the beat to my heart

anonymous asked:

My heart is beating so fast right now.I'm thinking about him being in the backstage surrounded by all the people who love him and whom he loves back ready to go on that stage to sing for the person who loved him the most.I'm sad but happy right now.

yeah i think today is very bittersweet. everything happening now is the result of tragedy but it’s also so much bigger than that - it’s jay’s dream for her son coming true and everyone coming together to support louis after the loss of his mother and to pay tribute to her. 

it’s sad but it’s so, so beautiful.


With his eyes wide and full of fear, he gently tugs my hand and places it on his chest over his heart—in the forbidden zone. His breathing quickens. His heart is beating a frantic, pounding tattoo beneath my fingers. He doesn’t take his eyes off mine; his jaw is tense, his teeth clenched. I gasp. Oh my Fifty! He’s letting me touch him. And it’s like all the air in my lungs has vaporized—gone. The blood is pounding in my ears as the rhythm of my heart rises to match his.

I’ve been thinking a lot this days about YoI and what am I - 28-years old straight (well, mostly straight) girl found so remarkable about this anime. And when I say a lot, I mean A LOT.

Its bugging me, why am I so amazed, why my heart beats so fast, why am I almost crying with tears of joy and laughing aloud at the same time, and overall why am I so emotional when it comes to victuuri relationships. And when I’m confused I usually need to analyze what is going on for the sake of my sanity.

I don’t really care about marriage (although I understand the importance of right to legally marry for the same-sex couples, it doesn’t really apply to my life), I’m glad to see healthy represented gay-couple relationships in anime but this defenetly not something I will cry about (again it doesn’t really affect my life).

I’ve been thinking and thinking and finally I understood. I never seen something like this in anime before.

Its all about PARTNERSHIP.

Never in my life I was in relationships based on partnership like Yuuri and Victor share.
Never in my life a had someone who belived in me and my abilities like they do. Never in my life there was someone who will stand by my side in my worst and darkest times.
None of my dates ever inspired me to step forward, to embrace my potential, to envolve and live my life to the fullest.
No one ever met me on the half-way.
No one ever surprised me and loved me like they love each other.
And never I was able to open up for someone like they did.

All this can seem sad but that’s not what I mean. Otherwise.
This anime reminded me - life is not about regrets you have and pain you feel.
Relationships you dream about are not something unrealizable. Of cousre Yuuri and Victor are fictional characters, but there is nothing fictional in deep love and partnership people can share. You have to live on and fight your insecurities and depression. You must get your shit together. You must be stronger to achive your dreams. And one day you will meet someone who will cherish and motivate you because you deserve it. And you too will support this special person with all your power and passion.
That’s how life works.

And that is what I, adult 28-years old girl, found in this anime.

That’s why I feel warmth in my heart, that’s why I feel much stronger than I felt in long time.
Never, never underestimate the power of animated colored pictures combined with nice story.

Sorry for ramble&broken english but I needed to vent this out.

And maybe I’m not the only one who feels that way.
Be determined and continue watching Yuuri on Ice 😘