the awkward adventures of me

Y'all I was working at the cafe this morning and my fucking ex walked in with his girlfriend of like 3 years and I haven’t seen him in about 6-7 years so to say it caught me off guard is a drastic understatement

I immediately got a hot flash bc I was just so shocked I was like WOW IS IT HOT IN HERE ALL THE SUDDEN

It was so awkward omfg bc he was the first guy I ever loved *yikes*

The moral of the story is to not work at a popular cafe bc you will see people you wish you hadn’t 😂😂

Story time: I love this fandom so much but I still can’t believe this happened

I went into Starbucks today and used the name Danvers because I’m a fangirling nerd. When the barista called “Danvers,” another girl waiting for her drink replied “Sawyer.” So I looked around to see who it was because obviously she got the reference and must be super cool. But I couldn’t find her anywhere until I saw eyes following me as I went up to get my drink. Now, I’m super awkward and shy so I just smiled and looked away. Then I heard “Supergay” being called from the barista and she came up next to me to get her drink and smiled at me. I nearly about lost it because who meets a fangirl like this….like this is only fanfiction stuff, right? I tried to say hi to her and play it cool as if I wasn’t internally freaking out inside but in actuality was really awkward and couldn’t form real english words..oops. She just laughed and asked me if I had some time and wanted to hang out. So I nodded since I was speechless because again when does this happen in real life. Ive only ever read this kind of stuff in fanfics or dreamt of/imagined this (I know, I’m a total dork). We had a fantastic time talking about Supergirl, its fandoms and other shows. Turns out, we go to college near each other (small world, eh?) and have a fair amount of commonalities. Unfortunately, I had to run to a class cutting the fangirling time short but before I could leave, she grabbed a pen out of nowhere ( A+ for girl scout preparedness) and my hand as she wrote her number and told me to text her sometime so we can do this again. I’m legitimately about to faint but hold myself up against the table and do my best to verbalize ok because what else was I going to say. This never happens to me. I had a million questions and thoughts running through my head like what does this mean? Why did this happen? How did this happen? Is this for real? Am I being pranked right now? Did my friends put you up to this? Is this just friendly? Are you being serious? Can you tell I don’t know what I’m doing? When is it approrpiate for me to text you? What do I say next? I say see you around because why not quote Maggie Sawyer and left before I did something utterly embarrasing. I was almost late to class but made sure I added her number to my phone before I did anything else. Now, I’m sitting in my room staring at my phone with an empty text message screen unsure of what to say or when to say it. All I got is hi haha. I am not smooth enough/ too awkward to know how to do this but here goes nothing. 

If you read this, thanks for taking the time to hear about my awkwardness. But note that pleasant surprises are what make life great. However this moment turns out, I’m just glad it happened. I didn’t feel as alone or scared as I have in the last few days for once. She reminded me to always have hope. For that, I am truly thankful and she may never know this. I hope some day she will know the kindness and care she is spreading in the world. If she somehow ends up reading this, you are really one special person that the world could not live without.

Research papers are starting to come in, so I think I’m going to have to go on break again.  That means no tumblr until I’m clear.  Next week is finals, and once those are graded I can come back.  So I guess I’ll see you guys later.

i know a lot of people find it annoying

but honestly

i fucking love romantic & flirty subplots in action/adventure films.

give me all of it

give me two people thrown together in extreme circumstances, let them save each other, let them kiss at the end.  let it be cheesy, let there be a sunset in the background, let them lob cornball lines at each other before the liplock.  i want it all.

if they clash at first so much the better.  if they hate each other when they meet that just makes it awesomer.

grabby hands grabby hands grabby hands

give me rick and evie, give me indy and marion, give me jack and annie on board that damn bus.

give me follow-up fic.  show me their crazy adrenaline-fueled post-adventure sex.  show me awkward dates when lives aren’t on the line.  show me learning about each other when bad guys aren’t chasing them.  show me comfort when the nightmares come, show me ptsd, show me giggles and glances when people ask how they met.

give me sequels where they’re still together.  give me sequels when they’ve drifted apart but meet up again.  show me the love, baby.

yeah okay sometimes it doesn’t really work.  sometimes it’d be better left out.  sometimes i know it wasn’t right for the movie.  but in my heart of hearts i still want it.  i still want ripley and hicks.  i don’t want max and furiosa…but yeah, i do.

i’m a feminist.  it bugs me when women are just love interests.  it’s better when that’s secondary.  but i’m also a romantic.  i can’t help it.


The most awkward moment I've had with my roommate
  • Her: *scrolling through Netflix*
  • Me: Can you go down?
  • Her: *stops scrolling and looks at me*
  • Me:
  • Her:
  • Me:
  • Her: R-right now?
  • Me:
  • Her:
  • Me:
  • Her:
  • Me: On Netlix... Can you go down... On Netflix... To the next category...
  • Her:
  • Her: Oh. Ooh, yeah. Right. Okay, sure.
  • Me:
  • Me:
  • Me:
  • Me: Oh my god.