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Favourites Masterlist!!

As Tumblr was being a dick, I had to cut out my favourite Supernatural fics from this masterlist and put them on this new one X

Decided to put all my favourite imagines/smut/preferences into one post. I would recommend everyone to read all of these, and be sure to check out the blogs because they are seriously amazing! (* is smut)

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Why didn’t B.A.P win any shows for Wake Me Up?

my thoughts on a question nobody asked me but have them anyway lmao


  • not enough people streaming on melon. literally this is the main one
  • maybe could stream a bit more on youtube?
  • needed more people voting live and for pre-votes
  • I can’t think of any more hmm did I mention melon streaming??


  • very rushed promotions to squeeze it in before the tour: only 2-3 weeks instead of the usual 4 (and usually groups don’t/can’t win in the first week of promotions anyway, so that only left around one week of being on shows in which we had a chance of winning)
  • I wouldn’t necessarily say it’s TS’s fault, but generally, fewer people tend to buy physical single albums than full or mini albums because they’re essentially paying the same price for less (eg rose was the first time I bought a B.A.P single album), but actually rose is so far their second highest-selling single album, which is pretty impressive 

things out of our control:

  • tough competition: comeback at the same time as other groups with better melon streaming / larger korean fanbases
  • music bank and music core being cancelled during the first week of promotions. mucore doesn’t have a winner anymore, but mubank was arguably our best chance at winning after the show, and because the first ep was cancelled, that was shown during the second week (whereas if that ep was a new one from the 2nd week then we could have possibly had a chance of winning), and then that was it, promotions over…
  • changes to how winners are chosen on the show: no more tudou streaming and I think no more laifeng votes? still not exactly sure what they are, but before we could collect our strength and buy them points on the show (as dumb as it sounds) and spend ages doing extra streaming on a website that kept crashing and deleting views, but now the show cares more about melon streaming too (like the other music shows) (do u see how important digital streaming is)

but don’t let that make you sad! from what I’ve personally seen, the general reaction (both fans and not) to wake me up / rose has been more hyped and impressed than it has probably since matrix. B.A.P have said they have more comebacks scheduled for this year, so hopefully we’ll be able to get them what they deserve next time.

PS: people sometimes compare B.A.P’s youtube views to other groups, where we usually don’t do as well. then there’s the usual topic of some fans leaving and moving to other groups during the hiatus etc etc etc……. well actually, our youtube views aren’t really that different from pre-hiatus? I remember when 1004 (their main breakthrough and at the height of their career back then) was released on the 3rd of february, jongup’s wish was for the mv to reach 1 million views by his birthday on the 6th - 3 days later and it still didn’t reach 1 million. on the other hand, wake me up reached 2.25 million views in around 5 and a half days. with the explosion of kpop in the last couple of years, some groups enjoy immense success on a whole new scale. our achievements only seem inferior if we compare them to others - let’s focus on ourselves and see how far both B.A.P and we as fans have come, and think about how we can continue to go forward!

PPS: nice things I’ve noticed recently (last few months since noir/skydive): 

  • more content creators in the fandom making things: more gifsets, graphics, fics etc
  • said content getting more recognition
  • a sense of humour! crack blogs, more people making funny videos and text posts and funny edits
  • honestly I keep finding new B.A.P blogs to follow - more people joining the fandom or existing fans choosing to take more part in the fandom on tumblr!
  • fans on tumblr interacting more with each other! through networks or just starting to talk to each other on here :D
  • B.A.P trended on tumblr for yongguk and himchan’s birthdays!
  • himchan and youngjae gaining more recognition in general these days
  • keep it up guys I love you all

anonymous asked:

Oh Emily please write more BestFriend!Harry. Like the first time they tell their families that they're dating and their reactions and of course all of the boys reactions. Please please please! 😍

(The BestFriend!Harry Harry Talks are completely unrelated to the story; in the story, the missus and Harry start off as best friends before they dated but this little AU Harry Talk is completely unrelated to the story).

It would be around the Summer time when they tell everyone about them getting together, close to the Dunkirk release date. And Harry throws a party slash barbecue for all his friends and his family, inviting (YN)’s family out of common courtesy because he’s become a good part of their lives, in case they wanted to pay a visit to see everyone. And the missus has stayed round for the night so she can help him set up and make his garden look pleasing to the eye and very-much like something you’d see on Pinterest or Instagram or Tumblr. The table in the kitchen filled with covered foods that they’d spent making the day before, the barbecue filled with coal and ready to be lit, and the lounge-chairs out and ready to be lounged upon by his guests, and a shelf in the fridge holding cakes and pastries for when people got snacky during the late hours of the night that could be washed down with a cup of coffee or tea. 

And as they set up, they’re stealing kisses from one another and squeezing bums as they walk past each other, with Harry stealing sips of the alcoholic beverages the missus was making and the missus sticking her fingers into the potato salad that he was mixing up to set on the table. And she’s dressed in her laced knickers and one of his t-shirts because it’s the first thing she grabbed from the floor that morning, to cover her naked chest and to save herself having to to rummage around the room to find her clothes, possibly waking Harry up in the process and she didn’t want to wake him because the day was going to be long. Planning on popping upstairs to change into the outfit she’d brought for the day, to lounge around in the sun and to mingle with their friends and family.

“You’re ready to tell people today right? Because, if we don’t, nothing would be suspicious. We’d just have to knock back the snogging,” he smirks, looking across to her as she stirs the beverage inside the pitcher held tightly in her hand, a wooden spoon stuck into the liquid as she adds raspberries and cut-up strawberries into the mix, “I’m ready to tell if you are.” 

“This party may as well be to celebrate us getting together. How vain is that? I know you’re a narcissist but, this is a whole new level for you,” she laughs, hissing out when he pushes a bare foot out and steps on her toes, “hey now. I was kidding. Don’t go breaking my toes now.”

“This is just a get-together. We don’t even have to tell them. We’ll let them figure it out for themselves,” he suggests, snaking an arm around her waist and pulling her into his arms, “I mean, if you stay dressed like that, people will definitely know. Unless their first thought is friends with benefits.” 

“We tried that like 3 years ago and we felt too weird. They know that,” she mutters against his chest, “this is girlfriend and boyfriend stuff now. No friends with benefits anymore. There are genuine feelings between us right now.”

And behind the sweet moment, as they sway from side to side at the kitchen counter, they’re clueless to Gemma and his mum walking in, with Robin close behind them. His sister standing in the doorway with a stunned but excited looking Anne. And it’s Robin’s voice that breaks the scene up.

“Why are you both standing here? My arms are going to drop off if I hold these bags any longer.”

Both Harry and the missus spin around in shock, cheeks flushing when they realise they’re only standing in clothes that they’d pulled on that morning, after a night of being intimate and loving one another. Boxers on his body. Knickers and a t-shirt on hers. Necks still slightly littered with bite marks and love marks.

“You’re, uh, you’re early.”

“The traffic was easy-going on the way from Chapel this morning. We popped through to get Gem, expecting her to take forever but she was dressed and ready to go when we arrived. Thought we’d just come through and help you,” Anne explains, a grin bright and wide on her lips, “it looks like you’ve already got some help though. What’s going on here?”

“They fucked, mum. They’re very much together and in love and dating one another. Look at their faces,” Gemma teases, walking over towards them both and pinching their cheeks, “it’s about bloody time! I thought we were going to have to spell it out for you.”

“Piss off, Gem,” Harry grumbles, pushing her arm away and taking your hand, pulling you towards the kitchen door, “we should go and get dressed now. You, uh, you know where everything is if you need anything. Help yourself to drinks. Stick the food on the table. We’ll be back down soon.” xx

Sorry, I need to talk about Himchan and all this situation

Himchan fractured two ribs, apparently because of the exhaustion due to overwork because of comeback with Rose and he was in the position of leader while Yongguk was in treatment in the last months and because of unbridled weight loss because of the damn bastards that keep calling him fat and pig in his instagram. He tried to continue activities with the B.A.P, but he went away to “rest”.

Okay, okay, he really needs some time after all, he was so overwhelmed…


They edited Himchan’s lines in Wake me up (with “edited” I mean THEY REMOVED HIMCHAN’S VOICE) and Jongup re-recorded his lines… Now they are performing with edited song.

As if Himchan weren’t part of the song anymore.

As if Himchan didn’t exist.

As if Himchan wasn’t an important part of BAP.

As if his hiatus didn’t harm the group at all.

How can they do that? After he spent months carrying all the responsibility of BAP on his back, dealing with the position of leader, doing his best in the performances of Skydive (where he had to present his lines and Bang’s lines), and above it all, he had to deal with the pressure of seeing a friend (who he may consider a brother) in such a horrible situation as panic disorder and anxiety disorder…

This is disrespect.

Now I know that it’s not those just ridiculous “”“fans”“” (not all of them, but unfortunately so many) who disparage Himchan…

Edit: this is a personal outburst. Yeah, I’m crazy. No, my tumblr is not a fanpage or news blog about BAP. REPEAT: IT’S NOT A FANPAGE OR NEWS BLOG.

I recommend y'all research about what is happening.

anonymous asked:

you know that one gif where zayn is sleeping in just a towel and liam gently tries to wake him up by caressing his cheek.. i always wondered what happened next.. (maybe zayn slowly blinking his open with a soft smile when he sees liam and pulling him on top of him to cuddle or more;)) only if u want to could you please write another canon drabble? yours are soooo good! (for inspiration: zayndrogynous*tumblr*com/post/157117474724)


Liam’s not sure how long he’d been there. He thinks maybe just a couple of minutes but it was probably longer than that. He must be in creeper territory by now considering this should have only taken a minute at the most but he couldn’t help himself. He was caught completely off guard by the surge of emotions that took over his body and mind the minute he laid eyes on Zayn.

At first he couldn’t understand why. He’d done this a hundred times before. It was deemed his job ever since they all discovered that Liam was the only one able to rouse Zayn from his precious slumber without having their heads bitten off. Secretly, Liam loved it. He loved knowing that this was another thing that made his relationship with Zayn special, that he was the only one able to coax a smile and a laugh from a sleepy Zayn despite his well known love affair with sleep.

Liam approached him slowly and quietly until he stood over his best friend’s sleeping form and just admired him for a moment. It was amazing, really, how beautiful Zayn was. He’s always known this of course, but he looked different when he slept. There was an innocence about him that only manifested itself when he was asleep. He loved watching him like this, looking so vulnerable and peaceful. It dawned on Liam that he was one of the few people that had the privilege of seeing Zayn in this state. Gratitude joined the heady mix of emotions already wreaking havoc inside him.

He leaned over and placed his palm on Zayn’s cheek. His skin was warm to the touch and Liam gently rubbed his thumb across the soft skin. He stroked his cheek and allowed his eyes to roam over Zayn’s face taking in its perfect symmetry, the flawless skin, those insanely long eyelashes, the fullness of his bottom lip.

His mind started conjuring up memories from their time together. His favorites were of the two of them alone, either on the bus or in a hotel room somewhere, talking about anything and everything, snuggling together, watching movies, playing video games and arguing over who was the better player. They’ve cried on each other’s shoulders more times than they care to admit and have found strength in their bond. Liam wondered if Zayn knew what an important part of his life he had become. 

His fingers glided across Zayn’s lips lightly, not wanting to wake him just yet. He fought the overwhelming desire to lean down and kiss him. He wanted to kiss those pink lips until Zayn woke up and kissed him back.

He suddenly realized that this wasn’t the first time he felt that urge.

Liam clenched his eyes shut tight and sighed as it finally sunk in. He knew now. He finally understood why today felt different. He opened his eyes again and allowed his hand to skate down Zayn’s arm studying the numerous tattoos adorning it while he came to terms with the realization.

He couldn’t deny it any longer. Today was the day he admitted to himself what he’d known all along: He was in love with Zayn.

He loved Zayn in a way that was different from the way he loved the other boys or the way he loved his family and friends. Liam had Zayn’s friendship already but he wanted so much more. He wanted his heart, his respect, his admiration, his time and yes, his body. He wanted to hold his hand whenever he wanted, share a home with him and celebrate anniversaries and all that sappy stuff. He wanted to come first for Zayn the way Zayn came first in all things for Liam. 

He wanted everything with Zayn. 

Liam’s eyes traveled back up towards his face and he froze. Zayn was awake and was looking right at him. Liam pulled his hand away instantly, dropping the water bottle he held in his other hand in his haste. He felt his face burn with embarrassment after being caught red-handed. He probably had a dopey smile on his face the entire time he had been daydreaming about happily ever afters with Zayn. He was mortified.

“I uh - sorry, um,” Liam stammered, completely tongue-tied and unable to come up with a good excuse for his behavior. He considered just running out of the room without any explanation and took a step back, about to do just that.

Zayn’s hand reached out and grabbed Liam’s before he could make his escape.

“It’s okay, Li,” Zayn said to him, no anger or judgment visible in his face. Just that same fond smile that Liam had seen time and time again. Zayn tugged his arm down forcing Liam to sink to his knees beside him. Zayn reached his other hand up and cupped the back of Liam’s neck in that all-too familiar way and pulled him closer.

Liam’s breath hitched when Zayn brought their foreheads together. Liam’s heart felt like it was going to burst through his chest it was beating so fast.

“I love you, too” Zayn whispered softly, his eyes shining and full of hope. Liam exhaled and smiled, his body sagging with relief after hearing Zayn’s confession.

“Uh, are you - really?” Liam asked. He needed to make sure he wasn’t still dreaming all of this.

Zayn didn’t answer but his smile grew bigger as he pulled Liam in the rest of the way and proceeded to kiss him. He kissed him long, slow and deep. It was better than anything Liam had imagined.

anonymous asked:

I have a horrible sleep pattern (I always go to bed past 1 am and I feel dead every weekday) and idk how to stop it. I'm usually up doing homework, but on weekends I just cat sleep and end up on my phone. Basically my time management sucks. How do I fix these problems??

Hellooo! Ahh, this has been me after the holidays. For your homework, try setting time limits. It probably isn’t ideal for you anyway to be doing homework right up until bed. It’s best to have time to relax before you sleep. When I was in high school and the demand to have finished tasks daily was a lot higher, I would get up early rather than staying up late. I would finish at an easy point I could go back to and then get up at maybe 5 or 5:30am. I personally preferred to sleep earlier and wake up earlier than sleep super late. I felt I wasn’t as tired in the mornings. With your phone, perhaps trying to turn it off or leave it away from your bed. Check it for 10 minutes or something before you go to sleep but limit your time. In reality, the more you use it before you sleep the more awake you are. 

When I was writing for The Academic Zine, I did an article about sleep hygiene and some tip on getting yours on track. I’ll copy and paste it below so you can have a read! 

1. Plan your ideal sleep routine. The first step to improving your sleep hygiene is to make a plan. While a few early nights can get you started, fixing your sleep hygiene will not be instantaneous. If your internal body clock is out-of-sync such that you only feel tired at midnight, getting sleep is bound to be a tough process. We suggest making small and manageable goals.

Start by setting a goal, such as getting ready for bed half an hour earlier or reading a book instead of checking your Tumblr. Make adjusting your sleep pattern more enticing by tracking and monitoring it. Downloadable phone applications help gamify your attempts to improve your sleep patterns, giving you more motivation. They offer information including your movements during the night, how your day affected your sleep, and the progress you’ve made. If you don’t want to use your phone while you sleep, make a habit tracker. We all know the pleasure of crossing off another day of the month that you managed to stick to a new habit.

2. Turn your room into a sleep sanctuary. In order to sleep comfortably, it is important to make your bedroom a calming environment.  Avoid studying in your bedroom or at least on the bed. Constantly using the bed for studying will weaken your brain’s association between being in bed and sleeping and instead associate it with working. Make the effort to use a desk or another room for studying so when your eyelids are drooping, you can go to your room, remove yourself from any stresses you’ve had, and take time to relax and recharge.

Get your sanctuary started by adjusting the light, temperature, and noise level. Use curtains or black-out blinds to make the room completely dark. If there is unavoidable light, you can try using a sleep mask. As the seasons change, it is natural to kick off the sheets or wrap up extra snuggly. However, if waking up because of temperature is a regular occurrence, take that as a sign to make a change. Try adding or removing a blanket, change your type of pajamas, and/or place a heater in the room on a low heat setting.

3. Prepare for the next day. As a student, I know how it feels to be tossing and turning because you’re worried about the next day. The easiest way to calm a racing mind is by preparing for the day ahead before going to bed. Small ways to prepare include organizing your bag, charging your phone, laptop, or tablet, and updating your planner or bullet journal. 

4. Take time to relax before bed. After a stressful day or long study session, getting into a relaxed and calm mood is the best way to prepare your mind for sleeping. Taking the time to destress can help to reduce the feeling of anxiety by detaching your mind from the events of the day. You can try reading, journaling, drawing, doing yoga, or taking a warm shower. Make it a habit to put a relaxing activity at the end of your to-do list so you can finish the day on a positive note. Finding an activity that helps focus your attention, calm your mind, and that you enjoy can be perfect for a bedtime routine.

5. Things to avoid. Right before your head hits the pillow, it is best to avoid things like using your computer or phone for extended periods of time and consuming any substances like caffeine or alcohol. While it is always tempting to watch just one more episode of your favorite show before going to bed, the screen can make you feel more awake. The time gap between exposure to light and your bedtime impacts the melatonin in your body, which is the chemical that signals drowsiness and makes you feel tired.

6. Exercise during the day. Exercise is not only good for your mental and physical health but also your sleep quality. Studies have shown that people who exercise the recommended amount per week had significantly higher quality of sleep, felt more energized during the day, and had improved concentration when they did feel tired. Make the effort to have at least 150 minutes of exercise during the week. Try taking a walk, going to the gym, or joining an exercise class. It is best to finish any strenuous physical activity a few hours prior to going to bed. If you exercise before sleeping, any energy you didn’t direct towards the workout will keep you feeling alert rather than sleepy. Light activity such as yoga or mediation is recommended as a late night workout.

7. The art of napping. Napping was one of the best parts of childhood, right? Now it seems when you accidentally fall asleep you feel worse than you did before. That’s because you’re either not napping for long enough or waking up during the deepest part of the sleeping cycle. How much is the right amount?

  • 1- 5 minutes (micro naps): great for having a small boost of energy and stopping that sleepy feeling.
  • 10-20 minutes (power naps): enhances alertness and concentration, elevates mood, and sharpens motor skills. Coffee takes 20 to 30 minute to take effect so if you want to boost alertness, have a cup before napping.
  • 45 minutes: helps to boost energy, creative thinking and boosts sensory processing.  Try setting an alarm to avoid the feeling of sleep inertia, grogginess, and disorientation which comes with the next phase of sleep.
  • 90 minutes: clear your mind, improve memory recall, and recoup lost sleep. By waking up after 90 minutes you’ll avoid the feeling of sleep inertia as you wake up from REM sleep.

8. Hack your sleep. Technology can make your sleep pattern more enticing by tracking your progress. Numerous apps available from the App Store or Play Store offer ways to see how your body responds through each phase of the sleep cycle. Try Sleep Cycle, Sleep Genius, or SleepBot. If you own a FitBit, try wearing it to bed. The app can set sleep goals, set an alarm, and track your sleep quality. Sleep calculators are also available (e.g. and allow you to nap without worrying about feeling groggy afterwards.

9. Avoid making a habit of all nighters. It is best to limit the number of times you are staying up all night even if it seems the only way to meet a deadline. Try using different time management methods – such as the Pomodoro technique – to avoid staying up all night. Making a habit of all night working sessions can, over time, decrease your concentration and result in poorer long term memory. If sacrificing sleep is the only way to meet a deadline, it is best to do it right. Try these tips:

  • top up your energy – take a nap, stretch a little, or drink a coffee.
  • eat protein – when you’re working hard, your body needs something to burn. Despite the tastiness of carbs, they store energy for later and can make you sleepier in the long term. Try including meat in your evening meal, or snacking on nuts and seeds.
  • move around – make an effort to take a break every now and then. Get up, stretch, move around, and reinvigorate yourself with energy.
  • music – keep yourself alert with some tunes. Instrumental songs or movie soundtracks often promote productivity and focus. If you’re feeling sleepy, put on your favorite song and have a silent sing along to get you back in the mood!
  • remove all distractions – if you’re texting a friend, watching a TV show, or checking your Facebook whilst attempting to finish a task, you’re wasting time. Having 20 minutes of concentration, followed by a 5-minute break, will be more effective than pausing every few minutes to reply to a message. If you use the Pomodoro technique, you can utilize your breaks to do this.
  • focus on one thing at a time – keep your concentration there until it’s done or it’s time to take a break. Multitasking when it is late will reduce your attentiveness to one task and could therefore reduce the quality of your work.
  • work at a desk – as aforementioned, avoid making a habit of using your bed for work. All-nighters are probably most comfortable in bed but after continuous use you’ll feel instantly more sleepy and unproductive as your brain is associating your bed with sleeping and relaxing. If you have a desk you can use during a late night work session, be sure to use it.
  • reward yourself the next day – after pulling an all nighter you need to recentralize your internal body clock. If you’re feeling tired, make an effort to go to sleep slightly earlier. Try taking a few hours to relax and do something you enjoy.

10. Stop mourning your mornings. Not everyone is a morning person, especially if you’re waking up super early. Setting a motivational routine can improve your morning mood. Set an alarm that doesn’t interrupt your sleep cycle. Sleep Cycle, as mentioned previously, wakes you up when your body is most alert which means the feeling of sleep inertia is reduced. When you get up, take two minutes to stretch. Allowing your body to stretch out after a long night sleep helps to rejuvenate our ligaments and release any tension in our joints. Washing your face with cold water or taking a shower help to make you fresh awake and fresh. Whether you eat straight away or get ready, make an effort to maintain your routine.

I hope this helps! :-) xx

Behind The Story S2 | Pt. 11

Summary: You stay home in Austin while Jensen goes to Jus In Bello. 

Author: sleepywinchester {prev; deanwinchester-af}

Characters: Jensen, Reader, Jared and Cast Cameos.

Pairings: Single!Jensen x Actress!Reader (Nina Dobrev = Faceclaim)

Words: 1.1k


Beta: @fandommaniacx 

Note: Hope you guys like this one!!! Feedback is always appreciated it.

; have this video on the side and ready to play when jensen sings part. ;

Gif/Photo Creds: (x) (x)

Title: Calls from Rome.


“Oh my, God. It’s gorgeous!” Genevieve exclaimed.

You looked down at the dress and smiled widely, it was indeed beautiful. It only took you a day of going around New York city with your mother, you finally found the right wedding dress.  Genevieve reached your side to see the dress up on close. Her eyes were lighting up as she looked more at the dress.  

“I’m in love with the details,” she looked at you with a big smile across her face. “I’m so excited for you.”

“The day just keeps coming closer,” you said staring at the dress. “I’m so nervous. I can’t believe in matter of weeks, I’ll be a married woman.”

Genevieve hugged you tightly, “It’s going to be an amazing day, Y/N.”

“What if-,”

“-don’t doubt yourself, Y/N,” Gen spoke before you could let out your fears. “You guys love each other so damn much. You and Jensen have a wonderful life ahead.”

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Tips for studying (with depression/anxiety), Pt. 2

First of all, my post got a huge response, so thank you!  Over the past couple of days, I’ve been thinking more about the things that I do and that help me when studying and I decided to make a part two of all the things I forgot.  So here it is, part two.

1. Get up when your alarm goes off.  You set your alarm at that time for a reason.  I fall into this trap all the time where I wake up and spend time in bed on my phone and then lose all motivation to wake up.  If you wake up before your alarm goes off, great!  Get up when you naturally wake up or when your alarm goes off, either way, don’t lounge around in bed.

2. Get dressed and get ready.  Even if you have nothing to do.  I’m gonna say something that normally doesn’t get said: sometimes those of us with depression forget to brush our hair, our teeth, or shower.  So just force yourself to do it.  Don’t go three days without brushing your teeth.  Don’t let your hair get greasy and tangled.  Take care of yourself.

3.  Go somewhere that’s not your house/dorm room/apartment.  It’s hard to have motivation when you’re at home with netflix and your novels all day.  So if you have nothing to do that day, get up, get dressed, do your makeup if you like to, and go somewhere else.  I love to go to Barnes and Noble to study.  Go to the library, go to Starbucks, make the trip to campus.  Just get out of your house.

4.  Keep your room clean.  After a long day of studying, you don’t want to come home to a room filled with trash.  I am so, so guilty of this.  I am so unmotivated to stay organized, but it’s pretty important.  Being more organized will give you more motivation and help you study.  It will also help when you sleep late and you don’t have to dig through piles of clothes on your floor.

5. Take a break.  It gets overwhelming to study so much, so go on tumblr for fifteen minutes, bullet journal for a little while, color, organize your school supplies, do some yoga.  And then get back to work.

6. Figure out when the best time is for you to go to class.  For instance, I know that I cannot get up and go to a class before 10 am.  I just won’t do it.  I’d miss too many classes.  I prefer to take afternoon and night classes.  Some other people like to start their days earlier.  Figure out what works for you and do it.

7.  Don’t be afraid to change your schedule.  If you attend syllabus week and you just think you can’t handle your courses, then you don’t have to.  I literally change my schedule almost every semester, so go for it.  You have to do what’s best for you.

8.  Know your priorities.  I have to juggle both work and school, which can be difficult when I’m extremely depressed.  But I know that school always comes before work and I come before both.

9. Reward yourself.  Had a bad day?  Got a good grade?  Either way, good or bad, treat yourself.

10.  Don’t compare yourself to others.  If I compared my progress to my high school friends, I probably wouldn’t get out of bed.  But I don’t.  Don’t feel bad about deleting people from facebook, either.  Sometimes it’s hard to focus when your high school friends are getting married or whatever.  Focus on yourself and your goals.

((Okay, so I’ll probably think of more and post a part 3, sorry guys))

Edited to add a link to part one and tips for surviving campus!

overweirdos  asked:

Well, first of all, welcome to this hell we call tumblr! We are wishing you the best of luck with this imagine blog and hope you will enjoy being part of this community as much as we do! Soo, would you mind writing some headcanons about how Jesse and prefall!Jack would comfort their s/o after they woke up from a terrible nightmare! We need some fluff right now *^*

Alrighty so this is my first imagine and I’m terrified but I hope it’s okie enjoy the fluff! :3
~ Mod Fennec

* First of all this Strike Commander is always exhausted by the time he gets to bed
* Mentally and physically because of all that paperwork and being away from you
* So when he gets back to his bed and sees you sleeping there he feels some stress leave
* Currently, his relationship with you is private so when you sneak in to sleep with him he has mixed feelings but nonetheless-
* He gets behind you, wrapping an arm around gently petting your hair
* This boy loves you so much and always expresses it in private
* But he also needs constant reminding of your love
* Which is why it makes him secretly happy when you sleep with him
* And he promises you he’ll make this relationship public
* Eventually
* But this boy is nervous since he’s the strike commander
* He usually overthinks these kind of things until he falls asleep
* But eventually, he decides it’s time to fall asleep and he couldn’t be happier to do it by your side
* He stops petting you hair and kisses the back of you head before closing his eyes
* But that’s when he notices your irregular breathing he immediately sits up and gently turns you so you’re on your back and shakes you until you wake up
* When you do, he has you sit up as well and gently takes your face in his hands, rubbing your cheeks with his thumbs
* “You’re alright. It was just a nightmare. You’re safe, just focus on me.”
* He stays with you like that until you’re calm and pulling back, he gently kisses your hand
* He gets up and starts to make some herbal tea for you
* If you want to talk about it he’ll listen while it’s heating but if you don’t he’ll just hold you and talk about miscellaneous topics
* Once the tea is ready, he hands it to you telling you it always helps him when he has nightmares
* “Of course I have nightmares.”
* He remains strong though-he has to, he’s the strike commander
* But every day
* There’s always a flag to be sent home
* A battle to be fought
* The things from nightmares
* He’ll talk about a few he’s had while holding your hand
* He’ll also tell you how it helps to talk about it while looking at you expectantly
* If you still don’t want to talk about it he’ll just nod and once you’re done with your tea he’ll put it in the sink before coming back to you
* He’ll lay back down with you and put his arms around you, holding your hands
* With you in his arms, he also starts to relax
* While whispering some last comfort into your hair until you peacefully fall asleep
* It will take him a little longer to also fall asleep
* But with you in his arms
* He falls into a nightmare free sleep

Jesse McCree
* It’s not strictly against the rules to be sleeping with another agent
* But it’s probably against the rules to break into another agents room
* Which Jesse did every night because he loves you too much to let you sleep alone
* His excuse, or what he calls his reasoning, was that you both were dating
* And although he doesn’t say it
* This boy needs constant love
* Please give this boy constant love
* But you were probably sick of Jesse sneaking in to sleep with you which resulted in him stealing-er, borrowing pretty much everything in your room
* Seriously
* Everything
* Food, blankets, equipment-you name it, he stole it
* So you ended up sleeping in his room
* And he of course followed you
* So now you both have been sleeping in his room
* He likes to sleep facing towards you with his forehead resting on his
* No buts
* Note that this man sleeps like a log so it probably took him his own nightmare to wake him up
* He’s a little disoriented when he woke up but when he sees you
* Oh boy
* It breaks his heart to see you moving around and whimpering
* He has had enough nightmares to know you’re having one
* Bringing you into his arms, he lightly shakes you until you wake up
* Also, his normally calm attitude makes him perfect for this
* So when you wake up looking up at him he just gently hugs you
* “You’re here darlin’. You’re here, safe with me. It was just a nightmare, darlin’.”
* He’d ask if you’d want to talk about and if you did he’d just gently rock you, listening
* If you didn’t he’d understand and lay back down with you whispering comfort
* He’d get into his usual sleeping position with your foreheads touching and hold your hands, looking at you
* He’d smile a little and start singing whatever he could think of
* It’s kind of hard to hear what he’s saying though because he keeps laughing throughout
* And he wouldn’t stop until you’re smiling as well
* But just listening to that smooth, buttery, and southern twang is surprisingly calming
* He’d pull you into a hug and give you a quick forehead kiss before falling back asleep with you

Hope you enjoyed lovelies!



I’m Home
[This was previously uploaded in a different tumblr account, but she deactivated (and I miss her soooooo! :( ) so reuploaded it here. I submitted this for a Christmas drabble challenge wherein we right a fic based on a Christmas song. Mine’s Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer.]

Pairing: Steve Rogers x Reader ; Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: Reader got sick so Steve decided to put her out of a mission, but reader doesn’t like it and ended up having a fight with his best friend, Steve. Steve asked Bucky to take care of her (bringing all the fluff into the story).Eventually, feelings were revealed. (Whose feelings? You’ll know once you read it ;) )


 Three, Four then Five
Pairing: Sebastian Stan x Reader

Summary: Sebastian Stan AU, where Sebastian Stan is your childhood friend. You can seem to hide secrets from your best friend even if you try to. You ended up telling him something more than your secret. 

Love and Let Love (Complete)
Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 (End)

Pairing: Steve Rogers x Reader

Summary:  Steve Rogers AU. You discovered that your boyfriend, Derek (OC), cheated on you with your best friend, Aleesha (OC). You were devastated, helpless and dejected but then you met Steve and then suddenly everything fell into place.

James (Drabble)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary:  University AU. You’re not really a fan of parties, so you sneak out of the graduation ball, where one of your close friends, Bucky Barnes or James, found you. 

Not All Friendships Are Perfect  (Request)

Pairing: Dick Grayson x Reader

Request:  ‘For the request, maybe something with Dick and the reader where the reader slept over at Wayne Manor (totally in a nonsexual way) and they wake up in the morning and it’s just really fluffy because they woke up next to each other? And the other batboys tease them at breakfast even though they’re happy for the two of them?’

It’s Summer! (Request/ Drabble)

Pairing: Dick Grayson x Reader

Request:   ‘i dont know if your requests are open, but if they’re don’t feel bad about ignoring this honestly!! i was wondering if you could maybe write something about being best mates with dick/mates with all the batboys and being a lesbian?? i love uuu x’ - Anonymous

Objects and Feelings

Pairing: Chris Evans x Reader

Summary:  Chris Evans, has been pretty bummed about the things recently happening in his life. And as much as he loves his work and his fans, losing the people he loves because of it has taken a toll on him. It is your duty as his best friend to comfort him.

Pocket Bestfriend (On-going)

Part 1 - ?

Pairing: Bucky X Reader, Steve Rogers X Reader

Summary:  Modern AU. This series is loosely based from a manga entitled “Dengeki Daisy”. It’s about a girl (the reader) who finds herself comforted by the words of an anonymous message-sender.

Boy Next Door (On-going)
Part 1 - Part 2 (End)

Pairing: Steve Rogers X Reader

Summary:  You left your keys to your apartment, so you decided to sleep at the hallway. Only to find yourself waking up in a room that looks like your apartment.

Keep it or Leave it (Part 1)

Prompt: When an early bird and a womanizer are roommates, they come up with a scheme that favors both of them. But some things are not as clear as they seem

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Warnings: mention of an active sex live
*If you do feel triggered by something else, let me know so I can add here and warn other readers!

Word Count: 876

Author’s Note: This will probably be a drabble series, but I’m really exited about this one!!
As always, if you see any words that could/should be replaced or sentences that could be better put together please feel free to point it out! English is not my first language and this will help me improve ;)

Part 1 Part 2  —  My Masterlist

Originally posted by stevenwhatshisfacexx

“Hey Y/N! Just wondering if you want me to bring something tonight”

“And I though you just wanted to give me a hug goodbye” You gave Nat a little smirk and she just rolled her eyes

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Beneath The Surface

Originally posted by morekpopmore


(Chaper One)

Pairing: Hoseok X Reader

Word Count: 2,253

Genre & Warnings: Not gonna lie, this chapter is pretty much just smut, even though I still don’t think I’m that good at writing it. And there’s some fluff. Next chapter is a ticket to angstville, so enjoy.

Note: I am pretty convinced that sex with Hobi would be loud as hell, and I love it. So I wrote a lot about that. Sorry not sorry. 

You made your way up the steps to your apartment, Hobi so close behind that you could feel his breath on the back of your neck. You couldn’t recall ever being this nervous to bring a guy home before. You didn’t know if it was just because he was an idol, or if it was because he was Jung Hoseok. Either way, you could feel yourself getting more and more anxious the closer you got to your place. As you reached the door, your hand shook a little as you tried to put your keys in the lock, and you ended up dropping them a couple times before you were finally successful. You swing open the door and drop to the floor to greet your Pomeranian, Momo. You can hear Hobi close and lock the door behind you, and you bury your nose into Momo’s fur, trying to calm your racing heart. Hobi drops down next to you, and pats Momo’s head, and you both share a nervous grin.

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BTS Reaction To You Shipping Them With Another Member

Rap Monster 

You would be sat cuddling on the sofa and out of context you would say 

You: ”Namjoon”

Namjoon: “Hmm?”

You: “Ever since you and I got together and I met the guys, I have always thought that you would ship with Jin.”

Namjoon: “Well y/n, he is my husband” he smiled 

You: (sit there just laughing)

Originally posted by myloveseokjin


You’re wandering round the house excitedly looking through your phone, exclaiming “Minnie Jin!” repeatedly.

“Jagi?” he asks “I’m not mini; why do you keep calling me mini Jin?”

“No, no, no!” you tell him “Minnie Jin; you and Jimin, n’awh!” you screech slightly, holding up one of the pictures you are looking through on some Tumblr tag of Jin and Jimin ship moments.

“You’re so weird y/n…” he says. 

“But you even said! You said you’d date Jimin!”

“Yeah, in an interview when they ask those ‘what if?’ type of questions!”

“You still said it Jinnie! Look! I’ve even come up with the most boss ship name for you two! Minnie Jin! It’s so smol and adorable, I just – go marry Jimin!” you exaggerate, now being extremely over the top and fangirling massively.

“Oh Jagi… calm down!” he chuckles. “I know Jiminie is cute, but… not as cute as you” he smiles.

Originally posted by jaayhope


You’re having dinner with the boys and opposite to you sits Yoongi and next to him is Namjoon. Everyone is engaging in meaningful conversation, catching up, talking about old times, etc, but you’re very quiet and passive in the conversations. 

You just can’t help but sit there and admire the view, elbow resting on the table, jaw resting on your fist. To the outsider, it most likely means you’re admiring your boyfriend, taking in the view and appreciating the beauty that you see within him… but as he begins a full on conversation with the band leader, Namjoon, you begin to think to yourself how good they look together and admire the sight of the pairing.

After about half an hour of you not saying very much at the dinner table and eating your food at a much slower pace than usual, Yoongi calls you up on it: “Y/n… are you okay? You’ve barely touched your food and you’ve been rather quiet since we got here.” You manage to utter a reply of something along the lines of “I’m fine… I was just thinking…”

At this, Yoongi just shrugs, figuring he can hear about what the real reason for your change in personality is later, but after a few moments of silence, you simply say “You look good together,” thinking out loud without meaning to. Upon realizing your mistake, you blush heavily, leaving Yoongi to respond with “Huh?” 

You figure you might as well continue thinking out loud now that you’ve said this, and reply “You and Namjoon… you just look visually pleasing together I guess.”

Pretending to look shocked/offended as a joke, Yoongi exclaims “Woah! Y/n, I know Namjoon is my leader…” he begins, then briefly turning to Namjoon to say “..and I appreciate everything you’ve done for me, man,” he tells him, patting him on the shoulder and then turning back to you “…but I’m just not that way inclined!” he says, shaking his head. 

Originally posted by younas


You’re at the end of watching one of the Sope VLive streams and you’re sat there smiling like an idiot. Hobi approaches you to ask sweetly “What are you smiling so hard about y/n?”

You close your device up (laptop, tablet case, etc) and sort of shout “I SHIP IT!” To which he gets frightened and shook at the sudden movement and noise (bless him, he gets so shook at everything save his soul) “Woah, jagi! What are you on about?” he asks, backing away.

You approach him and cuddle him, looking into his eyes “You know Hobi, I’d be mad about the potential competition I have to be up against, but… ah! I’m such a fan of Sope! You guys are the best! So cute!”

He chuckles at your sudden Sope feels and pulls you in closer as you continue to cuddle “Aw, y/n! There’s no competition!…Wait, do you really think we look cute together?” he asks, pausing from the hug to look at your eyes.

“Of course!” you reply “You know what? I think you are the one true BTS ship,” you bluntly tell him.

He changes from mellow mode to hyper sunshine mode “Aw! Jagi!” He stops cuddling you to leave the room.

“Wait, Hobi, where are you going?” you ask. He seems to not have heard you, but all you hear is him shouting “Yoongi-Yoongi-Yoongi-hyung!!!”

Originally posted by artsyhobi


You are laid in in bed asleep when you mumble in your sleep and say “Jikook” 

With this Jimin wakes up and says “Y/n why did you say ‘Jikook’?” You also wake up and look at him and say “I am sorry baby. Did I wake you by talking in my sleep? What did I say? ‘Jikook’? Ah… yeah, I ship Jikook…” 

Jimin: “Why you ship Jungkook with me? Why not Tae or someone…?”

you: “But you’re cute together!” 

Jimin: “But I was born in Busan first!” he says stomping his feet and crossing his arms 

You: “I am sorry; I can’t help who I ship you with.” 

Jimin: “I am sorry baby for being a child” he goes to you and hugs you tightly and kisses the crook of your neck.

Originally posted by yoonmin


The two of you have decided to have a little sing-a-long session of banging out all your favourite tunes and just having a good time. Since you have similar tastes, you agree to just put his collection of music on shuffle rather than choosing anything too specific.

It’s at that fateful moment when Cypher part 4 begins to play and Taehyung is on it: he’s straight in with the words, some moves, the lot. At first, you join in, but after so long of the song being played, you watch Taehyung sing/rap instead.

You think to yourself how cute it is that he admires his hyungs in this way, and cast your mind back to all those times he has been particularly affectionate towards them and you smile. The one moment in particular that sticks in your mind is of when Hoseok asked Taehyung to do some aegyo and the response from Tae was so adorable that it had Hobi practically dying from the cuteness.

“Jagi?” Taehyung asks, snapping you out of your daydreaming. “Why are you grinning like that? Is there something on my face?” he questions, trying to remove anything that could be on his face (mostly rubbing just above his lips as you had milkshake earlier)

“Ah, it’s nothing Tae, I’m sorry, carry on” you smile, wishing for him to continue with his little performance for you, which he does… for a few seconds until you blurt out “I was just thinking about you and Hobi…”

“Oh right?” he asks, unsure of where this is going.  “I… I think that if you weren’t dating me, you should be with Hobi.” you reply. This kind of confuses Taehyung, but he soon gives you a grin bigger than the one you just had on your face from daydreaming. “Really?” he asks. “Awesome!”

Originally posted by taehyunglq


You are chilling out with the younger guys of the band, and during conversation and whilst watching movies, you can’t help but notice how intimate Taehyung always gets with his friends, and today, it is especially towards Jungkook; patting Jungkook on the head when he shares his popcorn, going in for a hug on the one or two occasions he gets something that sounds like a compliment from Jungkook, even resting his head on Jungkook’s lap later in the day when he gets a bit sleepy.

You’re in the middle of watching like the 5th film of the day and you see Taehyung gradually begin to fall asleep on Jungkook’s lap and you can’t help but out loud go “awh…”

Jungkook immediately turns his head to face you with an expression of confusion. “Huh? What are you saying Jagi?” he asks.

“Sorry, did I make a noise?” you asked innocently, trying to mask how you are increasingly shipping this by the minute because of how sweet Jungkook and Taehyung look together… but he’s having none of it.

“Y/n, I heard you clearly, you said ‘awh…’ like you’ve just seen a fluffy kitten… Tell me, what are you finding so cute that makes you make this sound?” he demands.

With a sigh, you admit defeat and tell him “It’s Taehyung… he looks so sweet and peaceful rested on your lap as you stroke his hair…”

Jungkook goes into defensive mode, unsure of how to react to his; are you implying that something is going on between them?; are you suggesting what he thinks you’re suggesting? “Jagi! What are you saying? I don’t like Tae-hyung if that’s what you’re implying…”

“No, Jungkookie!” you say “I just mean you look cute together… I’m not implying anything; I just think you look cute…” and then you continue with more of a mumble “…like a ship I guess.”

“Yah! Jagi!” Jungkook exclaims again, gentl hitting your shoulder, shy and defensively still. “I don’t like Taehyung like that!”

Originally posted by grape-joon

The Foxhole Court, Chapter 10 – Your Friendly Neighborhood Shrink

In which we meet Betsy Dobson who appears to be Molly Weasley’s long-lost Ravenclaw sister, some quality Renee time happens, Kevin’s Stoic and Mighty Demeanor has nothing on Dan’s doughnuts, and actual school happens at some point but who gives a shit (spoiler alert: It’s not Neil Josten).

Sounds good? Then it’s time for Nicki to read The Foxhole Court.

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Steve/Tony Fic Recs - Personal Favorites

(because the relationship between captain america and iron man stretches across the multiverse, because the fandom has some of the absolute most talented writers out there, and because i’m so proud to be part of the superhusbands community, here are a list of my personal favorite stony fics. ^u^)

**updated 5.16.2016

The Act of Creation Will Be Your Salvation by scifigrl47 [M, 85k]

When Tony Stark was seventeen years old, he built his first AI. On that day, he ceased to be his father’s creation, and became a creating force in his own right.

That one act likely saved his life, and not always in the most obvious ways.

All the Time in the World (Will Never Be Enough) by Crematosis [M, 26k]

The first time Steve is sent into the timestream to save Tony, the mission is a complete disaster. Tony isn’t an easy person to protect. But Steve is up for the challenge.

Because sometimes, even time-traveling, badass supersoldiers need saving.

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Drarry feat. Tom Felton/Daniel Radcliffe

Give me Tom Felton and Daniel Radcliffe. Shaking hands enthusiastically when they first meet one another on set of the Philosopher’s Stone. Give me getting milkshakes with Rupert and Emma after their first day of filming. Give me sleepovers and video games and pillow forts and cowboys-and-crooks and inside jokes and lucky handshakes. Give me two boys who are best friends. They chase each other around the set of Chamber of Secrets with their wands, shouting, tripping, laughing shamelessly. “Scared, Potter?” Tom drawls occasionally with raised eyebrows and his signature Malfoy-smirk. Dan flips him off and they proceed to carry out another one of their schemes. While filming Prisoner of Azkaban, Dan breaks down at Tom’s house one day. Tom holds him and whispers words of encouragement in his best friend’s ear. Dan lies in his lap and rants about fame, how he’s struggling with the pressure, while Tom plays nonchalantly with his hair and offers advice and empathy. They share their first kiss in one of the trailers during the fourth movie. It’s weird at first, kissing a bloke. Teeth clash, hands are positioned awkwardly at their sides. But then Dan takes the initiative and wraps his arms securely around Tom’s waist, who melts against him. They spend lazy afternoons at each other’s homes, fiercely making out for hours. They talk about everything, anything. It’s playful and loving and ecstatic and beautiful. During a sleepover at Tom’s in 2007, they fall asleep on his bed, cuddling, the moaned words “I love you” running over and over again through their heads. It’s easy smiles. Easy laughs. Easy love. Dan wakes Tom up with a kiss the next morning. They’re filming later that day. The kiss turns into a careful exploration of each other’s skin. Hickeys, butterfly kisses, grinding, tracing, biting and the cautious removal of pajama bottoms. Messy handjobs follow and they both leave the room grinning and blushing like the dorks they are. They decide to keep their relationship private from the public, but inform their families, friends and co-stars the following day. The press would ruin the realness of it all. They have sex for the first time in Dan’s apartment after the premiere of Half Blood Prince. Dan tops and Tom is writhing and uncomfortable at first, but soon relaxes against his gentle touch. They love each other. Endlessly. Always. They’re soulmates. Basically grew up together. Harry and Draco. Who would have thought? After the series is finished, they move in together. They wake up with their legs entangled in the mornings and throw casual banter around the kitchen as Tom makes them breakfast. They decide to start their own Tumblr once the notion of Drarry reaches them. They reread the books and discuss the characters they portrayed and why Drarry is so fucking right. They write fanfiction when they’re bored and think of Drarry AUs when they’re tangled together, sweaty and panting. They laugh as they watch their interviews - interviews in which they pretended to be oblivious to the fandom and ships. They are a part of the fandom. They are forever. Always. Give me Tom Felton and Daniel Radcliffe.

Waiting Anxiously - Part 1

I sit there in my bed, my legs tucked close to me as I pull my knees to my chest hugging myself tightly.
My heart rate picks up, my head starts to pound, my throats feels tight, my chest feels heavy, beads of sweat are forming on my forehead.
Most of the time I can feel these things coming on and I can prepare for the wave or try and stop myself from even stepping in the water. This one had no warning though, just a sudden increase in paranoia over nothing.
As I sat in my bed I could feel the emotions intensify. I reach over on my night stand and quickly put my headphones on and press play on the iPod I keep plugged in at all times. I smooth my finger over the surface and turn the volume up.
I let the smooth beat and the soft vocals fill my ears and let the words seep into my mind.
I have found just a handful of songs can stabilize these moments if not get rid of them completely.
Tonight it was Twenty One Pilots, Car Radio.
I feel my eyes well up as the words speak volumes louder than the actual music playing in my ears. I rest my forehead on the tops of my knees and breath.

“Fear will lose. Fear will lose. Fear will lose.” I repeat in a whisper tone to myself.

I’m taking deep breaths through my nose and letting them out of my mouth slowly, tears are dripping from my eyes. I want this to be over and I’m not sure if I’m talking about this moment or everything.
The song comes to an end and my finger twitches to the previous button, the song starts over. My arms tighten around myself and soon the buildup becomes too intense. I let go of my legs and let a scream out, the sound only lasts for a second as I place a pillow over my face to muffle myself.
I let out one more scream as tears run down my cheeks, my hands are shaking and I can hear my pulse.
I lay down on my back and pull the pillow off my face. Another deep breath in and out.
All my lights are off and it almost starts to seem peaceful staring into the dark. I can feel my heart slowing, I take another deep breath.

“The hard part is done, you’re safe and sound, don’t let these thoughts scare you, I’m here now.“ I wipe the tears from my face as the last word escapes my lips.

I’ve struggled with anxiety for years and my mom used to say that saying to me after every attack, every breakdown, every episode. I don’t think she even realized how much she has helped me, even since her passing.
I let out another deep breath as the song comes to an end for the second time, I let it play to the next Twenty One Pilots song and close my eyes. I don’t fall asleep easily, it’s not till about the fourth song that my mind finally shuts down.

The next morning is always a little hazy after a late night attack, I’ve become used to it though. The sun is barley peeking through my dark curtains, I throw my blanket off me and let the cool morning air hit my skin. I mumble and groan as I sit up on the edge of the bed.
Its Friday, I have my earliest class on Friday, I don’t know why I thought that was a bright idea.
I drag myself out of the bed completely and shuffle my feet under me into the bathroom. A quick rinse to my face with icy water, tying my hair in a high ponytail and brushing my teeth is all I do before grabbing my bag and heading down the stairs and into my car.
I toss my bag in the passenger seat and start up my old little Nissan. I turn the radio on and it’s playing Stressed Out, which I still don’t find myself getting sick of but I don’t listen to the radio very often.
I pull out of the parking lot and drive off to school, it’s just a few minutes down the street so I enjoy the few minutes alone.
People fill the courtyard as I pull up to the building, I grab my bag from the passenger seat and take a step onto campus. I glance up at the sky, its gray like always but it hasn’t rained yet.
I walk past the crowds of people, I give smiles to most hoping thats enough to steer clear of conversations, it works.

Economy Health, its even more boring than it sounds, and at 8am it’s deadly.
My major is business because, well I really don’t know what I want to major in. I was told business can almost be a general degree and that no matter where I decide to go it will look good, so thats where I am at. I take a seat in the middle of the room and take a pen and notebook out of my bag, I set my bag on the ground in between my feet. Other students start to take their seats, it is definitely not a full class. The professor comes in just a few minutes before class should start, he throws his briefcase on the metal framed desk at the front of the class.
The moment he starts to ramble on about stock markets I daze off, I usually can get a few key notes even from the most bland of lectures but due to my lack of sleep I’m not retaining much. I start to draw swirls and starts throughout the notebook page, it feels like time is ticking by slowly as my small doodles fill the page but once I look up to try and get an once of knowledge the professor is giving out the next weeks homework and wishing us a well weekend.
I yawn as I scribble down the assignment, I grab my bag from between my feet and head back outside.
Now I remember why I had picked such an early class for Friday, so I could have the rest of the day to do whatever. Although I am really not sure it was worth it.
I head back to my car, making the same smiles along the way. Another yawn comes from me as I take a seat in the drivers seat and put my bag in the passengers.
Once I pull up to my apartment I make a stop at the floor below me, a couple of knocks and Shay answers the door with a blanket wrapped around her.
She groans as I walk in and close the door behind me.

“Mornings are the worst.” Her voice is still rough from just waking up.

I plop down on the couch and sink into it, “Mhhm.” I close my eyes and I could easily fall right back to sleep.

Shay takes a seat next to me with a cup of coffee in her hand, we stay silent just enjoying the moments and I am especially enjoying the quiet moments.

I’ve known Shay since I was 13, so ten years now. We became close instantly, inseparable. She knows the deepest parts of me that no one else sees, as well as I know hers. We have built each other up and have let each other fall if needed.

She was the only one I would turn to when my mom passed away from cancer, I was 14. I had no on else, I had no idea what to do or where I was going to live.
My dad had committed suicide when I was just a baby, I didn’t really know any other family.
I was scared.
Shay and her family let me live with them temporarily, but  before I knew it they were requesting adoption papers. It was about a year before they got the approval but it was all worth the wait.
Shay and her family have provided me with everything I could of ever needed for life, including a literal best friend and sister. We both decided to stay in Seattle for college but we got separate apartments to just sort of grow on our own, but we are only one floor apart so we really don’t stay away for very long.

“Are you excited for tomorrow Alanis?” Shays voice makes my body jolt as I was falling back to sleep.

“Nervous.” I mumble.

“Come on, ya know I won’t plan anything too crazy. It’s your birthday, you should be celebrating all month!”

“I don’t trust you.” I let out a small laugh with my eyes still closed.

“Well, you’ll be happy you did tomorrow night!” It’s like I can hear the smile on her face.

Shay gets up and gets ready for her full day of classes, I stay asleep on the couch when she leaves.
When I wake back up and it’s near 1pm, I stretch my arms above my head as I sit up on the couch. Shay still has a few hours at school, I decide to head up to my floor and get some laundry done because I know Shay will want me to wear something special for tomorrow.
I turn on a small wireless speaker I have in my apartment and put my music on shuffle. I sort my clothes and start my first load of laundry. I have a choice of getting homework done or letting my mind melt on paper. I chose to let my mind melt, I reach under my pillow on my bed and pull out a black note book with the phrase “Sit In Silence” written on it. I have traced over my original letters so many times that it’s almost hard to make out the words.
This is where every thought and feeling is written, every up and down. Some pages are filled with words, others with poems and some are like a diary entry, it just depends on the day.
I pick up a pen on my way to the couch as I turn my music off, I sit with my legs criss crossed on the couch and place the note book on my thigh, a deep breath in and a deep breath out before my pen touches the page.

“The thoughts run in.
My sanity runs out.
I can’t make out the words they are writing down.
Heavy letters.
Loud voices.
I’m trying so hard to sort the noises.
This is what its like.
This is a peaceful night.
Welcome to the inside of my mind.
No one fits in.
And I surly won’t make it out alive.”

The page is finished of with meaningless doodles and the date.

I place the note book back under my pillow and head to the kitchen to make coffee and a grilled cheese.
My Friday is wasted away, Shay had homework to attend to and so did I.
My head rested on my pillow by midnight and no attack to wake me up, a birthday wish granted.

Im horrible at not creating a back story, so thats basically what part 1 is.
Feedback is always welcome.
I promise Josh will be introduced in the next chapter & I will try to update every weekend if my life allows.
Thanks, loves.


Pardon me if the title seems a bit misleading, it’s a mere hyperbolic clickbait.

This entry is dedicated to my fellow akhwaat, my habaebatis, sisters, girlfriends, or my species lah in general, who are in menses (read: on your period) during this first week of ramadan,

I know it sucks.

Your period is the worst thing that can happen during ramadan. Having to stay at home while your friends and family rush to the masjid for Tarawih, not being able to touch the mushaf or recite quran, seeing people spending time in ’iktikaaf and tadarus etc. You’ll feel left behind or even worse, deprived from all the rewards promised in this blessed month. However, keep in mind that everything that is ordained/destined by Allah is always the best. To complain is no different than to question His wisdom. Redha. There are plenty of other ibadah you can also do. Don’t let something as small as your period get in between you and your blessings.

So as your fellow sister in Islam, I’d like to share a number of practical ideas/ibadah that you can do to still be able to participate in ramadan, things I personally enjoy doing.

  1. Prepare Sahur
    Since you’re not fasting, I know it’s way more convenient to sleep in and stay in bed at this hour. But think of it this way, YOU are actually contributing to someone’s act of worship. YOU are providing them with the fuel they need to carry out a spiritual obligation. And for you to sacrifice just a few minutes of sleep for this purpose is such a virtuous act MashaAllah. If you’re celebrating ramadan at home, team up with your mom or sisters to prepare the meal or wake up earlier than any of your family members and make a surprise sahur. If you’re in college/hostel and living with your friends, on the other hand, wake them up and tell them you prepared a little something for them. Be it big or small, it’s the effort & thought that matters.

  2. Take over the housework
    If you happen to have more energy than your friends/family who are fasting, then why not? Clean the house, help run errands, wash their dishes, iron their clothes etc. Not because they can’t do it themselves, but because you want to. When you intend ease for others, inshaAllah it’ll bring great joy to them and in return to you.  

  3. Listen to Islamic lectures
    This is my personal favorite. There’s a plethora of great lectures online. Short ones. Long ones. Best part is, a lot of them are free! Try making it a habit to listen to at least one lecture a day and be sure to take down notes. You can have a notebook solely for this purpose and by the end of ramadan you’ll be amazed by the amount of gems you’ve collected. Don’t know where to start? Look up some of my favorites;
    - Ustaz Nouman Ali Khan,
    - Prof Tariq Ramadan
    - Shaykh Hamza Yusuf

  4. Attend ‘ilm events
    There are so many organisations conducting great events and talks in ramadan, don’t miss out. There’s always something new to learn. Even if it requires us to pay, go for it. Remember that we’re spending money to please Allah SWT. What more can we ask for if He is pleased with us?

  5. Give good reminders & be in a halaqah (religous circle, gathering)
    This is a great sunnah of the prophet. Don’t have one, no worries, create one. Just sit in a circle with some of your friends and decide on who is going to be in charge of that particular session so she can prepare what to present beforehand. It doesn’t have to be formal at all. Take the opportunity to share what you’ve learnt from the lectures (refer point 3 & 4) as well. Halaqahs are great to exchange thoughts/knowledge & also a way to build stronger bonds with the people within that circle.

  6. Tadabbur, Study the Quran
    Although you can’t touch or recite it, no one said anything about not being able to learn it. Read the tafsir (translation of the quran) and understand it. Or you can have someone one do it for you. There are several audio files/podcasts explaining surahs one by one by legitimate scholars & shaykhs that are available online to download. You can even have them playing while you’re driving to class or doing work. 

  7. Read books & articles (or even tumblr posts lol)
    Religious or not religious, read for the sake of knowledge. However since it’s ramadan, try picking up something Islamic. You can read Seerah (stories of the prophets), Asbabun nuzul (how and why a surah is revealed), As-shamail (Muhammad SAW’s biography) and many more. Some of the books I love are;
    - Reclaim Your Heart by Yasmin Mogahed
    - In the Footsteps of the Prophet by Tariq Ramadan
    - Purification of the Heart by Hamza Yusuf. 

  8. Donate & do charity
    Sadaqah is incredibly powerful. In ramadan, it’s like a multi-level marketing business! Have books, clothes, toys or anything that is in good condition but you don’t use anymore? Give it away. Or better yet, buy new ones and give them to those in need. Other than charity you can also do simple sadaqah like cook for your neighbour or put in a few bucks into the tabung masjid. Remember that the rezeki of a Muslim is not only from what he gets, but what he gives away.

  9. Memorize the 99 beautiful names of Allah
    Now here’s a challenge for you. Try to remember the Asma’ul Husna in arabic along with it’s meaning. All 99. To make it easier, search for the nasheed (song) version of it. Learning these supreme & godly attributes has so many positive returns. I might talk about that in a different post.

  10. Memorize & study hadeeth
    While you are not allowed to touch or recite the Quran, you can still do it to hadeeth. Hadeeth are also an important Islamic authority. But make sure it’s authentic! Option; start with Imam Nawawi’s 40 hadeeth. 

  11. Give out presents/gifts.
    Idea: Buy something practical like a book, a watch or something that you know will be put into good use so you can also scrape down the reward continuously. The Prophet said, تهادوا، تحابوا, exchange gifts, as that will lead to increasing your love to one another. [Bukhari]

  12. Make plenty of Selawat & Zikrullah (Remembrance of Allah)
    - LailahaiIlAllah: “There is no god but God.”
    - Allahumma Sali‘Ala Muhammad: “Oh God, send your peace and blessings upon the Prophet Muhammad”
    - Allahuakbar: “God is the greatest”
    - Alhamdulillah: “All praises to Allah”
    - Subhanallah: “Glory to Allah”

  13. Make sincere Tawbah (repentence)
    You don’t need wudhu’ for this (except if you perform Solat Tawbah). Ask Allah to pardon us, cover our sins, and save us from the Hellfire. Beg for forgiveness. As I mentioned in my previous post, Allah is Al-Ghaffur- The All-Forgiving. He is always ready to forgive (provided we are sincere and we feel remorse)

  14. Make lots and lots of Du’a (prayers)
    It does not have to be formal. You don’t have to have any special supplications memorized, or even speak in Arabic. Talk to Allah as if He is your best friend, and you will find that He is. Tell him everything. About your dreams, your passion, how your day went or is going, your crush, your exams- just anything. Ask Him for what you want, how you want it. Spill your heart out. He is YOUR God. He listens, and He is capable of providing you with anything and everything. You’ll realize how you’ll be drawn closer and closer to Allah and as this happens, your character will begin to change gradually.

  15. Host an iftaar/sponsor an iftaar at various masjids
    “Whoever feeds a fasting person will have reward like that of the fasting person, without any reduction in his reward.” (Tirmidhi)

And the list goes on. In reality, every single thing that we do for Allah’s sake is considered an ibadah. Do not restrict or limit ourselves. May Allah be pleased with us, accept our deeds and continue to shower us with His mercy. Hope you find this helpful.

“… Allah intends for you ease, and He does not want to make things difficult for you.” 2:185

May peace be upon you x