that will ruin your life

#1 Drabble

“He ruined me and now I’m nothing.” ft. Taehyung

Genre: angst

Word count: 744

Had someone told you that this would happen if you accept his invitation, you surely would’ve laughed at the thought of that. But now, you would believe anything you were told.

“There’s no need to cry now. We told you from the beginning that he was bad news.” As if you weren’t feeling down already, Jennie just had to make you feel even worse then before.

“Nice job, Jennie.” Rosé replied, which resulted in Jennie get a hit in her shoulder. “Now she’s crying.” You were crying, but they were right in what they said.

You didn’t even realize that tears were streaming down your face. That’s how upset you were with yourself. How could you be so dumb and still take the offer that ruined your whole life? Were you that desperate to be with someone that wasn’t worth your attention?

Obviously, you were. And now, you would do anything to go back in time to stop this from happening. Would do anything to have your old life back, to do what you did, to feel how you felt. To listen to the people that warned you of this, of him. Would you really want that?

Probably not. Yes, it was better before all this came crashing down on you, but you also enjoyed the time spent with him even though it ended this way. Regrets regarding your relationship weren’t present, it was more the feeling of being alone, lonely at times, that you feared.

“He ruined me and now I’m nothing.” They looked shooked at you, partly not believing what you just exclaimed. You went through worse things in life, this one couldn’t compare. Yet, this one seemed the only one that affected you the most. It was tearing you apart, piece by piece, until there wasn’t anything else that could be taken away from you.

“I miss him.” You really do. The side of you that longed for him was still present, even now when he wasn’t. Everything about him was different from anyone you’ve ever met. From the way he acted to the way he laughed, everything had the right amount of comfort you felt every time he was near. His confidence, that never went down even in the most emberassing moments, where you thought the world might end. But that never happened to him.

He showed you the world outside its usual frame, outside its restrainments. He wanted you to experience what he experienced, how he saw the world in a different light. He made sure to always care for you first, never thinking a second about himself. You were his first priority.

He was too good for you. He didn’t deserve you. He needed someone who could treat him the same way he treated others, or more like he treated you.You were nothing of that and you knew it. People used to tell you, you were too good for him and that he didn’t deserve you in any way. The problem was, they didn’t knew what an angel he was and now he really is.

Now is the wrong time to think that way. It doesn’t matter anymore. He’s no longer there for anyone to care, to make him feel sorry. He’s not by your side to help you get through the day, no more. Most importently, now he found peace. No one can make him feel bad anymore.

“W- why?” The time has come for you to speak your thoughts, to express your feelings. You know that somewhere up there, he is watching you. Listening to you, wanting to know how your days are going, if you’re keeping your head up. “Why did you do this? H- how could you leave me alone?” The way your heart clenched was the most painful thing you’ve ever felt. It hurt, it really did. “W- why were you so stupid? Y- you broke your promise.” There was no use in holding it in any longer, it had to all come out. It was better that way.

“Y- you promised you’ll n- never l- leave me.” Anyone looking at you in that moment would feel pitty. You looked broken, drained, not yourself. There’s nothing you could do now. What happened, happened. This is what the world wanted, and now they got it.

“Yet, y- you did.” With those words, the only thing that was left was just a memory that you’ll cherish forever, until the day you take your last breath.

hi shipmates!!

if you didn’t already know about the show The Royals on E, there’s this perfect amazing wondrous pure ship Jaspenor (Princess Eleanor Henstridge (#perf #protect her) and her bodyguard (kinda sorta) Jasper Frost (omg my sweet dumb child)). 

**p.s. edit: forgot to mention eleanor is Not Straight. she might be bi, but it’s not been confirmed beyond her having relationships and trysts with women.

and if you’re a CS shipper, i think you’ll love them. like me. let them ruin your life.

like emma, eleanor has some self worth issues, and like killian, jasper worships the ground she walks on. and he builds her up and wants the best for her and will fuck anyone up who messes with her. 

look at them:

season 3 just ended and season 4 has been green lit, so more royal shenanigans await. in season 1 they are pretty dysfunctional and fucked up and dark and yet you will still ship it. but MY GOD, season 2 transforms them in this beautiful way and they are healthy and #goals and they own me soul. 

look at how she looks at him. i am dead. 


on once we’ve been lacking CS sexy times, but that’s not an issue here ;)))) *happy shipper* and there’s awesome banter and flirting, just like our darling CS babies. 

look at his face. my god, he’s so smitten and in love. 

my smol child who grew up in vegas with shit parents. but then he comes to the palace for ~reasons~ and meets this princess, who turned his goddamn world upside down. (idk doesn’t this sound like CS to you? :D)

eleanor and emma:
-both have trust issues
-sassy princesses 
-total secret sweethearts who will do anything for the people they love

jasper and killian:
-daddy issues
-love their princesses asdfghjkl
-family bromance!! (captain charming & jasper/liam–eleanor’s twin)
-hot, let’s be real haha
-take no shit
-everyone knows they love the princess and ships it
-make dumb decisions 

so in conclusion:

i think you guys will really like the show, and jaspenor <3 <3 <3 hope you give it a shot! 

you guys know tfw you’re working on a group project and you’re messaging your group and you accidentally type a message in the kind of weird way you would if you were making a text post on tumblr dot com and then your life is ruined

estel-of-the-eyrie  asked:

I just read chapter 34, and I AM IN LITERAL TEARS. (and it probably didn't help that Dear Theodosia was playing during that last scene...) 10/10 and I cried so much my mum had to make sure I was okay, aka how you know the fic has literally ruined your life!

gotta say, Dear Theodosia playing during anything is usually enough to make me bawl, but that is gloriously fitting to this chapter


#no but guys listen : Stormpilot Anastasia AU