I never realized how much I love this band, how much it means to me, until now. You think about this kind of thing happening, you know it’s possible, but you never truly think it’s going to. My heart hurts so badly. I love Zayn and I know he made the decision he needed for himself, and I’m glad he had the strength to do so. He is a beautiful being that the world should be honored to be graced with. Thank you, my love. Please know you that you’ve brought me so much comfort and laughs and smiles when I needed them. And I’ve needed them quite a lot. Please know that you were ALWAYS needed and even more loved, mister. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. I will always love One Direction, but today, my heart hurts. xx.