the best of senses fail

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Verse 1-
I’ve still got passion
And I’ve still got guts
But I no longer give a fuck
About what you want
So you’re a savior
And a saint?
Then let’s stop pretending and pull out the war paint
But you refuse to open old wounds
In fear that you’ll actually have to feel

Chorus-
We tried so hard
We tried to just pretend
Things didn’t change as the honeymoon said
This house, this ring, the secrets shared in bed
Lose all our faith in the foundation
And I feel the pain

Verse 2-
The fucking more I see what you’ve become
The more I lose sight of the love
That I once had in your brown eyes
I used to be afraid that this would end
Now I embrace it
We are ships passing the night

Chorus-
We tried so hard
We tried to just pretend
Things didn’t change as the honeymoon said
This house, this ring, the secrets shared in bed
Lose all our faith in the foundation
And I feel the pain

Bridge-
I see bright lights flicker ahead
I see stars shining till’ their death
I see you

And I don’t know what to do

Beautiful sunset, passionate kiss
These things mean nothing when you cannot come to terms with
The person who you are and who you’re meant to be
Are separated by a sea of insecurities
I’ve been digging out from underneath
An avalanche and it’s taken 20 years to see
Our reality is our own to create, and the sooner that you realize that
The sooner that you can change

Our history will
Just hit repeat
And you will pass your poison down unto your child’s feet
And they will struggle
Struggle to breathe
Cowering in shadows that you cast and cannot see
Beautiful sunset, passionate kiss
These things mean nothing when you cannot come to terms with
The person who you are and who you’re meant to be
Are separated by a sea of insecurities
I’ve been digging out from underneath
An avalanche and it’s taken 20 years to see
Our reality is our own to create, and the sooner that you realize that
The sooner that you can change

Outro-
I won’t repeat
I won’t repeat
I won’t repeat the things that I can’t change
I won’t repeat
I won’t repeat
I won’t repeat the things that I can’t change

“Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough.” -Og Mandino

     There are days like today that I feel utterly hopeless and pathetic. I get in this funk of psyching myself out about how I’ll never be able to do all the things I want to accomplish because of my chronic illness. And then, I get angry with myself because I realize that there are millions of people in this world suffering the unspeakable, and here I am laying in bed because I don’t feel well. All of those who suffer, or at least the ones I have witnessed, didn’t realize they were suffering, and if they did, they did not complain. They were/are strong. 

     Today my negative attitude got the best of me, and in that sense I failed. Granted I don’t feel well, and it will be an uphill battle for me, but I will not let the negative overtake me. If my determination, faith, positivity, and patience is strong enough I will succeed. 

I went to warped tour in Dallas today and it was seriously so amazing. Definitely what I’ve needed after I’ve been down and burned out on working so much and life.

Best shows of the year: senses fail, pierce the veil, and Bebe rexha. And honestly, Pvris and citizen were disappointing :/