why THERE ARE BARELY ANY FEMALES IN THE K HIP HOP GAME at least not on a full blown known status other than the queen herself Yoon Mi Rae. You have to fight to stay in this male dominated realm of k hip hop. They have to want it, and that little rap made them upset and im happy it did because hopefully that will bring out the grittiness that I want from these women. We not aegyo-ing this shit up. Leave that cute bullshit at the door.  Yall suppose to slay with words, bring on the attitude and fuck up the damn stage. 

.4. Lil Cham

Ok im pissed with Lil Cham has been giving me so far because she is actually a decent rapper. I looked at the cypher like is this the same Lil Cham I know. All I know is that she BETTER not sell herself short or ill be pissed for and at her. 

5. Kisum

To me she is the dark horse of this competition. I actually like what she did in the cypher too. She also had that bat and I thought she was gonna break the table for 2.5 seconds but then she lightly tapped and I started dying LMFAO. 

6. Jidam

Yup SMTM reunion remember. There aint no dude to help her with her raps this time around, but she did improve so yay! 

7.Tymee

I wasnt a fan of Tymee during SMTM so I was pleasantly surprised with her rap. Im waiting on her to fully pull me in, but we got a couple weeks and im starting to warm up to her for the first time in a year….

8. I FREAKING LOVE JOLLY 

She is one of my favorites as well. I have her mixtapes and she is just the bomb sauce. That bullshit beat they gave her for cypher made me upset but she did what she could with it. And I also know she has way more in her than what the cypher showed. I cant WAIT to see what more she brings to the table.

9. Cheetah

     I saved the best for last.  WOOOOOOO I LOVE THIS WOMAN YES! omg like…..yes…..CHEETAH and she hands down owned the cypher and no one else was up to par not even close…..in my book Cheetah has this in the damn bag and I would love to see her win…Like seriously see her win! The best thing about Cheetah is that she is a woman of very few words and when she opens her mouth ITS PERFECT. She doesnt need anything else because she lets her raps speak FOR her, and its absolutely wonderful and refreshing. That is literally why I am watching the show in general. Once again, I really hope she sweeps this like a swiffer and walks off with the trophy. 

For my last note, DONT LIE AND TELL ME THE SHADE ON THIS SHOW ISNT MAKING YOU CATCH YOUR EVERLASTING LIFE! ^^