I've been pretty bummed out lately. Schools killing me, making me have constant break downs every week, and I've been sad since I don't have anybody to talk to lately. Everyones busy and I understand that, I dont like to cling onto them, but lately its like my depression is making me think that they dont care about me, that they dont need me, and that im just a burden on them all. i've been like this for almost four days now... and i cant seem to get myself out of it.
Well let me tell you the one thing that i’m sure of:
You are not a burden. You may feel like you are because your depression is telling you that you are, but you aren’t. As you said, everyone has been busy. That doesn’t mean that they wouldn’t like to see you, who knows? Maybe they’re not in a good space or they’re totally overwhelmed with school just like you. What I would do is reach out to the friend you feel closest to and explain how you’ve been feeling. A strategy I would suggest is using “I” statements. For example, Instead of saying something like, “My depression is bad right now and you haven’t been there for me.” Try saying something like, “I am feeling super down right now and it would be awesome if I could talk to you.” This way it comes off less accusatory and you avoid possible conflict.
Is there anyway you could talk to someone about school? Maybe a parent, teacher, or counselor? If you’re struggling, remember there’s always extra help available! Try starting your homework as soon as you get home so that it doesn’t loom over your day. And if you aren’t doing well in a class keep your eye out for extra help at lunch.
Sometimes you are going to feel more depressed than usual but these times will pass. When you have negative thoughts also keep in mind that this is your depression talking and that what it’s saying is not true. Remember that if you don’t have anyone to talk to you can always private message me! You are loved. You are cared about. You are going through a tough time but it won’t last forever. I’m going to challenge you to counteract these thoughts you’re having with positive ones. If you think, “No one cares about me,” remind yourself about your family, your pets (if you have any), your friends. If your depression say’s “you can’t do this” tell yourself you can etc…Keep pushing on! I know you’re going to be okay <3 xoxo