if you’re a woman who’s attracted to women but you can’t see yourself marrying one, know that that feeling is so common and very often temporary. this is not to say that i know you better than you know yourself; maybe you just don’t want to get married and that’s ok. but very few women have grown up with the idea that they could marry another woman, and it’s hard to picture something for yourself that you’ve so rarely seen!
i couldn’t see myself marrying a woman for a long time, but i did and it’s the best thing i’ve ever done and the many messages i get telling me my blog has helped people picture themselves marrying other women tell me i’m not alone. know that whatever you end up wanting is okay, but don’t stress if there’s some aspect of loving women that doesn’t come to you with perfect ease. in a way we’re forging new cultural territory here. it’s only natural to feel a little lost without a map.
I don’t talk a lot on here about my personal life.
There are over 10,000 of you following this blog!! That is alot!
I first started this blog back when I was in college, mainly to keep a thing for a bunch of references so I could look at later..forget i ahd this blog till I found something else to reblog and use as reference!
But i sometimes get messages about how this blog helps people and it just kinda makes me happy,I guess. It’s odd, sorry.
I just wanted to say,DON’T GIVE UP! Keep working and do your best!
I went to college and graduated with a Media Arts and Animation degree!
When I first started college my stuff was
And almost two years after I graduated ( about five years including being in college!!)
I am not to where I want to be with my art yet,but I still love it and have improved!
A few days ago I reached 2K and I’m so so happy because when I made this blog I didn’t think anyone would follow me, let alone two very cute thousand!!!!! So I decided to make an appreciation post for my mutuals!!!!
Thank you so much for being all so lovely and nice to me. If there’s one thing that makes me happy during the day is that I know later I’ll come home and I’ll be able to ignore all my responsibilities on tumblr, hehe. You’re all super important and I adore each and every one of you. You can all be dead ass sure whenever one of you do as much as like something I reblog I sigh in complete happiness because I look up to all of you and even if I barely ever interacted with you, I admire you more than you know.
If you take requests it would be amazing if you could do RFA+V&Saeran coming to MC with their friend and that would MC's abusive/mean ex? Just if you want, ofc. And I like your blog tho
omg this is gonna be angsty also thanks for liking my blog~ if you’re into MC seeing their ex lmao I got a funny headcanon where they Meet MC’s Ex. :)
P.S. I gave them names because y not??? don’t be offended when it’s ur name or whatever ok pls :( ily
he was SO READY TO SHOW MC HIS BEST FRIEND ALLEN
they decided to meet at a nearby cafe but when he walked in, all he saw was MC standing in front of his friend
she had tears in her eyes, and coffee stains spilled down his friends white t-shirt
“MC? Allen? What happened…?”
his question was left unanswered
Allen grimaced at Yoosung apologetically
Yoosung looked at MC for an explanation, but her expression went dark, she looked at the floor and avoided his confused gaze
“MC, is everything-”
without another word, she ran out of the cafe with tears streaming down her face, pushing aside anyone and anything in her way
“MC!” he chased after her, but lost sight of her immediately after the door closed behind her
where did she go?
when he found her, it was already dark out
she was huddling against the wall of a back alleyway, shivering from the chilly winter air
“MC? Are you okay?” he approached her cautiously
“H- he’s my ex. The one I told you about. The one who hurt me every day like I was a pest under his control.”
he was so stunned he couldn’t speak
“Why did it have to be him, Yoosung? Why?”
MC looked like she was about to break
“It doesn’t. Not anymore, anyway. He’s no longer my friend. No one who dares to hurt you is my friend. No one.”
he felt a little iffy about it at first, you know, introducing MC to his friend
sure, he was the one dating MC but his friend was good looking too
maybe not as hot as he was ;)) but still, he was a little insecure
so fast forward to the day of
MC was waiting at the park bench, where they’d promised to meet
and as she saw Zen approaching, she excitedly stood up to greet him
but as soon as she saw the guy next to him, her expression changed completely
“MC! This is Michael, the guy I’ve been wanting to introduce to you for…”
“MC, are you listening?”
MC’s hands were clenched into tight fists, shaking slightly with anger
“I know who he is. I know him better than you ever will.” her voice was low, it sounded as if she was choking on every word she spat out
“What do you mean?” Zen reached out for MC’s hand, but she flung his hand away; looking up at him, he could see her face twisted with horror, fear and pain
“He’s my ex, Zen.”
Zen’s eyes widened at that statement, not before long, he realized what she meant by that - who she meant
without a second thought, he punched Michael in the face
with barely enough time to react from the blow, Michael was then pushed to the ground with a loud thud
“I can’t believe it. And to think I thought you were a good person. I must’ve been blinded by your face - but not anymore. Now all I see, is the ugliest person in front of me. You disgust me. Get out of here.”
Jaehee was going through a few old photos of her highschool graduation
she was suddenly struck with a sudden realization
MC had never meet her best friend Sophie
“MC, come over here!”
she ran from the kitchen to join Jaehee on the living room floor with her stack of photo albums
“Look, this is was my best friend in college. She helped me through a lot of tough times. I haven’t contacted her a while because I’ve been busy with work, but I’m sure if I give her a text we could meet up some-”
Jaehee was shocked at MC’s blunt answer
“It’s okay, she’s nice. And she’ll be so happy to hear that you and I’ve started dating!”
“No. No, she wont Jaehee.”
“LISTEN TO ME. SHE WON’T LIKE SEEING ME WITH YOU. SHE HATES KNOWING THAT I’M HAPPY. ALL SHE’S EVER DONE… all she’s ever done is…”
MC was shaking, her eyes watering with tears who threatened to fall at any moment.
another word, and MC could fall apart
“She’s only hurt me from the moment I met her. I knew her back in college too, Jaehee. She was in my tutorial, and we hit it off right away but as time went by… she became exceedingly possessive. She hurt me because she didn’t trust me. She thought that leaving scars would-”
“That’s enough. I don’t want to hear anymore. I don’t want you to think about this anymore either. Let’s… let’s just go to bed, okay?”
aside from V, he didn’t have many childhood friends who lasted with him through all these years
there was, however, someone he really wanted MC to meet
and that was Chris, a nice guy who was outgoing but hardworking as well
“MC, tonight we’ll have dinner with an old colleague of mine, is that fine?”
“Sure, what’s his name?”
MC tensed up at the sound of his name. it was surely just a coincidence… right?
when they arrived at the restaurant, Jumin began to approach the table nearest to the window that panned over the cityscape of lights and skyscrapers
from afar, MC had already began to feel a wave of anxiousness twist her gut. Chris Lee. Blond hair, cobalt blue suit, black tie.
It was him, and he hadn’t changed one bit
MC stopped walking as they passed by the bar
“MC? The table is up front, do you wish to visit the ladies room first?”
Jumin left for the table and had a nice chat with Chris, catching up on their business issues and other news
but soon, Jumin noticed that MC was taking an exceptionally long time; he was worried that she might have fainted
He asked a waitress to help him check the ladies room, but when she came back, she told him the bathroom was empty
Jumin ran outside and found MC sitting on the curb of road
“MC, what are you doing out here? It’s cold and not to mention rude for us to-”
“I can’t get any closer to him than this. Any further and I’d throw up.”
MC was wringing her hands, a sign, Jumin remembered, something she did whenever she mentioned her ex, Chris L… oh.
“I’m sorry, MC. Let’s go home. I’ll let him know dinner’s off, and so is our business deal.”
most hackers didn’t have friends - only enemies and government authorities
but Seven was different. he did have a friend: Mason
Mason was his church mate, a friend who knew his secret, but kept it regardless.
Seven decided that a beach bbq outing would be perfect for them to get to know each other
they got there first, setting up all the food and cooking utensils
“MC! Mason’s here!”
just as MC was dealing with the grill forks, she watched his friend approach
the similarities between her ex and Mason were eerie, except for the different name, she would’ve thought it was-
“Hey MC, remember me?” Mason grinned
there was no mistake, that was Mae, the sly smile confirmed it all
MC held out the grill forks in defense, distancing herself from Mason as much she possibly could
“MC, what’re you doing?” Seven laughed at her off pose, “Put those down, it’s okay, Mason doesn’t bite.”
“Yes, he does, Seven. In fact, that was his specialty. He used to bite me when we were dating. He teased me relentlessly, but I wouldn’t even call it teasing. He bullied me, Seven. He made fun of me and my insecurities, he used my trust in him against me.”
“It’s true, Seven. I won’t lie that I was an asshole, but she was a bitch too. She ratted me out to my mom about my drug usage and-”
“ENOUGH.” Seven’s mind was going on information overload, but all he knew was to take MC away before she seriously hurt someone or even herself with one of those forks.
when they got back into the car, Seven noticed MC’s upset expression
“I’m sorry, I didn’t know he did such a thing to you in the past. I won’t be involved with him anymore. You can trust me right?”
“You won’t threaten me with grill forks?”
he got slapped on the arm for that, but at least MC smiled at his remark
he didn’t have many friends - given what he’s been through, but he met one at his recent job and he was a nice guy
he wanted MC to meet Nathan because he thought that they’d get along and MC could help him if he ever made him mad or something like that (human interactions weren’t really his forte)
he opened the apartment door and invited his new friend inside
“MC, I’m home. I brought a friend.”
MC was in the kitchen, and answered him through the wall
“We have a guest? Give him a seat, I’ll get him a drink in a sec”
they sat down in the living room and made small talk until he heard MC’s steps approaching
“Sorry, we don’t have much at home, do you want coffee or tea-”
before she could finish her question, she dropped both cups and the glass splintered upon impact with the floor tiles
“MC! are you okay? did you get cut anywh-”
“Get him out of the house, Saeran.” her voice shook with fear, eyes dilated to an unnatural size. She looked like a deer in headlights
“GET HIM OUT OF THE HOUSE!” she screamed, covering her ears like she was suddenly afraid of the shrill in her own voice.
Saeran ushered Nathan out of the apartment and carefully examined MC’s state of panic
“MC?” he asked just above a whisper, “are you okay?”
MC had tears streaming down her face as she grabbed onto Saeran for support.
Her body was shaking violently. she was having an anxiety attack from something much too close to home for him to not realize
she was traumatized from previous abuse, and there was no denying that his nice friend, Nathan, wasn’t so nice after all.
“Sorry, MC. I didn’t know. He seemed nice, but nevermind that. I’m sorry, I won’t work there anymore.”
MC and him were going to go on a couple date
or.. more like couple photography session
he knew a guy who was just as good as him - Andrew
“Andrew and his fiance will be here soon, do you want to wait or we could start first?”
“Let’s wait, it’d be rude to-”
“Hey! Jihyun, we’re right behind you!” a voice called out from the distance
a voice vaguely familiar to MC, but she was unable to put her finger on it
as the other couple approached, she realized that this “Andrew” was also her “Andrew” from 2 years ago.
“V, I want to go home. You guys can go ahead.”
“But MC, they just got here and today’s supposed to be a coupe photo-”
“I’M NOT FEELING WELL OKAY?” MC snapped at him unintentionally, but it had already taken effect. V’s face was evident of the painful shot he experienced just then
unfortunately, MC was louder than she thought, and Andrew had overheard as well
“Just let her go, Jihyun. This ass was always like that when I was with her. Complaining about this and that non-stop. I can’t believe you managed to seduce Ji-”
“SHUT UP! YOU WERE THE ONE WHO CHEATED ON ME, AND YOU’RE THE ONE TO TALK?”
whoa that was unexpected
MC stomped away, back towards their car
V chased after her at a loss for words
“Its okay. You don’t have to say anything. You didn’t know, and I over reacted. I’m sorry.”
“No, I’m sorry. I should’ve let you know who were meeting up in the first place, it’s my fault. This could’ve otherwise been avoided. Will you forgive me?”
MC pulled him in for a hug, “I’ll always forgive you. Will you forgive me too?”
“Of course, MC.”
LOL i was low key gonna write drabbles but ya gurl was also lazy so here’s a mix of em’ both
(or ‘quick do a follow forever before you lose a few and drop below 1k!’)
This is in no particular order, it’s just a collection of precious beans who like my stuff or whose stuff I love who I want to highlight. There are a few times it’s the same people with different blogs, but that’s intentional because both their blogs are great. Ok here goes!
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You guys are the best and this au is so amazing just because of all the support and love.
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Edit: IT IS 200% OK TO TAG ME IN YOUR POSTS/SUBMITTING!!! I LOVE IT
ok so this isn't really about discourse but I know you don't like how klance is portrayed in a lot of fics and I was thinking about writing them so do you have any big do's or don'ts about that kinda stuff? I'm asking because you're like one of my favorite blogs and I want to cater to lots of klance shippers and not just write the same anti-friendly broganes high school au shit
Honestly the best thing to do is not make it too tropey. The issue you have w most kl@nce fics is the basic plot is just:
Lance realises he likes Keith.
Doesn’t know how to handle his gay feelings™ so responds to them by being a complete arse and downright abusive to Keith.
Keith is like wtf Lance why you like this. Others are like don’t be a dick Keith it’s just how Lance is. Keith is ???
Lance eventually confesses/ slips up and it all comes out.
Keith is like omg I love you too even tho you’ve been hella abusive to me I’m just gonna completely ignore all of that and be completely passive because I have no personality in this plot and am just a submissive gay™ here for the sole purpose of Lance and to forgive your shitty fanon ooc personality
Like that shit is fuckin OLD and bad and needs to stop bc it’s not healthy like if you’re gonna do kl@nce based on canon you’ve gotta develop their relationship A LOT bc how they are now in canon could never be a relationship so you need to just develop their dynamic into a healthy relationship
Such an awkward flight to New Jersey, Nathan sat in between
Blake and I. I don’t wish to speak to Blake, I have covered my hickeys up with
foundation, just gives me more things to do when putting my make up on, but I
cannot walk into the house like that, I am asking for trouble. Chris left early
in the morning, I think he woke up at a stupid time like six in the morning, he
did wake me like I asked. Then he left, he tried to ask me if I changed my mind
about going, he tried though “you all grown now niece, look at you” my uncle
woke me out of my daze “she should have kept her ass here” Blake spoke on my
behalf “how about you shut your mouth, I can answer shit myself” I am not
having this all the fucking time I am away with him “hey, hey come on you two.
It’s nice that you are all back, what’s with the hostility, damn” my uncle shut
us both up “well uncle, being independent has made me grow up. But I am still
the baby” which is true, he laughed “well you would have been the youngest if
my brother kept it in his pants, now we got young Kyrie” rolling my eyes “yes,
another boy that will end up like Blake or maybe even Nathan. Nice!” I hate
A small smile crept on my face, seeing my family home my dad
worked so hard for us to have “home sweet home” I said, the car came to a halt
on the drive. I am about ready to see my mom; I miss her so much. Opening the
car door rushing out “I think someone missed home” my uncle said, grabbing my
handbag from the back seat. Making my way to the front door, seeing Kyrie’ shit
out front which ruins the front yard, I am surprised they let him do this
because we got in trouble for leaving the outside a mess. Pushing the door
open, I love that nothing has changed in this home besides the fact we have
moved out “how quiet is this place” looking up the stairs and then down the
lobby, my mom will be in the kitchen “Rylee, your home!” see I knew she would
be, my mom drying her hands on a towel “ooohhh look at you, my baby” I have
missed my mom’ face so much “it’s been so long” hugging my mom close “I know”
smelling the air “I know you are cooking something good” my beautiful mom “I am
just so happy you are home” moving back from my mom “are you crying?
Seriously?” what is wrong with her “look at my boys, too. My kids are home!”
nobody care about them two anyways.
“So where is dad? Kyrie? House is too quiet” sitting atop of
the kitchen counter “football practice, your dad wants Kyrie to become
something. Just like you” my mom grinned “let’s not mention the other two I
guess?” the useless ones “come on now, they do their own thing. Just not in
this house they won’t. But yes, he is with him there. Will be back soon” my mom
is staring at me in awe “what is it? What is wrong with you” my mom shook her
head getting all emotional again “why do you keep on crying, you are never like
this with me on the phone” it must be the time of the month or something “I
just can’t believe I have a daughter that is now twenty-five, you have made us
so proud. I just worry sometimes” frowning at my mom “at what?” pushing myself from
the kitchen counter “Kyrie is so young; he has nobody around for him. He is
eight and I worry who would look after him if we weren’t around because we are
not young” why is my mom even thinking this “mom, what are you even talking
about. Grandma is like going on hundred and nana is still a live, you will be
around for a while” my mom is upsetting me “I have not got any grandkids but I
have happy kids” there is a deeper issue here “you have been keeping something
away from me, I want to know” my mom sobbed out “you can’t tell the boys, your
father doesn’t even want me to tell you. Not till after this time away, I just
need to know you will look after your dad and Kyrie if anything was to happen?”
tears pricking my eyes already, I hear bad news so many times at the hospital
but when it’s your family “I have been diagnosed with cervical cancer” my mom
spat, my heart dropped.
My lower lip quivering staring at my mom “they can fix this;
they have things out there. You going to be ok” placing my hand over my mouth
“Rylee, please. I just need you to be strong for me, I need you” closing my
eyes letting the tears fall “I love you so much, your dad told me to wait but I
am just so concerned” latching on to my mom tightly “mommy loves you so much, I
just worry about your dad. You know he can’t live without me annoying him” I
can’t believe this is happening, why my mom, why my family “you’re going to be
ok mom, nothing can happen to you. I still have so much to make you happy for,
you can’t leave us” my mom shushed “you have made me happy, look at you! My
daughter is a beautiful nurse; I have watched you graduate. I am so proud of
you, all I want from you now is to be here for me, I need you to be strong and
not speak on it. I want a nice family holiday, not even to think about it
please! No more tears” moving back from my mom “I told you because I sometimes
need someone to talk too, your dad is struggling but listens. When I come back
I will be starting treatment, I don’t want Kyrie missing out on his summer
holiday because I am too tired. I want him to live his life, be happy like you
three were. I am hoping you have him in LA for a while, between you and them
two. Share it out and just make him happy” nodding my head “I will only tell
him once the doctor tells me they can’t help me” I am devastated.
Watching Khaled just talking about shit, I don’t even know
what he is speaking about anymore. I only came here to do my feature but
instead I have this preaching, I feel so moody and I don’t know why. Maybe
because I can’t have lean, I promised Rylee I won’t or maybe because she has
gone. Could be either of the two, I also cleaned the apartment for her and then
came here “fuck” I said in a whisper, that moment when the chick you use to
have sex with walks in, not what I want to see “how nice to see you here” Rosa
said, she is acting like she didn’t know “same to you” I said looking away “you
didn’t answer my text, I came to your crib and nobody was home” why is she so
loud, Hood chuckled “I was busy” rubbing my head “you’re busy when you don’t
want sex but you’re not busy when you want it? You’re funny, you said you would
always be around for me and when I needed you the most you weren’t there, we
are friends Chris” looking over at her “then maybe you should accept the fact
you were just a chick with a pussy, I needed to bust a nut and you needed a
come up. It works, right?” I didn’t want to be rude “so you found a new piece
of pussy and you blowing me off? Oh yeah, these niggas all been talking, you
might want to speak to the people you call friends” she pointed at the boys
before walking off, I didn’t speak a word but glare at them.
Scratching my stubble “Mijo” I said his name as I walked out
of the studio, I know Mijo will tell me everything so I need to speak to him
“I’ll be back for the Chorus” I need some air, I need to get away from that
room. I am still angry about Blake too, he was upsetting Rylee, he touched her
and that what drives me crazy. I am anxious too, what if she finds a better man
out there. Nobody knows she is mine either. Slowly walking to the elevator
“bro” Mijo said behind me, turning around to him “you know I ain’t been around,
tell me the low down. I am already done with people” Mijo took in a deep breath
“the boys were speaking on how you have dipped on everyone, not been around. Lo
said, he has been with Rylee? Is that her name?” nodding my head “yeah, so they
were like” putting my head up “who is they?” I want names “Fresh and then Hood
and erm Keeis” he was reluctant in saying that name “Hood said I don’t know why
he is sprung on that, wait till he brings her back to the crib so the homies
can hit it. He is just setting her up, Lo told him to shut the hell up. That’s
his family and that some chick told him that y’all never fucked and you chasing
her like a lost dog, I just sat there listening you know me. Lo said that her brother
will set Chris straight, I don’t even know these people. All I know is that you
are keeping out of trouble” he is saying that now, pushing passed Mijo. I am
already angry about Blake, these niggas about to get it. Fresh’ face dropped
when he saw me storming towards the studio “Chris come on, there is people in
there” Mijo said it like I cared, pushing the door open “turn that shit off!” all
eyes were on me “I need to speak to these” pointing at the so-called friends
“can y’all leave” I am trying to be calm here.
These niggas look so guilty; they know what they have done.
Mijo closed the door behind me “I heard y’all had something to say about my
private life? Speak up now” they all put their heads down “Lo, first of all. My
relationship with Rylee has nothing to do with you, thank you for helping a
nigga out but I don’t need you now. And who the fuck you been speaking too huh?
Tell me, who been saying about what happens between Rylee and I? I will cut you
off so quick, tell me” who the hell does he know that talks about us “Bailey
nigga, that’s her best friend. She just said my bitch is good, she ain’t let
that nigga hit it” nodding my head “is that a bad thing?” I said, he shook his
head “ok, so whatever happens between me and her is none of y’all business get
it? If I am not around maybe because I am with my girl, she doesn’t want to
hang with shit, got it? And Hood, my nigga. Don’t fucking downgrade her name
like that again. If any of this leaves this room, if blogs start saying about
me having a girl, shit comes out about Rylee. I am coming for y’all” I ain’t
about to downgrade her name, I am not going to tell them if we had sex or not
but Bailey, she got it coming.
I was so not into making music, I am going home “you want me
to drop you off at home?” asking Mijo “yeah, Mylen needs me for his homework
bullshit” that means I have the whole crib to myself, great “so tell me what is
happening in the life of Chris Brown? You have been laying low and very quiet,
we family” he’s got a point “so this Rylee girl, she the one? Speak to me
stupid” smiling a little “what do you want me to say?” I shrugged “is she the
girl that is making you be all good, all protective. This lowkey shit” staring
ahead at the road “so I am a taken man, I have a girlfriend. I am with Rylee. I
don’t know, I just like her” I hate talking about feelings and shit “alright, I
got you. So, is she the legit thing you want? You had the P yet?” licking my
lips smiling “we did but I wanted to wait, she wanted to have sex, and yeah. I
am not telling anyone like those niggas about her, I just can’t explain it
Mijo. It’s just weird but in a good way” Mijo hit my shoulder “wow, you respect
her a lot. This is different for you. You would promote any girl you fuck, when
I saw your reaction with Rosa, it was like a swear word to look at her. You have
fallen hard haven’t you?” side eyeing him “be quiet, I like her man. She is
good, I want her to meet the good side, get to know you. My family, she doesn’t
want the limelight and so, that is why I be indoors with her. But I love it,
it’s the best” Mijo cooed “player is changing, good luck. Better buckle up for
the ride of feelings” he is annoying “I am happy for you, I promise you that”
that is all I want, people to be happy for me.
I have this big ass home with nobody here, is this what
happens when I say to niggas I am done playing. I mean they are only around for
the fun, pressing the security passcodes in. I might as well lock up the crib,
any nigga could walk in here so I want to be secure. I might finish off the
show Rylee was watching, I got into watching Love and Hip Hop. Looking down at
my phone, hearing my dogs run at me “hey girls” tapping on my Instagram, Rylee
has not updated her page since she went which makes me sad. Tapping on the
camera and then switching the camera to my face. Lifting the camera as I poked
my bottom lip out, taking the picture and then captioning it ‘When all the
important women in my life are all busy’ pressing send, I have nobody now.
I feel so numb; I am not thinking negative but I am numb to
this feeling. My mom has cancer, I feel so useless that I can’t save her. What
am I going to do without her, the woman that loved and nurtured me into this
woman I am now. I get this from her, she is the kindest woman I know. Who the
hell am I going to tell my work stories too, she was there when I missed my
period and I thought I was pregnant, she is my ride or die for me. I was so
dramatic that day too, she always wanted me to find love because she found my
dad, she thinks every girl deserves it, I agree with her. She is the sweetest
little lady and I can’t ever take her place “Rylee” hearing my dad say,
clicking his fingers in my face. Blinking my eyes and a tear fell “yes” wiping
the tear away “I think we need to go for our little drive and milkshake?”
nodding my head, I need to get out of here “where are you going!?” Blake asked
“spending time with my daughter” my dad said.
Sitting in front with my dad driving, looking down at my
phone at Chris’ text.
Everything good over there baby? Talk soon yeah ? x
I will call you later
Pressing send, that text was a little blunt to him. Locking my
phone, looking up ahead at my city “it’s nice to be back home, everyone is so
normal. In LA, it’s so fake. Everyone is fake, you could walk down the street
and you will meet someone famous. I love it at home” so normal here “I never
liked LA myself, did I ever tell you the story about me and my brother running
away to LA?” blinking several times as I stared at my dad “no, you ran away?
Why?” my dad chuckled “because my dad just finished off beating my butt, we had
enough. I was eighteen and I just went, then we got caught after the first day
of getting there. Mom called the police, we then both got beat again” my dad
laughed “you never told me that, I never knew. Grandad is a softie though?” he
really is “to you, also if you think about it, there is so many boys in the
family and then there is you. I can’t wait to go Barbados, see the family” it
will be a nice break away.
Sitting across my dad in the booth “this place will never
close, remember when Nathan broke his leg here? That was a good day” for me it
is anyways “hey, that is my boy still” I want to say so much to my dad but what
do I say, my mom has clouded my mind “so Rose told me, she told you” my dad
finally spoke on it “I always find it weird when you call mom Rose, you only
call her baby momma when you two flirt but yes, I know and dad” shaking my head
“I can’t be without mom, she will be ok. There is treatment out there” I know
there is “we need to remain positive, I can’t be without her either Rylee. You
think I am going to be on this earth when she is not here? Look, we need to be
positive. She wants us to be happy, before this treatment happens we need to
make this special for her. I have cried every night but I know this is
stressing her out even more” I hate when he speaks like that “don’t talk like
that, just please. I feel so stressed now, how am I meant to go back to work
knowing this” my dad shook his head “we need to keep things normal for her, we
need to be positive. Just she worries about Kyrie. He might get neglected, all
of you are in LA” the waiter placed our Milkshakes down on the table “I will
have Kyrie at the new apartment with us” I said until I realised what I have
just said “I mean me of course, you seen the pictures? You did look at my
messages dad?” I said us, how stupid “I did, it looks really nice. You need
help with money at all?” shaking my head at him “I am fine but I will have
Kyrie for his summer holiday break, I will split it between them two morons” I
will need them too actually.
I am a little scared of my dad but not in a bad way, I
respect him and when he is angry he can be scary but I am his little girl. I
have no idea what to say to him “Blake said that you have been a little
unbearable in LA, he didn’t finish off but what is happening out there?” oh,
look at that. Blake trying to snitch on me first “well…” I drifted off, how do
I tell my dad about my boyfriend “let me tell you the better part and then I
will tell you where this Blake hate came from” this smile on my face won’t go
away, I don’t know why “you seem really happy? Is it good news? Before you
start, I just want to say how proud I am of you, living your life. Well paid
job, you have done everything I asked for” I cooed out at my dad “you treated
me like a princess, I would do anything for you dad. You showed me love, I hope
the man I get is like you” I love my parents “he treats you right but go on,
you were telling me” I already feel so nervous.
How do I say this “well I met this guy in LA, well he
actually saw me and then liked me. You know Lo right? Nathan’ friend?” my dad
is not showing me any emotions “I do” he mumbled “he kind of got us talking, I
tried to play him off. I am not in LA for that shit, I just want to work and go
home but he was persistent. He took me out a few times, met me outside my work”
I paused “ok he sounds like a stalker now, I am not saying it right but we got
to know each other. I didn’t just let him come into my life so easily, so we
got to know each other. We both get on so well, he treats me good and makes me
happy. We are dating now” staring at my dad all wide eyed “so you are dating an
LA guy?” he said “sort of, he moved out there. He is from Texas really, dad I
know this might sound a little crazy. I find it weird too” bringing my head
forward “I am dating Chris Brown” I whispered, my dad didn’t flinch or care for
the name “he could be Will Smith but he is dating my daughter, my pride and joy”
is my dad angry, I am not sure.
I don’t know how he is taking this “he makes you happy?
Treats you like a queen? Treats you with respect?” nodding my head “yes, I
wouldn’t be with him if he didn’t. I made him wait, I denied all of his
requests, I thought he was going through a phase but he wouldn’t drop it. He is
such a nice man dad, he does look bad on paper but he is not like that at all”
my dad is a closed book today “I want to speak to him, a guy is dating my
daughter. I need to know he is looking after you, I want to know him. I want to
hear him tell me he will look after you” is my dad being real “really?” I said
in shock “I haven’t seen you smile about a guy the way you are now, I just need
to know the man behind this. He is dating my baby so please” I didn’t expect
this, digging into my pocket to get my phone out. Chris has text me twice, I
know it’s because of that reply but let me ignore that and call him.
Pressing the phone to
my ear as it rang out, I hope he is not doing something stupid like being high “with
that reply, I thought you wasn’t going to call me. What did I do?” Chris said
as soon as he picked up the call “nothing, you have done nothing” he is such a
drama queen “dead ass thought I did something, why you not texting me back
either?” he is not going to stop speaking “Chris! Just hear me out one second,
we can speak on this later but my dad wants to talk to you” the phone line went
silent “shit, did I do something wrong? You’re not telling me something” why is
he like this “why do you think the worst out of everything, just speak to him”
moving my phone away “Rylee!” I heard Chris shout, holding my phone out to my
dad. Only god knows what my dad is going to say to him “hello” my dad has got
his formal voice switched on now “call me Harvey, Chris” I bet Chris hates me right
now “my daughter means a lot to me, I just want to know you will be there for
her. Look after her, she can tell me you are Chris Brown but that is just a
name everyone knows. I want to know the man that will be with my daughter” my
dad is using his words today, look at him. And he is not being rude. I hope
they get along, I am all nervous now “yeah, I understand. She is twenty-five so
I can’t always treat her like my little girl but it is nice to hear that from
you Chris” I wonder what Chris said to my dad because he sounds impressed “take
care Chris” my dad passed me the phone “I will call you later, promise” I
quickly said before disconnecting the call.
I want to know what he said “so, what did he say to you?” I
asked, my dad shrugged “man talk, he sounds ok and I like what he said but I am
not telling. It is man to man, if he mistreats you. You come to me” why is my
dad keeping secrets “hmmm sure, so what did he say to you? Was he nervous?” I
didn’t know this would have been a secret “he sounded slightly nervous, that is
all. I am willing to accept any boy that will make you happy” I must get this
information out of Chris now, but he will be hard headed about it “do you feel
a little happy now? I was not happy that your mom told you that, hurt my heart.
Just want some happiness for us ok?” sighing out “I am happy but Blake upset me
in LA” my dad shifted in the seat “how so?” I am so going to get him in
trouble, not Nathan as much “he wouldn’t accept Chris being my boyfriend, he
called me a hoe twice. He tried to touch me and then threw it to my face about
going away, he has been awful with me. I told him he is my boyfriend and he
called me that, I am not a hoe” my dad took in a deep breath “let’s go home” he
shuffled out of the booth.
Walking behind my dad as we into our home “you both are back!”
my mom said “oh no, what has happened” my dad went into the living room, Blake
sat playing video games. I felt bad for him but then again I don’t, because he
has been a dick to me. My dad hit the games controller out of his hand “get up”
Blake stared on in shock, Blake and Nathan are both scared of my dad. Just like
my dad got beatings, so did they. Blake didn’t get up so my dad dragged him up “dad,
what have I done!?” I didn’t expect my dad to drag him to me “say sorry to your
sister now” Blake shook his head “I didn’t raise a son that mistreats his
sister and calls her a hoe, I will punch you straight in the face. In Three,
Two..” Blake mean mugged me “sorry! I am sorry! I don’t know why!” my dad
slapped the back of his head “that is my daughter, you don’t mistreat her! You
ever call her that word again like that, I will beat you. Try touching her
again..” Blake was not even paying attention, my eyes widened seeing my dad
grip his throat “Harvey you stop this now, I think Blake has learnt his lesson”
my mom spat, next time Blake will think twice, better then Chris doing this.
My dad looked at Nathan “she is moving out, she has a new apartment
because I want her too. I don’t want to hear another word from you boys, you
will need Rylee more than you both know” my dad walked off after dropping that
bombshell “snitching ass” Blake whispered “you was about to do the same” let me
go upstairs, I am already sick of family drama “I said I am sorry” Blake said,
I don’t even want to hear it. Walking up the steps, seeing Kyrie running into
his bedroom “what are you even doing?” he is such a weird kid, he poked his
head out of the door “I am naked, tell mom I am waiting” I think he was going
to shout her I guess, turning around “mom! Kyrie said he is waiting!!” I
shouted “are you having a bath or something?” I questioned “yes, mom needs to
do my bath” she got busy with us “I can do that for you? Mom is busy” I might
as well make myself useful “Rylee, you leave it. I will do that” here she comes
“alright, I will be in my room” I need some space from them.
I am hoping the hickeys disappear because I want to get my
tan on in Barbados, he didn’t need to do a fresh set of hickeys like an ass “so
you decided to call me after disconnecting the call and then your dad talking
to me?” I knew Chris would be less than impressed with me “sorry, it’s been a hectic
day. I promise you, I have not had the chance to keep up. I told my dad about
you, he said he wanted to talk to you. I am sorry” I do feel a little bad about
it “don’t be, I thought he was about to cuss me out but he is nice. I do think
he will find me and beat my ass if we break up, but it was ok. He does love you
a lot” I am happy he is not angry at me “I told you, I am his little girl. But
tell me what you said to him? You said something that made him so content?” I
want to know “can’t say, one day I will. I will tell you this” why are they
both keeping secrets “this is not fair, tell me Chris?” this is bullshit “no,
just hold out. You will find out” sitting down on the edge of my bed “so tell
me, how is New Jersey? You not posted anything or text me. I miss you so much
already” scratching the side of my face.
“Why the long silence?” he said “New Jersey is fine, did you
go to the studio? Did you take your tablets and call your manager? You said
about the Paris thing” I am like his secretary “you did eat yes?” I like to
know he is looking after himself “erm just an average day for me, I am being
good. Tell me about you? You have been different, I don’t like it. We speak so
much that I know changes in you” do I tell Chris, I have barely digested this
information myself. But then I don’t want him thinking that it’s him, I know
what he is like “I don’t want you thinking it’s you because it’s not, just
heard some news. A lot has happened today that I can’t keep up” laying down on
my bed, this bed seems so much better than I remember “I want to hear” of
course he does, I don’t want to cry, it’s too late now because I feel the water
works coming on “just my mom” my voice trembled, I need to suck it up “she has
cervical cancer” I blurted it out, I find it hard to even say this “oh no,
Rylee. I am so sorry” tears silently fell “she wants me to be normal, like any
of this is fine. What break away, all I got is heartache from this time away”
sniffling in his ear “I wish I cancelled, I am not strong enough for this, I
can deal with other people not being well but this is my mom. She is telling me
to look after my dad and my little brother, then I have my dad telling me he
don’t want to be here if my mom ain’t, they’re putting this on me and now I am putting
it on you. But I am going to be positive because this could be ok, she will be
fine” Chris remained silent “I am so sorry Rylee, you want me to come there for
you? I am here for you” wiping away my tears “I appreciate that so much, it’s
ok though. I should be fine with some sleep but anyways, my dad threatened
Blake. I told him everything so there is that, no need to worry babe, I will be
fine. Sorry if I am off with you” I just don’t want him to think it is him,
because it’s not him “it’s ok shawty, I understand now. I’m honestly so upset for you. I am glad you told me because I did think it was me, I’m a little insecure since you gone and all that but I got you” how does Chris get insecure, he can have anybody, he is handsome.
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Happy mother's day, space mom! 🌸🌺🌻🌼🌹🌸🌺🌻🌼🌹 I got you flowers 😊
THIS IS SO CUTE THANK U MY CHILD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
omfg honestly my heart is breaking just THINKING about making lance suffer like that……. i hate langst so much but i legit get requests for langst/klangst multiple times a day so i’m gonna have to do it. ughhhhhh hahahah i’m so sorry pls if you want to spare yourself just blacklist the “langst/klangst” tags because i always try to tag appropriately!!
omg i’m so glad i helped even a little bit!! best of luck as you continue writing!!
man idk hahaha it’s all good though, i’m just always paranoid that the spam of replies when i go through my inbox bothers people but i really hope that’s not the case. i’m not sure how making a different blog would help but its ok!! i’m alright continuing this way as long as everyone else is ok to stick around with me!!
@hihereami this was from last night and idk how i didn’t see it until just now but THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU AND DON’T DESERVE UR NICENESS GAHHH
@icebr3ath (why tf can’t i ever tag ur username?????) THANK YOU MY LOVE YOU ARE SUCH AN ANGEL
WTF WHY??????? U ARE IN MY THOUGHTS, MY CHILD I HOPE UR OK I LOVE U VERY MUCH
oK this is my first time not going anon when sending an ask to any blog ever here it goes //deep breaths// i just wanted to tell you that your drawings are just the best!!! they have this magic that actually makes me happy even when i had a bad day and thank you for existing and being precious and kind and you 💗 you inspire me to git gud at art and i want to send some love your way as a thank you ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡ i'll go back to my hole now ehehehHEH //hides//
AWWW HELLO!!! And thank you a mot for sending me this I really appreciate!!! 😭😭😭💗💗💗 (and no need to hide)
Hey bud. I just wanna say. Ur hella cute. I'd hella date u if possible. But I'm in Australia. Ie, half a world away from u and ur cute self. BUT! I want u to know ur the damn cutest, happiest, most lovely person on my dash and I'm honestly so happy I found ur blog to being with. Idk. This is hella gay. I'm hella gay. Wowie. But yeh ok ur cute as frick. Ok bye :) have a nice day!!!
I’m having an awfully stressful day and your message is honestly the best thing that’s happen today? You’re honestly so cute and nice and so lovely i’m positively floored. I love you and our forbidden love shall live on despite the distance. Keep on being a gay and wonderful sunshine of a person. ☀️🌈
Hello! Naux here. There's a new EMC now for 0.2 aqua medal and some twewy medals. But the part I'm interested in is that it guarantees at least 2 tier 4 or higher medals and I've got a lot of undotted tier or higher medals I want to guilt (like HD axel, ill. Riku B, ill. Leon, ill. Terra, HD sora, etc.). I've got a little over 15000 jewels. Do you think it'd be good idea/ ok to make a few pulls and try my luck? (Sorry for the long ask, love your blog, your the best!)
Hey hey hey is the new NAUX deal worth pulling for? I’m guessin’ not but I just wanted to double check with ya
I don’t think the new deal with KH 0.2 Aqua [M] is worth pulling. This is because there is no guarantee for KH 0.2 Aqua [M] and all the premiums that have been released so far are available as one of the potential premiums you can obtain.
NA KHUX players are better off saving their jewels for KH 0.2 Kairi [S] and the Copy Key Arts (links are to posts explaining why you should save up for these medals).
aa ive really been into self insert stuff for a while (just by reading fanfic and stuff) and i really want to start an art blog for it? but im really nervous and afraid people will either be mean about it or ignore it and i really just wanna give it a go and make friends but im scared!!! sorry i didnt know who else to go to and your blog is so cute and inspires me to maybe give it a shot?
ok so first iwannasay Thank you !! aaa im rly glad you like my blog!! :’3c 💕💕💕
now, yeha i totally understand what you mean , i was scared of the same thing before i started this blog. but in the end i felt rly included in the selfinsert community and made some good friends and got a gf cuz of it :0 like
idk, from what ive experienced and seen, the community tries its best to include p much everybody, i doubt you would go unnoticed (especially if youre posting in the tags) and if needed you could always hit up the Bigger Blogs about your blog and they’ll give you a shoutout + a follow + support (idont consider myself one of those blogs but im here for that too if u want gdjksngds)
basically the community is rly nice, and as for the people who might be mean to you, i dont think you should worry too much if you get a bunch of support :0 i personally have gotten some hate before but compared to the positive stuff, it kinda gets thrown under the carpet really easily. if u get hate i will maul the anons tbfh
TL;DR i think you should at least give it a try,,,,,,,,, hmu if u end up making the blog friendo
Naaah, it's far from perfect. We can stop pretending that we are not disappointed. I get it, but personally I'm done, I don't have stomach for more games, I already was on the edge of leaving, it's just the push that I needed. I want to thank you very much for all you work and dedication running your blog, thank you from bottom of my heart. Kaylors, you guys are amazing! This is the best fandom it's a shame that they don't help us. ❤
Ok baby. We all have our limits. Love you and come back when it’s over.
Oh my god oH MY GOD ok, yall this isnt art ok but i wanted to share how excited I am with everyone that likes what I do. I just basically got accepted into one of the best universities for animation in the UK!
On the other hand, this blog might be.. heh… deader than usual, since I do need to study hard to get that overall average of 16/20, which is currently of 14/20 for me. Wish me luck you guys. Thanks for all of your amazing support that kept me here and improving.
Guys, everyone send my best friend your good thoughts and positive vibes ok? She’s under a lot of stress right now with uni and I haven’t been very helpful either. It’s so easy to get overwhelmed and think your work is crap or you’ll never finish in time and the weight of the stress just sucks everything out of you. Anyway, she doesn’t know I’m making a post like this and I don’t think she checks my blog lately. I want nothing more than for her to do well and feel good about the work she’s done. She is so talented! I really can’t get over it! But me saying it over and over I’m sure gets old.
Go leave her a message of encouragement or something positive? here :)