You never cried that much before in
your life. You have never cried for a guy or for a best friend. I have never
felt this way about anyone before. I only wish he felt the same way about me,
instead of her. But sometimes you can’t get everything you want. That’s just
life and boy did life sucked.
On mobile but I really wanted to just tell you all what was the worst part of BOTFA for me. So don’t continue reading if you haven’t seen the movie yet. I have tagged it with spoilers.
I was annoyed by the differences in the book, I was annoyed by many other things as well. But the worst part of the entire movie was Thorin’s death.
The worst and the absolute best.
In the book he dies in his tent with his friends having had a chance to say goodbye, Bilbo being the last to sit with him. In the movie, he’s alone. On top of that mountain. Bilbo at his side.
Now the book fanatic in me screeches injustice because the movie rendition is incorrect. But then I sit and realize, that I prefer the death on the mountain. The symbolism was genius, having him at the top. Because the entire series has him been fighting to get back to the top only for him to realise that in the end he has nothing when he thinks he has everything.
Kili and Fili still died, Thorin is still to blame for it. Durin is no more and Thorin knows it. He accepts that it’s his fault, and it’s the same and all the more sadder than it was in the the book because he’s alone.
Until Bilbo comes.
Bilbo’s part I knew was going to kill me. It was just going to be the absolute end and ruin me. The way he he just pleads for Thorin to stay, that the eagles are coming, that he should lie still and be quiet because Bilbo has been looking out for Thorin since the very first day they met.
He’s pushed on despite Thorin’s doubt, defended and vouched for him time and time again. They just have this support and care for each other that reminds me so much of Sam and Frodo, and I’m really thankful that Jackson expanded on their relationship in the movies because I had this death scene to cringe and cry and just hate myself for.
I think the worst part was the way Bilbo folded himself on Thorin. The way he curls himself closer and tries to hold Thorin but can’t bring himself to do it because he knows Thorin won’t embrace him back. Thorin has always made a show of being near Bilbo, of touching him. Hugging, fretting, smiling at. And just seeing Bilbo realise there won’t be another chance to sit with him, or hold him, was the absolute worst. I pitied Tauriel but I died with Bilbo.
So yes. Now I’m going to cry for the rest of my life. Goodbye friends.