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A doodle of a Dab for all your fast dabs needs


A/N: For the anon that wanted a reader-insert Thranduil’s wife (with a Bofur appearance) in Mirkwood. I hope you enjoy this!

Summary: The dwarves arrive in Mirkwood, and the elf!reader has to moderate Thranduil’s vehement reactions.

Word Count: 1,711

Warnings: None, I think…

You loved your duties as Queen of Mirkwood. It brought you joy to plan feasts and ceremonies, to tend the luscious gardens that hid in the recesses of the woodland fortress, but most of all you loved to care for your subjects. The people of Mirkwood were so dear to you, and you felt their struggles and triumphs as your own.

You did not particularly love the duty of mediating your husband, King Thranduil’s sternness. The vigorous, impulsive, headstrong elf you had fallen in love with was slowly replaced by a suffering, brooding king as Greenwood fell to the dark powers of Arda. You knew of his troubles, and the very good reasons for his withdrawing, but it did not make your task of persuading him to be mildly pleasant any easier. You loved him with everything in you, but he did not always make the relationship easy.

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saldemars  asked:


So, you know how on Earth, on the race tracks when Bee and KO bump into each other the first time, Bee is like “Oh it’s Knock Out!” and Raf translates that to others and they say like “Who is that?” “Sounds like a decepticon”
Nobody else knew who KO was. So you would think that it means, Bumblebee must have known who Knock Out is before either of them came to Earth. 
And this’s why i have few ideas how Bee knew KO before Earth and here’s 2 of my favourites.

1. They met in a race. Simple and easy to think why. They’re both grounders, both into racing, both young and kinda free souls they love fun stuff, they’d drive around anyway. So they met in a race and they wanted to find out who this other fast racer was. The only thing that i’m not sure of is did they ever talk to each other. KO was pretty chill when he and Bee were talking in Predacons Rising, like he has heard Bee’s actual voice before but idk.
Also KO was designed specifically to be a fast car foe to Bumblebee so!

2. This one is like deep and i think i like it more
So because Bee is the scout, The spy he would be off on missions all the time, it’s his life. So what if he was on a mission where his task was to get info on these new cons who had came around or any suspicious activities overall and possibly take them out. And he went but when he got there the place was already run down or bombed or something. So he walks around the wreckage trying to find clues of what happened when he hears that there’s someone else and is ready to attack, turns around and is face to face with Knock Out.
Neither of them say anything or does. Bee is taken by him KO’s been the one who can really catch bee off guard, so BB lowers his guns which says that KO doesn’t need to fight either.  And KO never had a visible decepticon logo and BB is like the last bot who’d judge someone by looks only.
So they just stare each other for hot minute until someone checks on BB like hey what’s taking so long? Did you take out the cons? And when Bee looks up again KO is already making his leave because he’s being paged with like a walkie talkie thing what BB can hear too and that’s how Bee learns his name.  
Knock Out transforms and drives off with Bee kinda longingly looking after him
because i don’t think he has seen many young racers like himself around.
And a curious bot that Bee is he finds out who KO is but doesn’t find that much only that he’s a con but that’s enough to make him remember Knock Out.
Pretty much all Bee had to know was what KO looked like, he was fast and his name and these two make those happen


WENDY: Friends, family, guests. Graduates of 2016.
WENDY: I am truly honored to deliver the valedictory for this year’s graduating class.
WENDY: I look out at all of you today, the kids that I know and some kids that I don’t, but I am so proud of all of you. All of us.
WENDY: We made it.
WENDY: But this isn’t the end of anything. No, this is only the beginning.
WENDY: some of us will go on to get more education, some of us will jump straight into work. Some of us will be left wondering where they spent the last four years at all.
WENDY: But no matter where we end up after we go home today, I want you to promise me some things.

WENDY: I want you to promise me that you’ll not only be successful, but happy.
WENDY: That what you do with the rest of your life is something that you enjoy. It’s something that makes you proud, and something that makes you eager to get out of bed in the morning.
WENDY: Because while money is important, especially in this day and age, it’s equally as important to value your life and what you do with it.
WENDY: So please promise me that you’ll find some way to be happy.

WENDY: And, please promise me that you’ll make smart decisions.
WENDY: When you leave here, make a game plan and try to follow it as best as you can.
WENDY: Be productive, be intelligent, have some common sense. Learn to recognize your own self worth and what you can do for the rest of the world.
WENDY: It’s not up to everyone else to save the world someday. That’s an activity that everyone participates in.

WENDY: Maybe most importantly, I want you to promise me you’ll do good things with the rest of your life.
WENDY: Whether it makes you happy, finds you love, or is generally stress-free. I want you to be proud of what you’ve accomplished.
WENDY: Go somewhere, do something, make yourself and anyone else you possibly can feel good.
WENDY: I don’t just mean charity work or volunteering. I mean take that trip you’ve always wanted to. Apply for the job you’ve dreamed of having since you were a kid.
WENDY: Don’t let your past hold you down to where you are. Take off the heavy chains and let yourself soar higher than you ever thought you could.

WENDY: And last but certainly not least, I want you to promise me one more thing.
WENDY: I want you to love yourselves.
WENDY: Find love, and love yourselves. Be it in the form of a spouse, a roommate, a trusted coworker, or even a pet.
WENDY: Know that you matter. Know that you are capable, you are good people, and you will always be loved by someone.
WENDY: It’s one of the most important things humans can feel, love and acceptance. Make sure you feel loved and accepted, somehow, some way.

WENDY: And with that, all I have left to say is how very proud I am of the classmates and friends sitting in front of me today.
WENDY: I want only the best for all of you. I want you to go out and experience life, and make something great.
WENDY: Be introspective. Be educated. Be excellent. And, most of all, remember where you came from.
WENDY: Remember who you are, and stay true to how you feel. You never know what you can really do until you try it.
WENDY: Now, if you’ll all join me in switching the tassel from the right to the left…

anonymous asked:

NOT TO BE THAT BITCH OR ANYTHING BUT IF YOU WATCH THE NEW SCENE BETWEEN MICRO AND FRANK WITHOUT CONTEXT IT LOOKS A HELLA LOT LIKE A MAN IN LOVE THATS FLIPPING OUT HIS GIRL WAS IN DANGER.... djebdkdldkd i know logically we're a long way off from being at that place yet but gdi these little signs are like neon billboards. we all know where kastle is heading and im wrecked

But that’s so true tho??? 

Someone else said it somewhere (here or on twitter, I can’t remember and can’t find it because I’m super scatter-brained today so if someone wants to come up and claim it, all credit to you!) that, without the context of DDS2, that clip we have plays out just like that? A guy freaking out over the thought of losing the woman he loves. And I just. I think about that ABC interviewer again who’s an avid fan of all the Marvel Netflix shows and still said he had to go back to DDS2 because he thought he was misremembering and that they had already crossed over into explicitly getting together. 

What do they expect us to do with that, really, because I’m of absolutely no illusions or hopes that we’ll get anything explicitly romantic this season. AT ALL. However, they’re really blurring that line of someone being motivated by love and being motivated by being in love, aren’t they? 

Which, I keep having this knee-jerk reaction to go ‘it’s not intentional’ but then Jon came out with that quote about it being “unlabeled” and yet also that there’s “nothing general about it”, so. I think they know exactly what they’re doing and they’re purposefully letting the narrative and characters toy around that very idea. Still do not at all realistically think it’ll cross into anything explicit, but they’re definitely toying with their dynamic swaying near that blurry line sometimes.

I am so excited to have the full context and sequencing of that scene and all that transpires, especially with the theory floating around that in the same sequence might be when Micro takes a swing at him and Frank flat-out punches back. Scenes of Frank talking about his emotions are always my favorites! They’re so intense in the best way.

KBTBB fanfic- Too late

Soo this is going to be my first long series (no, Mc as a hitwoman doesn’t count :v) it’s not going to have a definitive route till the end I think, hope you like it, also I’m in the need of names suggestions for mc, if anyone want to help is very welcome.
Rate: angst and dark smut


Chapter 1

She tried to breathe, that was all she could do in the middle of the darkness and confusion, to keep her mind busy, she started counting the seconds, not much longer, she started to remember how she got into the situation she was currently in.

Today it was the IVC, it had been several months since the managers bought me in the illegal auction I, accidentally, stumbled in, also I had been through a lot since then, working in one of the guest’s room I start reminiscing; first I helped Ichinomiya to make a deal with an Italian mob pretending to be his girlfriend, I also posed as MayLee Ling, one Chinese mob boss’ daughter that was under Soryu’s protection and I turned out to be her tour guide while she was in Japan, ‘at the end I think we end up as good friends’. My little and discreet smile at my memories transforms into a giggle as I remember how I got to be Baba’s partner in crime and Ota’s pet, not that it bothers me really, I just wish that the little artist would be more honest with himself, like when he got his art stolen, he was upset, but he didn’t say anything, it was good that he got the recognition he deserved afterwards though, ‘after all, the bluebird was gorgeous’, I think while I enter to my last room and start cleaning, it was a bit messy, but nothing like Mamoru’s apartment, which he made me clean after the whole cult thing happened. 
As the memories kept flowing through my mind, a new coworker entered the room
“Wow, you do a great job indeed, no wonder why you are the penthouse maid” -his comment was a bit odd, but I took it as a compliment anyway
“Thank you!, you see, working in this hotel is no easy job, but it’s very rewarding” -I said in a peaceful voice, but he looked more interested in the VIPs, of course I understood, it’s not like you always are close to the rich and famous, so while I continue cleaning, the new one kept asking me about how they were, if it was true that the CEO was living in the hotel, if it was really Ota Kisaki who was staying here and much more else, I remain careful to not tell anything dangerous though, those guys trusted me, even if I didn’t know why I wanted to keep it that way. 
We were walking through the hallway and I was thinking an excuse to drove him away when the pager did that for me
“Sorry, I gotta go” -I said just as I felt the vibration in my pocket 
“Oh… sure I mean… let’s talk a bit more later” -that was the last thing I heard him saying

I arrived at the lounge a bit before the 5 min rule ended
“What’s up?”- I asked casually, with all the things that had happened, I didn’t saw them only as my bosses or ‘owners’, but as friends
“coffee”- Eisuke said with his usual expression, I rolled my eyes but smiled inwardly, I was used to it. I made a cup for everybody and put them on the table in front of the bidders, I stood next to them 
“anything else?” -I smiled, for some reason, I was really relaxed and happy
“Did something happened today? You seem oddly happy” -Baba said with his usual gentlemanly tone
“Yeah, did someone declared to you or something?” -Ota asked teasingly
“O-of course not! I- I just was remembering all the time we’ve spent together, that’s all” -I answer while blushing… that’s what I said but I really wouldn’t mind if he did declare to me, to be honest; yeah… even though I liked all the bidders the same there was one that made my heart beat fast, yet my love was purely platonic, with zero probabilities that he would take me seriously, I try to stay away from depressing thoughts by asking them in return after making sure all of them had coffee in their cups- “anything else you need?”
“You’ll accompany us in the auction tonight, be sure to wear something nice if you don’t have any we can buy you something”- king Eisuke said while looking at some documents
“Understood” -I answered with a smile and finally got out, I doubt that my heart would be able to resist with him; I let a sigh of unrequited love and got back to work with the satisfaction of being able to see him at least once in the day, I made a mental note to look out for a beautiful outfit for the night.

 Through the lace that was covering her eyes, the girl saw a light, interrupting any form of thought
“So she is the special one huh?” -a deep and creepy voice sounded
“We are certain that she is their protected, we think that the clients are going to be pleased with the product as well with her origins” -another deep voice answered, ’who are they?’ ’What are they going to do with me’ ’how can I escape
While she was busy trying to listen and feeling anything that could mean her escape, the two other men went apart to discuss the types of clients, the starting bidding and most important… how were they going to get her out of the Three Spades Hotel before the auctioneers knew who was the person being sold.
“We must do it quickly, she has to be the very first item to be auctioned, because, if I know them, and I am certain that I do, they won’t compromise the entire mad hatter’s party just for a tiny guess” -The older man said- “Also I need two or three of your men to act as a distraction inside the hotel”
“Alright… what about the Ice Dragons?”
“They already checked and interviewed our double, they won’t realize the exchange until is too late, but if you aren’t sure enough, the double will be in the buyer car at the checkout point, then we will be waiting for three blocks ahead to do the exchange” -The younger one was about to make a comment when they heard a commotion behind them, the girl was a troublemaker 
“Tie her tighter” -said the young boss, his men did so and she couldn’t move anymore because that only made the ropes to cut more into her wrists and ankles. The other businessman came closer, look at her struggle and smiled, it was a twisted and lustful smile
“A fighter one huh? those are exactly my type, shame that I have to give her away… the virgins are the ones they pay for the most”
“Take her away and prepare her, she has to look like the double” -his men obeyed after they left the boss looked over at the older man with curiosity
“You are taking a hell of a lot of risks here, why don’t just kidnapper and sell her in the other black market auction directly?”
“It wouldn’t be nearly as fun as to see their distressed and frustrated faces when they realize that she was in the auction and they could save her, but they didn’t”
“You do want to get revenge on them, don’t you?”
“The revenge part is only to take away their protected one and to make her suffer while I make a lot of money, this… this is just for personal fun” -The man said while his twisted smile grew wider.

remember  that  hogwarts  houses  don't  always  define   what   you  are  but  your  values.  you  can  be  brave,  impulsive,  chivalrous  and  tick  almost  all  textbook  gryffindor  traits,  but  value  the  imagination  and  learning  above  all  else  which  places  you  in  ravenclaw.  everyone  has  got  traits  from  every  house,  it’s  just  what  you  yourself  prize  above  all  else.  it’s  also  about  where  you  focus  your  energy  and  what  you  desire  from  that  outcome.  for  example,  i  like  learning  for  the  sake  of  learning,  i  am  a  ravenclaw.  a  gryffindor  may  like  learning  to  help  contribute  to  whatever  recklessly  heroic  thing  they’ve  got  in  mind  ( ? ).  a  hufflepuff  may  like  learning  to  help  others  and  better  themselves  and  those  around  them.  they  may  also  do  it  to  help  someone  they  are  loyal  to.  a  slytherin  may  like  learning  to  further  themselves  in  their  career  and  fuel  their  ambitions.  it’s  a  very  personal  thing  and  isnt  as  simple  as  ‘oh  you’re  loyal,  you  go  in  hufflepuff’    HONEY.  NO.

I know I love Matsus too much when I start having dreams about the show

But during a nap today, I dreamed that they announced another edition of “Jyushimatsu Festival” - an S2 episode with the same premise as the first, with a bunch of unconnected skits related to Jyushi. Not a bad deal. All the preview images just showed Jyushi without much context, so no one had any idea what to expect (or indeed, that there was anything to expect), and most of the skits were along the lines of the original, nothing worth remembering

But in the last skit, Homura just randomly appeared. No lead-in, the first thing you see is her with Jyushi. The entire skit was just them playing. No jokes, no harsh punchline, just proof that they saw each other again and are still in love.

From a writing perspective, probably really boring, but I’m sure that any acknowledgment of Homura’s continued existence would go over beautifully with the audience, no matter how simple

Let this be a sign, let us see her again

Maybe you’re a sandy beach and
he’s a hot summer day and by all
accounts you should go together
perfectly - you probably would.
But he chose her. The truth is
that sometimes you only get to
see the sunset from behind a
window. The truth is that even
perfectly matched hearts often
end up in different hands.
—  anne, it’s the almosts that are the hardest

detvardet  asked:

Remember me? Hope you do haha, it's been quite a while since i last sent an ask here. 💛 I'm on s6 and for today, the only question I've got is why are all of Lip's love interests either super fucked up or legit old? Oh boy. I wonder what else is going to happen thats going to make me heavily dislike his character.. honestly i still love him, but. But. I hope this takes a better turn. Get a damn girlfriend who we can at least ship you with, jeez.

Of course I remember you, silly! :P

Good to hear from you again, love.

And yeah, Lip has interesting love interests, but I actually really liked Helene. I thought she was a good person for him to encounter because she kinda gave him a taste of his own medicine when she basically did to him what he did to Karen, Mandy, and Amanda. But to be honest, my emotional attachment to Lip is quite minimal so I don’t have many thoughts on this matter xD

Feel free to drop any thoughts by any time! :) <3

This happened right after the 12x05 credits and no one can tell me otherwise
  • *Dean calls Cas*
  • Dean: Heya Cas, how are you doing?
  • Cas: I'm fine, Dean. I-
  • Dean: Guess what I did today?
  • Cas: What-
  • Cas: ...
  • Cas: Hitler died 71 years ago, Dean.
  • Sam: "Horcrux," Dean.
  • Cas: ...
  • Cas: I'm not sure that I understand, but I'm...glad you killed Hitler.
  • Dean: Say it. I'm awesome. Go ahead, I already know.
  • Cas: ...
  • Cas: Is this the sole purpose of your phone call?
  • Dean: ...Pretty much.
  • Cas: Okay. You're...awesome.
  • Dean: Hell yeah I am.
  • Sam: You're an idiot.
  • Dean: Show some respect. I killed Hitler today. You're welcome.
  • Cas: If that's all, I'll be going now.
  • Dean: You remember to call when you have Lucifer cornered. I do have prior experience in putting down notorious psychopaths.

anonymous asked:

Well some of my favorites are -Queenie Eye -Hey Jude -Here Today -No more lonely nights -Oh darling -Another Day -The lovers thar never were -Live and let die -Let it Be

whaaat I just remembered that Paul McCartney was in the Beatles!! like !!! he still gives concerts?? I didn’t know that :0

Mayday ➳


Member: Mark Tuan

A/N: INSPIRED BY Got7′s “MAYDAY” written by Jinyoung. 

                               I want you to find me and save me. 

I stared down at the rippling waters, my reflection staring right back at me. A woman, her hair just cut above the curve of her chest, her eyes swollen with hot tears running down her face. 

I had always known that a meet up with my family would only lead to a very negative effect, and yet here I was. Millions of words and voices rang throughout my head, almost making nostalgic, a suffocating presence about, the pain increasingly disturbing in my chest as I breathed heavily and shakily. 

I watched my hands tremble, trying to stop it, but to no prevail, letting out a scream of frustration at this. I hit my chest roughly, the pain almost unbearable as the voices, sobbing as I whimpered, ‘Please stop … Please stop!’ 

“Your worthless, your no daughter of mine.”

A sob left my lips heartily as the words rang out, making squeeze my eyes shut, shaking my head around and hitting it roughly as I screamed, ‘SHUT UP! JUST STOP!’

“Your a disgrace to our family, to be honest you were nothing but a mistake.”

I screamed, my throat raw and hoarse as I pulled at my hair painfully, to the point that with one more tug, I could have ripped them right from the roots. My mouth was open in a silent scream now, unable to inhabit any type of sound that could represent the pain that resided in me. 

I turned my eyes back towards the water, a pool of serenity, of peace, of freedom right before my eyes. Anything that would lead to the gentleness I saw in the pool was right in front of me, a world where I could just be free and be who I could be without ones hate. I stripped my coat, stepping up onto the ledge quickly. 

I stared down at the water, the light hitting it perfectly and rippling upon the silhouette of my being. I smiled lightly before letting myself fall into the deepest pool, the splash deafening the ringtone of my boyfriend’s number roared throughout the empty centre.

Mark sighed as he heard his girlfriend’s voicemail play, cutting off without a moments notice. He and the boys had been waiting for some time for Y/N to return from her visit with her family to go out together for dinner. The whole band had been close to her for a very long time as she had worked at JYP Entertainment, and how Y/N had met Mark in the first place. 

‘Hey Mark, where is Y/N? She’s taking forever, the boys and I are STARVING!’ Jackson whined as he walked from the rest of the boys over to his Hyung who now stared out the window, a worried expression ridden his face. He looked towards him, sighing, ‘I have no idea … She said she would be back early-’ 

He was cut off by the bursting of his ringtone, shocking him before he answered it, ‘Y/N?’

‘No, wrong person,’ Mark sighed in discontent as he registered it as her older sister’s voice, ‘Sorry about that, have you seen Y/N around recently? I’m trying to get through to her but she won’t answer …’ 

‘Thats the thing … I wanted to warn you that we had a massive fight with the parents today, and there was some pretty nasty stuff that had been said. I just wanted to tell you before she got back from her journey home, you know how she can get in these cases. She overreacts.’

Mark’s mouth was agape at this as it hit him like a ton of bricks, of how many times Y/N had warned him about her family’s manipulative ways and how much it had damaged her throughout her whole entire life, but hadn’t explained to how much of an extent it had on her. He cut the call instantly as he remembered what had occurred earlier that morning.  

‘But Mark I don’t want to go!’ I said as he pulled out a dress, a simple blue one from the closet for me to wear for todays family event, smiling as he did. 

‘Oh come! Its been ten years since you last saw them Y/N, they may have changed!’ Mark said with a smile as he placed the dress beside me on the bed, my eyes instantly moving to look away from his in dismay, ‘Please Mark, I can’t do this … After all thats happened and how much it killed me inside to be in their presence, I-I don’t think I can do it …’

‘Hey look at me,’ He said as he got on his knees in front of me, making me sigh and look into his eyes, ‘They may have degraded you all those years ago, but you have proved them wrong on so many levels. You are stronger than you think you are.’ 

‘I wish I felt that way ..’ I said softly, pouting as he just chuckled, ‘Trust me, I see it. And I am so proud of you.’ I looked up at this as he smiled, caressing my cheek, ‘Just this once is all I ask.’ 

I sighed, giving him a smile and a nod as he also returned it, pulling me down into his arms and holding me tightly, but as he looked over my shoulder I frowned, only praying that I was strong enough for this. 

‘Fuck what have I done …’ He whispered under his breath. 

Mark ran in the dead of night. He never knew he could run this fast before in his life, but he did. He ran, pushing and shoving past people, ignoring as they cursed at him and not caring if they recognised him or not, the boys screaming after him and running to keep up with him.

He ran up the slope hills towards a large building, pushing the glass doors out of his way and sprinted towards the ends of the pools, the boys trailing along behind. 

Mark ran through the lanes of pools, searching hastily alongside the boys in the waters for a sign of a body, his eyes roaming everywhere and almost nowhere all at once. Suddenly Bam Bam cried out in horror, Mark looking to where he was to see a black coat in his hands, a very familiar one too. 

Instantly his eyes drifted towards the deeper ends of the pool they were closest to, and sure enough, a body caught his eye near the bottom of the pool, face down and floating almost dead like. 

‘Y/N!’ He screamed out, before throwing his own coat off and jumping into the pools without another moments thought, ignoring as his body screamed as the coldness enveloped him.

It almost as if I was in some kind of void, the water wrapping me in its beautiful arms, the silence drumming against my ears like a soothing lullaby. I allowed my eyes to open slowly and watch as the lights twinkled above me a million dazzling stars. I found myself smiling almost, my sight becoming dazed and almost dream like as I stared up into the bright lights. 

It was as if I could see all my memories like a broken movie, when I first met the boys and Mark when arriving at JYP, when Mark was forced into asking me out on a date by Jackson and Jinyoung. When we had our first kiss and held hands for the first time, when I had my first time with him, when he confessed that he had fallen in love with me and didn’t want to let me go.

I began to feel my body become heavier and heavier as time went by, sight almost rippling and the light now blinding me more than ever. And I knew that my body was giving into the fight that I knew I could never win. The only solution would lead to the only possible option, death. I was so consumed in my deafening thoughts that I didn’t take in the crying out of my name or the splashing of water. 

It was only when my arm was gripped and I felt myself being pulled towards the surface is when I began to snap out of it. I felt two arms wrap around me tightly, the beating and movement of water drumming on my ears. I gasped heartily as we broke the surface, chlorine water spilling from my lips, gasps of relief echoing throughout the pool from others who I could not recognise. 

‘Baby?! Y/N?!’ I turned to face Mark, now drenched. His clothes sticking to his skin and his hair mat also stuck to his face, his eyes wide and full of pain as he stared into my own, pushing my hair out of my eyes and face to look at me properly. ‘Are you okay? Oh my God! Just breathe, please just breathe!’ 

He said as he cradled my head, leaning it against his shoulder as he pulled me into his embrace, holding me tightly like as if I would disappear if he didn’t do so. Suddenly it hit me as he pulled away to look into my eyes. 

I would’ve lost him. Mark Tuan. The man who somehow had come into my life and brightened it to the fullest. He had picked me up and made me whole, had accepted me for the woman I had taught myself to be. If there was anything in this world that I needed, it was him. 

I sobbed softly as I raised my shaking hands to his face, ‘Mark I-I-I’m so sorry! I-’ The tears plummeted down my face as I held his face gently, but he shook his head instantly kissing the palm of my hand before pulling me into his embrace, ‘Its okay baby, its okay. I’m here …’ I cried into his neck as he placed kisses to the top of my head, allowing me to grip his shirt as let the warmth of his body seep into mine, bringing me back into the moment of reality. 

I sat on the bed, wrapped in three towels as well as a robe. The boys had helped Mark and I out of a pool, an ambulance also on sight thanks to Jaebum who had called during all the hustle. They had taken us both back to the dorms, suggesting that it would be good for them to be around me and help me through the next couple of days as the doctor said he didn’t want to risk me being alone until he could provide a full check up. 

I looked up as the bedroom door opened to find Mark entering, shutting the door right behind him. Jackson had hailed that he would sleep in the lounge to give us some space. He silently walked over, sitting beside me as he passed over a hot mug of tea. I gave him a very small smile in return as he just watched on, allowing us to sit in the silence as I drank my tea, and gave me the opportunity to speak. 

‘I’ve had depression for a very long time … since I was younger. I had handled it, and I didn’t label myself as depressed otherwise it would be a trigger. I was fine until today … My family I guess, they became one of my triggers, and a really bad one too,’ I said softly, staring at the opposite wall ahead of us. I didn’t know how Mark was going to take this, or if he would even stay with me after todays events, but either way I needed to tell him the truth. 

‘Why didn’t you tell me?’ I looked up at Mark at this as he stared down at me sadly, taking my hand into his. The tears welled at this as I just shook my head, ‘I didn’t-I didn’t want you to leave like everyone else had.’ 

His eyes widened at this as I just sobbed softly. ‘You don’t know what its like, to feel like your such a worthless piece of shit to the point where you don’t even who you are anymore. You don’t know where you belong, or who you can trust or who actually loves and respects you. I mean who wants to be with someone as damaged as me. All my life its been rejection. And I didn’t know if I could handle that again by losing you.’ I said as I turned to him, my tears falling fast. 

Mark just shook his head, taking my face into his hands, shaking me slightly, gazing down at me with a hard, serious expression. ‘I’m going to be right here with you, I promise you. I’m not going anywhere.’ 

‘But … I’m damaged goods, you don’t deserve someone like me …’ I said softly as he just chuckled shaking his head yet again, ‘I love you for who you are and for whats in your heart. We all are damaged goods, thats why we all end up finding someone who will be able to keep us as one. I promise to stand by you and protect you in all ways enabled to me, and I promise to love you unconditionally with all my heart. To hold you when needed and to be by your side always.’ He pulled me in and kissed my head, holding me tightly as he rubbed my arms. 

‘Your beautiful in every possible way. Inside and out … and you need to be told that all the time …’ he spoke these words as he kissed the crook of my neck, making me gasp, tears falling down my face slowly.

He placed his forehead against mine slowly, his nose grazing against my own gently as he stared into my eyes, caressing my cheeks gently before kissing me softly. I shut my eyes tightly as the tears fell and let my hand run through his hair and the other on his torso as he cupped my face in his hands before slipping them behind my neck. Finally we both pulled away, gasping slightly as I stared at up him, teary eyed as he wiped away from my cheeks and smiled, ‘I love you Y/N.’

Those words sent a chill up my spine, I smiled brokenly at him before slowly letting myself into fall his embrace as he wrapped his arms around me tightly, one of his hands running through my hair, tucking my face into his neck as I cried softly.

Fast Forward - 10 months later

The melody of rain hitting the windows awoke me from my sleep, light pooling into the room as I opened your eyes to meet the beautiful clouded view of the city. I groaned slightly, only to realise that a hand was running through my hair already, threading it through their fingers. I smiled gently before looking up to see Mark with a smile as he looked down at me. ‘Morning …’

‘Good morning beautiful …’ He replies in his deep morning voice, leaving a brief kiss to my lips before looking out the window again. ‘What are you thinking about?’ I say softly, watching him curiously, as he just rubs my back gently. ‘The future. When we get married, and when we start our own family.’ 

‘What about it?’ I say softly as he takes my hand into his, kissing it gently, ‘Just how much I can’t wait to start my family with you. And how much I want to have a daughter just like you. So when I look down into her eyes and feel my heart break, its because she will remind me so much of her beautiful, strong mother.’ 

I groan at this before looking up at him with my eyebrow raised, ‘What if we have a boy?’ He just smirks. ‘Then we’ll try again and again, and again until we do!’ 

I laugh at this, my lips in a wide toothy smile as I look up at him in content at his words. He smiles at this too, pulling me close to him with a chuckle, squeezing my frame towards his own as I nuzzle my face into his neck, ‘There, thats the beautiful laugh that I’ve missed.’ 

His chest heaves as he holds me securely, and then he speaks hesitantly, ‘How are you baby? Feeling less of the weight … that darkness?’ At this a flash of the last few months came before me. The weeks that followed my attempted suicide were long and hard. Mark and the boys would take me out and do everything in their power to make me smile. Visiting every month to a counsellor alongside Mark who would be there for support. Now in California, in this beautiful apartment for our holiday while we both were on break and got to just be with each other. 

I smiled against his skin gently, drawing circles just above his collarbone, ‘Yes. I’m feeling more .. like me. And I feel like yours again,’ I looked up quickly at him, turning his face to face me. He smiles at this, allowing me to place a kiss to his lips gently, caressing my cheek before we both settled back into place as I just whispered, ‘I’m happy to be me again.’

Please be respectful of anyone with anxiety or depression or even both, and look after them just like you would for anyone in your life who was endangering themselves to harm or abuse in anyway. I am writing this from personal experiences (not the story but the primary basis of how it feels) and know how it feels to be in a position of loneliness and worthlessness. If you need to talk to someone please message me or speak to an adult or someone you trust, better late than never.

I had a dream

Where I was part of this band of graffiti artists (who’s kinda ‘leader’ was an nb with fiery red hair and bomb purple fuckin lipstick who I remember thinking was super cute) who begin making steam-punk flying machines to match their asthetic and reach high places and fly away from cops

And the one scene that really gets me is when we were all spray painting the inside of a tunnel somewhere and then there’s flashing red-white-blue and a siren and the leader tugs me onto their affectionately named ‘cookie’, cat shaped flying machine and screamed ‘code 88′ and everyone was on different steam-punk flying machines and all I remember was dropping paint filled water balloons and laughing my ass off it was great

sdflkdjs i was listening to lumineers today for the first time in like 50 years and i suddenly remembered the time i plotted and mostly wrote a musical using all the songs from their first album n i was like… bitch…. thats still a cool idea wtf… but when i checked my old laptop its fucking g O NE im so mad where’d it gO

"american beauty" sentence starters
  • "I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world."
  • "Well, you have absolutely no interest in saving yourself."
  • "Lose my job? I didn't lose it. It's not like, 'Whoops! Where'd my job go?' I QUIT."
  • "I figured you guys might be able to give me some pointers. I need to shape up. Fast."
  • "You're right. I suck dick for money."
  • "Well, what do you say I throw in a little sexual harassment charge, to boot?"
  • "Management wants you gone by the end of the day."
  • "Your father seems to think this kind of behavior is something to be proud of."
  • "It's like God's looking right at you, just for a second, and if you're careful... you can look right back."
  • "When I was your age, I flipped burgers all summer just to be able to buy an eight-track."
  • "All I did was party and get laid. I had my whole life ahead of me."
  • "I rule!"
  • "She's not your friend. She's just someone you use to feel better about yourself."
  • "It's never too late to get it back."
  • "I have lost something. I'm not exactly sure what it is but I know I didn't always feel this... sedated."
  • "You think you're the only one who's sexually frustrated here?"
  • "Both my wife/husband and daughter/son think I'm this gigantic loser and they're right."
  • "I'm looking for the least possible amount of responsibility."
  • "You should see me fuck. I'm the best piece of ass in three States."
  • "Can you prove that you didn't offer to save my job if I let you blow me?"
  • "Are you just looking to lose weight, or do you want increased strength and flexibility as well?"
  • "I don't think we can be friends anymore."
  • "Just don't fuck my dad, all right? Please?"
  • "You're way too uptight about sex."
  • "I want to look good naked!"
  • "Someone really should just put him out of his misery."
  • "I'm not paying you to do... whatever it is you're doing out here."
  • "You don't really think [name] and I were..."
  • "Want me to kill him for you?"
  • "I need a father who's a role model, not some horny geek-boy who's gonna spray his shorts whenever I bring a girlfriend home from school."
  • "I quit. So you don't have to pay me. Now leave me alone."
  • "Remember those posters that said, 'Today is the first day of the rest of your life'? Well, that's true of every day but one - the day you die."
  • "She hates me. She hates you, too."
  • "There's plenty of joy in my life."
  • "Go fuck yourself, psycho!"
  • "My parents are coming tonight. They're trying to, you know, take an active interest in me."
  • "Gross. I hate it when my mom does that."
  • "Fuck me, Your Majesty!"
  • "I was hoping you'd give me a bath. I'm very, very dirty."
  • "You ungrateful little brat! Just look at everything you have."
  • "I'm so sorry for the way things look around here."
  • "I think using psychotropic drugs is a very positive example to set for our daughter."
  • "Who are you looking for?"
  • "This isn't life, it's just stuff. And it's become more important to you than living."
  • "There's nothing worse than being ordinary."
  • "Everything that's meant to happen does."
  • "You're one to talk, you bloodless, money-grubbing freak."
  • "Welcome to America's weirdest home videos."
  • "Oh well, all right, let's all sell our souls and work for Satan because it's more convenient that way."
  • "I'm sensing a real distance growing between you and [name]."
  • "My job consists of basically masking my contempt for the assholes in charge, and, at least once a day, retiring to the men's room so I can jerk off while I fantasize about a life that doesn't so closely resemble Hell."
  • "Don't you mess with me, mister, or I'll divorce you so fast it'll make your head spin!"
  • "Your mom's the one who's embarrassing. What a phony. But, your dad's actually kind of cute."
  • "If he just worked out a little, he'd be hot."
  • "You don't get to tell me what to do ever again."
  • "I'm serious. He just pulled down his pants and yanked it out."
  • "Never underestimate the power of denial."
  • "Are you trying to look unattractive today?"
  • "How dare you speak to me that way in front of her."
  • "Jesus, what is it with you?"
  • "I am sick and tired of being treated like I don't exist."
  • "Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world, I feel like I can't take it, and my heart is just going to cave in."
  • "See the way the handle on her pruning shears matches her gardening clogs? That's not an accident."
  • "Don't interrupt me, honey!"
  • "[Name]'s a pretty typical teenager. Angry, insecure, confused. I wish I could tell her that's all going to pass, but I don't want to lie to her."
  • "I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die."
  • "You better watch yourself, [name], or you're going to turn into a real bitch, just like your mother!"
  • "I marvel that you can be so contemptuous of me, on the same day that you lose your job."
  • "You're boring. And you're totally ordinary. And you know it."
  • "You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday."
  • "Uh, whose car is that out front?"
  • "Your mother seems to prefer that I go through life like a fucking prisoner while she keeps my dick in a mason jar under the sink."
  • "In order to be successful, one must project an image of success at all times."
  • "She's... she's really happy. She thinks she's in love."
  • "I think you just became my personal hero!"
  • "Man, you are one twisted fuck."
  • "The only way I could save myself now is if I start firebombing."
  • "You know, this really doesn't concern you."
  • "I mean, how's her life? Is she happy? Is she miserable?"
  • "I'd really like to know, and she'd die before she'd ever tell me about it."
  • "Your wife is with another man and you don't care?"
  • "It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself."
  • "In less than a year, I'll be dead."
  • "[Name], today I quit my job. And then I told my boss to go fuck himself, and then I blackmailed him for almost sixty thousand dollars. Pass the asparagus."
  • "I wish I could tell her that's all going to pass, but I don't want to lie to her."
  • "We've met before, but something tells me you're going to remember me this time."
  • "I can't believe you don't know how beautiful you are."
  • "Well, at least I'm not ugly."
  • "This will be the high point of my day; it's all downhill from here."
  • "[Name], are you masturbating?!"
  • "If people I don't even know look at me and want to fuck me, it means I really have a shot at being a model."
  • "In a way, I'm dead already."
  • "You are so busted."
  • "I feel like I've been in a coma for the past twenty years. And I'm just now waking up."
  • "Well, congratulations. You've succeeded admirably."
  • "The car I've always wanted and now I have it."
  • "God, it's been a long time since anybody asked me that..."
  • "Makes you wonder what else you can do that you've forgotten about."
  • "I'm just an ordinary guy with nothing to lose."
  • "Our marriage is just for show. A commercial for how normal we are when we're anything but."
  • "It would be nice if I was anywhere near as important to him as she is."
  • "Gotta spend money to make money."
  • "I refuse to be a victim!"
  • "I was filming this dead bird."
  • "Do you party?"
  • "Oh, what? You're mother of the year? You treat her/him like an employee."
  • "Could he be any more pathetic?"
  • "I think it's sweet."
  • "You need structure... you need discipline."
  • "He's just so confident, it can't be real."
  • "So, you're fucking psycho-boy on a regular basis now? Tell me, has he got a big dick?"
  • "He didn't even look at me once!"
  • "I don't think you'd fit in here."
  • "It seems unfair to presume I won't be able to learn."
  • "Excuse me for speaking so bluntly, sir."
  • "Oh, I'm in trouble."
  • "I didn't mean to scare you. I just think you're interesting."
  • "This country is going straight to hell!"
  • "[Name], when did you become so joyless?"
  • "I'm not obsessing. I'm just curious."
  • "What is this? The fucking Gay Pride parade?"
  • "Sorry about my dad."
  • "To you, he's just another guy who wants to jump your bones."
  • "This is my first time."
svt as real arctic monkeys lyrics
  • s.coups: but i crumble completely when you cry.
  • jeonghan: the horizon tries, but it's just not as kind on the eyes.
  • joshua: likes her gentlemen not to be gentle.
  • jun: d is for delightful, and try and keep your trousers on.
  • hoshi: anticipation has a habit to set you up for disappointment in evening entertainment, but tonight there'll be some love.
  • wonwoo: you look like you've been for breakfast at the heartbreak hotel, and sat in the back booth by the pamphlets and the literature on how to lose.
  • woozi: i'll be here waiting ever so patiently for you to snap out of it.
  • dk: then out of nowhere, somebody comes and hits you with an ooh la la la la.
  • mingyu: some want to kiss, some want to kick you.
  • the8: you thought you'd never get obsessed.
  • seungkwan: oh, but it's right hard to remember that on a day like today when you're all argumentative, and you've got the face on.
  • vernon: and if it weren't this dark, you'd see how red my face has gone.
  • dino: you never looked like yourself from the side, but your profile could not hide the fact you knew i was approaching your throne.

anonymous asked:

honestly im pretty sure this fandom only likes jerome because cameron monaghan is hot

lmaooo no anon you got it wrong, sure i appreciate Cameron’s face as much as the next gal, but that’s not why i love jerome and created a blog for him. I love Jerome because he is a interesting and complex character. I also love him because Jerome is a lot of what i want to be well minus the whole killing people. But he is fun and goofy and doesn’t give a shit about what anyone thinks of him. Like ever since i was a kid i was always shy and tried to stay out of everyone’s way. I have anxiety disorders and all that lovely stuff, it prevents me from doing normal stuff than i remember jerome wouldn’t care.He doesn’t care what other people think of him, like today i posted a selfie and was like ‘’omfg i look horrible i shouldn’t post this’’ than i thought what would jerome and he’d be like ‘’Who cares? Lmao what do they think they are better to me? HA if thats even possible’’  so yeah jerome is a coping mechanism for me and is a important character who i love for more than just looks